Breakingthewall

Many days a awake in the morning and i see the infinity in everything, others day, no. I can have a total breakthrough to infinity with 1,5 gr of mushrooms. The thing is to see that a peanut is just an idea, and as such it has an infinite depth, the same as a hydrogen molecule or anything else

Psychedelic are imaginary. All my life is imaginary. There is no difference between sober or high. The infinity is the infinity and that's it. The change between awaken and sleep build understanding. Life is pure Mistic.

I ve not problem with suffering, mostly humanity is and has always been drowned in that shit and much worse. what i was talking about is understanding. I know what the absolute is, and I know what the relative is. I just have to fit the two together. and the goal of this is to go deeper. nothing is going to happen spontaneously, you have to win every inch, otherwise you will be swallowed by shit, like most of humanity. Being human is a challenge that very easily turns into a nightmare

What is your opinion about this? Maybe AWake? https://www.facebook.com/photo/?fbid=10159647650719409&set=gm.2536191743312740

What is the difference between real person and bot? Sounds delirium

btw i just did 5 meo malt. I thought about all this negativity i was saying, and in the trip horror came to mind. a boy from the congo forced to torture his mother and all that human stuff. agony, torture, death. suddenly, everything opened up and I saw infinity and i was it. I spent 10 minutes dancing around my house saying: yessss yesssss. and laughing out loud. Hallelujah. understanding is not easy friends. Let's keep working

@Vlad_ In my opinion you should go in a more progressive, methodical and thoughtful way. This is a path that requires time, you have to increase your baseline little by little, your understanding of reality and your ability to let go of everything. Better to do a trip of 2 grams each week, and then increase to 2.5 if you see it as necessary, and so on. after having done 5meo several times, with 2gs a total dissolution can occur. you have to get used to it, understand what it is. I am at that point too. we are at an initiation point pulling towards intermediate. Thinking that you are already at the professional point is a mistake and you will be slapped for your audacity Or said in a simpler way: your balls are too far ahead of your understanding. you need years before you can do what you want to do. Don't be so hurry

Yea of course, the trauma is the door to infinity. If the maze seems impossible to solve, it is when you have to apply yourself thoroughly and understand deeply. rise above yourself. there is plenty of shit in human life, in fact, it is the most common. the understanding of this is very difficult, it cannot be done at the level of the ego mind. For my part there is no problem, I have a capacity for understanding and action to spare, but for most it is a nightmare with no way out

I know it, oh master, but it happens that sometimes I have very negative experiences with short psychedelics (5 meo DMT, malt), and existence shows itself as empty horror with no escape. then I have to go back to doing psychedelics again and infinity opens up, and I was wondering in the previous post why this is happening to me. I guess it's from trauma, since I watched my parents die slowly and horribly with little time interval when I was a teenager, and also my father was a horrible alcoholic. hence the experiences of horror, in which existence is absolute horror. I can say that it is not fun and that it takes courage to go back in there that same day. If I do mushrooms it is different, I find that horror and in the end it is traversed and I find myself as unlimited amplitude, unlimited freedom. this is because the trip lasts hours and I can intentionally penetrate the horror of existence. when horror manifests itself, it doesn't seem like trauma, it just seems that the ultimate reality is that: horror. I just had one of those experiences yesterday, even i use to them, they are very challenging, but it's the psychedelic path, and I'm going to go to the end. Lately, if i do mushrooms, it's easier to break that barrier of horror, let's see if it dissapear

@Yimpa so? You asked before so condescending, to say what?

Very interesting. Do you know if that guy kept using the substance?

I clarify, the illusion is not what seems to be happening. the absolute is something in constant motion and is not an illusion. the illusion is to contextualize the movement of reality as a temporary experience in which there is a perceiver and perception

that if you think it's real and you identify with it, it limits you, makes you stupid and miserable. and in the end he gives you a horror experience, as a reward for your stupidity.

illusion is all that seems to be happening. any concrete appearance. any feeling, image, idea.

The thing is not about maximum states but about the dissolution of the illusion, but there are several barriers to this, one of them is horror of existence, another is the absolute emptiness. both are ultimately illusions. when the illusion is broken you see through it. it is possible to see through it all the time, it is not a peak state, it is reality, therefore it is possible

@Moksha You seem like an experienced person. Have you ever seen the face of true horror? to total darkness, to the true evil of existence? to the absolute void of dead horror? Have you lived with people full of hate while dying of a terminal illness, for example? it is extremely difficult to get through the sheer horror of life. people talk and talk and have no idea, the understanding of existence is extremely difficult, extremely deep.

@Moksha in my experience , only deep understanding leads to real change. That is why I think that Leo is correct in his approach to spirituality. understanding is everything. without understanding there is slavery. true understanding comes from the absolute

Yes, is usable and can be an evasion, you can access absolute states with meditation, or psychedelics or whatever, and avoid facing the challenges that the relative poses for you. the relative must be resolved, not avoided. The relative is the absolute in action. If you torture a dog during its childhood, it will be fearful, sick and unhappy, and every time it sees you it will have a panic attack. He is not holding on to anything nor does he have an ego that he must let go. He has simply built those patterns into his being, and they are real. Have awakenings and realize the absolute helps, but don't dissolve spontaneously the blockage, you need to understand yourself. If not, at the end you will realize that all the shit is still in you. Without understanding, it's difficult that any real change happens. The blockages are deep and in the root of our being.

In my experience, this is similar to using the absolute as a drug and it doesn't work, since the relative is still, and really, the relative is the absolute. the problem with memories is not just thinking about them but the energetic mark they carry. many events have created energy blockages in the person and it is extremely difficult to understand and unblock them. psychedelics are useful for this, btw. there are two ways to return to memories, one, by creating identity, searching for meaning and sense, judging. this is sterile and useless. another, when you have transcended all that of identity, to really see them, to understand. this is necessary and free yourself. Normally if you feel an attraction towards the past, it is because there is a blockage to work on. the hard part is knowing how to do it

I'd say life is planned as a kind of game that reality plays with itself, but without knowing the result. it is something it does to go deeper, to penetrate more within itself. It is a game in which there is passion and where no pain is spared.

The memories are so now as your breath. The memories are happening now, they are real and they have great power. Memories seem like dead verbal creations but they point to something very much alive, to what you are. You are an energetic construction, an multiplicity of intertwined patterns composing the entity that appears to exist at this moment. Memories are as real as your arm, it can be amputated ,if not it still there. Memories the same, only if they amputate a piece of your brain they disappear. They can be redirected, reorganized, and disempowered with work and intelligence, but the fast track of forgetting past by focusing on the present doesn't work, as memories are the present.

don't be fooled by the spiritual teachers, they are all phonies who repeat the same things. the past is real, it leaves an energetic imprint on you. Telling people to forget it and live in the present is idiotic and it hasn't worked for a single person in history, but it sounds great. If you are conditioned to obey, to despise yourself, to be afraid, you will. If an idiot with a pious smile tells you to get rid of that baggage and you'll be happy, and to pay him for it, don't listen to him. he is a faker. all spirituality is farce, business for fools. what triumphs is not what works, it is what sounds good. If you want to leave your conditioning behind, it will be the same as if you want to leave your 7 month pregnant belly behind, but 100 times harder. you will have to work hard, well, and on many fronts. Conquer the freedom is a difficult work.

@Holykael anyway, when things like that happen, maybe what happened is that you were very lucky. you have to heed the signs. though not always. it's a subtle thing. Sometimes you have to insist, other times you don't. but in general, when I see something like this happen, I think, it was not the time to take lsd. better forget about it for now. maybe i saved myself hell

Life always tests you. You have to be unbreakable, or you will be broken. simple. just keep going, like you're a force of nature, that never stops

human life is a game and you have to play it or you will sink into shit more and more. You may like it or not, but the reality is that either you advance or you sink. many before you have had a hopeless life and a miserable death. It's up to you to get out of there, or not.