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@now is forever I love you. You gave me a much needed insight. I also needed to be told to get off the computer now. So thank you.

@tsuki Am I giving birth to something? Is that why you only had fun in the moment and went back to feeling the same way?

@now is forever You think I was suggesting something physical but I'm not. Honey it's always a problem. You aren't actually subject to the moon, yet you always are. Because time is an illusion. Have you read Eckhart Tolle on the pain body? That was a huge help for me. I read the part in his book about it and was so disgusted a man would talk about things he didn't know about like that. But I loved everything else in the book. It took me much longer to accept that part. Ugh. He got to sit on a park bench and I've got pediatrician appointments, laundry and dishes. Men suck.

You have the female painbody. I have that too. It came out cyclically, and then in postpartum depression. I denied it. I didn't want to be female. I didn't want to be subject to the moon. You carry all the pain of woman. You aren't alone.

For me it was painting my nails.

@now is forever Can you go into nature where you are?

@now is forever They melt into one another. I had spent a long time denying my obsessions. I asked Tsuki to confirm for me that my obsession was ego. He did not. The obsession was my gateway. I gave my obsession the space and time it needed to do its job in material form. But I let my inner love for it be unbounded.

@Truth Addict Thank you honey. I can't sleep except three or maybe four hours, it's like time has changed. Always needed 9 before and never had insomnia. I thought my heart was beating too fast but then I noticed the timer today and seconds seem much shorter than I remember. It's bizarre. But beautiful.

@tsuki Your energy is slow, interrupted and very powerful. Flow baby flow. Let it go.

No, that was the real you. The PS is the false part. But since you added it in I can tell you are so very close.

@tsuki That was all you. I love you for that. The stars didn't show up but they were beautiful. I still can't find the moon.

@Highest Very true. It didn't happen the way I thought it would.

@Truth Addict Still need to take your advice to work on my posture. My neck has just started hurting a lot.

@tsuki

You were the first person here to message me. Of course. I really see you now, like I saw you then. I love you.

@tsuki I truly adore antique keys. I used to incorporate them in my work. I like you too.

Oh my God, this makes me tremble. I love you.

My obsession with this forum was something beyond understanding. My love, my love it's you, it's you.

Speak from love.

"1) When Mary had said this, she fell silent, since it was to this point that the Savior had spoken with her. 2) But Andrew answered and said to the brethren, Say what you wish to say about what she has said. I at least do not believe that the Savior said this. For certainly these teachings are strange ideas. 3) Peter answered and spoke concerning these same things. 4) He questioned them about the Savior: Did He really speak privately with a woman and not openly to us? Are we to turn about and all listen to her? Did He prefer her to us? 5) Then Mary wept and said to Peter, My brother Peter, what do you think? Do you think that I have thought this up myself in my heart, or that I am lying about the Savior? 6) Levi answered and said to Peter, Peter you have always been hot tempered. 7) Now I see you contending against the woman like the adversaries. 8) But if the Savior made her worthy, who are you indeed to reject her? Surely the Savior knows her very well. 9) That is why He loved her more than us. Rather let us be ashamed and put on the perfect Man, and separate as He commanded us and preach the gospel, not laying down any other rule or other law beyond what the Savior said. 10) And when they heard this they began to go forth to proclaim and to preach."

@tsuki I hope that this will give you the understanding you needed. From the gospel of Mary Magdalene. "And desire said, I did not see you descending, but now I see you ascending. Why do you lie since you belong to me? 11) The soul answered and said, I saw you. You did not see me nor recognize me. I served you as a garment and you did not know me. 12) When it said this, it (the soul) went away rejoicing greatly. 13) Again it came to the third power, which is called ignorance. 14) The power questioned the soul, saying, Where are you going? In wickedness are you bound. But you are bound; do not judge! 15) And the soul said, Why do you judge me, although I have not judged? 16) I was bound, though I have not bound. 17) I was not recognized. But I have recognized that the All is being dissolved, both the earthly things and the heavenly. 18) When the soul had overcome the third power, it went upwards and saw the fourth power, which took seven forms. 19) The first form is darkness, the second desire, the third ignorance, the fourth is the excitement of death, the fifth is the kingdom of the flesh, the sixth is the foolish wisdom of flesh, the seventh is the wrathful wisdom. These are the seven powers of wrath. 20) They asked the soul, Whence do you come slayer of men, or where are you going, conqueror of space? 21) The soul answered and said, What binds me has been slain, and what turns me about has been overcome, 22) and my desire has been ended, and ignorance has died. 23) In a aeon I was released from a world, and in a Type from a type, and from the fetter of oblivion which is transient. 24) From this time on will I attain to the rest of the time, of the season, of the aeon, in silence."

Oooo... is it beautiful or creepy? Or both?

"Look inside yourself" Delusion! "You must lose yourself to find yourself" Delusion! Love one another. They are the mirror you need to look inside yourself while at the same time losing yourself. You are all each other's reflections.

@thesmileyone Love your humanity and delusion. Love other's humanity and delusion. You're so silly. I love your delusion. you can't see how amazingly perfect and lovable you are because you won't see it in others. Love one another.

@tsuki I'm so happy for us.