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Watched "All Divine All Human | Matt Kahn"

Today I watched "Enlightenment Guided Inquiry - The Neti Neti Method" Meditated for 18 minutes. Read for 2 hours

I never thought I'd be a killer Cause there's so much to lose But if I can't drink the water What else can I do And although the axe is heavy It just sits in my hands While you're changing like the current Not a shore on land Every time I try to bring it down You always turn my head around Make up your mind Let me live or let me love you While you've been saving your neck I've been breaking mine for you The power is on, the guillotine hums My back's to the wall, go on, let it fall, oh Make up your mind Before I make it up for you I never thought that I'd be facing A sea that's bluer than the tide [?] Now my knees are shaking And I can't look in your eyes But if you're gonna make me do it How'd you want it done Is it best to sip it slowly Or drink it down in one Every time I try to bring it down You always turn my head around Make up your mind Let me live or let me love you While you've been saving your neck I've been breaking mine for you The power is on, the guillotine hums My back's to the wall, go on, let it fall, oh Make up your mind Before I make it up for you The executioner's within me And he comes blindfold ready Sword in hand And arms so steady Every time I try to bring it down You always turn my head around But every time I try to bring it down You always turn my head around Make up your mind Let me live or let me love you While you've been saving your neck I've been breaking mine for you The power is on, the guillotine hums My back's to the wall, go on, let it fall, oh Make up your mind Before I make it up for you Make up your mind Let me live or let me love you While you've been saving your neck I've been breaking mine for you The power is on, the guillotine hums My back's to the wall, go on, let it fall Oh, make up your mind Before I make it up for you (my tears stream down my face. I look up and the eyes of wizard stares back at me through the smoke. The eyes of wellbeing, that streams life energy. So rarely do I meet him these days. 'Let me live or let me love you'. 'don't drown in a sea of negativity when you can float in an ocean of life')

Where is this in the spiritual community? It's sorely missing. I only really see it in dreams and visions. I guess be the change you wish to see?: "I am the way and the truth and the life." "The thief cometh not but to steal and to kill and to destroy. I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." "but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” "I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty." "So I have come down to deliver them from the power of the Egyptians, and to bring them up from that land to a good and spacious land, to a land flowing with milk and honey"

I think journalling (and not speaking in front of wide audience or asking a question) is good for those who are first starting out. Who are just learning about the extents of their intellectual prowess and knowledge and experimenting with it and then from there they can expand and take it to the forums and ask questions etc. Not everyone is at such an advanced stage as you are cognitively and intellectually. Perhaps they have other strengths.

Mum You took the burden of Death energy from me when it was too great for me. You absorbed it all. All the Death energy that I would absorb into my body would transfer to you, for some inexplicable reason. You took it all from me. Because the greater part of you loved me. I'm sorry for doubting your love.

Overcoming Death energy Death energy can be overcome by directing sublime gaze toward it. Life or Love defeats Death. I have overcome Death several times from Death energy (in the dream it would have looked like dehydration or starvation death) directed toward me, burning up and I overcame it by allowing the Death energy to purify me and directing sublime gaze toward it. Something (perhaps the universe, perhaps God) was challenging me to overcome and master Death.

Death energy I've literally been acquainted with and shaped by Death energy over the last few years, in smells and visions. You have to rely on sublime gaze to get through with streams of Life energy flowing to you. Streams of Life energy in visions and in smells. I thought something was wrong with me to be fronted with Death energy like that. But I realize now the meek's path was familiar with Death energy from the start and he was made for spiritual purification and mastery over Life and Death.

Speaking in tongues Speaking in tongues is leading with your strengths (spirituality) while perhaps having an intelligence or understanding deficit fundamentally, even while Life runs through you. I think an intelligence or understanding deficit is common for a small being or Death energy acquainted being. You have two ways you can approach it, overcoming a deficit: leading with your strength and boosting your Life energy.

When sublime gaze is reflected back to you and you are brought to Life your intelligence raises. Hence why it is best for a small being to focus on their strengths. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and everything else will follow. Sublime gaze or Love is often gifted to someone close to Death or Death Energy, I think (a small being can be a being close to Death). Someone who knows Life and Death, who is well acquainted with Life energy and Death energy. Death has a purifying effect.

When you have intellectual weaknesses and deficits and spiritual strengths the most important thing is to rely on your strengths and to drop your weaknesses mostly I've learned. Although you can sure up your weaknesses in your spare time, it's best to rely most on and lead by your strengths. My strength lies in spirituality and my weakness lies in intellectual prowess and understanding. If I focus too much on my weaknesses I get burnt. When I focus on my strengths I am successful.

This is helpful since I struggle intellectually and want to improve my IQ. Thanks!

I think it's particularly tricky when you are under some kind of guardianship or dependency on deeply unconscious people. It can be truly debilitating and disabling. I've tried every trick in the book. Your body will still burn up with a fight or flight response in unsafe conditions even when you don't act on it. It's easy to give solutions and ideas from afar but up front and personal it's a very difficult situation because your body is constantly betraying you and putting you in pain. I do face the pain, you can't not face the pain. Either you act out from the flight or fight (which is what most narcissists learn to do from their narcissistic parents) or you face it and let it burn through you. Take the high road, as Matt Kahn would say. Remain soft and open. Not bitter. It's still highly debilitating and disabling. To act out the fight or flight, would be the easy way out. That said, venting and emotional breakdowns will occur inevitably as a result of the above. Preferably not publicly but sometimes publicly. You have to have the right attitude and gentleness to be able to deal with such a problem, that comes up over and over and over. It's grating on the nerves. How do you deal with such a problem? I've found that if you can view it from the angle of it being contrast when leading with the general/meditation/joy then you are coming from the 5th step in Abraham Hick's paradigm which is enjoying the contrast. And you can apply this to any contrast, as long as you are leading with the general.

Thank you Razard for understanding. Yes I do face the pain, you can't not face the pain. Either you act out from the flight or fight (which is what most narcissists learn to do from their narcissistic parents) or you face it and let it burn through you. Take the high road, as Matt Kahn would say. Remain soft and open. Not bitter. It's still highly debilitating and disabling. To act out the fight or flight, would be the easy way out.

I think it's particularly tricky when you are under some kind of guardianship or dependency of deeply unconscious people. It can be truly debilitating and disabling. I've tried every trick in the book. Your body will still burn up with a fight or flight response in unsafe conditions even when you don't act on it. It's easy to give solutions and ideas from afar but up front and personal it's a very difficult situation because your body is constantly betraying you and putting you in pain.

Meditation for sublime gaze Meditation stops thought which releases resistance and so sublime gaze can fully emerge, what I would call 'beautiful energies' but in actuality was sublime gaze in full. You can then, from that stance, turn your gaze, on yourself and transform yourself, bringing yourself to Life through Love. I would experience visions during Jhanic activation.

Sublime gaze turned toward the self brings the self to Life. Love brings you to Life. Be your own fairy godmother. In reality, the fairy godmother is a sublime gaze reflected back in dreams and visions or purposefully. I see it in words, dreams, visions, and imagination. I would often say that a small creature would remain small until they transformed themselves through dreams and visions of their hidden sublime gaze reflected back to them.

Love and Life or 'God and Love' are also ever-present qualities with us, right now. They are either in balance or they are not. They are either full or weak. Frequently weaker in the non-heavenly sphere and strong in the heavenly sphere. In the above example, there was a fullness of Life and not a lot of Love, due to too much Love. There were half angels (fallen angels). Lucifer is an example of a half-angel, full of Life and not Love.

God and Love would be the result of turquoise or enlightened society. Love is sublime Gaze. God and Love is what happens when you see Sublime Gaze reflected back to you. Love and Life. Love brings you to Life. "Dearest one, your gaze is sublime, turn it upon yourself" "The divine masculine naturally embodies the aspect of GOD. The divine feminine the aspect of (feminine) LOVE and HEART. Both need to be honored." "You have to bring the teaching down to earth. Walk your talk. Identifying the self as God and the other as God shows up differently in reality. 'God and love'." Love is Sublime Gaze. 'God' is Life. Sublime Gaze turned upon yourself or the other. You can see these ideals playing out in the public sphere in terms of the integration of masculine and feminine, narcissism and empath (super empath)

They are the spice of life. The salt in your soup. With transmutation, you won't overdose on said spices and salts. Leading with union - Division is transmuted into the salt and spice of life. . you can accept that if there is no resistance in your experience that joy is what you will return to and so as you focus upon that joyful state that inner being that exists in the vortex is vibrating at as you focus upon that joyful state and then you focus upon your point of Attraction and you acknowledge that your dominant intent is to provide an environment where things of a joyful nature can make their way into your experience so you decide to go very general meditation is maybe the best way to go general of all because when you quiet your mind you stop thought and when you stop thought you stop resistance and when you stop resistance then you have accomplished a point of attraction that will allow the things that are a vibrational match to that to flow from your vortex into your experience- Abraham hicks . God and Love would be the result of turquoise or enlightened society. Love is sublime Gaze. God and Love is what happens when you see Sublime Gaze reflected back to you. Love and Life. Love brings you to Life. "Dearest one, your gaze is sublime, turn it upon yourself" "The divine masculine naturally embodies the aspect of GOD. The divine feminine the aspect of (feminine) LOVE and HEART. Both need to be honored." "You have to bring the teaching down to earth. Walk your talk. Identifying the self as God and the other as God shows up differently in reality. 'God and love'." Love is Sublime Gaze. 'God' is Life. Sublime Gaze turned upon yourself or the other. You can see these ideals playing out in the public sphere in terms of the integration of masculine and feminine, narcissism and empath (super empath) . Love and Life or 'God and Love' are also ever-present qualities with us, right now. They are either in balance or they are not. They are either full or weak. Frequently weaker in the non-heavenly sphere and strong in the heavenly sphere. In the above example, there was a fullness of Life and not a lot of Love, due to too much Love. There were half angels (fallen angels). Lucifer is an example of a half-angel, full of Life and not Love. . Sublime gaze turned toward the self brings the self to Life. Love brings you to Life. Be your own fairy godmother. In reality, the fairy godmother is a sublime gaze reflected back in dreams and visions or purposefully. I see it in words, dreams, visions, and imagination. I would often say that a small creature would remain small until they transformed themselves through dreams and visions of their hidden sublime gaze reflected back to them. Meditation for sublime gaze Meditation stops thought which releases resistance and so sublime gaze can fully emerge, what I would call 'beautiful energies' but in actuality was sublime gaze in full. You can then, from that stance, turn your gaze, on yourself and transform yourself, bringing yourself to Life through Love. I would experience visions during Jhanic activation.

@Tyler Robinson How did you know his name is Fishy?

Inner knowing The meek have an inner knowing of their place in the greater scheme of things. A smaller creature does not spread ignorance by not being an obvious example. He has understanding (more so from intuition). When he grows in density, he becomes powerful. He becomes an obvious example. He fits the models and boxes that egos erect. That's when religions and ignorance can form and your words hold great weight. Meditation Meditation is stepping out of your own way. The flower naturally blossoms left to its own devices, when you step out of its way and lower neuroticism and heighten openness as a result of meditation. You are beautiful when you step out of your own way. The cork floats to the surface. It is your default to blossom left to your own devices. Neuroticism Neuroticism (tantrums, emotional breakdowns, emotionality) is also a type of conflict situation that can bare fruits when transmuted with lowered neuroticism. Basically, anything that seems like a 'negative' trait in your life can be transmuted with lowered neuroticism. Stepping out of your own way. Calm. Balance. Openness. The flower. Blossoming. The negative trait causes a pull away. Lowered neuroticism is the fruition of that pull away. When the pull away bares positive fruit. 'Neuroticism' isn't bad per se, just as any negative trait isn't bad per se. They are the spice of life. The salt in your soup. With transmutation, you won't overdose on said spices and salts. It's not about perfection, no tantrums. It's about how fast can you transmute it. Calm, balance, openness - union Leading with union - Division is transmuted into the salt and spice of life. . Transmutation Basically stepping out of your own way, "resting" can transmute anything. Treated as subhuman? Transmuted. Abuse? Transmuted. Negative emotion? Transmuted. "Ugly"? Transmuted. Tantrum? Transmuted. It's the fricken Philosopher's stone. You'll still be treated as subhuman but you'll be a beautiful, evolving 'subhuman' and the situations and karma you attract to you will reflect said beauty. Plus, you'll be pushed to be enough for these people which will shape you and strengthen you. Of course you shouldn't bypass, you should stay away from toxic people as much as you can (which I do). "This is not an opposition, this is an opportunity". The Sublime Gaze I was trying to work out with Joseph what my spiritual gift is and we worked out that it is the sublime gaze. According to Joseph, the sublime gaze is an indication of the divine feminine and the absolute or divine marriage. Quotes from previous mystical experiences, describing my gifting: "Dearest one, your gaze is sublime, turn it upon yourself" "I wouldn't be too quick to assume. One of the prerequisites of sublime gaze is being meek almost to a fault. What if they knew what they were doing? Even if they appeared pitiful and unattractive. " "what's sublime gaze?" "It's like a genie. It's a gaze that can heal and change. But remains hidden." (Remaining aligned in your gaze is painful when surrounded by not-so-nice people. It's easy to become bitter which can impact your gaze. You 'burn up' at your core, suffering, to avoid bitterness. Death of the ego) "Sublime gaze requires ridiculous amounts of suffering. If you do something 'wrong' the amount of suffering required is unreal." "It's very similar to what preety India described in her journal. Constant releasing and absorbing. It's very painful." . Being = consciousness = Love = sublime gaze = the sun (not literally the sun) Reality is made out of love - sublime gaze - the sun Love - Life (love) I am love/sublime gaze when I step out of my own way. Love/sublime gaze is my true nature. I was always actually love/sublime gaze. . Cleaning up Public journalling is helping me to clean up my psychology. I recognize now I might have some old ideas that might be inaccurate. I can see that my writing is becoming a lot 'cleaner', as I'm able to pick apart old ideas. This is great for healing from psychosis as it sows a lot of inaccurate ideas, often founded on Truth. I can sense when ideas don't 'fit' and I'll naturally just transcend them and revisit the ideas that make sense eventually. I still have emotional breakdowns sometimes, short-lived and rare. I mean it is a journal, where I'm supposed to express myself and be authentic. I never said I didn't have mental illness, but I'm not gonna sit here and pretend I'm not gifted. Even though I keep waving it in everyone's face at this point LOL. Guys, I'm soooo gifted.

This actually rings true. You are truly the best friend of your 'enemy'. Also in my experience an 'enemy' is often an opposite and can easily turn into a very good friend. Or you will feel simultaneously like you are enemies and very good friends. But that's kinda off topic.