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Yesterday I got an email from the lady who runs the historical society and she said that they just got new photos from doctor Pomroy. The house across the river just went up for sale and it, includes the land that I explored in a video this past spring. I was told that it was owned by the electric company but that's not true. The guy who put it up for sale gave her a box of things that came from the Pomroy manner including a photo album with lots of clues about the Eye family. The lady who runs the organization said, "I wish their name wasn't "Eye" that's so creepy." So many Easter eggs. My daughter played with a lady's pug at the river the past few days and fell in love with him. Then yesterday I find out that Doctor Pomroy had a pug and it's in his photo album. I joke about how we might be able to restart a sardine business again with a guy I talked to at the river and then in the photo album there's a picture of his picnic lunch including a can of sardines. It looks like the manner was called "Red Gate Farm" but no can figure out how it was turned into Elmsea" and always had beautiful Elms along it, and it appears that his childhood home was also where his mansion was built. With the photo album are the original family records for his entire family. No one knows what happened to his sister Amanda. Did she die as a baby? Is she buried on the property? The lane where the home is for sale is named Elm something or other. We don't even have any more elm trees! They all died of a disease. This is just a sampling of the puzzle pieces we dug through. I'm pretty sure there's no black walnut tree on the property. Where did the shells I found come from? Why is everything centered around a triangle in the middle of town? I went swimming with the kids and found a rock to sit on in the center of the current under the bridge. The trees framed by the bridge are the ones I explored with the property that donated the photo album.

I love how the hero's journey video ends. “The village has disappeared in the evening mist And the path is hard to follow. Walking through the pines, I return to my lonely hut.” ―Ryōkan

Poison nightshade growing wild on the grave of an herbal healer. It's in front of a bird bath so the crows dropped the seeds there. Crows are awesome, hilarious birds.

Faces in the rocks on Prince Edward Island.

Each has their own magic. High quality videos on spirituality can transmit consciousness, there's heart involvement not just involvement of the mind. Especially if you use them as a mediation and don't expect constant intellectual stimulation from them. Books are magical because you can go at your own pace, and and they go deep and target specific subjects really well. The author has had the ability to rethink, revise and be ultra careful to word things clearly, the luxury of which someone doesn't have when they are speaking.

The mind is always seeking ground. Is it better to contemplate or clear the mind? Is it better to have a guru or be independent? What should the course of action be? At any given time, you may know the answer to these questions for yourself, but if you lock into the answer and turn it into ground or dogma you get stuck. Needing to know a "better" path is a way of seeking ground in thought that relies on time and future to exist. The only ground there is is quicksand. If you have questions, question. If you have a calm mind enjoy it.

@pluto That looks and sounds amazing!!!

Sex, alcohol and junk food are all spiritual practices, ESPECIALLY if you label them as hedonism. You can't escape God, nice try though.

Personality isn't quite as solid of a thing as we think it is. Ultimately by working with the ego, we clear the sky of clouds that obstruct the blue sky. The blue sky is infinite love and what connects us seamlessly with other people and life itself. True Love and connection is beyond our concepts of other people, our concept of our own personality and it intuitively connects in the moment in an authentic loving way. It's WAY, way better and more effective that any concept we can have of our personality or thoughts how we should relate to other people. It's as if you're going from robotic programming to becoming human for the first time. There can be some glitches along the way as we see through what is false about our view of self and other and free ourselves of programming, and it's good to allow ourselves grace for them. But there aren't as many as you might think.

@Aaron p There's a stage of enlightenment that is... half baked. During this stage one might be tempted to make "Fuck morality" into a dogma. Or a hashtag. Whatever.

Feeling a lot of disconnection between "others" and "self". Not in a conflict way, but feeling unfulfilled and disconnected from myself. I want to interact but I feel like anything I say to anyone else is unnecessary, maybe from ego and yet I am for now unable to connect in deeper ways.

Beautiful! This is a shell from a black walnut tree. I found it in a really special location but I cannot locate the actual tree there. Weird. Is it a heart with two eyes, or an owls face? Has anyone else noticed that Leo drew a flower in his latest blog video?

Check out Abraham Hicks.

I have a buckwheat mediation cushion, also I put a blanket under my legs and I take a break from the position and hug my legs to my chest in the middle of meditation when they fall asleep. Hip opening yoga and stretching helps too, I'm a runner so that kills my flexibility but running is a powerful kind of mediation too so it's worth it.

@Apparation of Jack Yes they did, I wasn't expecting any spiritual insights from his book but his story was a great illustration of the law of attraction and at the time I didn't believe in siddhis but it opened my mind to them. The Masonic organizations were a place where people learned about nonduality, mostly they were open only for men though. My intuition is that they have since watered down some of the teachings or people generally don't go as far with them as they did back then but that's just a guess from an outsider's point of view. Life is much more comfortable today, people went to clairvoyant doctors back then because modern medicine was completely insane. We rely on science and technology today, back then faith in a mysterious higher power was all the hope you had. We just have different challenges to realization than they had back then.

I think Leo will look a lot like this guy when he is older, minus the hair. He's a clairvoyant healer who grew up in the town I live in back in the 1800's. I read his book and had an awakening shortly after finding the old foundation of the house he built here. He awakened through the help of mesmerism and several mesmerists but there was a lot of confusion for him with as little information as they had then. Pretty cool.

@Truth Addict I'm excited to see how our path will unfold as well. I love the gift, you know me well.

@Truth Addict Thank you! I'm meditating first thing in the morning for a half hour. Besides that I try to be aware throughout the day and am bringing in a lot more body awareness than before. Leading up to my awakening I noticed that I was getting very non-reactive and that my depressive moods were getting more and more infrequent. The awakening completely threw me through a loop. An experience of no self causes ego backlash at first. When I think of ego backlash I usually think of anger, a depressive and nihilist state but this ego backlash was more complicated and complex than just that especially when bliss states are mixed in, ugh! It took months for my mind to slow back down again. I'm getting back to that "state" (nonstate?) I was trying so hard for before the awakening. At the same time I'm careful not to let my mind and ego define that "state" like it did before and try to dictate what it should look like.

That's the nature of enlightenment, there is no male or female, you are magical but you just don't see it. Your spiritual pursuit is one without limits and yet you limit yourself in the "real" world so severely and painfully. Why? There cannot be a difference between your two "lives" or your pursuits. The only desire you could ever have for a woman is just desire to know yourself as One. There is only one desire, a desire for oneness masquerading as all sorts of things.

I finished the video today, I thought it was really good and a necessary reminder of how easy it is to fall into the trap of feeling like you're "above" politics because you've evolved beyond getting easily triggered by opposing views or events. Once you have an understanding of how reality is created, having conscious focus on or attention to politics seems very necessary. I believe that just the intention and desire to move toward something better and paying attention itself is the most important thing. An understanding of spiral dynamics and having compassion and acceptance for people where they are seems like the foundation for knowing what action to take. Right now I feel lost in not knowing what exactly that action is, so the temptation to put my head in the sand is strong. You definitely brought to light a lot of my entitlement I feel towards the government, and I don't mean the type of entitlement that Republicans like to talk about.

@hariseldon74 Wow, no I hadn't heard of her before, I'll check out her channel.

I still really wish I was as magical as @Mikael89 thinks I am, just for being female. Maybe when I'm enlightened I will be, but then I won't identify as female anymore. GOD DAMN YOU UNIVERSE.

@Shaun You have the gift of feeling things with intensity. Why do the best gifts feel like curses sometimes? Because we don't accept them. We have them but we don't say yes to them. I really feel for you and can really relate to you because much of my journey was and is being really sensitive to things and wanting to shirk from them and hide. What Nahm says is so true, when we are not in alignment our feelings let us know, and when we are REALLY not thinking about things the way that God sees things, it REALLY hurts. Therefore your sensitivity means you are spiritually gifted. But you have to use it. You can learn to align with life, love the universe, God, in fact, the gift is that you are so sensitive that you have no other choice but to align with it. I really, really , REALLY recommend Abraham Hicks for teaching you how to do so. You got this.

No, it's empty everythingness, pure potential. Every time we grasp for truth with thought, we separate it from the whole. Thought is a knife that cuts the absolute into relative bits.

Everyone is different and where you are in life and what you want at the time also changes your sex drive. Sex is often about power and it can be a hidden unconscious motive that masquerades as high sex drive or low sex drive depending on your psychology.