Muhammad Jawad

In this journal, I will write down my existential thoughts, questions & confusions running around in my mind during my Spiritual Development (Actualization). I will appreciate the contribution and help of others by correcting, answering, and clearing my conclusive thoughts, questions & confusion. Thanks

Right. Maybe he was saying in some other context. Thanks

True. Exactly. Right hmmm hmmm. Right I think you are right I have not contemplated my question deep enough to know and understand that I am asking the wrong question. hmmm. I can see and understand the depth of that fact. True Right.... I did not say that God is limited and he can not make 2+2=5. That's What Osho Said in the above video. I was saying exactly the same thing which you are saying that as God We have defined terms ourselves and according to those terms, definitions which we have created 4 is the only result of 2+2. It can not be 5 according to terms and definitions made by US (GOD). If we (GOD) change the rules, definitions of the terms then we (God) can achieve "5" as a result of 2+2. I think Osho's point of view was in some other context. Thanks a lot for helping me to understand. :-)

This means we can change the result of 2+2 by changing the meaning of 2 & 2 then why Osho Said even God can not make 2+2=5?

I thought that God/Consciousness/Me as omnipotent can do anything. But Osho Says even God can not do that. So now I am having a conflict between my understanding and Osho's understanding. I want to resolve this conflict and want to achieve an understanding of Truth. Thanks

28/01/2021 These days I am spending a lot of time in spiritual practices and contemplation etc... So maybe due to these practices, something is starting to change in my mind and I have started to have more dreams, more vivid dreams, and better recall. Today I have memories of multiple dreams. I had very strange and different feelings during these dreams. In dreams, I never felt that kind of feeling ever. But this time something is different and strange happening in my mind which is impacting my dreams. Dark Room I saw a dark room and it looks like the room which we saw in the Matrix Movie where Neo gets Martial Arts Training from Morpheous. The only light source of that room was a ventilator. I was wondering where I am and which place is this then suddenly I started to think Oh maybe this a Photography Studio Set created by Imagesbazaar.com (Company of Sandeep Maheshwari). Remote Controller of Life I and my wife with our kids are in the park which is within walking distance from our home. Kids are enjoying swings. My Wife has a kind of remote control which she can use to change the current dream scene. I think I was not enjoying the moment so I wanted to change that scene using that remote control so I was asking my wife to give me the remote but my wife and kids were enjoying that moment and did not agree to change it. So she declined to give me the remote. But after some time She gave me the remote. Hostel Room I was in my Hostel room where I used to live 12 years ago. A lot of guests from my grandparent's side visited me and were staying with me. My real Uncle was also there. I & Uncle were having some discussion about some kind of sickness. My GrandMother was also there.

Hi Leo! I hope you are doing well. Thanks a lot for your response. I know I am GOD, You are GOD, everyone and everything is GOD. There is only GOD who exist. Everything else is just an unconscious mind construct. My question was in the context of the Same God which is you or I. Yes, I (Body/Mind) can not make 2+2 = 5. But Why I (Consciousness/God) can not make 2+2 = 5 possible? Here in the above video why is Osho limiting the power of Consciousness? Your videos and this forum helping me a lot to grow and evolve. Thanks a lot for this. Waiting for your kind response.

Do you mean which mind has created these numbers and 2+2=4 that the same mind can also make the 2+2=5 or 1+0-3=653? Then Why Osho said that it's not possible even for GOD?

Great. Right Amazing Wao True Best of luck :-)

Who chooses our thoughts?

In the following video, Rupert Spira says: "From the point of view of Awareness, which is the only real point of view, there are infinite possibilities available at every moment so there is complete freedom". Q: Does Awareness have Freewill? Is awareness bound to witness whatever is appearing? Can awareness make any changes in whatever awareness is aware of? Is that awareness/consciousness creating whatever is in its awareness? Or someone else? Q: Does Screen have the power to change the channel just 1 click?

In the following video, Rupert Spira says: "Thought# 10 looks back and imagines that there is a chooser between each thought". Wait a minute this is new for me. What? Is thought alive? Can thought look around it? Can thought imagine things? Can thought think? Can thought asume something? If Yes, How a thought itself can do these things?

In the 1st 10 minutes, I feel my throat dry and which I make wet instantly and then continue again. After 10 mins the whole process remains continuous.

If it's me who is projecting this world then why can't I project it according to my desires?

According to ramana maharashi this body and world is creation of Subconscious mind. What is the difference between concious and subconscious mind? Who creates subconscious mind? Who have uploaded the formula of creation of the world in subconcious mind? What is the difference between mind, conscious mind, subconscious mind, self, consciousness etc.. What Is the difference between samadhi and deep sleep?

Were you contemplating during breathwork or after stopping the breathwork? Saw or thought or felt? How? Can you please explain in more detail? How? Why? Why did you open the eyes as soon as you stopped breathing? Why did you saw this picture on youtube? And What happened by looking at this picture?

I will do Kriya Yoga daily but know I will post only when I will have something new & different to share. Thanks

I will do Meditation daily but know I will post only when I will experience something new & different. Thanks

I will do Shamanic Breathing daily but know I will post only when I will experience something new & different. Thanks

Day 12 - 27/01/2021 - 30 mins - Morning - Done - Good I Started Shamanic Breathing while listening following Tribal Drumming: https://youtu.be/BkzA_u9smXU After a few minutes while breathing I started to feel really cold. There was a lot of Tingling in my whole body. My arms & hands are totally numb, Tight, hard and I started to feel pain in my hands. My whole body started to become so hard that it felt like it’s made of stone. As soon as I stopped doing shamanic Breathing, I held the breath inside. I felt really deep peace & Healing. The feeling of the body transforms into just a few sensations, flowing energy and currents. My Mind & Body was filled with Bliss, Joy & Peace. I had earphones in my ears from the beginning so as soon as drumming music terminated while shamanic breathing, following music started playing automatically in my ears. (I didn't need to come out of the trance to play the music myself using my hands): https://youtu.be/ZdElzvGlZbo I achieved the automatic Music phenomena through the following android app: https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.muzical And it was an amazing experience to listen to music in that state of consciousness. In the end, I was very lightweight and was feeling healed.

Day 12 - 27/01/2021 - 30 Mins - Done - Good I did this meditation after Kriya Yoga. I was aware of the very clear sound of silence / Om Sound. It was peaceful. I was not able to locate the feeling between my eyebrows. It was really hard to find bhrumadhya. I didn't know where to fix my gaze. If sometime in between I found the place to focus on then was not able to remain in my gaze there for more than a second. It was a continuous struggle to try again and again etc… 1 or 2 times I felt subtle energy surges running around in my whole body. I started to feel stretching in my tongue. While trying to focus on Bhrumadhya my fingers were trying to twist automatically. I was feeling a little bit of pain in my spine, forehead & top of the head. And at the end my head was heavy and I had a little bit of a headache.

26/01/2021 - Corrupted Digital Gift I had multiple dreams tonight but couldn’t recall all of them when I woke up. I have memories of a few chunks of my last dream. I sent a digital gift to my sister as a digital file and my sister told me that she got a corrupt and incomplete file.

Day 12 - 27/01/2021 - 30 Mins - Done - Good I Sat in 30 Min Half Lotus Asana 12 Nadi Shodhana Pranayama Cycles (Successful) 12 Ujjayi Pranayama Cycles (Successful) 30 Min Concentration (Attention, Focus & Gaze between eyebrows + Om Sound / Sound of Silence) Feel like I still need to learn, understand, practice, and correct a few things. I was not able to locate the feeling between my eyebrows. It was really hard to find bhrumadhya. I didn't know where to fix my gaze. If sometime in between I found the place to focus on then was not able to remain in my Gaza there for more than a second. It was a continuous struggle to try again and again etc… 1 or 2 times I felt subtle energy surges running around in my whole body. I started to feel stretching in my tongue. While trying to focus on Bhrumadhya my fingers were trying to twist automatically. I was feeling a little bit of pain in my spine, forehead & top of the head. And at the end my head was heavy and I had a little bit of a headache.

At night while sleeping When we have a dream, everything in the dream is me because the dream is going on inside my mind/brain. Did I create that dream? If Yes. How? Why? When? Why I don't have the memory of creating it? If I didn't create it then who created it? How does all that work? Is it possible to remain aware & conscious in all kinds of states of consciousness? How and where I can learn all that?

Thanks