mandyjw

I've been able to see in meditation how the colors I see correspond with the chakras. Sometimes I see magenta, or hot pink. Supposedly, pink is a variation for green, or the heart chakra but from experience, I don't think this isn't true. Magenta is its own color, it's necessary for mixing other colors, that's why printers use cyan, magenta and yellow. Magenta is the color that connects red and purple in a wheel, it doesn't really appear in the rainbow spectrum. In art class and in art sets, it's often left out because we are taught that the primary colors are red, yellow and blue but you can't mix all the colors with those, they are incomplete. There's an artist who made his own color wheel that is more true, Scott Naismith if you want to google it. https://johnmuirlaws.com/color-theory/ The chakras, are more like the color wheel rather than a finite line I believe. Maybe enlightenment is having your head up your own ass, I believe this all fits into Leo's metaphors quite nicely. So there yah go, even your chakras are a strange loop.

I had a recent awakening and before I had a few close relationships. I always counted on those people for deep conversations but now I either leave them very concerned about me or I have to be very careful what I say. I'm mourning the loss of those conversations that were from the heart. My Dad has always been really outrageous and open minded so I shared just the very basics of my awakening and life recently with him today. At the end he said "Don't go too crazy with it," and I told him there wasn't such a thing as crazy and he disagreed and I knew that I went too far. I know that I need to be careful with what I say in the future. My heart is a bit broken. I'm a bit addicted to this forum because it's the only place I have to ground me in feeling like I'm ok and I need it to assure myself that it's ok to be crazy. I feel too immature and niave to know what I know, and I feel like I cheated to get here, I didn't even really believe that there was a here. I feel like I should be more mindful, present and independent but the signs and sychronisities throw me off more than ever. I should have my life together more by now but I don't. I'm lucky to have my husband and a friend in real life who understand as best as they can but they all suggest or say that I'm crazy if I say too much. Has anyone dealt with this? I know that without the help of the forum I would be in very big trouble but I dont want to have an internet addiction for the rest of my life either.

This journal is a place for total chaos. Everyone is welcome. There are a few things to understand first before posting please. Me and a few other members on the forum have had organic conversations in which the boundary between self and other disappears and great insights result. For me this resulted in my doing shadow work and trusting someone else to prompt me through it, resulting in an awakening more dramatic than any I've experienced yet. This was only possible because we were able to connect and understand that we were each other's mirrors. Everyone on this forum is our mirror but in our desire to look smart, be respected, not get into trouble or not embarrass ourselves, we close ourselves off from each other for protection. Post only if you are interested in seeing who you really are and are truly ready for the discomfort that that entails. The danger in starting a discussion/thread/journal like this is that these conversations seem to happen organically. Can they be prompted? It's sort of the same concept of psychedelics I suppose. Does it really matter if a mystical experience is induced or natural as long as you have it, some way? This thread will be an experiment in which I hope to find out the answer to this question. There are no teachers and there are no students. Only mirrors. Mirror, mirror on the wall, who is the most enlightened of them all?

I found this incredibly amusing and also how I've kind of always wanted to live my life, but I've always thought it was an indulgence of my lower self and my not taking life seriously enough, or at times I even thought it was a mental illness.

@Nahm Because it's the shape with the least amount of surface area, they form themselves even if it appears that we are forming them.

@Nahm Bubbles are fun.

@Nahm I like it.

What if he was the perfect embodiment of enlightenment in a human being? What if God (yourself) said, fuck it, lets just show humanity what their potential is, I know it's going to make waves but I'm getting bored here so let's see how people react. He died for our sins in a lot of ways. You can look at him as your highest self, someone who put love and truth above his own survival. He talked about how if you want Life you must die to self, but then he was literally killed by the collective ego. If everything is you, then you both were Jesus and killed him, you were the Pharisees and the Romans and all the disciples too. He died for all those sins and all the future ones. Love is grace, it's knowing that everything and everyone "sinful" as a part of you, and it is the only way to purify yourself.

The Gospel of Mary Magdalene 22) The Savior said, All nature, all formations, all creatures exist in and with one another, and they will be resolved again into their own roots. 23) For the nature of matter is resolved into the roots of its own nature alone. 30) Matter gave birth to a passion that has no equal, which proceeded from something contrary to nature. Then there arises a disturbance in its whole body. 31) That is why I said to you, Be of good courage, and if you are discouraged be encouraged in the presence of the different forms of nature. Matt.22 Verses 34 to 40 [36] Master, which is the great commandment in the law? [37] Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. [38] This is the first and great commandment. [39] And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

@kieranperez Ugh, I know. I try to embrace the irony. @Serotoninluv Yes! I don't have much of a problem spending too much time online in the summer, it's too beautiful outside.

Theme for the day, cycles.

It's ironic that I'm answering this since I've been spending so much time here lately, but this reeeally helped me with a Facebook addiction a few months ago.

Love is forgiveness, not support, in fact sometimes it completely flies in the face of things that are not love. "Jesus entered the temple courts and drove out all who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the money changers and the benches of those selling doves." Matthew 21:12

@now is forever I'm not sure but I think that was true about them and is true of us all. We set an intention to love. We can't forgive the world if we can't also forgive ourselves for not being able to love it all the time.

@now is forever That's not true, Abraham Lincoln, Martin Luther King and Jesus all had open hearts as they went around the world. Let's not say what else they have in common, ok?

@Shin

I think that God is the Author of life, God wraps up one story nicely, takes a break and then gets to work on the next.

@Arcangelo Do you want respect or love?

@Stevo

The other night I gave my kid a hug and asked myself if I was doing it out of survival reasons. "Yeah, loving my kid is survival." Immediately I felt a bit sick. "Why am I even asking this question? I should be able to show love to my child without question!" "Because you want to be spiritual, you want to follow Leo's advice and be a part of the community on the forum, you want to rise above a need to survive." That made me feel sick too. Both times when I asked myself the question, even turning the question back in on itself, was FULL of judgement about survival being a "bad" thing. It's like I want to survive as something other than myself because who I am is not good enough. Focusing on what I DON'T like is survival. I don't like people who look creepy, I don't like the political party that hurts my community, etc. Do we not love ourselves enough to believe that we are worthy of life?

We've been programmed to smile and laugh.

hahaaha shin it's not funny for the 10th time it's actually fucking demeaning.

Actually that video is not that great at explaining it, as much as I love Abraham Hicks. Sorry. Give me some time I'll find a better one later today. Basically, the vortex is a natural high, the flow state, a meditative state, feeling like you're in love, seeing beauty that takes you breath away. That's "enlightenment... that feeling, that we all are searching for, that's what we are here to experience. Using both the law of attraction and great self discipline can make it so that you are in the vortex more and more of the time. It is "source" it is the energy that we are made of and it's that we all seek to connect to. Start at 8:20

@livg7046