Breakingthewall

Just aspire to really realize, to the bottom, what you are. absolute existence without limit. I would forget "truths" expressed in words. they are worth nothing.

@Water by the River thanks for remembering that post, yes, i agree, any experience is not good or bad, it is our reaction to it that defines it as such. all these "feelings" are reactions of the ego, obviously. with each such experience understanding breaks through inch by inch. hence I see the importance of having them

ok, from now on my spiritual practices will be methamphetamine marathons in the middle of an orgy with drug addicted prostitutes. When I learn to love that, I'll be enlightened? Seriously, you have to choose what is your path.

Exactly, that's why I never read spirituality nor watch videos. Direct experience is the only source. I have seen some leo out of obligation, since I am here, but every moment something tells me: toxic, turn that off. I only tolerate seeing them when I have already realized for myself what they are talking about, so the nuances can contribute a lot. but if what they talk about is far above my direct experience, like infinity gods, my sensation is of something toxic that I must forget immediately That's why I doubt about your approach that is: first, believe the absolute solipsism, then you will awake

When i said horror, i didn't mean fear. there is no fear, simply reality is an empty abyss. When the ego returns, it feels horror, as if you had seen a person being tortured, it doesn't scare you, but it causes you horror. Another feeling of horror that has occurred many times with 5 meo is: I am trapped in eternity, alone, and with no possibility of escaping the fact of existing. this does not cause fear, but the horror is so strong that it seems that it could cause physical damage. regarding the cessation of which you speak, that is a temporary jump, as if you were injected with propofol. if there is no consciousness of the void, there is no void, there is non-existence, and non-existence does not exist. existence is absolute, it has no opposite. To give an example, if in the middle of an ocean of non-existence a second of existence arises, that second would be eternal, since its limits would be non-existence, which does not exist. would be unlimited, as is the case

not everyone should be in uniform, parading and looking straight ahead. A little difference is appreciated, even more so when it involves work and research, as is the case

all depends on the perspective you take. From a linear perspective, reality is a temporary passing of events, and it exists outside. your cancer started with some cells that were increasing, one day you found out, etc. from a "depth" perspective (perceiving the now in depth, not in wide), only now exists, and it has no limits. Appearances are emerging that do not have a cause/effect meaning, time does not exist and outside does not exist. everything is a fluctuating construction that happens now. which one is true? the one you adopt. choose. the ideal is to adopt the linear for survival, and abandon it completely when it is not strictly necessary. reason? you will surprise yourself smiling with joy every moment

Of course, you are right. we are human and the source of our suffering is that we are fragmented, what we try in spirituality is to return to unity. but it is extremely difficult, since we are born we establish dependency relationships with others. How would you feel alone in the countryside without internet or reading for 3 months?

What I find most difficult to let go of is the need for other people to understand you. the need to share is great, I guess that's why we're here.

The experience I was talking about is, first, the subject/object duality disappears. I am not perceiving something, but it is reality happening. This reality first becomes a flat grey square, and then the void opens. the void expands without limit, there is no observer, there is a void that expands infinitely and there is absolutely nothing. only the consciousness of infinite emptiness. once you get out of there, it seems to you that you have realized the pure horror. limitless horror. without the slightest handle, without the slightest life. when it ends it leaves you with a feeling of death.

change the angle of reasoning. 1 this experience is the only thing that exists for you. this is true right? 2 you are you, and you can never be someone else, because if you were to become someone else, you would still be you appearing as someone else. there is no doubt about this, right? So, if you will always remain you, and for you this experience is obviously the only thing that exists, this results that this experience is the only thing that exists. and there is no more. and if now you think: well, but there are other experiences... that is only a thought that has arisen in your experience. you will never get out of it, in all eternity. So go deep in this experience. Be totally aware of this moment, remove any distractions, any ideas of "out." this moment is total reality. here, now, the absolute is.

You are right, if we want to play this game seriously, total detachment is necessary. this is extremely difficult for almost all of us.

Seriously, Imagine that you are a youtuber and you make videos with your ideas about spirituality and a lot watch them. imagine releasing the video of the solipsism. what is the purpose of that? because the video is something that has unbalanced many people, although it maybe could push some to the real awakening. but has it done it? Is Leo a crazy? Or he's a genius? Both? Id say you think he's more to crazy...but let's see, maybe he's a genius. A real one. But maybe not! Maybe he's limited. mystery... for now

Yeah, We each have our technique. mine is: open yourself to the now. the now is. allow the now to be. allow yourself to be. release any grip. let yourself go. This moment is. Then, if it is the right moment, you will mix with the now and realize what this moment is. Bottomless.

Yours truly, wondering in amazement at this Lila, created by her Majesty Maya, that can also come with the flavour of infinitely hilarious. Did I just hear her whisper "it never gets boring, darling, does it?". Seductive she is, before she died once more a sudden death by Trekchö. Selling Water by the River ??? Great analysis of the situation. It is not easy to understand the mental drift to which all this leads. fascinating trying to understand it? btw i have the same problem as bazooka , i am an addicted.

Seems that you are working seriously to become psychotic. Why don't you turn around that false masochistic path and try something positive? What is there inside your psyche that pushes you to the horror of madness? Dig deep and identify it. it is a pattern, something that life implanted in you when you were a child. deconstruct your psyche completely, understand the mystery. Understand yourself, face yourself. This madness is an avoidance mechanism

Frank yang , in a video i watched, said that he had done 5 meo just one time and that yes, incredible, and he made some faces as if to emphasize it, but that was not true enlightenment blah blah. You have to do 5meo 10 times or more, plus 40 low doses, for it to work for you. you have to learn to open yourself to 5 meo. Later, to open yourself to the now all time that you can. I'm working on it And the absolute is the absolute, it doesn't matter 5meo of anything. It's obvious, it can't be any other way

Beyond the cessation is the absolute, the whole existence. It seems incredible that something like this exists, since it is life, unleashed existence, everything is there. there is no concept "outside" since you encompass infinity. It becomes obvious that this is so, because where would it be if not everything? nothing can not be, the indisputable fact of non limits prevents non-existence. Non existence is a limitation. there is your girlfriend, your dog, your father, the infinite multiverses, within which there are infinite multiverses, without limit. Everything mixed in the infinite formless. There is not limit. and everything is you. the absolute. you are the existence. your glory has no limits, it is not imaginable. kneel down and cry, humble yourself, scream for joy and freedom. because you have seen. The perfection of total existence without limitations.

I have experienced total cessation many times, far too many as it is horrible for me. cessation is absolute emptiness, there is nothing, there is no self, there is only awareness of nothing without limits. the first 10 times I did 5meo was that. I did it several times in the same day many times to understand, and I understood it. cessation is an experience, the same as having a coffee in a bar. qualitatively it makes no difference. I learned the following: if you had a void experience, and in the next 10 minutes you did 5meo again at a higher dose, you would go through the cessation. then the door opened. the gate of infinity, that's it, the end of the illusion. This is not exactly an experience, it is unthinkable and you recognize yourself without the slightest doubt: you. The reality.

you cannot create anything, you can only draw pictures in infinity, everything already exists infinitely. the only creation is the creation of forms. you are a painter, you create based on what already exists. God is not the creator of reality, it is the reality. And maybe it isn't that, maybe god is imaginary, is a creation in the infinity, I'm not sure about that, but I would distinguish between absolute infinity, which is the ultimate reality, and absolute infinity with the will and intelligence to create experience, which is secondary to pure infinity.

The unmanifest is imaginary, because right now, in this instant, the infinite is. this means that everything is manifest now, nothing can not be. not being is not a possibility, automatically, everything is. For something not to be, you must blind yourself to it, create an appearance of finitude. the finite is not real, it is apparent, therefore, everything that is not the infinite, which is not thinkable since it cannot be contrasted with anything, is an illusion

No, you are the absolute, and the absolute is everything. It's obvious when you erase the barriers. The appearance is not a construction, its a limitation. Nothing could be constructed if it didn't exist previously.

the nature of the dream is limitation. reality is the absence of limits, nothing more. the absence of limits automatically translates into infinite existence. the absolute arises spontaneously from the fact that nothing can prevent it from existing. the absolute is everything, it is infinite, unimaginable. This is the reality. then, you are the infinite, and being the infinite is not properly an experience, it is being absolute. how do you create experience? blinding you to all aspects of infinity except the experience you want to be. You are like a donkey that puts on blinders to only look ahead and not get distracted. so what is the void? it is what is left when you put on blinders and eliminate absolutely everything except void. because a void is "something". It's the perception of void. if it were nothing, there would be no experience, and therefore it would not exist. that's why the void is imaginary

Shit man, you can't imagine what the infinity is. Is home, it's total freedom, is total beauty, is art, is depth, is life, is intricate, is purity, is dance, is unfathomable One thing is to realize what is not, another is to realize what is

That's not correct. The void is imaginary. It is the last frontier, where the Buddhists get stuck. the void excludes the full, it is a limitation. You can imagine emptiness, but you cannot imagine infinity. The void has an opposite, that's why you can think it. The infinity has not opposite, it's absolute.