Breakingthewall

suicide seems like a bad thing because you, as an existence, as the void that you are, aka god, have chosen to live this experience. with all its nuances, all its content. so, when things get ugly, even horrible, with maximum suffering, als, terminal cancer, whatever....you have chosen that. then, you, the avatar that you really are, should give your all, and endure your ordeal. you want to experience that. you want to be crucified. if you escape... I don't know if it's a punishment, but seems a disappointment.

it is completely realistic. what takes you away from the joy of being is your mind. realize what your mind is, understand in depth how it acts. detach yourself from the mind, and that's it.

The attacks of anger are usually a symptom or manifestation that you subconsciously feel dominated, forced, obligated, to do things, to have a life that is not your choice. They are usually a cry for help asking for freedom. maybe you live in an environment where everything is compulsory, you are corseted, you cannot express yourself, say what you want, do what you want, be you. the remedy is to free yourself and be the master, the boss, the god, the total tyrant of your life down to the last millimeter. then you see no reason for something as dumb as anger. you are sitting on your throne looking benevolently at the world you have conquered. you need a lot of ball, that's true, but what else you could do? be an idiot?

I would say that insanity is the destructuring of reason. you keep reasoning and your mind still has content, but that content is not organized in a structured way, it is chaotic. you are lost and cannot establish cause/effect relationships that work. This leads to more and more confusion, until the mind works in a random way, creating thoughts and emotions without logical structure.

Yes, the thing is not about to listen the voice or be silent, it's about to truly realize that all the mental paraphernalia is nothing. As long as you believe you can understand reality with your mind, it doesn't matter if you discipline yourself to be silent for several hours a day. It will be a tense silence, with subconscious activity in the background. but when you really see the mind for what it is, then even with mental activity you can be in a meditative state, because you don't cling to the mind. you know it's a false grip

@amanen if you want to show some would be a pleasure to see them

It seems that no one here has realized that the ego is suffering. more or less intense, but essentially suffering. the ego is a ghostly vampiric entity that overlaps reality to promote the evolution of the species at the cost of promoting suffering. the materia the ego is made of is anxiety. and your struggle as an ego is to minimize anxiety. but this one will always catch you. You will think that you have overcome it by egoically projecting yourself into a future without anxiety, but this is an illusion. in the present moment you are an ego that escapes with stories and is made of moving anxiety. movement from past to future, imagining a fictional cosmos

in my experience, once you realize that the content of the voice is indifferent, most of the time it is like that, a kind of meaningless background noise. unless you focus on something practical and the voice acts as a problem-solving tool, which is what it is for. the rest of the time it is not silent but it is in a kind of stand by, and with 10 minutes of meditation it becomes silent. the key is the real understanding of what the voice is. the voice is superficial, and above all, the content of the voice is not you. confusing reality with the content of the voice is the problem that all humans have, once you get out of there you realize how obvious and silly it was, but when you are attached to the content, you can not see it

When you meditate, it happens that you see that the inner voice is a ghostly entity that is superimposed on the experience that is happening. you are meditating and you feel the temperature, the light, your breathing, and that is what there is. and that's it that is the total, absolute reality. nothing else exists. anything else you are inventing, it is a creation of your mind. this is very shocking and difficult to maintain since you have created a huge and elaborate mental world, but that does not exist, they are only thoughts. the act of thinking is real, but not the content of thoughts. You have to get to see this, beyond the voice of the mind. the voice is real, it is happening, what the voice says is completely indifferent, noise. once you stop paying attention to the voice in the sense of believing what it says, the voice starts saying unrelated things, like: my mother went and then the car and her grandfather then the pride and the trees.... like this all the time. this is the step before the voice is silenced. when silent, you are free.

The guy invents everything . I started one of his books and left it when I read that he said that the consciousness of the world had risen 20 points in 1987, and that this had not happened for thousands of years

interesting. It was the first psychedelic that I used and it is really shocking, its strength is enormous, but the sensation is negative, it has a demonic flavor. you stop being yourself completely, that's true, and you become a kind of strange nightmare. then you come back and it is true that there is a feeling of: I have ceased to be me. By the way, what other psychedelics have you used as a tool in your process?

I remember well eren eager. I have thought many times: here is a guy with a palpable, fast, real evolution

life is suffering because as humans we come equipped by default with an ego son of a bitch whose mission is to create unhappiness. in fact, it is unhappiness. and if you let him loose, he can drown you in oceans of unhappiness. we are born with a parasite that we feed with tons of information, and that has us by the neck, by the balls and with great force. Go alone to the desert for a month, so you will get to know him up close. you will see how happy you are

In my experience , no way . There is a wall very hard, perfectly constructed, an immovable barrier: you. You are the enormous obstacle that prevents reality from manifesting itself, and without a magic pill that makes the dog guard fall asleep for a moment, not even God passes by. when you sleep the guard dog that you are and infinity is, you realize the solidity of the door. you can break it a thousand times it comes back. And when the wall is there, you only see the wall, no matter how much you know what is behind it. the mechanics of the self are masterfully constructed. you have to be extremely perceptive to start any deconstruction

@newbee It is not about justifying the violation. obviously we all work on a relative level and I don't justify anything on a relative level. What I am saying is that if we want to understand what we are, what we are is absolute. this is so and that's it. the rape is you, and the massacres of wars and all, and ultimately not even, since they are illusory. it's all illusion, and you're creating it right now. this is not a joke or new age religion, this is reality. So, if someone comes to me telling me I'm stupid for having those ideas, I tell them: they're not ideas, it's reality, direct experience after deconstructing the walls that separate me/other. and he answers me: you are parroting, etc... like that, because it seems that way to him, without giving the benefit of the doubt... it shows that he is a close mind. But of course I'm not justifying anything wrong. Opposite, i can't bear even the slightest lie.

My life is my business, here i just talk about spirituality not about ego

@Kuba Powiertowski you don't understand anything, you just have to surrender your ego. that ego that says that war is wrong and hugs from mom are good. I mean if you want to be serious about spirituality and understand and open yourself to what you are, if what you want is to continue with an ego that judges and separates between you and what is not you, then don't do it.

I mean mental content, ideas, thoughts. The mind can be totally empty and there is still experience, you know that perfectly i think

Talk with you is absolute useless

Because my appreciation is totally different, i saw that he kicked him for trolling and because he was fishing in this forum people for his own forum and his business. But as you said, different appreciations

Maybe you can't understand or something. I will try to explain to you. look, when you meditate enough and do psychedelics and all that stuff, not playing but seriously, opening your mind to the maximum, emptying it of any idea, you realize, without a doubt, that everything is you. it is absolutely obvious. in the end you realize that 24/7. while they torture you I guess not, but it doesn't usually happen, at least to me. then, when you realize that, you realize that the one who mistreated you was also you, the whole of reality is you. there is no other. haven't you heard of that before? or did you think it was a joke and people say it for being smart? you were wrong, it's reality. You can't see, ok, it's normal, but you don't need to be so idiot. Just be bit open-minded and think that maybe you are wrong in your appreciation

Talk by yourself. If you are in spirituality from i don't know how long ago, and you still didn't realize, really, that everything is you, what are you playing? At least don't insult with your bitterness, it feels not nice

And you are stuck in your ego and in your close mind. I can't understand your need of be insulting . I talked by direct experience, not from theories

of course, at the moment of being tortured, or if tomorrow they tell me that I have a melanoma, I suppose that the state of not i will be replaced by a me that screams

Anyone who raises his consciousness a bit will realize that there is no rapist or torture, everything is himself. and that all perceived reality is an illusion in which you are imagining differentiations. any master will say this, Ramakrishna, Maharshi, Jesus Christ, Buddha...everyone knows that I am the rapist. Even I see it clearly.