Breakingthewall

Many people have a wound, a thorn in their heart, a hole in their soul. Many don’t realize it, because that thorn is not something definable, but a configuration in the structure of their psyche, in the existential structure we call human. This energetic structure emits constant vibration, and this vibration is confused with the wound. Negative thoughts, rumination, suffering, dissonance. these are the consequences of a structure that was formed at a given moment and is written in fire. The human psyche works this way. Just as a tree forms its structures from carbon, light, and space, the psyche creates its energetic structures through human relationship. The origin of the wound is always the same: lack of love Once these structures are formed, they are extremely difficult to modify. They are basic, and upon them is erected the structural building of the psyche, the way you are as a human. No matter how much you try to change them, it’s like trying to reshape the structure of a tree. You can bend it a little, change its appearance, cover it in other colors, but it will still be there. When those structures produce suffering, there is a call for change. The only real change is to transcend the psyche, to pass through it and deactivate its charge. To make the structure transparent and operate from openness. There is no trick or escape possible. The thorn will always reveal its reality to you one way or another. You can’t escape. Look: every structure is a structure that gives shape to a matter. This matter is existence, becoming. it is the expression of reality, of the totality. You must make your way toward the total. Open your heart to it. And then realize you are not opening to it, you are opening it within yourself. Let's say that at first you perceive that you are opening your heart to it, then that it is in your heart, and then that you are that. The fire of the total burns the structure, incinerates it, and renders it inert. It remains, but it is transparent. a mere structural support, without poison, without energy. The fire of the total burns like a star for a moment. But if it goes out, the structure gradually regains energetic charge. It must burn just beneath the surface constantly, to keep the structure inert, until you permanently realize that you are the fire. The eternal flame that springs from the unlimited. And any thorn is just the key to open the door. No one can tell you how to do it, because each enigma has its own solution. You are life flowing in the abyss of existence, creating the path with your own movement. Your power is the power of reality, because you are the reality. This perception lies just beneath the surface: expansion that creates universes, dimensions, realities.

It seems obvious that existence implies separation; absolute unity does not happen. For becoming to exist, there must be contrast and separation. In the absence of limits, this inevitably occurs. If you observe reality, it is clear that energy is organized into matter. Matter is organized into increasingly complex patterns. At a given moment, life emerges, a pattern within the universal pattern, which groups into increasingly complex units. The most optimal path it finds to achieve this is war against itself, from which increasingly effective patterns emerge until giving rise to human self-aware intelligence, which groups into ever larger, interconnected units. So, if the root of the organization of life is war, it is not strange for humans to be at war.

You could go to goa, where there are tons of psychedelics

I was thinking in the Buddhist paradigm, which contrasts emptiness with fullness and seeks the elimination of suffering and identifies that with enlightenment, all around the belief in reincarnation and nirvana

It is caused by the fact that if there were no desire you would not exist, then the possibility that is possible has desire

It's not easy because seems that almost everyone who try the spiritual path seriously choose to stay in a seemingly larger egoic structure and refuse to consider the possibility that that's not the end of the way

you are the truth, but that fact is veiled by the limits of the form. the absolute is always manifested in a form, because "manifested"=form=always. you could be open to your unlimited nature or not. its just a matter of perception, the nature is the same, but to clean your perception you have to equalize your structure with the unlimited. call it purification of anything. then your structure is transparent and you perceive yourself as the unlimited. its what you are, then it's totally possible to do it. but the human form has a lot of opacity, it is not an easy work to clean it. If you do a big dose of psychedelic its like a gesture, it means that you offer your structure, that you accept the dissolution. This does not guarantee anything but it is an undoubted step

Means that if you are smart enough your intuition will tell you that "enlightenment," or whatever you want to call it, is the absence of limits itself, not any "realization" you may have, since that realization occurs within the confines of your current structure. Openenss means perceive yourself absolutely unlimited, that implies everything. The total clarity of what you are. At first, you will try to remember it and may fall into delusions, but there will be a voice that whispers to you: "Don't fool yourself, idiot, don't you see that's a history?" At a certain point, you will begin to perceive the limitation as a serious nuisance, so you will begin to make energetic and conceptual adjustments to be able to open your structure more easily. The problem with psychedelics is that you are very "high," so everything is confusing, except for a few moments of clarity. You may intuit that this moment is what points to liberation, or maybe not; your ego may be stronger and you prefer to remain in circular narratives, seemingly unlimited but with limits, center. It is a long process, but perhaps it will be easy for you, perhaps not. I would say that you have enough foundation and enough skepticism to be able to enter into swampy terrain. In some point, you will be in absolute openess, total clarity, one with the total, in some moments being sober, and other moments not so. But if you are smart enough you won't construct narratives about the absolute. You can be the absolute, in the sense that don't be lost in the form, or not. You can't think in the absolute from the form, it's nonsense. You can think in the structure of the form that closes, but not in the openess

Then you are not in control except for awakening in the morning. I guess that maybe for some other things right? Maybe for everything? Well, but it's ok having that fantasy of no control. Imagine defecating without control, or masturbating in the subway. Maybe people could find it weird , then they would tell you: control yourself! And you would do. That's life. Of course if you were for example a monkey, nobody would expect any control, you could follow your impulses anytime, but unfortunately you aren't, then you have to control everything

In my opinion giving your sovereignty to others will never work for real spiritual progress, since enlightenment is being one with the Absolute, that is, realizing that you are the Absolute and be it. To do this, you must take full responsibility for yourself and detach yourself from any established system. Each mental structure is unique, so by definition, no homogenizing system will work. Perhaps it will turn you into a silent and empty Zen student, nothing more. Btw, I discovered another very interesting Sufi: Al Hallaj. A kind of Iranian Jesus Christ. Straight to the Absolute

The truth is absence of limits, then yes, a psychedelic can break your limits, but the most common is that your mind avoid it creating other limits apparently wider

No, I mean that if you work, how do you do to awake early, or going work some days that you would prefer stay at home, if you have released all the control

So you don't work?

Same, anyway , you don't understand my point, what to do? I Hope you get perfect of that surgery

The point isn't to disintegrate the self, but to open it. Disintegrating the self is the Buddhist way; it implies reaching emptiness. In emptiness, there is no suffering, and nothing matters. But there is a trap: who is dissolving the self? Another self, the Buddhist self that believes in emptiness, reincarnation and nirvana. Opening means perceiving yourself as the living flow of the reality without limits. I mean, you perceive yourself as the form , but also as the flow, the movement, the becoming, then you can shift the focus to the unlimited perspective putting the structure in background. To do that you have to make the structure equalized with the flow, so similar thats almost one, without closures, transparent. Then in some moments you can perceive the real flow so direct than you get open to it's ultimate nature. That's the mystical thing, look in the face to the totality and be one with it, be that. Not the flow or the becoming, the absolute, the nature of reality, the reality itself. Then it closes but the flow is permeated of its life, it's clarity, it's beauty. So you see clearly that everything is pale, black and white, if your perception is opaque. It's not defining the reality as infinite, god or anything, is be open to it's nature as much as is possible, then the self can be burned by the fire of the real thing. It's not that the self is false, it's that it's like a interface. It's impossible being without self unless you equalize the interface so much that the absolute or call it whatever is transparent, then you have like mystic experiences then you think... maybe the self is dissapearing, it's just the totality flowing, there is no difference in some moments. Maybe in some point it's so transparent that there is no "self", just a minimalist structure that almost doesn't occupy place and the totality that you are is totally open all the time. But little by little because there are opaque points , it's a natural process that moves in its rhythm, like anything else. It's impossible to force it, just perceive as clear as you can, without lies, ideas, traps, etc

Yeah you are better than me. All your chatting is to point that right? Ok, I admit. And you are enlightened, but not as Buddha, much more 🥱

i am the body and the mind . Look, do an experiment, take one of those bread knives and saw off your leg. You'll see that you're the body. The point is not deny the obvious like if you try to become psycho, is open your perspective and realize the flow and the nature of what is. Be one with the totality without denying the part

Of course I am, I have a body to protect, money to gain and all that. Why denying the reality?

I have some control since i am a closed form that, when opened, allows the absolute to express itself. Then I'm the absolute in a form, that of the family and DNA are expressions of the absolute ,parts of an infinite chain of cause and effect that give rise to an expression of reality that is both consequence and cause, and that is oriented toward opening or closing by its will. Will is the inevitable expansion of reality, the incessant movement, which can be oriented in different directions but can't be not oriented since it's movement. You, as a structure, are form but also an expression of the reality; what you choose is the choice of the total

Then if you see your family being tortured you would do that realization and the anger would be vanished because you would realize that you are the anger? Then if the Sioux tell you that in 5 minutes you will be buried in an anthill to be devoured by the ants during a week, you will be ok because just now there in nothing wrong? Then if the doctor tells you that you have brain cancer that will slowly leave you mentally retarded and crazy, amidst horrible pain, if you don't define it as a "problem", everything would be ok and you will leave the doctor happy and without any anxiety?

Without anything that closes there is openenss. The problem is that usually there is something that closes, then we have to understand how our structure closes to open it.

Yes but Now I can be absolutely angry because I have not enough methanphetamine to invite 3 prostitutes to my house and stay 3 days in a kind of "now" let's say closed. It's different than if my now is being Buddha under that tree

Great you appreciate , you seem to be focused , like not in ego games but to the root. I think that of the trauma is the normal starting point , without that most of us would be adapted and living in a let's say grey area not so bad . If you have a hole in your structure and your vibration is suffering, you have to find a way

It's a combination between let's say horrible family circumstances (from my way of feel them) and intuition to see the traps. The only way is openess, the others are depression, addiction, suicide. Nothing special, millions are there living in the hell right now. I'd say that the real point is that when I was a kid I lived in real openess, then I remember more or less and I understand the false paths. I used to meditate like 2 hours by day even was a mess, then do a lot of psychedelic but not with the idea of see the "truth" but see how my structure breaks and then reconstructs, again and again. It's something that you can't understand like something linear. It's a structure that operates in many dimensions: emotional, conceptual, temporal, projective.... You won't understand it conceptually, but rather you'll "see" it, like what you said before, about the self giving "thickness" to external reality. that kind of understanding that can't be easily articulated. There will be people who understand it in a single deconstruction and others who need 300. The issue isn't the time you need, but rather avoiding traps. God, creation, etc. As you can see, it's normal. The strange thing is the people who sense the traps, who intuitively see that something isn't equalized, clean, perfectly synchronized. If you sense that, you go further. If not, you'll be trapped your whole life, until you die. It's not fun; it's life in action, totally ruthless. A happy ending isn't guaranteed; it's usually more of a horrible ending.

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