mandyjw

My first birth was a bit traumatic, but I got more into mindfulness when I had my daughter and weirdly enough the nurse who helped deliver was named Karma. She told me her dad had been a marine and had no idea what it meant, he just thought it sounded really pretty. I feel like hospital births are extreme and home births are also extreme and there need to be more options in the middle. But that's a whole nother subject. Awesome! I have done that video before, it's really good. I've also found bellydancing to be really helpful.

There can be no such thing as transcendence if there's no longer anything to transcend. I think they need to be understood both as separate yet ultimately one and the same.

Problem is no one can agree on them and it's make it up as you go. Life is more like Calvinball and less like basketball in my experience.

Which was Mary Magdalene?

Dress shirts suggest the fun of unbuttoning them, keep the jeans though. More James Dean.

Osho checked off all those boxes AND painted his fingernails.

Just my personal opinion, I think you're attractive, masculine and I like your style but if you're hair was shorter and all dark, it would read as more masculine, in my opinion. But I've always liked really short hair on guys, so maybe get some other opinions before changing anything.

It helps to imagine that you have friends in high places. They are essentially just you of course but, you do. You are both the character in the mind of the author and also the author. The character exists within imagination and does not actually exist. This has been the case all along. So letting go of the character really feels like taping into greater guidance and intuition about how this whole story is unfolding. You've actually lost something, not gained it but it feels more like gain.

I kinda recently realized that all the stupid little things I like to do just because, I can now freely do and actually enjoy because I'm not judging them and myself for being stupid little things so much. I don't know if that makes any sense but it feels amazing.

I've tricked myself into allowing myself to be a crazy (happy) bitch.

Your photoreceptors in your eyes are translating the light from your computer screen into electrical signals going from your eyes into your brain. Super exciting. Everything else is your imagination. Oh wait, the pixels, screen and photoreceptors are just imagination too. Your welcome.

Am I an actual object or not an object? If I get offended by other bodies and other bodies preferences for those bodies didn't I just objectify myself? Isn't everything kinda fake? I dunno.

@Gesundheit Hmm, guess I'll never know God then. I can never know that I'm dead. Can't even really know that I'm alive either. Maybe there is know God.

@Gesundheit What about artists who are so passionate about their art that they'd rather go hungry than stop creating? Isn't that a pure expression of God?

Not sure if it's stage green exactly, but this podcast which is really explicit btw, (NSFW) is also mind opening in a different way. It's the opposite scenario of the interviews where the prostitutes are forced into the lifestyle or don't have anything better to choose.

Attraction isn't a choice but we seem to have the experience of having choice. For example if you went to a library to pick out a book to read for fun, it seems like you are making a choice. However your past conditioning, past interests, recent events, the design of the book covers, the available selection and the design, colors of the book covers and it's position on the shelf all factor in to your "choice". Really you didn't make a choice at all, even though it seems you did. The cars I think are nice, the breed of dog I have, the colors I like the wear are all based on a lot of past conditioning and chance events and what I prefer changes over time. I used to absolutely detest country music, but after years of hours and hours of having to listen to it on long bus rides in high school I started to like a handful of songs and then listened to it by choice for a year of my life. It was the most shocking thing to me that I could actually come around to liking a type of music I had absolutely hated. I think sometimes attraction and reaction is all about wanting to embody something. Attraction is just when there's no resistance to it so it feels expansive. And usually we aren't conscious of what it is we want to embody/integrate about it or why, we just feel the attraction. Any reasons we try to come up with it are shallow and shortsighted, whether it's coming up with reasons for why we like the color blue or why we like a person.

@zeroISinfinity Ha more crow synchronicity. Weird energy today. Went and hiked and saw a lot of things reminding me of just what i needed to be reminded of just when I needed it. I wrote a kid's story awhile ago about a crow who thinks she is bad and has an epiphany when she sees one of her black feathers, and notices that the quill is white. There were two crow feathers dropped right in the middle of the trail in two different spots. If you go down in the woods today you're sure of a big surprise If you go down in the woods today you'd better go in disguise Discovered Christine McConnell today on youtube. So inspired by someone who creates the kind of life she wants and is passionate about, even if it seems very impractical and sometimes silly.

Yep, it's all about power, status and emotional unavailability. This picture... *whew!*

Try to brainstorm creative and inspiring ways to promote your work, if you can get excited about the ideas themselves as an extension of your creativity they will feel a lot more natural when implemented. In the beginning there's a lot of just creating for the sake of creating though, so it's important to focus more on enjoying the process rather than thinking ahead to the end result too much. If you become successful you will look back with nostalgia for these days because there's such sheer freedom to create without having to consider the possible repercussions and expectations that having a larger audience or fan base can bring.

Eh, just take the inspirational part and leave the rest. I'm going to have, "You can do anything"- Donald Trump put up framed on my wall for inspiration.

Awesome! Feels really good to clear up misunderstanding about ourselves.

You can stand under my umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh