Breakingthewall

It depends on how you consider it. Does the dream have any purpose? It seems extremely deliberate. is the dream evolutionary? Or is the concept of evolution foreign to the consciousness of God? from our mentality it seems impossible for something to be without purpose. you can say that the purpose is to be, but it is already a purpose. be more complex? all traditions and mystics have spoken of reincarnation. continuity, evolution. It seems logical. although your idea also seems to me

in Roman law the paterfamilias could kill his wife if he wanted. 200 years ago, the figure of honor killing was in almost all penal codes. the native americans sold their women if they wanted, God took out a rib from adam and created the woman to keep company and serve the man etc etc.

If you have some inner harmony, you are in your weight and you take care of your appearance, you will give off some good vibes even if you are not the prototype of a handsome man. enough to spare for a conversation to take place easily. the difficult thing for me is not to start, but after the chemistry flows. if for example you put yourself in a nice plan, little friend, accomplice, etc. it's almost always insecurity imo. something like: I'm a cute puppy, love me. anti-sex. because we are afraid to let masculinity flow, since it can be something aggressive, we are half castrated, I don't know. The fact is that a woman who wants to let her femininity flow with a man, is not going to look for you to protect her and all that, but to feel horny for you. if not, in the end you find one who doesn't feel hot for you but who doesn't see you as a threat and feels safe, and tries to get you for a boyfriend... terrible to fall into that, but very common imo. It's like to prostitute yourself. You can't find real flow, so you make a kind of deal, you guarantee acceptance in exchange for them guaranteeing it to you

When you interact with a girl in a male/female way, the issue is that your masculine part comes into contact with her feminine part. You have to let it flow, and it's not easy in many cases since we have fragile masculinity, so you need the security of a relationship for it to flow. making it flow in something casual, on the street, is an art, and to be able to practice it you have to understand the obstacles you put on yourself. Most of women can't have quality sex , almost never

If you do microdose of 2 mg, it's 0,2 mg of 5 meo, almost nothing. Do you feel it? I use to microdose 5 meo, maybe 3 mg, to make my ego lighter, thinner, but without erasing it. it is very useful. it is not to understand, or to see, it is only to soften the barriers. another thing is a full dose, that for me continues to impose great respect

Yes, Jesus flagellated before the mockery of the people, and then nailed naked to a cross, writhing in agony like a worm before the gaze of his executioners, possessed by the greatest pain, the greatest impotence, the greatest humiliation. and suddenly, he realizes that this atrocious suffering opens up and is the glory of existence in all its intensity, in its absolute beauty, in its totality.

inside and outside are appearances. obviously it seems that there is inside and outside of you, if it were not so, you would not need to realize that it is not so.

@Jodistrict have you tried synthetic? are there differences?

That is. To achieve this, each one must be intuitive and do what is necessary, understand what hinders free flow, and act accordingly. sometimes psychedelics are necessary, other times meditation, also changing habits, companies, occupations. it is something that encompasses everything

It should not be easy to be in the spotlight and that does not influence you, preserve your integrity. but I guess if you've been doing it for many years, it becomes normal for you

you have to eliminate as much as possible, or totally, the narcissism from you, since it turns you into a puppet. any need for external validation is sapping your life. turning you into a sad clown. if you want to stop being pathetic, become aware of your narcissism and expel it. After that, you can start living with dignity

That is absolutely true. I don't like a girl who wants sex the day we meet. seems dysfunctional to me. I think she does it without real feeling, as for "try" to be a woman. I am not talking about a sentimental attachment, but about a real sexual feeling that occurs after 2, 3 or 4 dates, where it really flows. could be in the first, but almost never. it is usually forced and stupid to do so. on a disco night, the cheapest

I've been doing it since I started masturbating, at 11 y.o. With so much practice, I can achieve something that I call a semi-orgasm. I stay at the moment of orgasm for a long time without reaching it, and when it comes I stop, then I ejaculate, but halfway, without being a complete orgasm but the sensation is almost the same, the expulsion of lesser semen, the peculiarity is that you do not lose the erection and you can continue. I have done it up to 5 times in a row, the girls are quite impressed because it is not usual. If I have a complete orgasm, I can't go on, and really, normally I don't feel like another one on the same day, but this way I can spend hours.

getting girls because you're "somebody" sucks. the cold door is infinitely more beautiful. not only the result matters, beauty is in the process, it's magical

psychology tries to solve the labyrinth that is the human social ego, the trauma, going through it until you find the exit. authentic spirituality flies over it and comes out of it directly

I don't understand what it means. If you mean experience as something that is happening, I agree. the absolute is not happening, it is. happening is appearance. to realize god is to realize that you are, with unlimited depth. you can say: "realize" is an experience. well, we are in the apparent, everything is experience, but we experience that there is no experience, there is being

Why? Obviously reality is. Is=god. Seek in yourself. You are

If God wanted that, he would never remember being god. God wants things to be exactly the way they are, right? but those of us who seek enlightenment do so by our will, because we want that and we act accordingly. I guess you could say God wants us to. what you said before about the depth, I do not agree. I can realize God meditating for a moment, a flash, or I can spend 10 days drooling in ecstasy like Ramakrishna. they are both realizing god, but of different depth. I seek more depth, but not as much as a saint. the just one to live this life in total freedom. But who knows, once you start something you never know where is the end

You had a enlightenment experience of one day if I remember correctly. but then the ego came back. So, are you enlightened like your nickname says? obviously not. that experience recontextualize your mental landscape, but has the ego dissolved again? Is there infinity in your mind when you close your eyes? Or do you only remember that experience? That's ego, you are sleeping, even you awoke one day. The god realization it has to be at the present moment, if not, it's ego. remembering it over and over again makes it a religion. maybe that happens to you?

but there are different depths and different durations. and also different purities, there may be part of the ego, nothing at all, it may be a total trance that lasts a week, it may be an instant. everything is the same in short, but different level. Anyway, i think there are natural enlightenment that are more deep that with psychedelics, but only a belief, who knows, for now, diving in small depths

no, because reality is nothing. absolutely nothing has no limitations, it has nothing, so nothing prevents it from being. it's a very strange thing to think about, since there is only that, always has been and always will be. that we are. and there is nothing else, that's all, the bottom of reality.

Maybe it's true. will have to check it

It's not that it's this or that. is that reality is absolute but there is an apparent ego that makes it seem relative and limited. if you transcend that ego, everything collapses into one, and you realize the absolute limitless that you are. it can happen doing 5 meo or fucking with prostitutes while snorting cocaine, but it happens that in the second case it doesn't usually happen, and taking 5 meo there is a tendency for the dualities to collapse and to realize the absolute infinity. if you realize the absolute 100 times taking 5 meo, or fucking whores, you're more likely to realize the absolute when you're home cooking or when you wake up in the morning, or meditating. It's not so mysterious and you don't have to be a monk or have your teacher teach you koans, and talk In misterious way, it's simpler

You think that God is duality, and beyond God is nothing, and nothingness is enlightenment, right? But where is the difference? Nothingness is god, that's the point .

depends. I have moments in the middle of the night, or sometimes meditating in which duality completely collapses, and in my mind there is emptiness without limits, certainty that this emptiness is Everything. total certainty that there is no outside, the collapse of multiplicity. the sensation is of total freedom without limits, but after a while there is a reaction. the mind begins: then there is nothing... but that nothing is something, right, or maybe it is simply nothing and looks like something... etc. it is difficult to stay in that state. and then there is confusion, but the evolution is fast. 4 months ago all the mental space was much dirtier. 8 months ago, there was suffering, fear and rumination thoughts, 2 years ago, my mind was bit a hell and if i were alone a couple of hours i got full of hate. it is a process of tendency towards a clean mind, which seems quite fast