PurpleTree

it's scary because you can't get out of it when you've had enough

if they told you you'll be able to dunk but you're only 1.55 meters then yea, they scammed you

who wants poo on their clothings though? also at home we didn't really have rules for shoes, it just seems disrespectful to other people etc. in a way i guess i want society to be much better and people to be more respectful but i see it imo decaying everyday which causes stress probably. if i see people who are creating stuff i get a bit jealous, because i'd like to do that. but if someone sits in dirt i don't get irritated as long as they don't put that dirt on places me and society has to also sit. but i also get annoyed at non social things like taxes, excel, maths, electronics etc. so how does that fit into the picture? dogs and cats you're right i don't want to be stressed and uptight all the time but i also don't want society to "decay too much"(for the lack of a better term), there i need to find the balance between speaking up and acceptance. thanks. yea i do often think the gut is a big piece of the puzzle for me. for example a last week i ate some thai curry which was mildly hot. it irritated my gut which made me feel irritable and tense for a pretty long time. it then becomes a cycle and then i get triggered even more easily. and trying to relax the gut and back, neck can help

so it's not a problem if people walk on the street, maybe they step in poo, put their feet on the seat and you sit on it? or if people don't wear masks in public transport and spread omicron? shouldn't anybody say something about it? would you say anything if somebody puts their shoes on your car seat or chair at home? and that's just small examples of inconsiderateness ^^ that being said, there is probably some jealousy involved for people who don't feel social anxiety, confidence issues etc.

Yea thanks, i've been wanting to get into yoga for a while now. this could be another reason to do it. Maybe we're just more sensitive to sounds, feelings etc. so we get annoyed/irritated more easily than others in some ways. And then we think, nooo i'm on the spiritual path and shouldn't even be getting annoyed by this dumb stuff, which causes further stress I try, often it doesn't work to be compassionate, or then it just becomes an obsessive back and forth like compassion/anger/compassion/anger/obsessive thought loops->>>>>. sometimes it works though. i don't know about conscientiousness, people always told me that i am pretty conscientious or maybe i developed that at a certain age. frustration was probably the biggest, just being frustrated and didn't know how to deal with my feelings. and starting to suppress feelings such as anger also now just being often frustrated with this social anxiety, toxic shame and so on. It's frustrating because it feels like i could do everything i'd want if weren't often blocked by those things. I've always been kind of scared a bit of the future as a kid never thought i'd make to this age. oh yes it seems like the "letting go" part of it is not really working great thus far, but we'll see how it goes

yea they started the vietnam war though because one of their ships got attacked (allegedly) here not much happened i think but yea the us and israel are very/extremely close partners, so it's certainly a weird incident

also wonder sometimes if this "annoyance" comes from un underlying gut issue. because having an inflamed gut and being annoyed etc. feel similar to me. or if it's the other way around and being annoyed and angry as a kid is what caused a gut issue.

Not sure if i think they should hold the same values. Because i can talk to right wingers and left wingers i don't care what their views and values are. I just start to care when it's affecting me or others. For example if you put your dirty shoes on the seat in public transport, then i sit on it and then my pants are dirty. I just want to tell them to take their smelly feet from those seats but i don't do it because i think it would be petty in some ways and could also end in a fight or argument, so i just get annoyed everyday for little stupid things. But i feel because nobody speaks up for those things i'll eventually maybe have to do it. Love you too though

yea remember that when i watched the debate that was probably my favourite part of it

Most people have huge blind spots. For example yesterday i talked to someone who told me something about how horrible her old boss was because she wouldn't tolerate criticism. And i just thought, wow are you talking about yourself?

That feels very cringey to PurpleTree. Like invading her "safe space" like some vulture and can't even leave her alone in the library where she want to read and stuff. But that's probably my problem Yesterday i saw a very cute woman working at a pharmacy and thought wow imagine if i approached her at her workplace, that would be cray cray

because you can pick food from higher trees like a giraffe or brachiosaurus food on higher trees is more delizioso

clubs close at 5 or so here people are not going to clubs before 12 or 1 a.m. and then after hour goes on for ever

I think i'm kind of addicted to listening to youtube videos and podcasts I listen to deep stuff but also to very non-deep stuff like interviews from actors, rappers and so on or news sometimes if there is an interesting subject (no covid) Just often find it very entertaining and it does give me joy and quiets my kind of obsessive mind. But maybe trying a week or so without it and trying to read more.

777 posts, noice

some people find great therapists for me whenever i needed a therapist, i didn't want to go on a long waiting list so i just went to whoever was free, and those are often not that great i think i'll look for a new therapist soon-ish because i want to try some meds, for example racetams which are prescription meds here

not really, i look pretty young

Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself. Rumi

my mom said life is like a box of chocolates

it's true one time i had to eat a steak after because otherwise i'd have to throw it away and obviously didn't want that and it felt really weird to eat that bloody steak at that time while fruits are delicious

i'm an intergalactic turd and travelling through time my time machine goes brrrrrrrrrrrrr

i think spira is just trying to talk to as many people as possible, same with tolle etc. and if he starts talking a lot about god then many people will get turned off and say see ya

well i'm glad then that i speak multiple languages

so am i reading right that you think every person who got the vaccine is more intelligent than every person who didn't get the vaccine?

what's so much "bigger" in terms of behaviour about something like jealousy, judgemental etc. than racism, unfairness etc.? the murder and rape thing might have been slightly over the top