Breakingthewall

If you have it so clear and you are so mature, do it, and that's it. If you ask, with your age, you already know that they will answer you

If you vape, do it little by little, prepare 3 pipes with 5/6 mg each. wait at least an hour, better two, without doing anything, meditating or just lying down, before do. your mind has to be as calm as possible. when you vape don't expect anything, just let it happen. Once it has passed, stay relaxed as long as possible without doing anything, feel how the energy of your body is released. do it lying on the floor, without clothes, in a wide place. Above all do not resist, 5meo disintegrates you, that's what you do it for, so let the disintegration happen

@RMQualtrough The point is to understand that I am not in a bar and you are not working. A while ago, after hours of meditation, it was clear. now I am totally back into the character and what I wrote before seems nonsense to me. As you say, if it seems that I am in a bar, it is that I am, if it seems that there are two of us, somehow we are two. it's a very well done trick

Leo is moving your body and it is you, what you see is the same as what he sees. Your experience is exactly than mine, but for a trick looks different. Looks an experience. Everything you think is happening to you is not happening, it is a trick. Now I am having a coffee in a cafeteria for breakfast, and maybe you are working, and another is being tortured by narcos. We are all the same at this very moment, and none of this is happening, it is a multiple mirage. A single thing with the appearance of many. I am imagining the other people in this bar, and they are imagining me, and we are all the same at this exact moment, and our experience isn't happening

what is scary is being a human. luckily it's an illusion

You could think that you are going to go through all the pain, or that you have already gone through it. the second option seems more cheerful. it does not matter, they are imaginary. they are not-happening right now

marijuana has two virtues: the first, that it initiates you into spirituality, opens your mind. the second, that hooks you, blocks your life, and makes you draw strength and take control of your life, and you abandon her forever

it's a twisted thing. I would say it is like this: only you exist, I am you. there is only one experience. the one you are having. the one I'm having. They are the same, but by an incomprehensible trick, they appear different. When multiplicity collapses, you see that there is only you, that everyone is you and what you thought was happening was an illusion, a trick. It's the same for all, because all are one: you, or me.

the only terror of loneliness is that of the human, who is a social monkey. the ego is the relative mind, that is, it exists in relation to others. solipism is terrible for the ego. If you were an octopus, loneliness would not matter to you.

knowing is from the ego. spirituality is transcending the ego. all we know is irrelevant, the point is to be without limitations, knowing is a limitation

Liberation is when you realize in a deep way that nothing means nothing. your mind stops being a rugged landscape, full of differentiations that provoke emotions, and becomes a calm lake. one thing is the same as another, you are free. when this happens your mind stops being limited, closed, and widens. free from conceptualization, you can realize your true nature

in the sleeping state everything is "normal", boring, annoying, always trying to reach something that gives meaning to your life, a relationship, a dedication, a goal ... to realize when you have it that it was not what you thought, and keep playing on the wheel of anxiety ... with the terrifying shadow of death insinuating itself. awake, every minute is magic. emptiness is a perfect jewel, death acquires a beautiful, unifying character, returned to what it is. Anxiety is replaced by joy, and you feel like you're right where you need to be. the difference is complete.

Not only that. you have to eliminate one element from the equation: the self. but look at the paradox: "you have to eliminate" you have. you cannot eliminate yourself. you can only understand yourself as deeply as you can, and at some point ... magic, you will have disappeared

Exactly. If you stop interpreting, you will disappear. It will only remain what it is, which is the only thing there is, if you stop interpreting an idea that calls itself "i" disappears. but the self cannot stop interpreting, because interpreting is itself

I'm certain that I'm talking from the ego, of course. I have some egoless moments. few and short. then the ego comes back and it doesn't make much sense to talk about what I interpret as those moments without ego, since the mental idea that I form is going to be that ... an idea. Yes it's possible, But keep in mind that you are talking about ideas, a belief, that perhaps (in my opinion, yes) points to the truth, but it is not the truth. talking to your friends about it does not make sense, they will take you for naive, deceived, or a little crazy

I think that any idea or concept with which we want to describe the functioning of reality at an absolute level is absolutely useless

That you have had a mystical experience in the past, and you have seen the videos in which it is said that you are God, does not mean that you are. It has become a concept, ego, only more twisted. the only way to know what you are is to realize it in the present moment. Other things are ideas. explaining these ideas to someone is pointless as they are just like any other idea, ego.

the ego is what " should be" and is satisfied if everything is as it should be: world without diseases, no boredom, money to spare, everyone extremely handsome, there should be no old age, and everyone should have a penis 21.5 cm.

question: who am I? to understand what the ego is. who you are is your preferences. identify self with preference. understand that preference is relative, survival. Take it out of the equation and there will be the "what are you" which is not a what. Is the present , indefinable and unfathomable

You are not alone because there is no you. you play with that idea, from the self. when the self disappears there is no loneliness or company, there is only what is, impersonal, empty of content, bottomless.

it means that you realize that you are infinite, so it does not matter full or empty, bad or good, something or nothing. then all your life content = no life content

salvia is interesting to see how weird things can get. Like: reality is a demonic cry between heartbroken and festive. everything is fragmented and behind the substance of reality rebounds. you're bouncing and the walls of your house are evil. the goddess kali approaches you and wants to kiss you. you don't see her but you feel her spirit, her enormous tension. you see colorful monkeys with geometric shapes that perform a sinister, rhythmic, syncopated dance . everything is spicy and wrinkled. reality wrinkles. in the middle of this party you can't think: wow, this thing is strange. nothing, you can just live all that madness without a second to get out of the situation. a roller coaster of varied follies. interesting but I do not see the spiritual utility. it is a masochistic, aggressive, cutting substance. the times I have repeated it, after a second of doing it I have had the overwhelming feeling of: no, not this again. I guess I'll never do it again, although on the other hand I don't like being afraid of a psychedelic

and yet it is divided infinitely. although it is an apparent division, since the experience you are having is apparent. the same as the past and the future. there is only the empty now. everything apparent is not real. you are me right now, I am you right now. all the paraphernalia that surrounds us and makes us different is not real, a special effect

God is not terrified nor does he need to escape from loneliness, right? Great insight and explanation. 5 Meo trip maybe?

What happened? from what I read in your posts I thought that for you vaping 20 mg was like having a coffee in the morning ??. Any bad experience?