Breakingthewall

that's a completely human perspective. if you were a whale you would be out there swimming with your mouth open swallowing plankton and you would not get bored. Being bored is human. If you were a tree, you'd be bored to death then. sex has to be hard to be satisfying. Ah, so, all the stable couples in the world are disgusted by sex, since it has no challenge. too many computer games!

and for saying that no human being is going to suffer what he has suffered, the need of appear as special, and above all for not explaining anything concrete about his awakening. magic, it's wonderful, blah blah.

obviously messianic delirium.

If I were you I would be with her 100% during this time. forget your life focus on your mother. Accompany her in the deepest and closest way you can. all day if necessary, even if it means suffering. become a sworn who is on a mission. It's only a year or two. When my mother died I was 17, and I was a selfish, childish piece of shit, and I have a hard time forgetting it.

sounds a bit delusional. messianic? no matter how much suffering you have endured, it is nothing but suffering. nothing is more common. but I don't delegitimize what you say about your awakening, I'm just saying that saying that no one else is going to suffer what you do, sounds like a derailment, maybe you meant something else What do you mean as full time? Meditation? Psychedelic?

How i could, if there is not i? But still it's happening (apparently)

Yeah, it's absolute, it's me, there is nothing else. Outside have no sense. But I'm doing a constant activity which consists in temporarily projecting towards the future and the past, in deluding myself with ideas of what should be. in short, to avoid being present at all costs. I've been doing it all my life and I can't stop doing it for a second, except if I take some psychedelic. this activity is the veil. this activity is also the truth, like everything else, but it has the ability to create an imaginary world

Could you explain the process?

Yes, but we are all time talking about it because we are addicted to the truth and we don't realize the truth more than some moments. The rest of time the truth is almost here, but veiled. Of course, everything is the truth, but we are lost in the veils

Truth is neither positive or negative. Truth IS ?Man, i mean, tell something about the truth, i really want to know what you have to say, not only what the others are deluded. We have to explain the things right? Have we to say: the total emptiness was manifested? What comes and goes is everything. if they crucify you now, you will not be aware of anything but being crucified.

So, explain it. Mine is simple, I have experiences of total emptiness, of total infinity and of God, me, the sacred infinite source that is everything and in which I recognize what I have always been. Be infinite, total, abslolute... but with 5 meo, and lately with lsd and mushrooms . Right now I don't have that opening, but my mind is not what it was before these realizations. not far. They are there, near the surface. So you, who say to others that they are wrong, I have explained my circumstances in detail. explain yours, expose something positive .

So, are you realizing the infinity right now? mystical experiences, in which the ego dissolves completely, happens, and then you return to normality. each experience is followed by a normality slightly less dense than the previous normality. conceptual memory of infinity has no value, I agree. but after each dissolution the limits blur a little. they erode, and although they are still there they are not so strong, they let something of infinity pass

Realization of infinity happens. And later you remember it. And you came to this forum to talk about it, because although now you can not open yourself to infinity, you are close, you know that it is lurking, right here, now

Well, in other words. Infinity couldn't change because it's infinite so every possible change in already the case, right? So it's immutable. But here I am in a park waiting for someone to have a beer, so a mutation is happening, right? But this mutation is just apparently, the reality is the infinity being infinite

Yes, could be transcended with tons of work, psychedelics to be able to deepen and having been born for it

because we are advancing against a conditioning forged in hundreds of thousands of generations of cain and abel, power, reproduction, slavery, submission. free human chimp is not nice

Maybe you ve start a revolution, who knows .or if not start it, give it a good push

You know and you ve experienced that you are unlimited. Me too. but do you understand how and why you are appearing as limited? Do you understand the reason for everything that has apparently happened to you, and how it's created? I don't . I think it's interesting to go deeper, because means richer and better life. My life is quite good now, but why not to make it better?

Yes , but I'd say Leo is not trying to achieve that. He is an explorer of the infinity, and he's exploring because it's beautiful. the depth is endless, so it's a hobby that never ends. utility? enjoy reality

Still but moving on itself, flowing. although due to the fact of being infinite, any movement is only apparent. everything is apparent in infinity. the only real thing is its infinitude. it is very difficult for the mind to grasp it. infinity, due to its lack of limits, touches absolute zero, they are two faces of the same

I think that what you do is the future of humanity. I think that in a few years there will be personal guides that will take you to full awakening with psychedelics. I imagine something like a personalized therapy, one by one, in which the guide is able to capture the student well and know what they need, the integration times, resolve their doubts. maybe a one year process, 18 months, if the student is brave and willing. surely in a few years, 5, 6, there will be actualized apostles taking the psychedelic gospel to humanity?. It's the only spiritual work that works.

there are people who need an addiction to manage their lives, otherwise anxiety eats them up. They should face their anxiety, but if they don't they need a crutch. There is gambling, sex, cocaine, heroin, weed, alcohol, exercise, work, and more. Weed is not one of the worst, even if it weighs down your life, it will make you lazy, slow, stupid. Another thing is that you use marijuana in moderation. it can be enjoyable, enriching, fun.

I guess he knows that infinity is unchanging, because it contents all possible change. nothing can be added or changed to infinity. but it is immutable in perpetual motion, so it mutates in some way, although really it is always the same

Yes, it's not you experiencing something, it's the experience happening, and inside the experience it's the you seeming that is experiencing. True that the word experience suggest duality. So let's say existence. But, the eternal discussion, if you realize that the you isn't real, same time you realize that you are the whole experience that is happening. Without any energy of desire or attachment, but still you. Always you. Even the absolute zero is you, but in a very different sense

Even the total emptiness is an experience, experience of being. How is possible the non experience?