Oppositionless

I want to learn how to surrender to myself more. thank you.

why I won’t commit suicide. unless I have a chronic terminal illness and am totally non-functioning. beyond just the harm it would cause my loved ones possibility one: spirituality is true . which would mean that I am an immortal soul who willingly choss to incarnate as a human . suicide would be completely counterproductive , and I’d probably just want to come back to finish my mission anyway. possibility two: the materialist perspective, which I havent completely deconstructed yet. life is a one time thing, and when I die I will literally cease to exist so basically nothing could be bad enough to prematurely end my existence. either way, whether I like it in the moment or not, here I am. it basically doesn’t matter how bad my depression gets, I’m still gonna fight and keep growing.

everything. they say death is the root of all fear but I think existence itself is. not being in control, I believe, is the source of our fear. we are absolutely powerless to reality.

atheists can be idealists. Because idealists might still not understand things like the intelligence of consciousness. I think most nondualists picture consciousness as a kind of inanimate material-esque thing. the way physicists view matter.

everyone is on a journey, in their own universe. every person alive has an entirely unique consciousness that transcends any notion of a ubiquitous standard. maybe my dream is just what I believe? I like kinesiology for practical things. Like finding my cat. it's ultimately just me. but I can control what I believe.

everything is not one every one is an infinite one

have you ever tried masturbating without porn? it might be weird at first, but it's a lot healthier not to bombard your brain with nonsense

I think the biggest risk for Russia in the wake of the Ukraine war, is that Russian ethnic minority states will declare independence https://www.rferl.org/a/russia-ethnic-minorities-independence-ukraine-war/32210542.html Putin is too narcissistic to cut his losses and retreat. because of this his empire is on the brink of collapse. he can't even stop Ukraine from drone striking Moscow. and in the last month over thirty draft offices have been burnt to the ground by Ukrainian operatives let this be motivation for America to VOTE in 2024. Trump is every bit as deranged as Putin and would not, I believe, hesitate at the chance to invade Mexico given the opportunity. THERE IS A PRECEDENT OF CANDIDATES RUNNING FROM PRISON

my best pickup experience was at a drag show that had a rave afterwards Im pretty sure being one of a dozen or so straight guys there helped but more than that, just being there said something about my level of consciousness that was very sexy. tee hee

consider that psychopaths and sociopaths do the bad things they do because of existential, absolute boredom.

Souvlaki by Slowdive is my favorite album of all time, and even though I’m not crazy about the music they’ve been putting out lately, I’m glad they’re still making it. their new album is titled “everything is alive” which I quite like the sound of. because it’s true as far as modern dreampop and shoegaze, Magdalena Bay is my favorite, they’re divine.

I’m working hard to be more authentic online. I didn’t post here for a couple weeks because I was disgusted with myself.

I think that’s one of the shadow aspects of our medical advances. a lot of old people with no friends or spouse who just want to go home.

chaste monks will never understand the awkanening that occurs in a lover’s embrace

I think you can transcend fear of death without knowing what comes next. yeah maybe I take that back, just because I’m not inside leo’s head. I just don’t think anyone is more likely than him to have transcended the fear of death. but perhaps no one has

it’s just become apparent to me in reading people’s stories and my own family, that once a terminal illness is declared and especially if there is major pain, it becomes a lot less scary

I’m 99% confident only Leo has. one thing I’ve learned from nde’s and people with terminal illness however, is that once it’s inevitable, fear kinda dissolves. have you ever considered that the fear is actually a good thing? it’s a fantastic motivator. it makes life so much more interesting.

my online persona is pure farce, an infinite web of machinery

after seeing the magnificently anxiety-inducing movie Oppenheimer, I have just one question: HOW LONG UNTIL WE GET A BIG-BUDGET MOVIE ABOUT PROJECT STARGATE? (men who stare at goats doesn't count)

music production

just the brute fact of consciousness existing debunks physicalism

I’m pretty sure aliens use technology to enchance their psychic abilities. that’s how these craft are able to perform such jaw-dropping seemingly physically impossible maneuvers

@Yimpa it's pretty awful. my sophomore year of college was one long high. terrible grades, little to no social interaction.

yeah rosin is just the good shit. none of the plant matter. you can attain a similar effect by using a vaporizer. I've heard good things about the Mighty

I'm trying to reconcile the magic of God with the suffering and inequality in the world. I can see why people cling to materialism. in some ways it's a comforting philosophy, there's so much bad stuff in the world that believing in Love , Consciousness and God can lead to some major disappointment. it's hard for me to not feel like God is singling me out sometimes. sometimes synchronicities just feel like a "fuck you in particular" rather than a sign of good things to come.