Breakingthewall

@Leo Nordin I want to deepen because the true, the real, is deepening. on the surface there is only unreality. The thought is dead, it has nothing for me. I want to deepen and dissolve the barriers that limit my being because I want to live, I selfishly want the richness of unlimited life. as you can see, nothing very special, just practicality. what james says sounds very real but it is not something that can be done at will. it requires detachment, and that requires time, work, intention, certainty. I may be wrong and follow an impossible path

@Leo Nordin see beyond the mind, thought and illusion. dissolve into nothingness and no time, be without mind

I can't experience it looking a wall. I experience it smoking 5 meo, when the thought stops, there is not you anymore, no time, no space, nothing. No love, no bliss, no wonderful being, absolute nothing, but the nothing is alone. So the nothing is. I'd like to make possible go so deep without any substance, but seems impossible

when you come out of the dream there is nothing, an empty hole, not being. but not being is. it's incomprehensible

a thought is you undulating, adopting a form and thus creating limits, a distinction between you and the rest. I think that it is an evolutionary function closely related to language, and its objective is to act in complex groups to making possible the survival of the weak animal that is the human

Yes, it is. This is the real life, the abandon, dissolution of the ego and merge in the moment. Most of us ve been educated just in the opposite, our society glorifies the ego, the wall, the separation, that's why it's so difficult

maybe in gods perspective lonely, or eternity doesn't means nothing. Lonely is scary for us the humans, for an octopus maybe it's ok even for the eternity

Absolutely agree, it's not you when the wall dissolves and there are no limits. But after a while...there is the wall again, limiting. a really solid wall

@Pensamiento ArteArteArteArteArteArteArteArArteAArteAr So that satori that you had when you smoked those 15 mg of 5 meo becomes in a permanently state of awakening? Or did you do more times? Every time I do I have an experience of awakening, but some time later, 1 or 2 days, I forget the experience. Well, I remember, but only the idea, like "all is an illusion", but I can't remember why , how I saw that, because it's a realization completely out of the mind, and now I'm back in the mind mode. Meditating I can't go so deep.

Maybe a third you, or God could say: I sent my son to the torture and the cross my friend, I'm the zebra and the lion who destroy his flesh while she's still alive. I love the suffering and the war, that's why they exist...what are you talking about? Covid? For my most loved sons I create the leprosy. Life is unfair? Of course, it's the nature of life, and his beauty

normal that you feel fear, humans are made (among other things) for extreme suffering. you do not need to see crucifixions or murder, just go to any hospital, or psychiatric, or nursing home. the story of Jesus is significant. for me it says: are you human? yes? do you embrace human suffering? don't you run away? are you able to see that in the most horrible suffering the light of infinite love opens?

All the human languages follow the law of pif. The most used word is used double of times than the second, and the second double of times than the third. Look like it's genetically programmed

Infinite means without limits, the space isn't infinite. Eternal means out of the time , the time isn't eternal because has a beginning.

Agree , the mind can't catch it, and couldn't be only nothingness That history about ajata is inspiring

Great though, you are talking about my father. Was dramatic to be him or be close of him. Addicts are disgraceful people. I think in severe cases the suffering could be so high that could induce an awakening experience

I feel identified except the sugar. After the experience I spent several days with hardly any sleep thinking about everything that in my life was not as it should have been, impossible to meditate in 15 days, just thinking about sex and drinking alcohol every day ... At the end the river returned to its course by itself

The brain, or better the mind, is creating the reality. For example, all your world, your friends, your family...what are? A image in your mind, a remember. If you are looking right now a sunset, what is this? A image create in your mind, all that you see is an image processed after the reflection of the light in your eyes. If you loose all your memories, do you have family, identity? No. Your mind is creating shapes , it's his work. Shaping the reality. If you stop the creation of shapes, what remains? A reality without shape, so without limits... infinity. Everything, or nothing, depending of the point of wiev. So we are like shapes of that unfiltered reality that you said, at the end the same substance with different filter

Your fears are a call to go deeper. The good new is that you can go deeper , its always good at the end. Well much more than simply "good". The bad new is that you cant scape. If you dont face your fears they are going to be difficult or maybe impossible to handle

And try conceptual understanding of the non conceptual understanding is double insanity, but our minds educated in the concept can't stop triying

Yes but spiritual masters of no duality like ramana maharshi or shadguru talk about reincarnation. I'd like to know what is the theory because non duality and reincarnation seems no compatible

Those fears have frightened humans for as long as they exist. It is the fear of the ego to disappear, or suffer. If the ego dissolves while you are alive, those fears will be reduced or even disappear

We don't need but we can't avoid. It's on our nature, but I think that the reality can't be caught for the mind

True, we are a chimpanzee arguing about how work a computer. But the chimpanzee that we are can't avoid to try to understand how that damned computer works, even it's thousands levels above of our understanding...well maybe not so above, at the end we can understand many things

But who reincarnate? There is an infinite being, itsnt it? Well, who knows but in an awakening experience looks quite sure. And we are shapes limiting that infinite and no more, we are like concepts, filters, points of wievs. So when that "I" get finished, it's done, no reincarnation, it was only a shape, an illusion that it's going to be dissolved in the infinity. But why shadguru and mostly of spiritual masters talk about reincarnation?

Never change? Only some years. Memorized by many??? Well, like the songs of the Beatles.