Breakingthewall

awakening is not knowing something. you can arrive with the logical mind to the understanding that now is existence, and that you are reality. but your mental and energetic configuration remain limited, you filter everything with your logical processes and create a bubble of constant mental flow that maintains the appearance of division between you and the outside of you. awakening is the dissolution of this and the perception in another frequency. direct perception, without mental filter. this perception is not the end of a search, but the beginning of another stage. First you manage to be without the mental capsule for a moment, little by little more and more, it becomes more normal, but even so, it is still limited. it is a constant work of raising your consciousness.

Thanks. I guess that it's a therapy of exposure. I think it is important to address fears in this way, since we all grow up in very protected environments. Neurosis is the norm, not the exception

To know that only the now exist is simple, what is not so simple is to be totally open to the now. There is a lot of fear that keep un trapped in mental construction, in low conciousness.

I think it's more like be completely open to this moment, for this you have to understand and overcome fear. there are many barriers made of fear that prevent us from being fully open and aware now.

Not desiring it but if you look at existence directly in a habitual way, if you remove all the filters and you are here and now, open to existence, you see that things happen when they should, and that disease and death are the step that is now . Or maybe you see that the step is to fight to the maximum for your health. It is a tough situation that many of us are going to go through, a difficult test. the more open, present, conscious, awake, the better we will go through there Thinking in death, my feeling is: let's go really deep now, death could came in any moment. Better not be attached to nothing. Not easy, of course We must to overcome the fear, to break all the barriers, there are a lot. Barriers and barriers, until we are completely open. we have to be what we are, without fear. this existence seems infinite, we will continue to be. I think that the more fear is diluted now, the better. although who knows how this game works

Yes i recommend you, without a doubt. spirituality is going over fear. not all practices should be mental, sometimes you have to go to the physical. think of something that really scares you, and do it seriously. there are many activities, climbing, martial arts, the sea. if you want results, you must be serious. obviously not to the level of torture or medieval battle, but serious enough to make it really hard, breaking your limits, until you don't need to do it.

@Gabith It's very simple, you have to understand the challenge of being alive, and fully accept it. If not, you will always be afraid. life is wild

I was also very afraid and what I did was expose myself to situations that were as intimidating and hard as possible, to be able to face that. It is something normal be afraid since we live in an artificial hyper-protected environment and if you are minimally penetrating you realize that the reality of life is much harsher, so much so that you are not even remotely prepared for it, we live like babies in the cradle, so only if you are an idiot you are not afraid.

the existence of life in this dimension is that to live you have to kill, and that only those who can prosper, and who can't, die. there is only one rule: survive. Evilness like child-torturing is a perversion of the fact of what life is. and the human is especially a son of a bitch, that's why they has done so well in the game of: let's see who is more son of a bitch. If we want to penetrate in existence, we have to stop projecting in existence our bias

when you remove all evaluation, comparison, projection ,from the present moment, pure love remains. it's hard to see this because we live in a world of survival interconnected with other people, and our survival depends on others. we need to be accepted, stand out, all that makes our reality far from love and more like being surrounded by enemies sons of bitches who need to be deceived to get what we want. everyone, and we too, are contaminated by lies, and love is buried deep enough

death can come at any moment, it is absolutely certain, so we have to be fully prepared for it. If cancer comes, or a guy with a gun, and suddenly you realize you're going to die, you have to think, yes! this is the moment. Let's go there. it comes exactly when it has to come, knowing this, being terribly afraid is stupid, we have to be prepared. Although you never know what you're really made of, let's see.

@Benton thanks for the tips. I have used a flask, which is similar. I will try to aspire it 3 times, let's see. I just want to test how is a dmt breakthrough, I don't think I'll do it much. I'll try the imao thing. orally, what dose?

5 meo takes a lot of trying, you have to open up to the substance, allow it all to happen without resistance. at first it is very difficult. It is a very instructive process because you identify your resistances

For you suffering is evil just because you don't like. suffering is existence, the same as pleasure. Whether you like it or not doesn't make it good or bad. It is like saying that cold is good and heat is bad, or binary solar systems are bad and simple ones are good. reality is reality, what exists, is. if you stay in the superficiality of preference, you divide everything between good or bad. At an absolute level, it is not better to be rich and have the girlfriend of your dreams than to be a schizophrenic chained in a baroque-era madhouse. what is, is, and its depth is unfathomable. Due to the fact of being, it is infinite love, and its external manifestation is indifferent, since everything is, nothing can not be, be excluded, since reality is infinite and nothing is left out, it's impossible. If it were possible, reality would be finite, and it can't be.

The ego is a configuration of consciousness in which there is a clear division between me and what is not me. reality is configured for to develop an ego. If I hit you, it hurts. If I hit the wall, it doesn't hurt. it is impossible to escape this. Since we are human and depend on other humans to survive, and we use language to create links with others, the entity called ego is created, a set of energy patterns surrounded by words. the word has enormous power. some words are life, and others death. how to transcend this? obviously it is not easy nor can it be done at will. there is only one way: you have to realize that life and death are the same. as long as they are different, there will be ego, but there are degrees. the total materialist has an ego that is a wall of steel. who is not a materialist and really understands that existence is infinite, has a more flexible ego. and so on until you have a totally transparent ego

there is no evil, there is suffering and it is the engine of evolution. you do not like? normal, its function is that you do not like it, so that you avoid it and pursue what you like. It is like that from a protozoan to a human. the design of life is that. It is not good or bad, it is efficient

@Kuba Powiertowski I was reading that long article thinking that you had written it. I was quite impressed?. very accurate btw, a penetrating guy

The technique has always been used for this. meditation once your mind has a minimum of cleaning is wonderful. the states you speak of are a big step. I've used a lot of psychedelics basically because my meditation was shit, dissonance. now it begins to be open, fluid.

Yes, maybe more people on this forum could join us to help him to get that achievement of consciousness

Yes, It seems so. the core of who we are is happiness, love and freedom. if you think about it, it doesn't seem like it, since life is not a smooth place, and in many cases it gets really ugly. with the logical mind, the conclusions are negative, very depressing. the mind has to do an exercise in self-deception in order not to see how horrible life is from the angle of logic

you could get in a boxing ring with a guy and practice concious suffering together

you understand infinity from infinity, with total clarity, and then you forget it, and the logical mind cannot stop trying to understand it. Its understanding is limited, but it can try to expand and get closer to some understanding

It's poorly formulated. There is only one being, one existence, and it is you. Only you exist. You won't abandon your now, your direct experience, never, so it's absolute. then solipsism is true. but you are infinite. infinite means that you are infinite forms raised to the infinite power infinite times. it is not thinkable. but now you only perceive one, right? where are the others? you are blind to them. your current experience is a limiter, something like a tube that only allows you to look through it. If you remove the limiter, you would be infinite, you really are, and you would have no form, you really are formless, form are just appearance. How is it possible that you only perceive one form? because the one is in infinite lines of existence, which are ultimately the same, like a loop interacting with itself. everything you see is infinite, even an image that you think is infinite. but in the end, it's always you, just you alone existing.

Awakening is something real, It is the breaking of the limits, becoming infinite. the finite is an illusion, reality is infinite. It is not anything you can imagine or think about, it must happen, it is an opening that has to happen. It is something more real than anything else. It's like saying: have you ever had an orgasm? Well, I don't know, once someone touched my dick a bit and I would say yes... no. if it happens, it happens. but that doesn't mean anything, then it closes, you forget it, and you're still in the same shit. but you have taken a step! You know what the direction is, where to orient yourself. After you get more open day by day, if that is your real will.

you have to transcend the relative and really open yourself to existence. in a real way, go further. If not, you're in hell. human life is crazy, everyone is locked in their capsule using thousands of avoidance micro-tactics to function day by day, living in complete stupidity, waiting for old age and death. If they did not use avoidance, the vital depression would be complete. what we have to do is truly open ourselves to the now, to reality, to what we are. this is real. right now you are, and what you are is pure existence. trying to mentally grasp this doesn't work, you have to open up. In my case, what has worked (to the extent that it has worked, I'm still working on it) is, first of all, complete will to do it, without reservations. I want to open myself totally, give myself totally. and then, the means you use: deconstruction of mental patterns, meditating for hours every day, even if it's dirty meditation, it's getting better, and psychedelics, a lot, especially 5 meo, and also mushrooms and thc. it is a blind path. nothing Leo sad, or I read, or any guru is nothing, no one has ever awakened as far as I am concerned, I am alone in this, there is nothing and no one to lean on. it is total openness, total surrender. you dare? you better, because there is no other way