Breakingthewall

@Holykael Stopping to be compulsive in action and thoughts, all time looking forward, remembering, interpreting, judging. Be here and now, as empty as is possible. Stop believing what your thoughts say, and be able to be here without messing everything up with your need to grab hold of mental assistants. open yourself to the now, to the truth.

2,5 years doing psychedelic quite often, meditation and deconstruction full time. Wishing to penetrate into reality

Yes, because you can't go to the void, since if you are there, it's not void anymore, that's why the void doesn't exist

Africans in general hate homosexuality, Christians as well as Muslims. African sexuality is difficult to understand, on the one hand they are very liberal and everyone fucks, and on the other, they take it for granted that homosexuals do not exist, in Africa there are none, according to them. On the other hand, for example, in the Philippines they are very conservative and Catholic, but they don't care about the gay issue, it seems to them like something fun and unimportant.

Russia did not attack them to steal, they attacked to maintain their position of power, so as not to huddle in a corner crying. I do not justify Russia, communism seems to me a disgrace and I understand that all the satellite countries want to be as far away from Russia as possible, but reality is what it is. expanding nato to his home is aggression. Maybe you don't think so, but Russia does, that's the question, and america knew that.

they were already in the west, they already had freedom, they could do whatever they wanted. But why the NATO? the soviet union no longer exists. a war to escape the shit from the soviet union, ok, but this doesn't make the slightest bit of sense

I am not saying that Russia has the right to invade, I am saying that the history of the 20th century is what it is, and the 3rd world war was close. things relaxed naturally, little by little. So you go and push. as soon as you see that the historical enemy is weak, you come to touch his balls where 3 days ago he was the king. Well, it seems that it is a need that you have, to press and touch the balls. so that everyone can see that what was a power 20 years ago is now nothing, that it can be surrounded and threatened, that it no longer bites. very intelligent, a prodigy of intelligence. biden came to power and two days later he was already saying that putin is a murderer, that ukraine, whose president had in his electoral program to recover crimea, and where it's a civil war with the Russian involved, and with historical relationship with Russia, was going to be a member of nato. always looking for fight and tension as a political and electoral tool. always trying to crush and humiliate. Well, the play didn't go very well. But it doesn't matter, what will remain as a piece of land without a building is Ukraine, not the United States, and no American will die there. Good thing the Ukrainians have their heroic actor, who will lead them to total war to defend their pride. In my opinion, is a disaster and USA showed again that is unstable, stupid, incompetent, dangerous, in international politics

Good scheme. Yes, the philosophy derived from real realizations can have value and help the mind to open itself to the truth But it's important to recognize it as philosophy and not confuse it with the truth

Yes, great danger, and we have all fallen into it at one point. How many use the word god, infinity, love, really thinking that it is something that they have directly realized, but the reality is that they have absorbed the concept and have made it their own, deceiving themselves? You have to be very honest with yourself in this work. Being able to eliminate everything you have learned from your mind and be left alone with what you have seen, and not with that either, but with what you are seeing. spirituality is now. yesterday's realization is nothing, just a help to be open now. spirituality is an energetic flow, an opening, not knowing things, or remember things.

Yes, not just the word but the spirituality itself. Yeah, agree.

reading the op's message the problem of psychedelics manifests itself: conceptualization. So, suppose the op had a, shall we say, mystical experience. a temporary opening to the absolute. then the opening ends. then the op, again from the dual, relative and limited mind, elaborates a dual, relative and limited scheme of reality. and goes round and round about it, not realizing that doing this is completely meaningless. awakening is the opening, not the "content." the content is imaginary, the opening is real. all that about god, i'm alone, i'm creating this, since i'm bored, and i'm doing it for this, it's equivalent to reciting the quran in arabic, or reading the phone book. the question is: is there an opening, or is there a veil? if there is a veil, be perceptive enough not to take seriously what the mind recites in the slightest. better take a good version of the quran in ancient arabic, and recite it, or a rosary. the mind is only useful for one thing, to identify what closes, what is the obstacle, and thus overcome it. creating reality schemes is nonsense, because are lie, the truth is open and is now. If you can't see it now, don't try to construct it with lies, is stupid

Spirituality is zero conceptual. Is open yourself and merge with the absolute. To break the barrier that keep you imprisoned in the relative. It's more an action than an contemplation. Is to see, not to think, is to erase the veil of the limitation and have an infinite sight. It's to remove all the blockages, all the mental barriers, and become diaphanous, without obstacles, open, fluid, without resistance.

Spirituality is practical, philosophy is theoretical. Or in another words, spirituality is to realize the truth, philosophy to get lost in the mind

your approach is wrong because you are looking outside. outside does not exist, it is an illusion. you have to look inside. everything is inside. as long as you look out, you will be trapped in duality. first realize that everything is inside. then realize that everything is now. Then realize that there are no limits. but you cannot realize it mentally, you have to see it, become it. it is extremely difficult, since everything seems exactly the opposite.

@Holykael You complain of God a lot but you should thank that your father found that lsd, or with your attitude, you would have visited hell. you can't do lsd or mushrooms. but I really recommend 5meo dmt. you can do lsd after you've gotten open to 5meo. It will cost you time, two years maybe. 5meo will guide you, it will show you where you should clean, how to purify your mind. Why not to try? Or your plan is stay in this attitude for ever?

Since you invent a particular religion, you could invent a slightly happier one. None of the two will make less sense, but since you invent...

Well, without wanting to agree with the aggressor, it is very stupid and reckless not to give due respect to russia. Russia is what it is, you can like it or not, but if you press and it doesn't respond, what would Russia be? something she doesn't want to be, it seems.

You say that about infinity, god, etc because you have set up a belief system with all that, not because you have realized god or infinity, so it is complete madness and nothing more, the same as being a Muslim and believing in 100 virgins. empty your mind, realize yourself, and forget the crazy things. Stop torturing yourself, it's an addiction. Or keep doing, but at least realize what are you doing

@Holykael material reality creates itself and evolves from itself, it does so in the most perfect way possible. everything must be perfectly balanced. life devours itself to continue living. Yeah, ok, you'd rather prefer a world with pink unicorns where everyone has superpowers and loves each other. Yes, me too, but well, things don't work like that. If you penetrate into reality, if its essence begins to reveal itself, you will see its perfect beauty. that includes cancer rotting your dick and your feelings at the sight of your rotten dick. you cannot understand it with the logical mind, so you have two options: either improve your material reality and avoid what you perceive as bad, or open yourself to existence and try to see clearly and detachedly. or a mixture of the two, but anthropomorphizing God, using your bias to judge reality, is nonsense.

realizing that you are not a being that interacts with reality, but that you are reality. You are not a fish in water, you are water in water, the part and the whole are the same, there is nothing alien to you. you are the being, the total reality, the absolute. you exist in the eternal now and your depth is unfathomable, and the strangest of all: nothing exists outside of you, because you are existence itself. This is so, real, now. as soon as you see it, the control relaxes, and you see it more deeply each time. and the more deeply you see it, the more you realize how useless it is to think about it. Either you are aware of that now, or you are not. the rest is rudimentary software, sticks and stones

emptiness does not exist, not even as an idea. you can realize the emptiness of the mind in the sense of absence of thoughts, but it is full of being, there is awareness of the emptiness, therefore it is not empty. the only reality is the absence of limits, and in the absence of limits there is always consciousness, which is everything, the infinite potential. the true void is the absence of consciousness, and that does not exist. it is non-existence. the opposite of existence, or consciousness, or absolute, or infinite, does not exist, that is why existence is absolute, it is not testable by opposition, it is this. reality.

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Depending, sometimes it's better to do your will and forget any sign, but just my opinion, could be wrong Yes , play the game. The thing is: you live in an illusion of temporality overwhelmed by thousands of ideas, stimuli, desires, fears. spirituality is taking a step back from that. open yourself little by little to the now until you open yourself completely. you have to master the game, it is very difficult. you are the game, a trap to yourself. you have to take control of the game and not give it to others. there are no others, only you. not in the solipsistic sense, but in the sense that only you can be you. You are alone in your experience, for ever. If someone is with you, he is in your experience , but he never will be you. You are always you, so only you can do this. You are a kind of enigma, a puzzle. If you want to awake, you have to solve it. The thing is: do you want? Do you really want to open yourself to the now, open your heart, completely, renunce yo all your illusions, to your ego? I think it's the best idea possible. Over all because anything else is shallow, false. There is only one real way: the truth. But that is what you really want? Difficult with 19 imo, but if you can avoid some tons of shit and falsehood, better for you

I feel the same, something tells me: toxic. I can only see this when I have already realize it directly, not before. then, if I see it, I take it as an interesting curiosity and forget it immediately. Real spirituality is opening yourself up. Opening up is what you need to do to eliminate the apparent separation between you and reality. It's not something you have to know, it's something you have to do. You have to give yourself to the reality. and once done, you no longer have to do anything. just be freely, without obstacles that limit you. This is the only happiness that exists, the rest is farce.

Exactly. when time stops, reality changes from a linear configuration, like a chain of events, to a configuration in depth, like absolute being, or as you have said, the truth. by changing configuration, the way of understanding also changes. it is an empty, inarticulate understanding, impossible to preserve, it only works in real time. When time stops, this moment is eternal, and you realize it with total clarity. It's the limtless reality now . Id say that this is awakening, and id say that time is the essence of the illusion