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Yeah that's true. I'm good at this aswell and it's also super fun. This is also a super interesting thing to learn more about! To understand organizations, society, the world aka the collective ego.

Yeah I get it, it's hard when you're a creative motherfucker There are so many ideas, plans, interests and things that one can do. It's hard to chose. Cool to hear that someone else also also loves the thrill of understanding people to their soul Did you see this pattern If you look back to when you first completed the LP course? ( Signs that giving people insights was your main LP and gift?

Yeah man. Thanks for giving me what I wanted to hear lmao. This has honestly been my plan all along but it's still hard to commit to it. Sometimes it feels unrealistic and like I don't have the time to master both, which is kind of true in a way - but at the same time, it doesn't exclude the other one. I will go for my main LP and than have this as a secondary one and see it as a hobby LP which can help me Express the other side of me aswell. Thanks for your perspective man!

Super true! I love that. Thanks for your perspective! That's what my music intends to give people actually, and I think it can succeed in that. My lyrics is very deep and get to the bottom of a lot of feelings but a lot deeper than people usually go. My music reflects my LP in other words.

It should but fuck man, my intuition is telling me to do both. It switches, one day I'm all in music and one day I'm all in intuitive insights to people. It depends on what I do. Another factor is that I forget how much I love giving people insights cause I don't socialize at all and create more music. It's a confusing, but at the same time kind of fun beautiful situation. I love both things. I think both is the answer

True but It's hard to do it intuitively.

Nope, one usually attracts a partner which needs the opposite of what you need. This happens because you can both give and get something. Needy Acceptance and love but in two different ways. One with a lot of self confidence but lack of self esteem ( strong ego) will therefor attract a person who have a lot of trauma and is depressed or something along that line. This because this person will be what you want you subconsciously want your lover to be.. someone who is super dependent on you cause you're so so important for this person. The person who is depressed and in need will than in return attract someone who will save them, and someone who wants to save them. And that's why you see this pattern. You get attracted to these girls cause they need you and you need them. You attract codependency cause that makes your ego feel loved. The same goes for the other girls. If I were you, I would start practicing self love and keep doing personal development. Keep meditating, keep learning, keep growing... but also start loving. Both yourself and other people. Start to find ways accept yourself and your feelings more. Don't fall for the trap of toxic relationships. It's not worth it, eventhough your ego is desperate for it.

All of the 3 is a practice. Google around and see what you can find. You need to reprogram your subconscious mind and together with this expand your conciousness. GL

I have thought about that aswell but than again. That's a completely different life purpose than talking to people and giving them insights on the fly! Thanks for the suggestion tho

True! Hmmm, maybe. But I'm not sure if it can be like that. What I'm great at exactly is talking to people like you for example and than understanding and getting intuitive deep insights about you and the world which I than can share.

Sounds like repression and projection. I think you're trying to avoid thinking thoughts related to this and than when you do it you beat yourself up and get angry at yourself. This anger is than projected outwards towards those who are gay which is more convenient for your self image. In other words you interpreted this thought as a proof/ or danger of you being gay or something related which you subconsciously or consciously obviously is scared to be. That's why you immediately after solved the issue by the" I'm not gay" thought. You got angry cause your thought felt like an attack on your self image, aka your ego. Hope this insight helps, also look into self compassion, shadow work and forgiveness, it will help you.

Honestly I haven't done a lot of It. I like to talk and inspire people and have done that in school but to be fair, I don't know If that is my ideal niche. All I know is that I don't want to get locked up in a byrocratic system and that life coaching doesn't feel right. I want to do something else.

Bro. The time is worth it. It can change your life if you put in the time. Not saying what you should do, but man - If I was you I would do it even if it took 2 years to complete the course. That's how valuable the process was for me, but than again - it's your life, your choices and your responsibility. Only you can decide and know what's best for you right now. Good luck! All the best

Got it bro. One insight that have helped me a lot is that when you feel self hatred you're scared of feeling feelings that are linked to that. ( shame and low self esteem). In other words you try to control your emotional state and repress your emotions instead of allowing them to be a part of your experience. With not allowing them I mean that you try to find explanations to them and rationalization as to why you're in reality is not X and or trying to avoid the feeling/ destract yourself from the feeling and or avoid a scenario where you feel self hatred in the future. Think of it like this. If I where to drop an apple on the kitchen floor a lot of people would still dare to eat it while some people who are hypochondrics for example wouldn't dare to do it. The people who wouldn't eat it makes this decision because of the fear of what might happen if they did eat it - while the person who would eat it may be aware of the potential risk but has accepted that fact and scenario and not created a narrative around what would happen. The same goes for you but with your repressed emotions. You are scared of the feeling self hatred because you have created a story about what the feeling means. You have not accepted your feelings, why? Because if you in your eyes would accept your emotions you would be " fucked" because that would mean that your feared scenario of you being a person who hates themselves would become true. Don't make a big deal out of feelings, they are just feelings - and don't mean anything. Ponder this question. If someone close to you where to say, it's okey to feel shame, hatred or anger, what would you tell them? Would you agree with them? Why and why not? Love

https://self-compassion.org/category/exercises/ I'm working through the same problem myself right now. I have already started to see small improvements from a couple of months daylie practice with the " self compassion/ loving kindness meditation that can be found on the site above. Good luck!

It may be because you become obbsessive with one thing which then kind of freakes your ego out. In other words, maybe you do to much at a time and then your ego drags you back to homeostasis.

Do you have a lot of hate in you?

I struggle with focusing, starting and finishing projects. For some reason it feels impossible to work for 5, 6, 7, 8, 10 hours a day. I get super fucking distracted and start doing other stuff and just can't focus or make myself do what I should be doing. No, I don't have ADHD. I think the reason why I struggle with this might be because I'm an INFP with extroverted intuition as a primary function and that I therifor gravitate towards doing multiple things.... But there has to be a way to learn how to work hard regardless, right? What's your advice to develop an amazing work ethic and get shit rolling? What are some good books and recorses that you recomend? I would appreciate your help! @Leo Gura

Yes, that's what I've been trying for two days now and it works quite okey. I should look into doing weekly goals aswell. I meditate and do breathing exercises for 50 min every day, it helps a lot. Working hard I have figured is kinda like meditation, just pu your attention back to the thing you want to do. Thanks for your help Tim!

Still trying to build and refine this vision. I'm about to complete Leo's life purpose course and I feel the thrill, but I still struggle to discipline myself the way I want. ( maybe it's all fine, but it feels like some people can motivate and stick to tasks very fucking good - and I struggle with that)

That maybe would be something, thanks for the tip! Yes I do. I am unemployed right now but I am studying for to a test to attend university. I'm 19 years old.

Yes - I have that but I still struggle to follow thourgh and just put in the hours. What is step 1 after the vision to develop a strong work ethic?

Okey, got it. A more compelling vision But this doesn't seem to be enough. This is not the Only problem I Think, I just can't get myself to sit and work 5,6,7,8 hours a day cause my Brain get tired after a while.

Kind of disappointed you didn't put hot witch as a requirement @Leo Gura