Breakingthewall

if there is an appearance there is something. Nothing is simply nothing. I don't know how you arrived to the conclusion about that a dream is nothing. It's a dream

I'm Spanish, I spoke with you in Spanish a couple of years ago, javfly also. Shame you forgot. Maybe you changed your spirit for a Turkish Sufi master

So beautiful. I'm falling in love. O my god. You are so amazing 😍 Narcissistic on fire. I can't avoid interacting with you my vampires, it's addictive

Really? Last time you spoke perfect Spanish and you lived in new York and work in trade . In fact an user, javfly, who's Spanish and with I had some contact, told me that he spoke by phone a couple of times with you and you were latino originally. Now Turkish fits more to your self image? Why?

But there is something appearing or not?

Yeah, thanks, you are very kind and I appreciate a lot your teachings. You are like the father that I need and I never had. Really reading you I feel your authenticity and the love that emanates of your being 😅🤣

Then why it's there? Then why there is an illusion?

@kbone i try to talk with you being polite when I perceive your limitation very clearly. It's absolutely obvious you're speaking from a wounded ego, like James. You're staring at the reinforced concrete wall of narcissism. It's maddening to talk to people who exhibit this trait because they only see their projections. So I'm going to try to stop interacting with those who operate at that level. From experience, I know it's practically impossible for them to break out of it unless they experience a crisis of extreme severity. Anyway when I interact with severe narcissist like james or kbone, it's not trying a communication with them but as an exercise and to show their face , it's like a hobby , because I know that real communication is absolutely impossible, they only communicate with themselves To anyone who's reading this: in life it's extremely important understanding and identify the narcissist behavior. If you do, all your social interaction will be much clean, if you don't do, you will fall in that madness and confusion. Family, couple, friends, work, spirituality....it's in any area. Read james123, it's a extremely clear example. Don't focus on what he says, focus on the intention behind it. Is he seeking clarity? Communication? Or perhaps seeking to appear? To stand out? To be more? Does he speak from his center or from the periphery? From the periphery implies he operates from outside to feed his self-image; from the center implies he opens his perception and shares his vision. Kbone is more subtle because he's more intelligent, and it's harder to grasp his game. He's a complete narcissist, absolutely focused on his self-image but with culture and a well-developed conceptual framework, then the self image that he's feeding is more complex, not so simple like james. With lot of nuances but essentially the same. Focus on what emanates from him, feel it. Do you feel expansion or contraction? His speech aims at real communication or at the construction of "someone." It's simple; if you don't develop this intuition, you're lost.

That's not true, the absolute reality awakes through you. If you look closely, you'll see that there's an existence happening. All of that is something, isn't it? It's reality manifesting itself.

@Yeah Yeah I wouldn't believe histories like solipsism, If you want to break through the ego barrier, you can, but you have to be completely independent and have an unbreakable will to do so. Your situation seems difficult, so you don't have any other options. But if you don't have absolute self-confidence, it's not easy. Anyway Just start.

In infinity, much and little are the same; everything is infinite. That is to say, whether your existence is that of an ant or that of millions of interdimensional beings with lives that last as long as this universe, it's exactly the same: infinite in essence, finite in form.

😭 I said that as a joke. Anyway, you choose being in your character, enjoy it

That's just a thought, stop thinking and enlightenment is already the case. Why are you suffering brother? I love you 💘 @James123 really you don't see it? Really? Look, it's like you've built up an idea of what an enlightened person should be like, and then you act the way that person is supposed to, limiting yourself completely and thus eliminating any real possibility. You're a Taliban of enlightenment, simply because your ego demands to be enlightened. You forbid yourself any doubt or any real depth because that would imply that you're not enlightened, which is unacceptable, impossible, horrible. If you could choice between obtaining the Enlightened certification and remaining in your current limited state, or recognizing that there's more to deepening and infinitely opening your being, you would choose the first, since the only important thing to you is the official Enlightened certification. Of course, now you'll think that an Enlightened person is rejected and even crucified, and they respond with love and forgiveness, like your counterpart Jesus Christ, and you'll act accordingly. Don't you really realize what it means to process like this? It's radical narcissism, maximum. This has terrible consequences in life. I'm not saying this to compete with you, but to help you, seriously.

Yes it seems as you say, I just read superficially, it's a ping pong game, like any conversation with james. @James123 you could do as you want but what you are pointing is just false, then better show it.

I think that maybe you believe what you are saying. I don't know how make you see what you are doing, maybe it's just impossible

@James123 I remember your two trips report when you took 10 gr of mushroom perfectly, was absolute nihilism, nothing. Then you changed the version telling that you got enlightened, but before you always was saying: reality is nothing, and putting videos of papaji. Now you ve change to a more positive version with love, but the point for you is showing the others that you are enlightened. You should ask yourself: why am I doing it? It's something deep, a need. What if you are honest at least once? In all the interactions with people you only want to take, like a vampire. Do you think that's not obvious? Be brave and break your barrier, be honest, show your true face. Or your plan is searching people around to vampirize them , like if you were sadhguru or any of those vampires? You are not going to achieve it, your game is too obvious Anyway, it's interesting like an example

@SOUL you are trying to have a discussion when james is lying to you, do you see it, right? If you tell him something, he'll tell you the opposite, or something unrelated that sounds mysterious to win you over (according to him). And if you give him impossible-to-refute arguments, he'll tell you those are just words, or "I love you, brother," and put a heart emoji in it, when he's really projecting aggression toward you. This is how a narcissist behaves in an interaction: always lying. But he doesn't realize it.

Id say that existence is absolutely logic because logic means relationship. The fact of that a relationship is possible implies it's coherence. The point is that existence is the manifestation of reality, not reality itself. Reality is not logic because it's not a relationship, it's absolute. Relationship means relative, absolute means without relationship

I just remembered a experience with 5 meo. I've had many negative experiences, nihilistic, extremely depressing. So, once, I decided to take 5 meo for 4 days straight. It was extremely terrifying to me. The first day, horribly empty nihilism. The second day, I do it again, and again: reality is dead, infinite emptiness. Horrible, but well, now I know what it is. I think, well, this was what I had to see today. You have to be patient. After 5 seconds, I thought, no, i have to break. So, I put a lot of 5 meo in the pipe without weighing it and vaporized it. And I thought, show me the truth or kill me (I know it sounds like a silly heroic novel, but I thought those exact words). Then, reality broke, and life flowed into it, the inexhaustible source of absolute plenitude, infinitely alive infinity, its infinite depth, so absolutely alive that you disappear. There is only a bottomless abyss of absolute life. It is infinite glory. "More" is impossible; you have it all. Infinitely more than your wildest dreams. More than infinite universes, more than God, it's simply total. Then, in your mind, an idea arises: Yeeeeeeeessssss, hallelujah, hallelujah. The gap has been broken, the glass has been filled, something irreversible has happened. I've broken through the doors of heaven. After 5 minutes, it closes, but you already know where to aim. That first glimpse is absolutely essential.

The absolute truth only can be experienced being it, and when you close yourself to it, you can't remember it. Even if it happened that same day, absolute truth is incompatible with the closure of the psychic structure, since it is the total opening to what you are. I believe that the essential thing is to want to be one with reality, to surrender to it, to desire dissolution, to be annihilated by reality. To dissolve into the abyss and disappear. Then it is extremely difficult because you always want to retain something of yourself, a small reference, a grip. So the opening sometimes occurs for a moment, and then you grab onto something again, and it closes. But if it has happened once, just once, everything changes.

These kinds of experiences, like changes in the structure of perception, are a sign that your psychic structure is flexible. You may see reality as a tunnel, or all of reality may suddenly be a green fractal. There is no you, the observer, just a green fractal for 10 seconds, and that is reality. Or you may see that you are creating a mental flow bubble, deactivate it, and reality may be fluid, without edges, and feel the vertigo of the absence of reference. It may also happen that reality shines in a very powerful way, like absolute power, and that shine is reality. All these kinds of visions point toward something, but they are not exactly an opening to the absolute. The opening is totally clean, diaphanous, indescribable because it is, let's say, in your heart. Your mind becomes diaphanous, the entire field of perception is clarity, and the essence of reality is perceived, and you are one with it; you are it. There is no structure; there is the essence of reality, and nothing is missing; it is everything. Variations in perception remain within the psychic structure; opening occurs when the structure disappears. That is, there is no understanding of how things are; understanding is always within the structure. The total does not require understanding; any understanding is partial. The total is total.

@Someone here If you want psychedelics to be of any use to you, your real intention, your life impulse, must be: I want to be one with reality. I want to break down the barriers that separate me, to open up my being and reality and see what is, what I am, whatever that is. I don't know what it is, I don't believe anything anyone has said. I surrender to the abyss, contemplating the possibility that it is absolute horror, but having the intuition that it isn't. I want to be destroyed, vaporized, annihilated, whatever that is. If your impulse is: I want to see things, understand the reality, you will operate always from the self, then you only will obtain confusion It's very obvious, the absolute is absolute right? Then if you are perceiving the absolute it's a relative happening. The only way is being the absolute.

5meo was a meditative tool for me because it breaks the structure of the psyche, and then it reforms. You see what it is like, not conceptually, but as something real that happens. Then you begin to understand it. It's like understanding that if you drop an object, it falls to the ground. You understand it not conceptually, but directly. The same with the psyche. total openness with 5 meo, maybe sometimes. But it's very violent and strange, and after 5 minutes, you forget about it because your psychic structure can't capture it because it's too asymmetric

All your post have the smell of contraction, like you need to convince yourself about your enlightenment. Your vibration is anxious, even you talk all time about love

Imo the problem is that disintegration seems like disappearing, becoming nothing, and that doesn't make sense. The idea is to dissolve the separation between you and reality and be reality. "Nothingness" is an idea of the self; it remains in separation. Dissolution is equivalent to there no longer being self and there is reality, or the self no longer being limited and embracing reality. It would be the same thing. It's a question of limits, not of disappearing.