Breakingthewall

I try to understand this. I have had a total collapse of all dualities several times, sober as well. suddenly it has become obvious that there are no bubbles, as nothing is happening. There is only one, and all the others are exactly me, and they are perceiving exactly the same thing, which is nothing, only that by a magic trick, it seems different and it seems something. it's completely obvious at the time, but when you start to analyze it ... it's impossible to understand. Why am I now looking at a wall and someone else is looking at something else? is that the experiences happen consecutively? no. it is in this moment, and it is not happening.

Regardless of what is correct or not, when you align yourself with consciousness, the flow of events begins to become obvious. If you flow with it, you go downhill, effortlessly. if you move away, everything gets stuck. you have to train yourself is to know how to read this flow, and act according to it. I suppose that Hitler, when he created the Nazi party, would be in that flow, since everything worked wonderfully. that was the highest good for Hitler at that time. Leo's is actualized.org .the issue is to read what your flow is and develop it. I find it exciting, spirituality applied to the world. An amusement park

No. Nothing is right or wrong in an absolute way, but in relative relative yes. On a relative level, scamming your family is wrong, creates separation, eliminates harmony in your relative being, leads you on a path of selfishness, sadness, negativity. On an absolute level, helping grandmothers alone is the same as torturing children. they are expressions of the possible, made of love. But as we are relative beings there are right and wrong things, for example, smash your finger with a stone is wrong

suffering disappears when resistance disappears. suffering is resistance to what is. the rebellion of the ego that superimposes the "should be" on what is and refuses to accept it. if the "should be" disappears ... relax and enjoy. you don't have to be a Buddhist teacher. not having a heavy ego is enough. Life is wonder without the should be

When there is trauma, there is a defense mechanism that covers that trauma, hiding its influence in your way of being present. to uncover the trauma is therapy. In my experience, mushrooms are tremendously effective, and so is meditation. when you see all that in a fair way, without judgment, suddenly you see the elephant in the room. It is incredible not to have seen it before, planted there, but the mind is cunning.

@VeganAwake what you always communicate is: there is no self. correct in the sense that the set of attachments and rejections that it seeks to survive does not really exist in absolute sense. or it exists as an empty software with the function of surviving. but it is from here where the story of spirituality begins, not finish. yes, it is very comfortable if you say now: ahhh ignorant apprentice (condescending claps) that you would like, but the last reality is that there is no self. ok ok and all this (apparent) experience that is (apparently) happening?, what? don't you see the divinity here? In the void appearing as "something"? Well, if it's the case, you are asleep, in deep sleep. Better don't stuck and go deeper @The0Self what to say about your peculiar worldview? "God is scared of the black hole of non-existence that surrounds him, and that is why he invents the dream, to distract himself from his terror", "God is imaginary too" It is okay to say this kind of thing if you want, but at the same time You claim to be one of the few fully enlightened people ... there are people who can believe these negative nihilistic stories. maybe you are deceived? I don't know, but it looks like it. ... Maybe you are right but i perceive negativity, darkness, sadness in your "enlightenment". You said : when I saw the bottom of reality it was too late to go back. maybe it was not the bottom and you should go even deeper.

your identification with your story is directly proportional to the density of your egoic state. The ego is limits, definition, form, so it is all the time creating a mental image of you, like a running software, and for that there is nothing better than analyzing the past and based on reaching the conclusion: I am this. the slower that software runs, the less need for definition, and therefore, the less analysis of the past. If the software stops, you see that you are the indefinable present, without labels. the past completely loses its strength and its poison. It goes from being a color film to black and white, and you forget it. If suddenly something from your past comes back to bite you ... it is that you have raised the energy bar of the ego state. to lower it I know two things that work: meditation and psychedelics. Since you don't want the latter, meditate, if possible in the morning, in the middle of the day and at night. hours, until your ego gets softer

it is terrifying to the ego because it is totally undefined, nothing to hold on to. total death for the ego, which is definition

For me that is like saying: I know very well that when you die you enter the circle of reincarnations and etc. etc. ideas, concepts, stories. And disturbing, strange stories. what is is what is. Silence the mind, experience it, forget any idea, and you will be closer to the truth. Well, that's my opinion, all those ideas are useless, obstacles

@Yeah Yeah The issue, for me, is: the mind cannot, with mental processes, stop itself. you can go to satsang, read theory, whatever, but it's more mind. it takes an external agent to strike. for me that agent is 5 meo, complemented with hours of meditation every day. hit and disintegrate your mind for a while. It can be nice, horrible, whatever. the important thing is that it disintegrates your mind and then integrates again. here the mechanisms of the mind, its nature, are revealed. then you need to readjust your daily mental processes to integrate what has happened. You do it again, same process, over and over again. it is not so important what is revealed to you in the psychedelic trip, since one thing is the same as another thing. everything can become a belief. what is important is the mechanical act of disintegration of the mind and its reintegration. It happens only with meditation too, but in othel level .the mind itself sees what it is, more and more clearly. not conceptually. the same as you learn to hit a ball. muscle, cellular memory. until your ego stops being an iron cage and becomes volatile. you have dynamited its foundations 100 times, it is no longer so solid. dissolution occurs spontaneously, at any time. the mind ceases to be a jail to become a vehicle, an interface. resistance softens, disappears. reality flows, you're tuned in, the pieces fit, the experience goes from battle to sightseeing. It's easy to be free of the concept, of the need of understanding, of control. But first, you must really want to surrender that control, surrender yourself

This is everything, but do you really see what it is? It is the infinite void giving a cry of joy absolutely wild. You have done 5meo many times, a lot of meditation. you have not opened the door of absolute emptiness and it has overflowed you with love? there's nothing, it's empty, but it's wild, it's joy, it's everything. it is an incomprehensible paradox, not simply: it is empty, there is nothing. of course there is no self in the ego sense, someone who does this or that, there is existence, and existence has a quality: love. since without him it would not exist. love is the cry of infinity when it sees itself, and I'm listening to it right now. hallelujah brothers!?? But yes, it absolutely impersonal, the death for the i that wants a better experience...but he gets a better experience, because he realizes of his illusory nature and accept his place, so he can relax and enjoy the experience

@VeganAwake @The0Self don't see it that way. there are no layers of ego and something underneath. the ego is a structure that gives a certain apparently shape to the substance of reality. If you erase this structure, there is absolute emptiness, nothing. but nothing is unlimited, infinite, and being so, it is absolutely everything that is possible to be, at this exact moment. and that is what we are if we erase the structures. To say that there is simply a void is an absurd nihilism, since it is obvious that the void is the ego itself and everything that exists. It is not a matter of logic but of living it. The infinity is impersonal because it is infinite, so without certain qualities, shapeless. but it exists and that is what we are, so in some way it can be said that the absolute total infinity, and that it is what we are, is a self in some way, in the sense that i am that

is made by the self, which senses its unreality and has the intention of surrendering its control, but cannot, since to do so is to cease to exist. when it ceases to exist , or better, it dissolves, it realizes that it is just a set of preferences with the function of the human avatar surviving. without it there is no separation and the experience that is remains, but this unlimited being that unfolds once the structures of the self dissolve, is in turn a self, only it is not a self that asks questions, just is. Really it's the same self that was asking and trying things, but shapeless , since he has seen that form and structure, essential at a certain moment for survival, have become a hindrance and must be discarded

It is a very serious matter since any day you could have a fatal accident, with innocent victims. 80-year-old guy driving drunk is Russian roulette. I would make him see the seriousness of the matter with a meeting with the whole family in which he is forced (always with affection, acceptance and in a reasoned way) to install the breathalyzer, and supervising that it continues to be installed every week, and if he does not accept, the alternative is to file a complaint to have the license withdrawn, or directly destroy the car with a mallet. It is not a joking matter and he has to understand it. not a breathalyzer or I am not talking to you. Or is: breathalyzer or you don't drive once more starting right now. With all your love and respect, i hope someone would do for me if I'm in that circumstance

the point is to loosen the structures of your ego, since they restrict you and prevent you from seeing from a broader perspective. The first step is to realize that you are imprisoned in the ego, with all its limitations, its attachments, rejections, fears, certainties. the second, to want to destroy that jail whatever it may be, at the cost of your life if necessary. The third, to do it

You seek to escape suffering, but you also seek to achieve greater delight. negative vs positive motivation. When you stop suffering completely, you can keep looking, life is very beautiful and offers wonders. why not enjoy them?

@Aaron p the purifying fire in your nose ??. In theory, a pH 7 could be achieved if the mixture of 5meo and vinegar is exact. maybe with pH measuring strips ...

I know this probably doesn't help at all, but if you dig deeper you will see this: everything is exactly as it has to be, to the millionth of a millimeter. so relax and enjoy

my family is deeply dysfunctional, my father was a narcissistic addict, etc. etc. etc. all that, variations of the same movie. I have been feeling hatred for many years, I have progressed a lot in life based on struggle and anger, but having that inside you is shit. Although you may not realize it, you have identified so much with your hatred that you have become addicted to it. I tell you from experience. Suddenly, one day I realized: those narcissistic monsters were just idiots. like stupid children incapable of maturing, worthy of pity and nothing more. They are you and you are them, that's life, a game that can get twisted. give those poor idiots a mental hug and forget them completely. Easier said than done, obviously. getting to do it is the way that will set you free. Those fools are your teachers, accept their lesson

if plugging does not work for you, try putting the 5 meo dissolved in vinegar with the syringe in your nose, it stings but it works very well

your body is a perfect energy pattern where each atom occupies an exact place, continually being exchanged for new atoms. a structure of inconceivable complexity. It is the same thing that makes you move that what makes that every time you breathe millions of atoms are expelled and millions more take their exactly place: the infinite mind of God

existence is infinite so it changes and doesn't change. it changes apparently, but really it is already everything that could be or change, it is total and the totality is immutableb ecause it encompasses all possible mutation

just relax and enjoy

It is magnificent

there is something rather than nothing because there is. mystery. there, deep in the void, it is. It could be simply a void, but since it is infinite, magic happens, and there you are. everything possible unfolding infinitely. like a wild cry of joy that in an instant, is all that can be. for no other reason than because he can and because he wants to. infinite love pouring out infinitely without control ... so much that it is nothing. uncontrollable, unfathomable, unknowable, the you that is not you, because as much as it is, it is nothing, but it is