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@Truth Addict You can also set a timer, it really helps when you aren't focused. 20 minutes studying, 5 or 10 minutes break, repeat the cycle.

@Shin She's a pessimist, and she doesn't like the outfit I'm wearing just now, so she's being mean about it instead of seeing me for me. Otherwise, she could be part of the bridge. Last night I started having powerful experiences again, it must have been the meditation. I started to wake up with this intense intoxicating feeling of love, a physical feeling in my heart and I had a battle within myself of whether or not to make it conscious in this world and wake up, the pull of sleep was so strong. I got out of bed and couldn't walk straight. I felt like I was being pulled in two, trying to mediate between two worlds. Then I had a battle of my shadow self, a part of me wanted to be superior and a part of me wanted to be kind. I watched it closely, and tried to decide which part of me was trying to survive and I knew the answer was both, they both were a part of me that wanted to survive but I just watched the battle. Then I gave in to superiority for just a moment, and after that I was able to be kindness. A mediator has to have great love or else she will be torn in two. Maybe I love only to survive.

You know what I am now? A bridge. I can sit through a church service and smile instead of fuming like I would even when I was still a Christian. I already had a nondual belief in God brewing as a kid. I decided that I would visualize him not as a man but as a lion. I got the idea from C.S.Lewis, and I thought Jesus could be someone else in a different world. Love doesn't burn bridges it builds them, it doesn't cut cords, it ties them. You say yourself, we have to integrate nonduality, all religions, science, philosophy, and technology, political science, and self help. What else are we doing here? We're a melting pot! A bridge!

@Shin @Truth Addict From the Gospel of Thomas, 114. Simon Peter said to them, "Make Mary leave us, for females don't deserve life." Jesus said, "Look, I will guide her to make her male, so that she too may become a living spirit resembling you males. For every female who makes herself male will enter the kingdom of Heaven."

@Leo Gura See Christianity is a step ahead of Buddhism, because Paul who wrote those beautiful verses about love is patient, love is kind, etc, he killed Jesus. And Judas, Jesus' betrayer, have you read the Gospel of Judas Leo? It was only translated in the past few years and it's pretty fucked up but also incredibly nondual. I mean Buddha's story has so very little devilry in compared with the Bible. I already let go of my faith in Jesus. Cast your bread upon the waters, Whoever loses his life shall find it. It's all true. What cords are left to cut?

@Truth Addict You mean oh boy/girl?

@whoareyou Love is love. It's all love. There's a bigger picture than any of us can see as individuals. I see my picture and you see your's. Big picture thinking is hive mind, it encompasses us all with the connecting force of love, and together we see the Big Picture. I don't have a belief system, I have love for Jesus, which got bigger, and bigger even as a child it got big enough to encompass nature and animals and other people. Then nonduality taught me the real meanings of the verses I puzzled over so much as a kid. That love was a driving force. My purpose is only to connect with that in myself and others until that love gets bigger and bigger and bigger. My ego was disgusted by the use of psychedelics, but I wouldn't be aware today if others hadn't used them. So I love and accept them. You might be disgusted by Christians, and belief systems but they are a part of you as well, like every other religion. How can you ever interact with people below you on the spiral if you can't all encompass and embody the entire spiral as your self? This is how we awaken the world.

What you really want is not to be with a woman but to be a woman. God is a hermaphrodite. Sorry to ruin your fantasy boys.

I see it in myself, I see it in you, I'm your mirror. I tried to be good and I tried to be God but the love I found in my heart for the devil awoke me on my 666th post. What else can I do to survive but go back in my past child self and find Jesus? The psychedelic I needed was Jesus and yours were literal. Don't tell me that my psychedelic is evil, after all it's just a path for experiencing love and oneness.

Have you studied the law of attraction at all?

@now is forever I like to play dress up with my religions and identities. Just because I was born naked doesn't mean that I can't enjoy wearing pretty things.

@Leo Gura I lived for thirty years and never noticed until today that when you look into someone's eyes, you literally look into two black holes which merge to one in your consciousness and that is the soul. Nothing. Am I/you an atheist after all?

@Leo Gura They always told me when I was a kid that Jesus was watching. It's just as unsettling now as it was then. There's no duality between funny and profound.

I mean in eveeeeeerything. I thought that's what you were saying, that its difficult to just observe.

@now is forever The observer changes the observed just by the act of observing. I noticed that too.

@Shin You're a slut.

Mine found me in a cemetary. I mislocated his grave at first and got wierd vibes, then I realized I was sitting on his wife, not him.

Ghosts make the best lovers.

@Shin Life is cruel and hilarious like my stupid name. I never liked my first or middle names. My biggest enemy in high school had the exact same first and middle name as me.

@Leo GuraThank you Jesus.

@Leo Gura I have no fucking clue. I'm trying really hard to cling to my Christianity and patriotism and then you go and use those exact examples in your video, what gives?

Laughing and crying is my life lately.

@now is forever Trees communicate with each other both through mycellium in the ground and through pollen in the air and they schronize to all overproduce fruit or nuts on the same year. That ensures that there's both enough for all the squirrels and to make new trees. On other years they barely produce to save up thier energy for another year and the squirrels go hungry and thier population decreases. Trees are already interconnected intelligence, they are smarter than the squirrels.

Jon rarely gets it when I say something stupid just to be stupid. He always thinks I'm being serious. And I continue to do it, time and time again and get offended, time and time again.

That just reminded me of The Tale of Two Cities. I read Moby Dick, The Tale of Two Cities, The Scarlet Letter, The Adventures of Alice in Wonderland and Walden all around the same time. They are all somehow about enlightenment I realize now. Isn't everything? You're EXACTLY like Jon.