Breakingthewall

Excess creativity, and excess activity in general, is often a way to escape. A way to get away from the here and now. I'm not saying it's your case, but it's a possibility. If this is so, it is a form of addiction, something that is used to cover up a dissonance, a source of anxiety. If this is so, the solution is to go deeper, understand. we're not ready for the real deep exploration until we get all of that sorted out

if you become infinite, it's a literal thing. you are infinite, you. total intelligence, total freedom, total power. is what you always were. you stand up with your arms up to the sky and scream until you can't anymore. It's wild, you can't imagine. You have hit the infinite jackpot. you are god...it is not imaginable. It doesn't matter to you at all if there are others or not. there are no limits for you. only glory, total joy. power. it's too much to be true. it is an explosion of endless existence. hallelujah friend because you are that. let's dance, let's sing. all this is infinite glory, endless perfection. Do you remember your greatest happiness when you were a child? Multiply it by infinity, it's more than a human can bear.

just keep in mind the possibility that that's not the full opening. there is something missing from your description: infinity. you have not become infinite, the last barrier has not been broken. there is no loneliness or negativity, there is total freedom. infinity is unknowable

Not agree, there is no loneliness in infinity. you accompany yourself infinitely. there is absolute perfection, absolute freedom, and the expression that comes closest to describing this is hallelujah. What you said before about God being surrounded by infinite nothingness is wrong. God is infinite nothing. the emptiness that surrounds you is imaginary. empty or full is the same. infinity total absolute has no problem, nothing to escape from, it is perfection. if you really become infinite, your heart opens to total love. This is it, it just doesn't look like it. You have to break the illusion even more, until there is nothing left.

In the end you have to forget all that, the religions, what Leo says and basically everything. You can use some Leo's ideas as help to free you mind if they are useful to you, but do not accept them as truth. Use Leo as an inspiration, what he's doing is real. You could do it too. true spirituality is the real exploration of what you are. you have to go completely out of what you have learned. It is useful at first to help you free yourself from the structures that imprison you, but ultimately you have to leave it behind. what you are is real, limitless depth. You have to throw yourself into the pool without knowing what's inside. "knowing" is an illusion.

Imo words only serve to dismantle the trap created by words. understanding is without words. everything conceptual is superficial. the deep is not articulated, it is fluid. Words also perpetuate the illusion of the other, of the need to constantly contrast with others to feel that you exist. they are addiction. I am addicted of course

fear is what happens when you believe the movie in your mind is real

Yes, it is what it is, but you can spend your whole life skating on the surface of the lake or break the ice and go diving inside. thinking that one thing is the same as another and staying on the surface, is what I call "idiocy". Let's call limitation.

well, satisfaction or not, what it is is what it is. the thing is to remove from the experience that is happening all the layer of meaning and limitation that keeps us tied to the surface and realize that you are the whole thing and dive into you. not doing it is catastrophic imo. Idiocy. We have to completely get out of mental constructions and get into the real. the real is infinite. it's like it's a game. until you pass the phase of mental constructions and limits, you can not start with the next phase: go deeper

Well, there's a huge difference between not having done it and having done it. I mean to deconstruct your mind, separate you from all the handles and stories, and also become infinite, let's say, 4 times, with 5 meo. you're free. before you were not, you were trapped in the dream. this is something absolutely real, you realize what you are. afterwards, there is only one possible way: to go deeper, for a simple reason, the deeper, the more beauty, more harmony, more breadth. so that? just vocation to break the limits

No, the thing is real. I have thought more than once that Leo is delusional, that he is a narcissist, that the only thing he wants is to stand out and show that he is smarter than the others. I have come to the conclusion that this is not the case. Leo has found the real way to dig deep. This is real, they are not stories. If you really seek the truth, break the illusion and see and understand what you are, Leo has the key. it is not too complex. Deconstruct your mind until there's nothing left. do psychedelics, especially 5 meo and become infinite hundreds of times. and that's it. you need to have the firm will to do this to the end. a kind of vocation

all of that is pretty irrelevant imo. they are handles that we use to balance our ego, to make a solid story. reality is infinity. It is what manifests itself in a complete dissolution with 5 meo. the only thing we can do is become infinite and then, when the apparent limits come back, try to see through them, soften the solidity of the barriers and understand spontaneously, without clinging to any philosophical system

Are you sure about that? Could you share a link?

You are the existence. Just enjoy, flow with the movement of life, go as deep as possible in the present moment, in yourself. open your heart to now. it's pure harmony, art

Yeah fear is a facet of love. the facet that allows one thing to appear different from another thing. fear is a type of love vibration. without fear, there is absolute unity, nothing different from nothing. the fear vibration is necessary to sculpt the apparent. the problem is that it's feels not nice. it is suffering. there are tolerable levels of suffering, life is wonderful if fear does not go beyond certain levels. but it's always there

I would say that fear is inevitable because as separate entities we are made of fear. without fear we would dissolve. fear is the will not to die, the will to be you. Without it, you would stop being you. The thing is to live with the minimum levels of fear possible. in a mystical experience fear disappears. infinity manifests. life and death are the same. You can't live like this permanently. but you have to find the point of minimum fear to be able to function since life is more beautiful that way. Eliminate lies, eliminate barriers with others, erase fear of the future, of illness, of accidents, of what may happen to you. How? realizing that what has to happen, will happen. it's hard. If tomorrow they tell you that you have brain cancer, you will be afraid. the fear runs deep. it also helps you find solutions, to fight for your life. is your ally. there is a healthy fear. must be recognized and honored. and ultimately knowing that life and death are the same, this is an illusion. the reality of what we are is infinite, so it's okay to be afraid to keep the illusion a little longer and better, but if you have to let it go... well, it's better to put fear aside when it no longer makes sense and let yourself go

@Flyboy solid and very deep,but I d say that the periodic psychedelic trip with total dissolution of the ego, plus the maximum purification of yourself that comes as a consequence of that practice, is the way. at least mine

Yeah, it is. realizing that is beautiful. This moment opens up for me now. I perceive its limitless depth. speaking at this moment is powerful, fun, it is the infinite that speaks

mental stories are a distraction, something that takes you away from the present moment. pure existence right now, no stories

Well, there are levels of consciousness. you can be aware only of your boredom, or of the infinite richness of what you are. It's like turning the volume up or down. You can put it to the minimum or to the maximum. the speaker is the same, but the sound quality is not

Beautiful and powerful. the here and now is pure magic. It is, as you say, vibration, the infinite expressing itself. We have to penetrate the depths of the here and now. It is a magical, intricate, colorful jungle, where everything flows and makes love.

Sounds great. it's a problem when this decreases. You have to see how to manage it. I want to be highly conciouss all the time. the maximum possible. I am abandoning everything that leads to unconsciousness. I want total ego death every so often, absolute infinity. I want to be aware of the reality here and now 24 hours a day. Let's see if it's possible

Imo there is not atman or co creator. it is total infinity creating this concrete apparent experience now. but who knows. When you say surrender, you mean to stop resisting what is, which is much better than resisting. but the true mystical experience is not that. it is the total relaxation of control to the point that this particular experience disappears, completely dissolves for a while. then control returns and this software is re-created

control goes much further than that. you are the control. control is creating this concrete experience. when a mystical experience, or awakening, happens, it is because the control has disappeared. to experience absolute infinity is to relax control completely. it is not something that can be done at will since the will is control

This is a history of a spontaneous mystical experience copied from the book Mystic Savage, by Hulin. This is extremely rare, but happens I sat up in bed to look through the big window, right in front of me, and I contemplated from there the lights that were reflected in the narrow muddy streets of that small city. I was thinking about how pleased Charles Lamb was with the brightness of the streetlights on the wet cobblestones, when suddenly a mist of a bluish-white color, translucent, brilliant, took this world and all experience of being there that I had from my eyes. With the mist an ineffable peace and joy came to me (...). One can hardly describe an experience where one is caught up in…in what? Something he had never read about, never thought about, never even knew existed, just as a child, before it is born, cannot comprehend a description of this world. The mist grew denser, and as it grew deeper, the knowledge, the comfort, the radiance, the peace, in a word, the ecstasy, deepened equally, until "I" seemed to be "That" and " That" seemed to be "I". We were confused, mixed, fused... All of me was consciousness, awakening, and yet, when I came to, there was nothing to tell. When she was submerged, she was in all that has been, was, and will be; Now I realize that the human being measures space and time, nothing is before or after, but rather simultaneous, everything is there. Suddenly, the mist, the light, disappeared just as they had arisen. She was still sitting on my bed, clutching the sheet, her eyes wide, staring at the street lights. My first thought was: "Good! Underneath everything there is this calm, this joy, this security...". Then something funny happened to me. I looked at the outside world through the window, I felt the furniture in my room and I said to myself: "How strange, this world is a shadow. I have touched the Real and what is always "there"; all this world that I knew will henceforth be unreal Why is he there? To experience what?"