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it has a lot in common with a high dose of edible cannbis. from my experience. the center of consciousness can merge with the surface you’re lying on.

@integral when people say mushrooms are loving, I find that so interesting because of how 180 degrees it is from my experience with them. and nn dmt. wow. people think it’s just this blissfull beautful thing. people really do exist in their own reality

@Joscha invisible guru forum jed mckenna (the “real” one) disagrees with book jed mckenna on that point. awakening is beautiful. book jed mckenna has a nihilistic streak. forum jed mckenna is much more conscious of the beauty and love of God. nihilism is only like stage one of awakening.

ketamine addiction… utterly horrifying be very careful guys. even monthly dissociative use can damage the bladder . Before using ketamine to treat depression for example, try “real” psychedelics. go to ketamine only if the first doesn’t work.

In rehab I had a “trip” or sleep paralysis experience where I took visteril to sleep with a noisy roomate. I remember waking up and there were these ghosts in my room, when they noticed me I realized they were my friends. We tried to exchange words but as soon as we did they would disappear. I think I went to sleep about 3 times because it came back in waves. When I went back to sleep it felt like there was a party going on in my room, with random people running in through the walls and closed door. it was quite unsettling, I didn’t use that medicine again.

insights into bad trips — there’s a huge amount of variation amongst nightmarish experiences. dumbassery and low consciousness reckless behavior are the primary factors that edge the merely bad trip into the psychologically damaging area. one idiot who ate an entire bushel of datura and ended up getting arrested exemplified this to me. — synthetics such as LSD, 2C-b and the 5 meos which generally bypass spiral dynamics stage purple delirium and “evil” are a miracle and a luxury of the modern world. life wasn’t always so easy for psychonauts. experiencing a sisnister version of alien consciousness on mushrooms made this crystal clear to me

even if you’ve been in the game for awhile , I think this book might still blow your mind just a bit, it did me. plus there’s lots of great sexual tension between Jane and her husband. fantastic read/ listen. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KepX0sfECUI&t=6313s

today I took an “extra large” (as per the package instructions) of legal amanita muscaria gummies hoping to go deep while listening to the gateway experience tapes. nada, zilch, nothin, but in some youtube comments lots of people were saying that they have been able to have a trip on this substance. I wonder if it’s one of those things where only half the population are able to digest it properly or somethin.

consider that a hyperspace being could be inside you right now (or you inside it?) unseen and apply that to the third dimensional universe as a whole

the scary thing about mushrooms is you never know what you’re gonna get, you don’t know if the 4 gram trip dose you do one week is gonna be less insane than the 6 gram trip you did last time. it’s also the best part about mushrooms. they often act as mirror of the most evil parts of yourself, but you can come out of that feeling like you excercised your demons and are reborn

lock myself in a pitch black room for a few days. get really good at astral projection. binaural beats to a lesser extent and prolonged darkness to a very great extent will release endogenous dmt and cause you to have transpersonal (perhaps not psychedelic per se) experiences

watching the chronicles of narnia on around 300 ug of LSD added an emotional and spiritual punch. aided by the nature of the movie itself being very Biblical of course. I experiened ego death as Asland died and God consciousness when he came back, it was a gorgeous experience. not an easy trip by any means. like when Asland died, it felt truly terrifying. as if I was Asland. watched pirates of the caribbean right after and at this point I was profoundly sleep deprived as this was a latenight trip so I had the experience of just goofing off with my mates and wishing the trip would end so I could go to bed lol. side note we had a friend who wasn’t tripping but he definitely also felt some effects from us. these things alter our brainwaves, which probably can also affect others.

thanks . next time I’ll try a different brand!

all of a sudden have an urge to learn the math of game design. physics is crazy. I wouldn’t mind making a game or two. just for fun, I don’t wanna work in the industry. maybe I’ll make a game with my own music in the soundtrack. that would be a badass way of combining my skillsets. concept art would most likely be outsourced.

conservative doing some good metaphysics and epistemology. gets a little too triggered by secualrism for my taste. could go farther and deeper. very interesting overall and a different perspective from what I'm used to with leo and others, but covers lots of the same ground.

One absolutely central inconsistency ruins [the naturalistic worldview].... The whole picture professes to depend on inferences from observed facts. Unless inference is valid, the whole picture disappears.... Unless Reason is an absolute--all is in ruins. Yet those who ask me to believe this world picture also ask me to believe that Reason is simply the unforeseen and unintended by-product of mindless matter at one stage of its endless and aimless becoming. Here is flat contradiction. They ask me at the same moment to accept a conclusion and to discredit the only testimony on which that conclusion can be based. — C. S. Lewis

more ways in which I as a liberal am conservative 1.) psychedelics — I don’t know shit about psychedelics, every trip is unique. — I try not to to reckless things, for instance I haven’t had a breakthrough trip on dmt “just because that’s what you do” , all my dmt trips thus far have been low-dose and will continue to be low-dose until I’ve gotten all I can out of it — I’m extremely cautious about my marijuana use, I went to rehab when it was taking over my life and followed up with recovery meetings because I don’t want my life to be out of my hands 2.) work ethic I believe in the value of hard work. I know that if I don’t take school seriously I’ll live a mediocre life. 3.) sex and dating as I previously stated, I haven’t had sex with every single person I potentially could have. Generally speaking if I don’t see a future with someone I won’t have sex with them just because. I am extremely cautious about playing with women’s feelings. I don’t want to hurt anyone. 4.) technology and artificial intelligence, I am on board with calls to limit research into ai until we can learn more about it. we need to make sure it’s morally aligned to our highest good before plowing forward. 5.) spirituality I think there’s a right and a wrong way to do spirituality. neo advaita is bs for instance. understanding God is a serious pursuit for serious thinkers, not a wishful thinking “already enlightened” thing. furthermore I recognize that taking a bunch of psychedelics or becoming a great meditator is NOT the same as awakening. fundamentally awakening is about serious contemplation, not practices. the practices are only good if they’re in service of contemplation.

Awareness alone is curative is an absolute classic imo

that’s a bit like asking if you can get hooked on antidepressants. while (maybe?) possible, it’s very hard to imagine

jerk off furiously

Don’t be a Shopenhauer. God is all upside.

level of conscious (0 to 1000) reading of substances, just a joke 986 . >> 5 meo dmt impressions: God, absolute infinity, truth, shock and awe, terror 944 >> 2c-P Bliss, God, infinity, truth, sexuality 912 >> Mescaline Grandfather, safe, sancitiy, God , truth 907 >> 2c-B Introductory, gentle, love, sexuality 860 >> Ayahuasca, Pharmahuasca, and Changa Mother, alien, revelation, God 777 >> LSA and morning glory Agony, suffering, God, absolute infinity 768 >> LSD Cosmic consciousness, God, energy, awakening, confusion 814 >> penicilin Love, safety, protection, freedom from pain 696 >> DMT Extraterestrial, God, truth, beauty, twisted sense of humor, reptilian 686 >> Psilocybin mushrooms and 4 aco dmt Extraterestrial, confusion, infinity, healing, God, twisted sense of humor 677 >> Salvia Extraterestrial, confusion, break through, God , twisted sense of humor 570 >> Marijuana Trickster, God, love, dependence

observe yourself. awareness alone is curative. that's how I finally stopped smoking so much pot. it became too painful you could also try rehab, of sorts, by going somewhere without internet for a week.

maybe try picking up a combat sport like jiu-jitsu or boxing for a few months

acknowledge that you already do love yourself, otherwise you wouldn't have made it this far, but that you just aren't very good at it.