Breakingthewall

I have had many awakenings, sober and with drugs, the infinite, realizing what I am, all of that. but right now, they are a memory in my memories. I calibrate my awakening level according to my baseline, that is, right now. awakening of the past are illusion. their only use is that they raise my baseline right now. only right now exists.

It depends, psychedelics are extremely useful for me, if not necessary, to go beyond a rather limited point. Leo and what he says about who is awake or not, who cares? zero. I know what I am and I perceive my limitation. I'm at the beginning in this work, that is not a small thing. I understand Leo I'd say, he has gone through a long purification process to reach a point where psychedelics amplify his consciousness enormously. this is real . psychedelics are a purification tool, they reveal your impurity, and you have to polish it off to move on. they will speed up the work x100

@illusory It's very simple, if you had a high-level job, none of those girls would have left you. if you were a famous youtuber with millions of followers, they would have crawled in front of you, calling you oh my love, do you need me to shine your shoes? but if you're a normal guy with a shitty job... life is hard

? Don't sentence him to the stake so quickly. I think he is opening new paths. spirituality is all reductionism. but reality is still there no matter how much you reduce it to nothing. Let's see what reality is. Drugs are just reality.

99.9% of people who are into spirituality are into it to improve their lives. they want to have a more pleasant experience, that's all. very few are genuinely interested in the truth, they are in ending suffering. as leo said at the beginning of this thread, the problem is a lack of understanding. no one understands or wants to understand. no one is even aware that there is understanding beyond the ego

I would say that what I used to call enlightenment, that is, the fusion with reality, being without ego, is only the beginning of awakening, and that awakening has no bottom. is to deepen

Just seen 1/4 and extremely interesting. I'd say this is the right direction

Let's hope that all this is the preparation of something interesting, because lately Leo's speech is: not this, not this either. the only valid thing: alien awakening. and what is alien awakening leo? Too deep, you wouldn't understand. I will explain it in my course

And where is the difference with your awakening?

For me it's more the elimination of the apparent and false separation and the fusion with the unlimited reality that is. understanding is that it is infinite and cannot be understood. But leo would say that this is a mistake and I don't know what awakening means. maybe he is right

at infinity all possible scenarios have occurred infinitely many times. is so infinite that it is equal to zero

normally enlightenment is equated to the dissolution of the ego. the disappearance of desire, the fusion with reality, becoming reality itself by ceasing to be a separate entity. Leo talks more about understanding what reality is, not conceptual or mind understanding but deep , clear the fog of low consciousness and see

Really? I'd say higher conciousness, better feeling

the stories of life make me suffer quite light , two years ago i was suffering , now it's easy to silent the mind and be in the present moment without needs. But i suffer for being finite, limited. Not real suffering but kind of frustration. I need to really get out of myself , but it isn't easy

You can't be sure of that. I feel a wall in front of my face and i have the feeling that behind is the omniscience. I have managed to escape from conceptual thought and live stuck in the present, but the limitation is still there. and my impulse to break it. Who knows what is possible

Yes, you can realize the infinite, become infinite, realize the love that is reality, but honestly, does anyone understand the how and why of this concrete experience? why the limitation? the reason for this evolving cosmos? Leo before sayed that it was because God is bored. I don't know...sounds wrong. others will say: there is no me, everything is perfect. Man, I'm on the street, my mind is silent, I am fully aware of the present without needing to interpret anything, If i do psychedelics and my mind expands to infinity. but I don't understand reality, that's a fact. I am reality, it is another fact, and it is a lot. my direct experience is direct, real. but my understanding is very poor, my depth, not so deep. so I have to agree with leo on this. But of course, maybe he don't understand nothing and is fooling himself, it's a possibility

It depends, maybe he has reached a degree of awakening never seen before. The real omniscience. let's leave that possibility open. but he should explain it!

@OldManCorcoran the thing is that the direct experience that is happening right now is the reality. there is nothing outside of it. it is absolute. "outside" does not even exist as a conceptual idea. If you don't understand this, you live in fantasy. this direct experience is of unlimited depth, you can dive into it to infinity, but you cannot get out of it, since there is nothing else. this infinite depth is what you are. It's quite simple, change perspective. do not look outside, there is no outside. everything is inside . only you are This is awakening. You don't need aliens for that

Conciousness and experience are the same, that's what we are. awakening is realizing what that experience really is, that is, you, are. That saying that there is no self is meaningless redundancy. there is existence, that's what you are. many claim to know a mysterious secret saying that there is no self. it is obvious that there is no perceiver and separate perceptions but there is existence, then it is said: I am that, since it is so.

@Leo Gura Let's see: I have done 5meo dmt more than 50 times. 5 of those times the "person" that I am has completely disappeared, and the absolute total infinity has manifested. I have recognized myself as what I always was: absolute existence. complete freedom. I have realized that endless love flows from the bottomless emptiness and I have fallen bathed in tears. I have realized that the apparent reality is the manifestation of this, which is absolute perfection, and that is what I am. I became aware how this experience, my body, everything, was been created in this exactly moment and why. but I have not seen any alien, only me, the infinite existence. 70% of the time, when I'm not engrossed in work, I am aware of this. reading this, where do you detect my lack of awakening?

Why do you use the word "alien"? Do you want to express that it's very different to human intelligence or what? Two years ago you thought you were very awakened but you didn't know anything about this alien intelligence right? Anyway, I am clear about my objective with this work. always go deeper, break all barriers. I don't think there is an end, just keep going deeper and deeper.

what you are saying is that only direct experience exists and that the self is a part of that direct experience, not the perceiver of it. that's how it is. you are the experience that is occurring, within which there is an apparent you that is the center of it

So what is the obstacle? I have been very close with 5 meo and my baseline is completely different than it was, I have reactivations almost every day, I have gone infinite 4 times, totally. but other times I have had horrible experiences, like being alone trapped in eternity with no way to escape. I'll keep digging, I think I almost have it, but still not completely, not consistently

I've been realizing that lately. It is possible to wake up completely, I know, I have been close, but it is very difficult because your ego runs away from there. you have to accept little by little. lets keep working

I don't understand the idea that solipsism has to be the case because nothing can exist outside of me, when I am not aware that I am creating reality in all its complexity and perfection. the same could not be aware of being a fly right now, when the reality is that I am