Realms of Wonder

Hobbies include Eating clean Bicycling Reading Walking Meditating Drawing/coloring Painting Drinking Water Sarcasm Talking it made up accents and voices Masturbation 90% of my time on this Forum Lying Making mistakes Cooking Bragging about my hobbies on this forum

Instead of that, send me to video, and communicate what parts need music and what kind. If it aligns with my brand then I would be happy to will write custom music for it.

Thanks for the reply. Part of me agrees with you, during this period I am working 25 hours a week and going to school 25 hours a week, plus 10-14 hours of routines I have developed. Not a lot of time to play live shows or write a song a day. After school I think it would be really beneficial to take a quantity approach. What is the video you had in mind?

Now to find a way to integrate that into the week to week, month to month lifestyle. In a balanced, sustainable way.

The Year moves, on, with me in its flow. I look back to when I made these decisions. Become a Licensed Massage Therapist No Dairy, Gluten or processed sugar and junk food I am half way through my second term of school, the amount of learning, both externally and internally is fascinating, the skill being developed is so satisfying. and along that way, feeling better and better in my body, finding what works for me and what doesn't.

How can you know that your life purpose is music related if you’ve never played? I’m confused by that. You’re right, in any field one could dedicate their whole life to it and never get recognition from others. But don’t let that stop you from living an authentic life. (I’m not saying it will happen, and a lot of it is YOU dependent, but it’s still important to recognize.) From my perspective It really needs to be something you LOVE to do, so that you would do it even if no one ever accessed it. AND, it’s important that it’s something others need/want and are willing to pay for. If the main motivation is validation and recognition. I don’t see a way for anyone to last through the initial 3-5 years to build a skill set. And even at that point if people start validating and recognizing the work, it can’t be authentic work if it’s done for approval and recognition. Also, it’s important to recognize that big picture, a life purpose is more than the medium (music in this case,) it’s an overarching mission and vision of the most meaningful impact possible in your life.

I love that you have rediscovered something so meaningful to you. It sounds like it’s been a long time coming. Alarm bells start going off in my head when I see a lack of impact on the world. What impact would be most meaningful to make in the world? or how would you impact people in the world with what you have articulated here?

A few qualities come to mind. Vision Heart Leading by Example Open to Feedback Desiring to understand those who follow Empowering/Encouraging Truthful Authentic Wise Loving Connection Oriented Able to say "I Don't Know" Creative Articulate or able to communicate clearly Assertive Asks High Quality Questions

My guess is unmet sex/sexual intimacy needs. I think this because of very similar experiences, (granted, on mushrooms,) where my mind would fixate on sex, masturbation, being horny, watching porn, imagining sex, etc... I have a girlfriend now, and I have noticed that yes, it is still there if I want to engage, but is no longer a controlling force.

I am in Massage school, Currently the most challenging class is Anatomy, Physiology and Pathology. My strategy so far has been to make flashcards and active recall the answers, just brute repetition, which works, I want to be sure I understand the material before the actual quiz so tonight I tried something new, Using Chatgpt I wrote this prompt. 'Write me a 15 question, multiple choice, short answer and true/false practice quiz based on this study guide. (fill with specific study guide.) Do not give me the answers" It proceeds to spit out a quiz, to which I respond, "grade my quiz based on these answers. 1 = a, 2 = d, 3 = false (etc..)" The result is incredible, so satisfying! Not only will it grade the quiz, but also, if you think you got the answer right and it thinks you got it wrong, you can refute it and it will check to see based on your argument. For example. I think this is fascinating. Holy shit this is cool!

Watched this video which was quite interesting.

An addition to this, you can ask Chatgpt to summarize the concept in nouns and adjectives seperated by commas, making it easier to be "read" by the AI Art Generator

This is an important point to recognize, thanks for making that distinction. In a very literal way, it is very similar to autocorrect, as well as the auto-sentence completion that pops up in an email.

what about Porn?

Core issue I think of when seeing this post is that you dont know yourself well enough to build an authentic vision for your life. If I were in your position I would use that money to get training in areas that excite me , things I inherently want to do, skills or competencies that I am drawn to, while at the same time developing an understanding of my self by answering these questions and ones similar to them. What do I really want out of life? What would I regret not doing in life? What thing do I love to do that I can do for long periods of time without getting tired? What energizes me? if you sit down for an hour or two and really flesh out the answers, that will help a lot, do this 10-20 more times and you'll understand yourself and what to do much deeper.

Inspire them with a vision they believe in, so they come to work for themselves. Center everything in the business in that vision, that "Why"

Oh man... here's a list, not in any order Ate part of a pineapple skin on out of curiosity. really tore up my lips Peed on a sidewalk during a rainstorm Tore up my blinds and almost kicked out that window Asked some strangers if I could punch them Asked my roommate to rub my toes Peed my pants out of curiosity Woke up all my roommates by going in their rooms at 2 in the morning Man I was a fool.. lol, learned a lot about post trip acceptance/self-love.

One way of looking at it is that its intelligence is a mirror of the questions asked of it by humans.

other ways I am using it. Researching specific niches Researching societal impacts of my life-purpose researching whether or not my "purple cow" is actually remarkable shit testing my ideas Practice quizzes based on study guides for school

Branding Content ideas Articulating ways my vision will impact the world Planning Studying Broad overviews Skill building

Well, its the beginning of a new year, am I still on track? Yes! Aside from thanksgiving and a run in with a white chocolate bar and three uber processed "granola bars." I have continued to eat gluten free, dairy free, no added sugar, and no processed food. Energy levels are consistent and amazing. Today was day 1 of term two at school. Very excited to continue

Hi Actualizing crew! Context of solo retreat: Alone in an Airbnb in rural Idaho, no internet, no phone, laptop used as a word processer (commonplace book,) and my camera for recording insights. Here is a list of insights that I feel are important to communicate. Visioning. One of the reasons creating an authentic, emotionally compelling vision for my Life has been so difficult is because I haven't had the life experience to know what is meaningful to me, what is emotionally compelling, or what I really want. On top of that, never before have I spend so much time reflecting, thinking, compiling and stitching together so many diverse threads into one "cohesive" vision. For my vision to be authentic, it has to be mine and no one else's, yes there may be parts of it similar to others, or even direct copies IF it is in alignment with my values and my authentic self. One of the reasons it hasn’t felt emotional is because up until this articulation, it has just been "a" vision, not MY vision. The more specific I am with what I want in life, the more motivated I become to put in the effort to actualize it. All parts welcome. During the retreat there were 3 different DMT sessions, one of which, I was reflecting on a mistake I had made, and a part said, "we'll just keep some parts hidden," another part spoke up and said, "why not let them all out?" As soon as I said that, I felt this part of me that felt 4 maybe 5 years old, and raging mad, he was so full of the rage that he wasn’t allowed to be mad as a kid, and was surprised to be out in the open, loved and welcomed as a part of the whole. My Why. I love Simon Sinek, his perspective on branding, a just cause, life purpose and a WHY, really resonates with me. It's been almost exactly 4 years since I started the life purpose course for the first time (LOL.) During those years, I have taken it 4 maybe 5 more times and have yet to finish it. Each time however I gained more clarity, and more understanding of WHY I am alive, and what I really believe the world needs. Somewhere during this retreat it clicked, my why is a vision of the future, "I imagine a world full of people that love themselves unconditionally, and make choices to live in alignment with their values and Vision." my mission statement then becomes, "To Play music that articulates the wisdom of Self-Love and Authenticity." I fully recognize this isn't something I will see fully actualized in my human lifetime, there's a lot more people in the world then I can impact in one life, that’s okay. There will be further iterations of both this vision and my mission statement, and that is awesome! For now, this is the most authentic it has ever been. I think much too small. (Yet I am still worthy of love.) During this retreat there were moments when it felt like my mind was getting blown up like a balloon, expanding, allowing bigger, more expansive thoughts into my consciousness. It doesn't feel like "I" was having these ideas, it felt like it was happening, and I was witnessing it.. So maybe I was having these thoughts… unclear An example of this is the impact I want to have on the world. Much too small. I have been thinking of the impact I want to have on people in my generation, boys and girls raised Christian, born between '97 and '04, trained to be closed minded, etc.. Now I am realizing that if I actualize my life purpose to the degree I am capable of, the ones directly impact by my work will go on to mature, live authentic lives and learn to love themselves unconditionally, AND have children of their own, that they will raise with those values, these children will go on to be world changers and evolutionaries, imagine the second, third, fourth generation! The ripple effect of my life purpose is limited only by me and my mind. Realizing this and writing it out during the retreat was stream of consciousness, my mind was thinking, "holy shit, that is so cool, imagine that, IMAGINE THAT!!!" and Reality is sitting there with a cosmic grin. I love ME. I have been denying who I am for most of my life, which is why I value Authenticity and Self-Love so fucking much. I spent so much of my life from 7/8-20 rejecting myself, being inauthentic, people pleasing, sacrificing my own values and vision to make others "happy." During this retreat there was a deep connection between Paul, the identity, and whatever is "with" that identity, being with it, watching and observing, always close. And it was beautiful to see, and be. I love being myself, I am tired of needing be different to love myself, fuck that, I love myself now, as I am, from the size of my nose to my beautiful crooked smile, to my eyes and my ears, to my personality and my weaknesses, the parts still hidden in shadow, the unconsciousness and consciousness. All of it, worthy of love as is. "I AM with you, as YOU are" Spiritual cleansing. I got a palpable sense of how much cleansing my ego must go through to access deeper levels of reality. It's not that they aren't there now, it's more that my mind is too rigid to fathom it, my mind is too locked up to allow it in. This is not a judgement of myself, I am here now, I am supposed to be here now, if I was meant to be fully awakened now, I would be, I am not. Which is heartbreaking and super exciting. Time alone means… Time to think about my life, where it is going, where it has been, what I have done well, what I can improve, vision, and dream. Puzzle pieces to fall into place and connect: It feels like so many little nuggets fell into place this retreat. Reminded me of Leo's 6th Blog post. "Sometimes learning a fact is enough to make an entire series of corroborating details, previously unrecognized, fall into place." — Jorge Luis Borges Being bored, detaching from stimulus Growth Falling off track. I already know there will be an ego backlash when I re-enter my normal life, and I am aware that I will probably lose touch with the concentrated, focused state I am in now, and that is okay, to me this was the second bite of a delicious appetizer. The full meal will be in 3-5 years when I can take 2-4 of these a year. I realize that the habits I do have in place, are the baseline I will fall to, so even when I do "fall off the horse," there is "padding" to stop me from hitting ground bottom. All in all, fuck being inauthentic, Be True.

Love this analysis, This is my first exposure to him, and watched his video "I would not like to get into a fight with this person" "Is it necessary to be so aggressive, loud, and "over the top?" As I listened though, I am hearing a wisdom in his words built though challenging experience, I also see a level of inspiration in him, motivation to actualize his purpose, that inspires me. Very interesting character, Now I wanna watch more

interesting.. Prompt: write a song using nature principles to articulate the journey of someone healing from childhood trauma from the perspective of an unconditionally loving older version of that person. Verse 1: I used to be broken, my heart filled with pain I carried the weight of the world on my shoulders, it was all that remained But now I stand tall, my roots deep in the earth I've learned to let go, and let my wounds give birth Chorus: I am the wind, blowing free and wild I am the fire, burning bright and strong I am the water, flowing endlessly I am the earth, grounded and at peace Verse 2: I used to be lost, searching for my way I held onto anger, it seemed to be all that I could say But now I see clearly, the light shining in my eyes I've learned to forgive, and embrace my life Chorus: I am the wind, blowing free and wild I am the fire, burning bright and strong I am the water, flowing endlessly I am the earth, grounded and at peace Bridge: I've learned to trust the journey, and let go of control I've found my strength in surrender, and let my heart unfold I am healing, I am whole I am love, and I am free Chorus: I am the wind, blowing free and wild I am the fire, burning bright and strong I am the water, flowing endlessly I am the earth, grounded and at peace

@spiritual memes Reframed your question Prompt: Explain how to solve the hard problem of consciousness? The problem of consciousness, or the question of how and why we have subjective experiences, is one of the most challenging and enigmatic issues in philosophy and science. It is not yet fully understood, and there is ongoing debate and research in this area. One approach to understanding consciousness is through the study of neuroscience, which investigates the brain and its functions. Researchers in this field have made significant progress in understanding the brain mechanisms that underlie various mental states, such as perception, attention, and memory. However, it is not yet clear how these brain mechanisms give rise to subjective experiences, and the relationship between brain activity and consciousness remains an open question. Another approach to understanding consciousness is through the study of philosophy and metaphysics, which involve theoretical and abstract thinking about the nature of reality. Philosophers have proposed a variety of theories about consciousness, including dualism, which posits that consciousness is a separate entity from the physical body, and materialism, which argues that consciousness is a product of the brain and its functions. Ultimately, the problem of consciousness is a complex and multifaceted issue, and it may take a combination of approaches from various fields of study to fully understand it. While we may not yet have all the answers, the study of consciousness is an active and vibrant area of research that continues to generate new insights and ideas.