mandyjw

When I get a good idea I immediately rub my eyes after. Why is that?

I use them, they are like a good friend who always tells you the brutal truth but also knows when you need some encouragement. Quite like a few people I've know from here on the forum. I have the "The Wild Unknown" set, because I deeply resonate with nature and animal symbolism. I think it's important to love the deck and the art on it. Intuition and faith in the cards or a spirit guide/inner being behind them is important. Sometimes I feel for the right card but normally I choose it visually, I see "personalities" and subtle qualities or energy from the back of the card. Most of my insights and awakenings have come to me visually, so I guess it makes sense that I'd use my strongest sense. I'm guessing that those of us like that would gravitate to tarot more.

That's a really good question.

I've never had any direct mystical experiences regarding Jesus however I've loved him most all my life. The more educated I became the more I realized that that love was foolish, how does one love a dead man anyway? Silly. Then when I woke up I saw how incredibly important it had been to my path to nonduality. And then I became not Jesus, but Mary Magdalene. Ah, love. It's both the path AND the destination.

@Matt8800 So spirit guides or deities can come to you but not Jesus or the Holy Ghost? Christianity goes deep. All paths are valid. Intentions, thoughts and beliefs planted are like seeds that with the proper conditions can grow and bear fruit.

BLEEEECH!!!! It smells good and tastes good for like .02 seconds and then GOOD GOD. How does anyone get drunk?

@DrewNows I'm the only one who gets to drink, YOU get to eat an apple. Pick the prettiest one you see. Red. Cut it in half, not vertically by the stem but in half horizontally like cutting around the equator. Look at the five pointed star/apple blossom. Eat the apple. You're a witch too now. "Apple is feminine in nature and ruled by Taurus, friday, and Venus." Happy Friday! Leo is a Taurus. I'm a Libra ruled by Venus. Cheers!

I used to think that this was a subtle unsaid thing that everyone knew. It was a very frustrating and painful assumption to have.

@DrewNows Too late, challenge accepted, you have co-created and conspired with the universe to temporarily make my journal into a drinking game. I HATE the taste of alcohol.

@DrewNows Arrrggghh!!! Fine, I'll try it, just for you. I guess if I want to be like Thich Nhat Hanh and go nondual and realize myself as the pirate and the headless maiden I'll have to drink some ale.

@DrewNows I don't drink. I'll pour it out under an apple tree as a sacrifice offering.

@tsuki Reading that makes my heart full, in all caps all the more. There's a kind of love that's patient and blind, it's hidden in plain sight and it won't go to you. All it wants is to be seen and experienced. And when it is it becomes so powerful that it burns up any notions or constructs of power. That kind of love is what makes men afraid of women. Actions arising out of that fear in turn make women afraid of men. They can't hold the space for her, they can't see her light without turning away. Do you really know the goddess that she is? Can you really see it? Our filters of male and female, of dominant and submissive, it's all a trick of the light. What is tree?

You know though Tsuki, she's here for you. It's funny how the in the Bible is says that wives should respect their husbands and that husbands should love their wives. I thought that verse was total and utter fuckery. It took me a long time to realize that he was telling women to learn to control their thoughts, and men to open their hearts. It's not quite a pushing action but more of letting go and opening kind of thing.

@tsuki I love how passionate women are, capable of being pissed off by a headless tree across the ocean. You should have known me 5 years ago. Manifestation requires powerful emotions. The trick is to learn to channel them properly.

@tsuki Tsuki, who I am here for? Is this journal mine or yours?

Come play with me, play with me! The frustrating problem with this journal is it's just PARKED HERE. ROOTED here. Like a tree.

As I turned around at the little point that overlooks the island, I laughed inside as I saw across the road an old orchard with apple trees. I ran almost home and felt exhausted by the end of the road. I had a strong feeling to follow my desire to stop and walk. I picked a purple flower https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impatiens_glandulifera and immediately had this strong desire prophetic feeling toward this particular abandoned house. I thought about how the entire town is changing and becoming beautiful before my eyes and how it had been reviving slowly in the past ten years. Earlier I noticed an old home someone had fixed and put up for sale, no one ever flips homes here. A week ago, they finally knocked down an old building that was falling into the river with the famous fish on it, my first memory ever of coming through here as a kid was seeing that fish. At the historical society, a few weeks ago a lady joked about the famous "red" fish. "It's not red! It's faded to orange." My intuition high, I kept walking as saw a lottery ticket, but knew I shouldn't touch it. A few feet from it was this. Bizarelly enough, it's full, unopened, and is still cold. Why was it thrown out?

I went for a run, back where I had the exhilarating insight in late march about apples and goddesses of desire. I was thinking about the subject of power and running through my head was a pretend conversation "How does the Tao say that woman dominates the man?" I asked. A few steps later a snake appeared, it's head risen and toward the road. I jumped into the road as cars were coming. I was safe but it was embarrassing. Later I was torn, should I run to that beautiful point by the island or turn at the nice lady's house and save my energy? A truck was coming and I couldn't turn so I ran to the point. I was reminded of this story that was presented to me at the Doctor Pomroy night . I knew it was an Easter egg, and I had the red marble that I had found just a couple hours before in the river in my pocket. "The Legend of Red Island" This is the island I had an impulse to run to a month or two ago, when I cut across the rich people's field and across the mud flats to go there. This story was written by someone who lived right where I accidentally found the hiking trail when my daughter tore up the old family name list in my Grammie's Bible and I had the impulse to google it. The experience I had hiking that trail was almost psychedelic like. Fear overtook me and on impulse I stripped off and dove into the tidal river. It's about a maiden, whose head is cut off so her ghost will guard the pirate's treasure.

@Truth Addict I watched this movie over and OVER when I was a kid.

As @Matt8800 said there is a lot of truth to what you're saying. I was making the point that Jesus was a master and his miracles were unavoidably very public due to their scale, yet he also said things like, "your faith has healed you, go forth and tell no one." Because, sometimes telling other people things destroys our faith. Their lack of belief is contagious. Yet a healer needs to be able to hold his/her faith so strongly that he/she is able to transfer it to others. He essentially heals by holding the faith for other people, the other people duality is itself healed in the bodily healing.

@Inliytened1 Goddamn it, love has a way of getting around EVERYTHING doesn't it? @tsuki I love it when you write in all caps. Some enlightened masters don't have to eat, why can't a person eat when they fall in love? What's the connection? 25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.

Only for a few chosen ones. If you listen to Leo you sure as heck weren't one of them.

@Truth Addict Capability to cause suffering.

You asked for straight answers. I just LOVE questionnaires!!! Do you think ur a guru? yes, just not a very good one. Do you think your a level 10000 enlightened master? Mmm.. maybe level 940 or somewhere around there. Do you think ur Leo? Yes.

The most dangerous form of ignorance is the belief that it has been transcended it in one's self. Only a love and openness to learn creates the opening to the light that ignorance cannot abide in.