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What do I love? I love art. Seeing my soul on the paper in any state or form. The lines infused with my spirit. The reminder of who I am. I love writing. The small breakthroughs I make in my writing. I've always had difficulty writing and expressing since I was a child (I am lower density). Any breakthrough in expression is massive in terms of development of intelligence and density. I love healing methods, ambient music and asmr. I want to immerse and bath myself, shifting my personality, my sense of worth, my identity. A pretend sense of safety raising subconscious material, cleansing me. I will make myself a new Being, a new kind of species, using the leading edge methods of healing and sound to change myself in some profound way. I love connection to spirit, the richness all around me. The more I recognize this, the more I radiate abundance and wealth, the more I attract abundance and wealth. But reality inherently gifts this to you.

I love art. Seeing my soul on the paper in any state or form. The lines infused with my spirit. The reminder of who I am. I love writing. The small breakthroughs I make in my writing. I've always had difficulty writing and expressing since I was a child (I am lower density). Any breakthrough in expression is massive in terms of development of intelligence and density. I love healing methods, ambient music and asmr. I want to immerse and bath myself, shifting my personality, my sense of worth, my identity. A pretend sense of safety raising subconscious material, cleansing me. I will make myself a new Being, a new kind of species, using the leading edge methods of healing and sound to change myself in some profound way. I love connection to spirit, the richness all around me. The more I recognize this, the more I radiate abundance and wealth, the more I attract abundance and wealth. But reality inherently gifts this to you.

Which types (in mbti, enneagram, instinctual variant etc.) do you tend to get along with most? I find for myself, as an ISFP, I get along best with ENTJs. Which are duals in socionics.

I have a big painbody during certain times of the month. I feel pain intensely and it's long lasting.

Which stages on the spiral have you been integrating recently? Recently I've been integrating stage red. Red - less tolerant, assertive, expressive - expressing all emotions. A little more selfish. (I notice I can be black and white in being selfless vs selfish. It's good to add some 'salt to the stew'. Stage red is flavourful) I've also been integrating stage orange with body image and looksmaxxing and weight loss although I still have some issues with stage orange it seems.

@Carl-Richard Recently I've been integrating stage red. Red - less tolerant, assertive, expressive - expressing all emotions. A little more selfish. (I notice I can be black and white in being selfless vs selfish. It's good to add some 'salt to the stew'. Stage red is flavourful) I've also been integrating stage orange with body image and looksmaxxing and weight loss although I still have some issues with stage orange it seems.

@Pavement I make them take the mbti test and other personality system tests to correlate and affirm the test results. I also VI (visual identification in Socionics) type people based on people who have taken the test and personality database. There are visual patterns for functions and the like.

@Loba Night Loba! ^.^

I think for other systems: Triads go with triads. 458 with 854 for example. Feminine instinctual variants (sp/sx, sx/sp, so/sx) go with masculine instinctual variants (so/sp, sx/so, sp/so).

@Yali He's ENTP.

You are boundless Love ♥ . Lol this thread. Enlightenment and awakening has become such a dick measuring contest.

Top three values, values I would die for: Kindness Optimism/Positivity/Hope Openmindedness/perspective -I will do anything that will facilitate the fruition of these values. - the current valley lifetime I am in (relatively speaking) does little to reward the fruition of these values

In terms of life purpose.... 1. I want to live an experimental life. 2. I have a vision of how I wish to be and act 3. I have certain practices I want to 'absorb' 4. I'm not as concerned with what I gain, as rather who I choose to be 5. I know there must be some place in or outside of time where who I choose to be will be appreciated. Maybe in death or a peak lifetime or another planet/species after death or even inside my head in a world of my own. 6. I wish to be on the leading edge of healing, abundance and contentment practices. Indulgence, satisfaction, abundance and contentment runs through my vision.

My partner's Schedule (Its SO pretty). I'm copying JM Daily Routine and Schedule Spend Fri in Law Lib 9am-5pm if possible. I. 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. (WORK HOURS) => 9 hr 1. Freelance paralegal projects billable time. 2. Administrative projects actual time. 3. Web Development Coding Tutorials. 4. Mindfulness meditation from 9 a.m. to 5 p.m. 5. Take shower. 6. Eat breakfast or lunch that conforms to diet. II. 5 p.m. to 11 p.m. (EVENING HOURS) => 6 hr 1. Eat dinner that conforms to diet. 2. Take vitamins. 3. Exercise Routine. 4. Work on Chores. 5. Work on my YouTube videos or prep for them. 6. Trumpet practice. 7. Review my writings and videos. Take notes using OneNote. 8. Work on writing two books on personal growth. 9. Work on the house. 10. Reading, audiobooks, YouTube studying. 11. Turn off phone and computer at 11 a.m. III. 11 p.m. to 8 a.m. (SLEEPING ONLY) => 9 hr 1. In bed with the intention to sleep. IV. JM List of Rules (a.k.a. Enforced Boundaries) 1. No unfrugal spending of money. [Y/N] 2. No marijuana period. [Y/N] 3. No caffeine period. [Y/N] 4. No social media except for my APC Discord. [Y/N] 5. No non-work-related Internet period. [Y/N] 6. No non-task-related theory until 8 hours billed. [Y/N] 7. No news websites period. [Y/N] 8. No overpromising and underdelivering period. [Y/N] 9. No accepting paralegal projects that thwart my evenings. [Y/N] 10. No working on Work Hours tasks after 5 p.m. [Y/N] 11. No YouTube except for executing my existing projects until 1/1/23. [Y/N] 12. No Failing to Charge Phone 9 a.m. - 5 p.m. [Y/N]

In terms of the intuitives: ENFJs think I'm weird and awkward ENFPs ignore me INFJs pat me on the head and go their own way. Ignore me. INTJs break my heart INTPs usually idolise me so I avoid them. ENTPs treat me like a charity case ENTJs are the only type who stick by me long enough for a relationship (6 years with previous SO. 4 years with my current S.O.)

Maybe I'll admire from far, far, far away. I met an INTJ (in psychosis - in my head) once and they almost broke my soul. I'm a shell of my previous self. Next time I won't be so quick to jump in. They can sit, alone, with their suffering.

@thisintegrated I've seen that pattern play out in real life frequently. ISTP and INFJ, ISTJ and INFP, ESFP and ENTJ etc. ISFJ and ESFP or INFJ and ENFP usually have a platonic or unrequited love feel. Best friends at most.

Man, a part of me just wants to be ISFP just so I can be compatible with INTJ in some system. Those Maynard look-a-likes. Mm. Mm. Mm. (Hope my ENTJ doesn't see this. Eek.)

Yes, relative to everything. I should be miserable but I've spent years in the pursuit of happiness. I say I 'should' be miserable because I suffer from chronic physical illness, years of abuse that is still ongoing to an extent, suffered three psychoses, 'bad genetics' (easily overweight, low iq family). But despite all of that I remain fulfilled, relatively speaking. Mostly because of Being, everything is inherently fulfilling and will always be fulfilling no matter my capacity and how physically unwell I become.

INFPs are more otherworldly than ISFP. They are more like witches trained in the art of druidry and herbalism. Hypnotic, strangely beautiful. They also have an aura of contentedness and indulgence as all IxxP types do. Less grounded and sensual, more airy and ethereal. The INFP witch

Favourite (fairy tale ) INFPs: Beauty Persephone Frodo Goldberry Arwen Sleeping beauty

My little ENTJ that I spend all my time with has high compassion. He might be an ENFJ or ENxJ. He is also enneagram 4 sx/so, which helps. He is driven by and passionate about helping others. He gives me lots of snuggles and kisses. Constantly makes me laugh.

Hmm... I've had a deep fascination with type theory my entire life. Spiral dynamics was like candy when I first discovered it. Artsu typed me as ISFP. I can't type myself for shit but I always get INFP on the test. Thanks for the second opinion.

I'm basically a spoilt brat in terms of spirituality and now I'm taking a hit (from physical illness) I'm having a bit of a tantrum. I can't seem to appreciate what I have because my capacity has decreased. Gratitude is what I need.

+ 1 hour bliss (Being - Thank you - 2 Hour Timer) (Rare candy app: nurse) (1 hour total) …………… Notes: since I can’t meditate like I used to I’m going to use the ho'oponopono prayer, broken down, as a crutch. As well as other Matt Kahn affirmations. I can’t see anything wrong with crutches if they help with entering.