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Why’d you put the “ “ around “hating” in the title? You know you love yourself. It was never really “hating.” What was it? Same thing with the word “attack.” Why write it like that, if not to imply it is not really the word you chose? What is the “hate” and “attacking” but Love? You love yourself, always have, and you’d like to be better; improve. How do you improve without “attacking” or “hating?” Improvement requires change. Change requires you to get rid of something - the process doesn’t feel good. But the prize, the prize.

I started using the app ‘You need a Budget,’ or YNAB, January 1st of this year and it has helped me immensely. I was horrible with money and needed to step up and help out my mom. I wasn’t paying for anything and every dollar that came in went out. YNAB has a philosophy that doesn’t allow you to budget money you don’t have. This, along with a clean Apple Style layout and other simple tools, helped me started paying for literally everything. Like I said I use to spend every dollar. Now I save money, I paid off my car, I pay for my health insurance my car insurance, all my food, clothes, gas, car repairs, a gym membership, etc etc. I didn’t know there was so much to pay for!!! But now I pay for 99% and all just within a few months. It was a big 180 for me; I love YNAB. PS: I think no matter what program or method you use - you’ll still always need a pen and paper to crunch out the details. That’s just me though.

I absolutely love the amount of information there is now. Of course, as Leo mentioned, there’s also quite a bit of disinformation - but, personally, this doesn’t really bother me. There is so much non-controversial information out there, for instance, on exercise, diet, cognitive training, animals, nature, cool technology, etc. It outweighs the disinformation in my eyes. Its just so damned useful.

Therapy didn’t work for me the way I imagined. It was nice to rant to someone but really I was just offered some basics on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and antidepressants and anti anxiety medications. I declined to the meds. I didn’t and don’t think I need them. To me, ‘happy pills’ wouldn’t help what I could clearly see was just an emotion reaction to my circumstances. I decided, ultimately, I need to get better at taking responsibility and helping myself. Its been a slow 2-4 years since I made that decision and quite therapy but I am glad I did. If you just have circumstances that are depressing or anxiety inducing but you're otherwise normal and aware that ‘if things were better’ ‘you’d be better’ - just work on getting things better. Maybe consider a few sessions and blow off some steam but be cautious about falling into a perpetual therapy trap or taking medications that - IMO - most people don’t need. Most people are better off meditating, eating better, exercising, using Cognitive behavioral therapy, using self talk, etc. than they are just taking pills or exporting their thoughts to someone else (and money for that matter). That being said IT IS VERY IMPORTANT that if the words I typed above do not resonate with you and you have a serious mental health problems, are suicidal, etc. You should certainly consider therapy and possibly medication. I know these things are not the worst - I am just weary of them. I didn’t like how abnormal they made me feel by offering me meds and such when I knew I didn’t have anything clinical. My parents where getting divorced, I wasn’t good at school, I was bullied, I was a bully, life’s just generally stressful as it is and I didn’t feel like that was the route for me. Sometimes there’s shitty things happening and depression and anxiety are normal reactions. So all in all, I hope you find what works for you. As you may be able to tell, I’m more in favor of holistic methods rather conventional therapy or medication. Nonetheless there’s a reason we have these things and there is no shame if you need them. Whatever makes you better makes us better.

Was it worth it? Yes? Sweet. No? Well feel enough guilt to reevaluate your spending habits but not enough that you slow yourself down over the past. What is bought is bought. What has not been bought has not yet been bought. Im glad that your decisions still leave you in a place of security and that despite some second guesses on these recent purchases you sound reasonably comfortable and safe, financially.

Goals are for people who need to score. My goal is to not need to score anymore.

Our opinions are based on our sense of reality.

“Ah Ha! Lovely, I hadn’t known. This is terrifying; I feel great.”

It’s not that there isn’t physical reality. There is a physical reality and it is just the way it is. The problem is most people do not realize where this physical reality comes from. Physical reality is simply imagined out of thin air. Knowing this doesn’t change the physics we currently perceive but it’s will 100% change the way we perceive them. Its mind blowing. Imagine being able to imagine anything into existence. BOOM - you imagine a house - its here. BOOM - an apple. BOOM - another apple. Well, this is possible. It’s how you’re here, it’s how anything is here - imaginatively.

I 2nd this! Host Defense is the best!

I always have a vpn on

I’m to guess ENFJ

Recently Leo saying ‘if you knew you were the devil you’d vomit’ has been echoing in my head. Why? Because for me that’s true. I’ve been vomiting in disgust of myself. Ive become isolated in disgust of myself.

@Leo Gura Practically shit my pants when Curt referred to my models models models comment around 2:07:15 in the 2nd video. Apologies for my nativity of the public nature of what you’re doing here and also to Curt for being so brash and seemingly narcissistic. I would hate for my comments to, at all, be taken foul to any work done. Nonetheless, I know when I pushed a button.

I am a 4 with a 5 wing as well.

Oof

@Leo Gura Yes I realized that after I asked. The game is more in seeing how low of a consciousness interview you can get - in a sense. It leaves more room for explanation, teaching, etc. If you interviewed someone with a great level of consciousness, there really wouldn’t be much to say.

@Leo Gura Agreed, it’s a whole other thing - but I do wonder if there’s plans to speak with anyone, respectfully, a little more conscious? Peter Ralston was great. More conversational format perhaps though. Dream Team would be with Sadhguru.

I think there are different layers to imagination. Its a mindfuck and may provide insight to know people and material things are imaginary - and you may find a niche way to make use of the generally - but I’d say it’s more important not to become conscious that you are imagining, but how. How do you imagine people? Why don’t you imagine your dad like every other boy? Why do imagine you or your friends are above one another? Why don’t you imagine people are a little nicer to you? Just examples. It does bend my mind to know it’s all imagined - but it’s not really serving me to consider another person vanishing out of materialism or warping in some twisted sense in the ultimate mind of god. Of course, I think such things have to be considered. Such as, if reality is infinite, what is stopping me for suddenly being teleporting to another realm instantly where I’m tortured, but fed well? But I’ll deal with that, when and if. Generally it hasn’t happened. Same goes for people. Sure, they are imagined - and a lot of possible things could occur - but also - everyone is they way they have always been. So who cares if that’s imagination or not?

Did not really enjoy it the discussion. To be fair, Curt was asking some great questions and he did have a couple cool moments - like with his hand. Nonetheless Leo was out of Curts league. Curt seems nice but also has a channel dedicated to models - models - models. Then he decides to have on someone (Leo) who understands something beyond - ya know - the dudes life purpose essentially (models). Also, Leo sucks at talking to people + they were both disadvantaged the conversation was not in person to begin with. Leo knows this though, he did this for us because he knows we like them. He has mentioned before that it is not his strong suit and people really can not be convinced anyways. So all and all, I’d say I enjoyed it more than I thought. Little irony in it all - but also some interesting perspective seeing how Leo interacts with people and how they interact with him.

@Blackhawk That’s exactly what an emo kid would say

Nothing, in particular

If you’re just trying to do this at home, a dark room, blindfold, ear plugs should be more than enough. But if you can afford it and you have one near you - I’d just go to a business that has a sensory deprivation tank. They're the best for what your trying to do. Sound proof rooms, you can only hear your heart beat. Light proof rooms, you can’t see whether your eyes are open or not. You can’t even feel the water because it is the same temperature as your skin. Point being they’re great.

@Endangered-EGO You came to us for help and now you claim to know what will work? Your cockyness clouds your ability to recognize that you too do not have a full understanding of the duality between the conceptions and the higher self. What @Nos7algiK is saying is quite similar to what I am saying.

@Endangered-EGO We need to appreciate the use of language. you may not understand how connected to your psyche it is. i’m not just playing word games, but I am sorry it sounds like that I do have to poke people sometimes in my own stupid way to aggravate them and let them know this is serious The place you went has no room for you. When you don’t want to go there anymore, you’re welcome when you accept it, the paradoxes is it changes can you stop trying to get rid of yourself?love yourself honestly Then you need not be here anymore No self