Breakingthewall

to really change you have to understand the structure of your personality. It is something very complex and it is not verbalizable. They are energetic patterns that are built based on survival, rejection and attachment, the vital need to be accepted. General insights such as an enlightenment experience with a psychedelic are not enough. you have to understand in depth, and for that, understand what it means to understand. an absolutely fascinating work that requires being truly penetrating. forget any learned wisdom, it is useless, it is superficial. Keep digging and you'll understand. your intelligence is infinite intelligence, do not underestimate it

5meo is a purification process. it's not a game. If you take a dose that opens you to infinity but you are not ready for it, you will shut down, you will fight against 5meo. You don't want to live this experience. I would say that in some cases it can kill. you have to go little by little, many light trips, until you feel that you want total dissolution, and you open yourself to it without resistance

Nirvana is when you flow with existence, when you stop resisting.

for me it sounds as a wrong idea. god is nothing, there is no boredom possible. God is the total potential, and the existence of something is the manifestation of that potentiality. the depth of existence is infinite and develops infinitely. there is no boredom, there is harmony, perfection, dance. but I think that the game exists, the enigma. For fun?

Exactly, you have to be firm, set limits and enforce them with the necessary force. That's life, if you don't you'll always be a puppet, and you can't live like that. You have to have the feeling that an inviolable area surrounds you, if someone tries it, it's war. the real war. It's the only way I know of to be yourself. I guess Jesus Christ didn't need this, I do. once you get used to it, people notice it and don't try to invade your territory, but at first you should fight, to really know that you are capable of defending your borders

maybe you never return to a toxic relationship, and this serves as a vaccine. I had enough with one. getting into that doesn't necessarily mean you're dependent, stupid, or whatever, it's that you fell in love with the wrong person and that's it. There will come a day (quite close I would say) when you look at the guy's face and see reality as it is, and think: god, how can he be so stupid and how did I like this fake drug addict? and you will not need to change the phone or anything like that. the spell will have been broken and as soon as you see another similar one you will see the bottom of his dead soul in a minute. or so I think

wanting things to be otherwise is the nature of the self. it is impossible to suppress that impulse, no matter how much you tell yourself that things are fine and all that. the only possible thing is to dissolve yourself and stop being a self. this is what spirituality is supposed to be. It is something very difficult since you are a self for something. Stop being a self is a difficult road, in many cases, most, impossible. but the lighter the self, the lighter the attachment and the lighter the suffering

Yeah, i agree, it was very difficult for me to act just by will, but other people can. I wish the op find the necessary strength

Maybe It's a good plan but it requires great willpower and self-control. in my case it never worked, the same as with other addictions. What did work is making me aware of myself and the process that led me to fall into certain practices. The last time I was in a sick relationship based on drugs and madness that I couldn't get out of, it happened that one day I couldn't look that person in the face. it made me physically sick. The same thing happened to me with tobacco, with marijuana, with mdma, with cocaine, with bad food, with everything. if it were not so, it would only have replaced one toxin with another. it's enormously difficult to know how to act when you're that way. The only solution for me is go to the cause, not to the effects

Hate and anger are your reaction to things not being exactly the way you want them to be. but you cannot decide to accept things as they are and live in harmony, it is impossible. what has to happen is that "you" disappear. then things are revealed as perfect. If you have a pesky ego, that's an incentive to dissolve yourself, but it's not an easy job, not at all.

the more awake, the less barriers you will put to your pain. the normal thing is that you realize that it was much bigger than you thought. being human is painful

solipsism is false, since it is only part of the truth. the solipsist thinks he is imagining others. He thinks that only he is real. but he doesn't realize that he isn't real either. there is no self that imagines, there is the infinite dancing. In this dance, the self and the others are at the same level, but the solipsist puts himself at another level, since he cannot understand what he really is.

5meo is a purification process. At first, every time you do it, your impurities, your lies, your fears, your attachments are revealed. in order to fully do 5meo you have to let go of everything. when you really get it, it is total liberation, a cleansing of all your energy channels that remains in time, but to have gotten there you have to have let go of control and attachment to yourself. This does not mean that you have become an ascetic or someone indifferent to the vicissitudes of life, obviously if they tell you tomorrow that you have cancer, it will generate anxiety, less than if you are a materialistic, of course. the difference is more in your ability to surrender to the present, to perceive the infinity of this moment, of what you are. If I compare myself with two years ago, when I started with 5meo, the difference is enormous. I've cleared megawatts of constant anxiety. I lived looking forward, conceptualizing, in the surface, now I'm more and more just in the present moment, almost totally. I will continue with this substance as long as it continues to be useful to me in my work to achieve total freedom

infinity is not one, it is not two. it's another dimension. just infinity. there is no loneliness in the absence of limits, there is absolute freedom. when you think: I am god and I am alone, you are thinking from the limited self. You can't see it from the bottomless pit that you really are

I'm not bad at keeping my balance in harsh conditions Let's see if the real shit comes. disease, disability, misery. who knows how he will react?

infinity is a completely different state than normal, it is another frequency. if you do it many times, little by little it becomes normal for you. I dream of infinity many nights, it's almost the same as a trip. my baseline, my energetic vibration, has completely changed. a total experience of absolute infinity is something beyond any explanation. we are finite, apparently. we live in the finite. entering the real dimension, the infinite, changes you forever

5 meo does something that represents a before and after in your life: it breaks your limits and makes you infinite. this is unthinkable and indescribable, but it stays with you forever. For this to happen completely without 5 meo seems impossible to me, but who knows in cases of very advanced meditators

I think that depends on your attitude and where you are trying to get to. If what you are looking for is to know things, the only thing you will achieve with psychedelics is to enlarge your ego. If what you are looking for is to free yourself and flow with existence, psychedelics will help to reveal what is blocking you, and they will also act as a solvent. I think the attitude of knowing things is very foolish. but there is something subtle here, the difference between knowing and understanding. understanding is essential if you want to free yourself from the chains that bind you

I think so. when a total liberation with 5 meo occurs, permanent changes are produced in the energetic structure of the person. In addition, the control of the ego is completely released and this allows an easier meditation afterwards, also permanently. Perhaps in your case, as a very serious meditator, this already happens with meditation. What I don't know is if by doing it many times, hundreds, as Leo, each time it will continue to contribute something. I would say yes

if you remove the mind and its memory, reality is a dance within another dance, to infinity. all constantly changing and meaningless

Don't say the words god and love, because they have many connotations and will dirty your explanation

It's all easy to see which responses will make you a narcissist and which will make you a humble, noble good boy. I would say that the less punctuation, the more fake, so more narcissistic . Well, not always A narcissist is not the one who likes his body or thinks he is a good leader or smarter than the average, he is the one who is addicted to self-evaluation all the time, and that is why he needs others to affirm himself, if not he's anxious

true human love exists. if you want it, all you have to do is give it. To what extent can you give selfless and total love? if you give it, you will perceive who can give it to you, and you will eliminate all the cheap interressed shit that you cling to as if they were a source of love

You are in a human experience and you you have no control over it, there are rules you can't change, so as a human, you are not god, you are a creation. reality creates suffering as an engine of evolution, just as it creates your legs to go from one place to another reality is perfect, because it is. the idea of "imperfect" is a human concept, which means: it is not as I would like it to be. but "would like" is a relative concept, a survival drive

You are not alone because "you" and "alone" implies limits. There are no limits. The you that you are perceiving now and the loneliness are not real. The infinity is not alone. You will get used to the freedom. Reality is absolute freedom. Just enjoy existence. Work in everything in you that prevent you to enjoy existence Enjoy life. Look into yourself and understand the fear, the attachment, what in you is preventing you from the pure joy of being