PurpleTree

social anxiety

i'm such a capricorn, pisces, scorpio lol don't know if i believe there's really truth to it or not

thanks @Michael569 @undeather i have checked my thyroid function and the tests came back ok, it's already like 4 or so yrs back, maybe i can still find the email with the numbers and i don't really check my blood pressure but whenever someone checks it they usually say it's low or very low, my mom has a blood pressure check device, i'll check it

we live in the best of times. change my mind

for example what about somebody like a stalker though. they seem to truly desire the person they're stalking, they're imagining themselves with that person all day everyday, they invest a lot of time, feelings and so on. but it doesn't seem to work for them.

that's what i want deluded perfect bliss enlightenment

Ok some more info so i often had a sensitive gut as a child even, when i felt anger, stress or fear it's often the strongest in the gut. Don't get diarrhea etc. often it's just an uncomfortable feeling in the gut. Which also often keeps me awake. and sometimes it can be from something i ate or from stress. I'm kind of always tired and battle with anxiety and irritability, but my days are completely different like one day i'm mostly fine (still kind of tired though) and the next day i just feel extremely tired, brain fog and very uncomfortable (more anxiety, mostly social etc.) so because of that fact i kind of get a bit obsessed with food. Because i think maybe it's something that i ate yesterday, or the days before that's causing more anxiety and fatigue in this moment etc. (less feel good hormones) If i had to guess i'd say it's something with the gut micro biome out of whack that they don't produce enough serotonin, dopamine etc. everyday. Or an inflammation thing. it could also be something else, the thing is the placebo/nocebo is also really strong so it's hard to tell, sometimes i cut out some food and feel better instantly but then a bit later (or days) i'm again fatigued and more anxious. about the gut, it's more in the lower gut in the intestines, colon i guess. recently (in the last few yrs) i've done a gastroscopy and a colonoscopy, the doc said it's mostly fine. i've also done a sibo test, but they only test for one variant here. The doc said those things are really hard to see and it could be ibs, gut micro biome out of whack etc. On keto (and carnivore) for example i felt less stressed, anxious etc. for sure but then after a month my sleep got worse and worse and i started to feel worse in general. Some other symptoms: Acne, didn't really have that but i started to having it more since like probably about 5 yrs. Comes and goes, different everyday/week Dandruff: had that since i was about 13 i think, sometimes a lot stronger and sometimes almost gone. Not sure if that has anything to do with anything but sometimes i think it's all tied together. There are many "weird" rabbit holes one can go down with those things like nutrition and (mental) health. For example i'm pretty sure i have an issue with acetylcholine like it makes me feel worse easily. Seems like "many" people on reddit do have such an issue. They often don't react great to choline supplements and even fish oil, it causes brain foggy feelings in some. So it's easy to get lost in that stuff. Still kind of interesting though.

I've heard many "spiritual teachers" say that they don't really fear anything and don't have fear or anxiety. Some say that ultimately everything comes down to a fear of death and if that fear is overcome the others kind of drop away too. And that'd actually be my goal too to get rid of so much useless anxiety

so dr. fauci created the pandemic so that then he could look like the hero who's saving the world from said plague? like the firemen who set fires? what a deviant little fox this guy is trying to deceive us with his cute grandpa looks and weird old people smells but not with us dr fauci, we're on to you.

I haven't seen it yet but from what i've seen it's not too far, it's his opinion and it's just some push back to the confused religion of "woke" this will go back and forth probably almost for ever like left vs. right etc.

lol ridiculous that's the most racist thing i've read on this board ever in terms of "familiarity" what does that have to do with your "power dynamics" and in terms of safety your theory also doesn't hold up. edit: thinking about it i don't feel like arguing with the believers of the "victimhood" religion/ideology you win

nice you're living the dream i say ride the wave and see where it takes you i know a guy who didn't have a lot of money and married a woman with a rich-ish family not sure how their relationship is but they have children and have been together for a decade

nicee let's see how many excuses me and my ego finds not to try it i'm too old i'm too fatigued those guys are weird/misogynist social anxiety covid

that's not what i asked though

have you tried metta (loving kindness) meditations?

lol@the cnn suck chant

probably not the worst but maybe the most annoying : P

If a white woman wants to just date white men because of similar background and feeling of safety, would you think it's totally fine or kind of racist?

Growing up as an only child with a single mother, grandparents died when i was young, it is sometimes a weird relationship. And she was often not very mentally stable (Well she was more stable than some of the other single mothers in my street, but some of those "children" are dead or in jail) I'd say our relationship is 70% good and 30% toxic. We're both sensitive which can cause a lot of fights. We fought a lot and even now in my 30s we can get into a heated non friendly argument quite easy. But she's also trustworthy imo and has mostly a good heart. Her birthday is one day after mine, both capricorns for what it's worth. I'm also scared when something happens to my her or she dies because then basically my whole family is gone. Remember as a kid i saw her have her first epileptic seizure while only the two of us were travelling in another country, think i was traumatised. Anyway what's your relationship with your mother? Didn't know where to put this

those things change over time imagine how it was 100 yrs ago look how it is now imagine how it is in a 100 yrs (probably nobody will really care)

growing up there were also a few (white girls) who only wanted black guys there are also many black girls who only want black guys so it goes both (all) ways how to deal with it? i mean you just have to accept peoples preferences in some ways. i think race shouldn't be a huge factor in getting into a relationship

the thing is with questions like these or even abortion etc. there isn't really a right answer and a wrong answer, it's all just opinions, so we can get trapped in those discussions for ever and ever and it's impossible for everybody to be happy

Yea i also want to buy a book with Rumis poetry not yet sure which one

it's a song by haddaway

get off social media tadaaaaa