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It's about resolving duality. There is wanted and unwanted. You cannot rid yourself of your wants but you can become conscious that what is unwanted is illusory. That's how the law of attraction works, what you think about you get more of. What you fear shows up to face you. Not because you've been this bad person who has so little self control that they can't control their thoughts, but to show you that your fear is love. There is no duality between material and... not. It's nothing and something at the same time. Therein lies its potential. When you judge something as unwanted you give it substance and meaning, yet you also wish it away. It's the most painful recognition of duality, because it's a terrible misunderstanding. We do this with illness and we do it with the ego. We make the devil real, breathing life into it ourselves and we paint its face with our minds, and then wish our very own creation would cease to exist and leave us alone.

Narcissists and victims, doormats, codependents, etc, all have to exist as characters in the story of life of duality. If you are God, wouldn't you think yourself to be pretty damn special? If you are Nothing wouldn't you think yourself to be insignificant and powerless? If you are both simultaneously what would you think yourself to be? What would you think others to be?

You cannot accurately summarize your past. You can only pick bits and pieces of it to recall in the moment. You'll never get a grasp on your own past, much less anyone else's. However what we think ourselves to be is the bits and pieces of the past that we give power over us, and chose to define ourselves with. So if you see someone stuck on something in their past or actively trying to push it away they will unconsciously create their future to reflect it. Lessons are repeated until they are fully learned. That's why it's not so much about evaluating and judging what someone did in the past itself but being able to sense what kind of things they focus on and think themselves to be.

This is kind of inspiring AF actually. You have every reason in the world to go for your dreams, all out, all in, especially if those dreams are for creating a more harmonious world. If status quo and societal expectations of success were holding you back it helps to know that they are a sinking ship that will shortly be at the bottom of the ocean anyway. Only thing to do is learn to surf and have a great time doing it. What if those kids are going to be completely key to finding a solution? You and the apparent "ego" are perfect manifestations of nature itself. The apparent separation, the feeling that nature is good and humans are bad and apart from infinite intelligence is the ego, the illusion of separation itself. Everything will be alright whether it includes humans or not. Everything is already more alright than you can ever know. Obsessing over the environment isn't the belief that nature is as important than humans, it's saying that the humans that exist and believe they are in control of things must maintain that position, they must maintain their intellectual superiority to nature. The never had that intellectual superiority. It's sheer illusion. They are as one with it themselves, as the oneness they observe in the circle of life and believe themselves to be apart from as the observer, (and worrier).

Enlightenment seems to be about allowing the mystical and magical to bubble up and overtake you, then to have the wherewithal to kill it or look behind the curtain. The artist/creator knows the depths of pure magic that went into a painting as well as the utilitarian, practical nature of the paint and canvas better than anyone who just looks at the finished piece.

There is a lot of material out there to scare, shock and shame people into environmental change. It doesn't work. What we need is more inspiration for environmental change. Ironically if Leo made his how to get a hot witch girlfriend video it would probably do more good for the environment than a lot of the other stuff out there aiming at that. We need more people to truly connect and fall in love with nature. Teaching spirituality and getting more people to become aware that what they seek is true contentment is much more effective than reiterating the fact that environmental destruction is a massive problem. Also all the stuff about society and government is all part of working toward the mindset shift that is necessary to really mitigate and stop environmental destruction. More awareness isn't working, we need inspired change. Just my opinion.

Doctors have just caught on to the fact that more is connected than they thought and they are still reeling. "Oh my GOD, gut health affects all these OTHER conditions! Who would have thought? Gut health is the key!!!" But everything... EVERYTHING is connected.

Invest more in teachers. Pay them much more, educate them better and give them much more freedom to teach as they see fit. The things I remember the most from school were the things my teachers taught me because they were passionate about them themselves. Also Seth Godin's Stop Stealing Dreams is free to read online, it's excellent. https://seths.blog/wp-content/uploads/2019/05/stop-stealing-dreams6print.pdf

My take is that any business that is providing an essential service, food, medical care, housing, have the potential to be very conscious or very unconscious. Just consider the variety of food businesses there are from organic family farms to coca cola.

@billiesimon Ever lost yourself so much in a game that you started having a miserable time, hated everyone you were playing with for being competitive with you, and completely forgot that the game was supposed to be fun and wanted to quit? Sometimes I think those of us who want to awaken us are just such sore losers who take everything so seriously that they ask to see through the premise of the whole thing. Once you're reminded that you're playing for sheer fun and not just your own fun, but everyone's fun, the entire game changes.

How can you know easy and kind if you don't know hard and cruel? The suffering is the illusion of duality and opposites which allow the Good to be. There are opposites but no opposition. Thinking veils and covers over the fundamental Good. Feeling discovers it but thinking says "don't go there, feeling is where hurt happens to me." Counter-intuitive.

City lights are flashing, they call you to the streets Hearts are filled with passion in everyone you meet The Boulevard is waiting, it wants to get you high Neon signs are waiting to sell you anything you want to buy But I know your devices, it shouldn't seem so odd You lied from the beginning, I see through your facade Angel of light, I see you glow in the night But you only bring darkness to my soul Angel of light, You're telling me wrong is right I won't let you're evil take control They follow in your footsteps not knowing that you fell Bumper to bumper on the freeway to hell You lead them into wrong and you make it look so right You lead them into darkness and make them think you lead them into light But I know where you're going, too bad you're not alone If it wasn't for the real light I might have never known You got the clergy working overtime to widen the narrow way You've got politicians everywhere listening to what you say You've got false apostles teaching lies perverting the only way You've got principalities and powers waiting to obey You've got philosophies and vain deceipts lying to deceive You've got hate, and greed, ungodly lusts in the deadly web you weave Somehow you've got so many thinking you're not even there One look is all it takes to get them blinded by your glare I programmed my brain with this song above as a kid. This is my favorite at the moment, synchronicity is funny. You and me and all your inspiration my love We lightning riders, we lightning riders, we're one You and me and all the nah, nah, nah's in our lungs We lightning riders, we lightning riders, we're one I'm just blowing up, blowing up These bridges behind me Yeah, I'm just blowing up, blowing up These bridges behind me I'm just blowing up, blowing up These bridges behind me Yeah, I'm just blowing up, blowing up And now I glow in the dark

Spiral dynamics progression of the imagined God.

Hmm.. I've never really purposefully journaled to try to work through stuff, it just comes up. What is purposefully? I suppose I've been contemplating that lately. I've been on such a great feeling spree, feel like I've hit a bit of a wall though. I want big things. Pretty sure I'm holding myself back by thinking I'm bad and unworthy. The youtube videos I make highlight this. The judgmental feelings of myself they bring up and the anxiety posting them and reading comments can be a lot. A few weeks ago I was really excited about them. Just went to check, and there's a brand new SUPER mean comment. It's almost funny how quickly I'm getting what I'm focusing on right now. Reminds me of the time mom told me not to step over a fallen tree while skating and I put one foot over it and it went right through the ice. I don't even have to have the karma boomerang leave my hand to smack myself in the head with it. Hmm... Fuuuuuuuuuuck. Sorry, this is a stream of consciousness flow now. I don't know why. Apple blossoms. Why do antique clocks make me feel so weird? Is ADD a gift? Streams of consciousness flow are bullshit. I don't even know what the fuck I'm conscious of, sure as hell can't write it all down. It's separating the mental voice from feelings, so everything that's thought has to come out in words, which isn't normally how I "think". Thoughts are thoughts and never separate, so I'm separating out my thoughts purposefully by doing a stream of consciousness flow. . Is that why talking to people helps? I feel like wanting an audience makes me a narcissist, and I feel like wanting to make money off spirituality makes me even worse than that. And that doesn't feel good, so obviously it's not true. Sometimes I feel like throwing the settlers of cattan cards of life in the air. I don't fuckin' wanna play anymore. I quit trying to be vegan and started eating meat again. Lost 7-8 pounds in three weeks and got my energy back. I was doing it for my consciousness. There is an energetic thing with it, I think. One of the last realizations the day I awakened was that of communion. "What did you have for lunch?" Nahm PMed me. Ground beef. I was barely eating, I lost a several pounds over the couple weeks leading up to it. "Cows are holy and that's why you must eat them." I wrote in that journal. Realization that I'm the devil. 666 post. What the fuck does that mean? Who knows. "You're a bitch, scam like all of them." The youtube comment says. Well, at least I'm in good company. Incredible how that comment aligns with the thoughts I've been thinking. Today I was thinking about how if I was Eckhart Tolle I'd think I was a horrible speaker. But because I'm not he is perfect. Journaling never fails to satisfy. "All humor is self deprecating." I wrote that on the forum twice in the past 24 hours. Awful youtube comments are pretty hilarious when you remember why you wrote them for yourself.

Counter-intuitive simply means that it's not what you think it would be. True intuition is more feeling realm than thinking realm. So when we say intuition and use the word counter-intuitive we almost refer to what you think you know. True intuition is a deeper knowing beyond what you think you are. We're so quick to believe thoughts and believe that we know the way things are, so that's why doing what is counter-intuitive (the opposite of what you think will work) can be so fruitful.

You'll never fully integrate any of the stages. Plenty of people who are already financially independent are still stuck in orange because of the fear of financial insecurity, or insecurity in general. It's based on one's own psychology and the neurosises, fears and beliefs they have. Transcending is much more of an inner, subtle immeasurable shift than just the external situation. For one going FI could be necessary, for another it could be giving away their savings. You never know what's right for another. There are no rules or directions to follow.

@LastThursdayMaybe I'm weird but I think Eckhart Tolle and Rupert Spira are both funny. Also Jim Newman is both deadly serious and hilarious at the same time. It's really interesting.

Yes. I think you just can't see clearly to the truth of how or why something is and the real reasons behind it if you're too busy judging it, ie assuming that you know what it really is before you've really contemplated and been open-minded to the why behind it. Confusion is suffering, and we have compassion for those who are suffering and want them to feel better. But when people act out of confusion we judge the actions and completely miss the confusion, (suffering) driving the behavior.

I don't even know what direction the main stream is going anymore.

This has got me thinking. The example with the diesel trucks is the kind of toxic masculinity that I'm most used to in my upbringing, along with a whole lot of other behaviors that go along with having that sort of identity. When I was 16 I thought boys in jacked up trucks were hot. To be honest that programming is still there. Same with a man with status, power, confidence and success. I can't deny it's not... kinda hot. So guy buys environmentally destructive truck to get girls, and if girl dresses in a short sundress and rewards him for his materialistic disregard of the environment then wasn't the toxicity just the both of us playing out our survival drives? Where is the toxicity? Isn't all judgment self-judgement ultimately?

@Bazooka Jesus Love, love, LOVE! I think that all humor is actually self-deprecating, whether we realize it or not.

@DrewNows Co-imagined.

M: All experience is illusory, limited and temporal. Expect nothing from experience. Realization by itself is not an experience, though it may lead to a new dimension of experiences. Yet the new experiences, however interesting, are not more real than the old. Definitely realization is not a new experience. It is the discovery of the timeless factor in every experience. It is awareness, which makes experience possible. Just like in all the colours light is the colourless factor, so in every experience awareness is present, yet it is not an experience. Q: If awareness is not an experience, how can it be realized? M: Awareness is ever there. It need not be realized. Open the shutter of the mind, and it will be flooded with light. Q: Are there levels of awareness? M: There are levels in consciousness, but not in awareness. It is of one block, homogeneous. Its reflection in the mind is love and understanding. There are levels of clarity in understanding and intensity in love, but not in their source. The source is simple and single, but its gifts are infinite. Only do not take the gifts for the source. Realize yourself as the source and not as the river; that is all. Q: I am the river too. M: Of course, you are. As an ‘I am’ you are the river, flowing between the banks of the body. But you are also the source and the ocean and the clouds in the sky. Wherever there is life and consciousness, you are. Smaller than the smallest, bigger than the biggest, you are, while all else appears. Jesus Christ this book... I can barely stand to read it. I love it and yet it makes me deeply uncomfortable and unfocused/focused at the same time. I always end up quoting shit here and writing my reactions out when I read it.

"Am Iike... thinking or am I just like, thinking that I'm thinking?" Well that mockery got super deep, super fast. Jokes are brutal. All true humor is self-deprecating.