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> Anyone else relate to sub par or just having failures as parents? Yes. This is my Father. It hurts. It sucks. He has had everything given to him his whole life. And so he has never really had that pressure on him to become a man. So I ended up growing up without knowing what being a man is like. I grew up to become one of those "fatherless children".

Facts. This is so unbelievably validating to read.

I welcome my new overlords

From my experience, girls are primed to reject you even harder in a club setting because she knows she is going to get hit on, and probably has been hit on several times by the time I show up. So now they've got that rejection momentum. Especially if she is with her friends, which she always is, they feel that they can be extra impolite about it.

Hey @Leo Gura, Thanks for this video. It is a very valuable pointer for me.

Can relate in terms of the ADHD thing: I buy all the books, then proceed to read none of them ever.

https://www.actualized.org/insights/mel-robbins-corruption Hey Leo What happened to this post? Was planning on finally getting around to watching that video.

@Joshe this is incredible data. How did you prompt an AI to create this for you?

Happy Birthday @Leo Gura, all the way from Vietnam! 🥳 🎉 😃

I think I DMed this to Leo as well. Wonder if he will edit this now.

Unemployed. Currently traveling. Last job was a Wildland Firefighter.

Checking in. In the same boat as @Thought Art in regards to looking at iPEC. I am planning on pulling the trigger for iPEC this Year, apparently you can get a deal with the program if you go through a referral. I plan to get my clients by writing my book, and then doing endless public speeches promoting my book, my self and personal brand. (Life purpose is centered around speaking, I basically want to be Wayne Dyer)

I think one of Leo's most impressive videos is on deconstructing the myth of science. It blows my mind thinking about how many years it took to get to a point to make those videos. My favorite feature with Leo's videos is that when I revisit a video years later after doing some consciousness work and then understanding what he is saying at a 100x deeper level.

"But Leo" t-shirt made me chuckle.

I love this analogy

I wouldn't mind chatting with you one on one about this topic. This struggle is a very deep one for me and I aim to write the book on it. (as a project for myself to "solve" it.)

@5-D - L O V E yeah for me what got the gears turning for was reminding me that what we call inaction is still an action. Doing nothing is still a choice of action. And more often than not the choice actually becomes distraction and seeking stimulation as a default. I personally appreciated that reminder. 😃

I can relate to you in some ways. Reading this post made me think of this video that popped up in my feed so I'm throwing it down here. Let me know if it gets some gears turning.

You could say that the entirety of January was a Giant Ego backlash for me. Procrastinating from filming my next video. Eventually devolving into chasing dopamine hits all day surfing the web and eventually binge watching Breaking Bad. Not working out. Eating junk food. Dipping too much into porn and masturbation. etc. I've noticed that I lost a lot of touch with motivation. The most motivated I have ever been was freshly after I completed Leo's life purpose course in 2019. When I was fresh out of the gates from that course I was so determined and so excited to tackle my life purpose I had so much ferocity that I would just PLOW through everything no matter how painful it was because I was driven and I was passionate and I was willing to let whatever part of my ego die in service of creating the ego that would fulfill my life purpose. Now, I am in my own apartment all the time with only my own initiative to motivate myself. I feel like I lost touch with a lot of my motivation and I've lost touch with my life purpose. I feel bad for myself for avoiding reviewing the life purpose course for so long. "How could I be such a fool to not see this coming? To not see that my entire motivation system hinges on a life purpose and a vision." I've been able to identify that I really don't know how to feed my muse. It feels like the ways to feed my muse is inaccessible or there's a lot of hurdles that I have to jump through that I don't want to put up with (e.g. Get a certification here, go to school for 4 years there to then get a half good position of a JOB). When I think about ways I can feed my muse, I feel like my muse is fed when I can help other people under the context of emotionally difficult situations. For example, someone trying to push themselves in the gym, someone trying to face Their Fear with something and being able to hold that space for them. Being able to give a lecture to a group of eager to learn students. Being able to guide someone on a rough psychedelic trip. I absolutely love being able to hypnotize other people into being motivated and to really put the fucking Spirit into something. I like to help people become fully engaged with their life. Yet the same time I'm finding myself struggling to create a life for myself where I feel fully engaged. I lack the vision. I lack the direct experience of a reference point to shoot for. I feel like I need to just sit and watch a high performing intellectual motivational speaker/ self-help guru/ Youtuber exist in front of me for a day or something. What really inspires me is being an absolute unit and Fountainhead of inspiration for others. Just being able to tow the line for everyone else. But I lack the vision. At least that's what I currently believe... I realize at this point no motivational video or whatever is going to really help me as much as just reconnecting with a life purpose and a vision. And then feeding and programming my mind strategically towards that. I also genuinely Wonder how much my idea of my life purpose has fallen away from me in my pursuit of understanding Reality by stripping away more and more until I realize that there are no other people. Like that's gotta do a number on your psyche across the board. I do wonder how much of this process of Awakening is also stripping away the constructs of a life purpose. At this point, I realize that it doesn't really matter what I do as a career, I just want to find a spot where my ego feels like it fits the most. Such that it is fully engaged every single day fully putting its Spirit into life. Because what matters the most is just being able to enjoy your direct experience until your body dies and then you move on into imagining another life in another reality. My goals are siloed into 3 categories. Book Writing Life Coaching YouTube Success I've done a lot of writing on my book and I've shelved it for now. Started that thing in 2020. (130k words in main document, 100k words in the trash) I have one pro-bono client that I'm working with, but I would absolutely love to have a lot more people to help. Being a life coach for people creates a lot of good movement in my mind. I'm also getting close guidance under a mentor of mine so I am learning at an accelerated rate. I am working on my YouTube, and I am chipping away at it. Not nearly at the pace I want to. Lots of procrastination. Feeling a lot of resistance. I realize that because I don't really have much survival pressure on me, I just wither away. I have about 2 years of money saved up, so there is no direct experiences reinforcing the idea that I have to hurry the fuck up or I will be sentenced to a another prison of a job just to survive. I'm grasping at hairs in really figuring out how to motivate myself sustainably. The conclusion that I have come to so far especially after since doing a big mushroom trip around this topic is that I have to create a lot more momentum in my mind. I also need to program my mind a lot more with a constructed vision to run towords, and I need to interface with an idea of a nightmare to run away from if I let myself wither away for too long. I am way too fucking complacent right now it's unbelievable. And I feel like I'm crawling myself out of a hole of complacency because I have a lack of a serious grasp of the stakes at hand. Here are three things that I plan to do to stay motivated Go to a university three times a week and work there the entire day, rather than just staying at home 7 days a week. Reconnect with my life purpose and Rediscover what my life purpose is by going through Leo's value assessment once again. Progressively do more and more 5MeO to one day grasp what God is. As I Intuit that raising my consciousness can help me become more and more conscious of the ways I am deceiving myself around my motivation. Plus it allows me to move the needle towards my awakening goals because it would be really nice to become conscious of God at some point. I also see chasing Enlightenment goals as one way to create a real challenge in my life for once. A BIG goal of mine is to pursue Awakening very deeply, and I feel like I can chip away at that by doing a psychedelic every couple of weeks or so until I need to take a bigger break for integration. I've currently just been doing high doses of mushrooms. I would like to get 5MEO working for me, yet I would also like to get AL-LAD a try. But I'm not going to allow myself to touch AL-LAD until I do my homework on it. On top of that, I would like to commit to the following Picking a wake up time and sticking to it. Picking a morning routine and sticking to it. Scheduling every single day, the day before, and sticking to it. Following through with a consistent bedtime and actually respecting the fucking bedtime. Picking a time to fall asleep and sticking with it. Listening to a motivational speech from Wes Watson to program my mind. I find myself more motivated when I listen to that guy. Working out every single day. Reading an Hour every day. Visualizing for 10 minutes every single day. I'm finding that I struggle with visualization so much, I have no idea what the hell I should be trying to visualize. I don't really have any thing that I'm visualizing that is creating any sense of emotional Spark. I'm honestly completely lost with that. The best thing that I can visualize is picking a video idea and then imagining how it would look. That is what I've had the most success with. But I feel like I want to be visualizing a scenario of the man I want to become. I remember Wes Watson talking about for all those days he was in prison, what kept Him going was this idea of walking in a field and seeing his future wife and kid and embodying the state of consciousness of being a man that did everything he could by putting in the work every single day with a beautifully chiseled body because he worked out every single day knowing that he has achieved all the success that he could ever imagine. I want to create that kind of visualization scenario for myself. I also have no vision and I've been struggling with creating a vision since day one. I didn't even have the ability to construct a vision when I took Leo's life purpose course back in late 2019. I don't even know what an exciting life is for me, I don't have enough direct experience of the possibilities of what's out there for the kinds of lives I could live. I'm withering away like an incel typing away at a computer. I need to find ways to really challenge myself in life precisely because it is unnecessary. I feel like that's where the most of the fun is. I want to have a challenge that I can be on board with. I would love to be able to work as hard as Leo did towards Actualized.org. I want to be able to have the focus to contemplate as much as Leo does. I can barely focus myself to sit the fuck down and contemplate some real shit about reality. I think I'm not alone when I say I want to become a mini Leo Gura in my own way. Embodying the attitude of a seriousness sage towards your life. I would love to live a life like Laird Hamilton where your life is badass as fuck. Where you are just an absolute UNIT that keeps going. https://youtu.be/bMqSmj-X4ls I would love to become a Wim Hof where I have people gather around me to do ice bath and breathing exercises. I would love to speak to audiences like Wayne Dyer and Sean Stephenson. I want to HYPNOTIZE motherfuckers into living a passionate life! https://youtu.be/ja-n5qUNRi8 I want to FEED the spirit of others!

So I am traveling to India and then I also plan to travel to Thailand and possibly other surrounding countries after that. The whole thing will be 3 to 4 months. I come here today to ask for tips and advice on how I can use these experiences to grow the most as an individual to really take advantage of the opportunity that I have here. Literally my goal is just to grow as much as I can. How does one grow the most while doing solo travel? What are Traps to avoid that will stunt my growth while traveling? Thank you guys. I've always deeply appreciated your insight and support over the years. Much love to you all.

This would be a very interesting talk indeed.

@RendHeaven Yeah I appreciate that clarification because I think I don't yet have enough experience to really nail down what exactly that pure Essence is. So far I'm just pretty damn sure about what to do next and what to train next and what experiences to expose myself to next.

@OBEler @hyruga @Fadl@Aaron p Just want to confirm are you talking about the original post made a year ago or the update I just posted here?

Great information, thankyou. Perhaps you can send me a handful of sources to these awake people you know of?