Breakingthewall

I have been taking 2 grams of calcium ascorbate a day for some years. It is like ascorbic acid but with 10% calcium so that it is at neutral pH. Does anyone know if there are any contraindications to this?

be alive, feel how life flows in me, wake up in the morning, see beautiful girls, see the blue sky, feel the cold air

@Endangered-EGO i have read several of your posts and it is clear that you are someone who has studied spirituality. you would have read a hundred times that suffering is a strategy of your ego to stay strong. It is exactly like that, you are creating suffering and when you realize it you will think: what an idiot I have been. the key is: understand what the ego is. There is only one way to understand the ego, deactivating it and seeing how it activates again. If you don't do this, it is impossible for you to understand it because it would be the ego trying to understand the ego, from a reality that is only ego. completely impossible. break the ego, then it restructures itself and you see it. do this a hundred times, a thousand, and you will understand exactly what it is. There are two ways. meditation and psychedelics. and that's it.

I told you in your past report: Maybe next time you will realize that the present moment is infinite. you did it! in record time by the way. freedom, beauty, glory! now the job, at least for me, is to live that reality without psychedelics. it is possible, I think

@Blackhawk the one who puts the label of pleasant or unpleasant is you. things are as they are, and only you are printing negativity or positivity on them. I'm not saying that you get to really live this like that, in a moment, but at least see the truth in it. I don't live it like that either, there are things that bother me, I'd rather have girls on my schedule than not having them, etc, but I know that any preference or rejection are my projections. The world is not bad or good, it is you (and me), the ego, the one who does not agree with the world. match your preference with what it is and you will be absolutely happy. the more you separate what is and what should be, the more anxiety and unhappiness there will be. be aware that you are the one who does it !! Seriously, try to see the truth of this, take responsibility for your reality. not blaming yourself, but realizing that it is you who is creating the negativity. it is very difficult to see this! It has been very difficult for me, but it is completely real. admits its theoretical truth, and tries to put it into practice

@aetheroar if you have done nn dmt multiple times, i would consider doing 5 meo dmt. my experience with 5 meo resonates with what you explain. many times, in doing so, I disappear completely and there is nothing. the core of reality is absolute emptiness ... and that's it. I would not call it I am not, but neither i am . nothing, nothing empty. the ego doesn't like it, I don't know how you can get there without psychedelics. Doing it as you have done, meditating, seems to me a huge achievement. If I do it again later, or the next day, this has happened: I disappear and there is nothing, but that nothing opens, it acquires an absolutely evident quality: it is infinite. I am absolutely emptiness, but that emptiness, in its infinity, is total. absolutely total, and then that emptiness is an absolute joy. it's everything, full, and that's what I am. it is the same emptiness, the same nothingness, but it reveals itself as the infinite source through which you flow. nothing that the mind, at least mine, can even remotely understand. As this has happened with chemist, I don't understand the process that makes it possible, but I would say that the difference between emptiness and infinity is: completely accept emptiness without any reservation or expectation. annihilate yourself by becoming nothing, fully accepting your disappearance

forget about ideas and concepts, and just be. concepts of the mind are useless. true realizations are like that certainty that you are love, don't came from the mind. You can also be certain of other things, but not from mental constructions

NN DMT or 5 Meo DMT ? Have you considered that new substance, 5 Meo malt? as I have read, there is a stage before enlightenment, in which the meditator is in total emptiness. he is supposed to penetrate this void, soak himself in it, until the void reveals itself as god. this happens with artificial means like the 5meo dmt with some ease. Maybe this could help, but here isn't that description of the stages of meditation that i read before, i couldn't find https://paulbrunton.org/notebooks/23/8

@Endangered-EGO meditation totally fix the mind. meditation makes you see what the mind is. psychedelics are an aid to meditation. meditation is the key. It is the most important thing, more than your girlfriend, your job or even physical health. I think you still haven't understood what the ego trap is

@Endangered-EGO its totally possible forget the suffering, if you transcend your ego. In fact, if you transcend it, you feel a bit ashamed to have suffered so much from those stupidities. it is a matter of a moment. It is the art that we are learning here, right? understanding, meditation, psychedelics. serious work doing whatever it takes to do, and you're totally free. I remember you wrote that you have never done psychedelics except cannabis. they are a fundamental tool. Without them you will be a lifetime of psychotherapy, going around. you have to rise. Be prisoner of that shit is a shame, life is not for that. Do psychedelic until you melt your brain if it's necessary, meditate 5 hours per day, anything, but get free of that crazyness

@Moksha Moksha sorry, i can't remove that. Could be that about levels, idk. But one thing is for sure: any horror of any kind is your ego resisting. there's no more. the psychedelic dissolves your ego, but ultimately there must be a surrender of heart, without reservation. I sometimes do 5 meo (for example today, I'm doing often lately because I feel i have to do), and some times was horrible. I have already taken the measure, I go little by little and listen to the signals, sometimes the signals were no, and for lack of humility, big shot. there are no words. other times I see that yes, it will happen gently, without resistance. then yes. the good? I already know that a horrible realization is my ego resisting. it is quite simple: no ego, no pain

I understand you, I have ruminated a lot of shit too. Lately it seems that I manage to equalize, but I have only achieved it based on total transcendence of the ego, dissolving it with psychedelics many times and meditating many hours a day. if not, all the dysfunctional shit I have ever eaten is there, waiting to say: hello! Deep down they mark the way for me: there is no viable ego for me, my father, a true crack, guides me along the path of transcendence. If it weren't for him, I'd be doing any mindless idiocy to death, so love for him

@fopylo i have had also had anxiety about relationships, friends etc, and for me the solution is this: 1 accept loneliness. avoid needing to be in a group. It is not easy but it is fundamental. 2 Only approach people with whom you are comfortable and if it's possible, share values. first understand, affirm, enhance your values. it is infinitely better to be alone than in bad company. assert yourself in your loneliness. be proud of your loneliness. It is independence, I mean, not dependence. stop depending. you don't need idiots. get this: you don't need idiots. look at the boys who go in a group, so adapted, with pity. they are slaves of acceptance. look at those guys with their pretty girlfriends with pity. They are acting, they are slaves, they are afraid. There is real friendship, real attraction, real love, but it's not that shit you see out there. be free. Of course it's not easy, but step by step

suffering is the distortion created by the ego between be and should be. equalize them and magic! harmony. A few touches on the be, if it's possible, and if not, soften the should be until it is exactly the same as the be. It is not easy, but it is completely possible

Mushrooms are magic

Everything is shapes in nothingness, so they are nothing, but on the other hand, nothingness makes shapes, so it is everything

the ego is a prison and although it seems to be made of thought, its pillars are attachment. There is usually a lot of work to do before these pillars give way, as they come from childhood and are solid energy patterns. psychedelics do one thing: they knock them down in a violent, traumatic way, for a few moments. this causes them to be revealed. when you see them, you understand them, you can proceed to demolish them. without this help you have to be some kind of genius to get something

Any idea about reality, any search, any need for something to be different creates a distortion that prevents love from flowing. The only answer is love flowing That ^^ . The void is pure love . Simple and at the same time so difficult to see, the ego needs structures, hates the void, hates the love

the enlightenment work with psychedelics would say it is like this: are you willing to disappear and be the absolute emptiness? Yes or no? if it is yes, it will happen, if it is no, then If you have been kind to yourself and have not forced the situation, you will kindly see a glimpse of infinity and you will continue to evolve to be ready. if you have not been kind and have forced? Well, you will have a good cosmic horror. nothing fun but the warrior is hardened in battle. Disappear and be the absolute emptiness , In my opinion, it is not something that can be forced. It is not the same to see the infinite emptiness that you are, touch the infinite and realize what you are, and another is to become it What is clear to me is that this, without psychedelics, is not even an option

I have had that problem. It started one day, after a time of stress and I was 6 months sleeping 4 hours a day, I fell asleep, I woke up at 4 hours and nothing to do, the only thing that worked for me is diazepam as soon as I woke up but that's a very bad idea , I do not recommend it, Maybe to do once or twice to break the tendency, but careful, it's addictive. The first time I got over it by going on a trip alone 1 month without a fixed destination. after 4 days it disappeared completely. The thing bis to break the tendency. Now what works for me is meditation. I meditate every day for 1, 2 or 3 hours. When I wake up in the night, which usually happens, I know how to quiet my mind about anxious thoughts about the next day or anything and in fell asleep in a moment. although sometimes it still happens to me, if i have a trip early next day for example. it is a problem that greatly affects your quality of life.

@OBEler she can do 5meo or whatever she want, it can be wonderful, or not. But regardless of that, she has to face her fear in real situations. there is no magic pill or shortcut. thinking that she cannot, that she is mutilated, you are cutting her wings. is that what you want maybe? If she wants to, she could do ufc fights or be a paratrooper for the navy seals (exaggerated and silly examples, but it's real). overcome that image of her as a mutilated victim or you will be weighing down her life. you have to think that she can with everything, and you too, because that is the reality, the human being can with any obstacle. something that helps a lot in these cases is doing activities that are so scary real. climbing, gliding, figth, talk in public maybe, etc. Yes, I know that it is more lazy than taking an acid in your room, but we are alive, we must move forward

I think I got it this time. It is something that has happened to me 2 times and it is very scary: ego death but without making you infinite. You have seen that there is only you, but that you is an infinite flow, infinite love. and no. it was simply only you, in the cosmos. people don't understand the horror of this if they haven't been through it. mine is: the ego disintegrates, there is nothing left, I am not there. but nothing else. that, nothing, sterile. othe times it has been: I become everything, I flow infinitely, etc. but when the ego leaves but just enough remains so that you do not realize that you are infinite, it is a very empty, very sad experience of absence. but nothing happens, it does not mean that this is reality, only that you have had that experience, let's take the opportunity to try to let go of the ego, the expectations

I was thinking ... both you with loneliness and I with emptiness, we have a simple and unremarkable ego reaction problem. where is the problem? just nonsense of the ego asserting itself and refusing to go. but the ego is powerful, nothing more

A trauma is not a permanent injury, it can be completely healed. once you start to be assertive and courageous, you will go to more. every brave act is a cure for that trauma. the only remedy against fear is courage. If i were her, I would take advantage of this situation as a therapy. Nothing is really going to happen to her except having a hard time. She is brave as she dares with 200 ug of lsd. now he has to dare with people. What I would do is at some point that the teacher intimidates her, tell her: your attitude is aggressive, annoying. I feel insecure when it comes to improving. do you realize or maybe it's my thing? the teacher will be surprised and say: noooo, nothing like that, etc. and will intimidate again. and she will tell her again: now you do it again. I do not think that this way you help me improve. that the teacher thinks she is crazy? that your girlfriend says it stammering and in the middle of the sentence she starts crying?well, nothing happens. the important thing is to change the role of passive victim for that of standing up. some time you have to start, and now is the time.

horrible and at the same time completely liberating. beyond what the mind can handle, at least mine .id like to be able to be there (rather to be nothing) without the cosmic horror