Breakingthewall

@Gabith It's very simple, you have to understand the challenge of being alive, and fully accept it. If not, you will always be afraid. life is wild

I was also very afraid and what I did was expose myself to situations that were as intimidating and hard as possible, to be able to face that. It is something normal be afraid since we live in an artificial hyper-protected environment and if you are minimally penetrating you realize that the reality of life is much harsher, so much so that you are not even remotely prepared for it, we live like babies in the cradle, so only if you are an idiot you are not afraid.

the existence of life in this dimension is that to live you have to kill, and that only those who can prosper, and who can't, die. there is only one rule: survive. Evilness like child-torturing is a perversion of the fact of what life is. and the human is especially a son of a bitch, that's why they has done so well in the game of: let's see who is more son of a bitch. If we want to penetrate in existence, we have to stop projecting in existence our bias

when you remove all evaluation, comparison, projection ,from the present moment, pure love remains. it's hard to see this because we live in a world of survival interconnected with other people, and our survival depends on others. we need to be accepted, stand out, all that makes our reality far from love and more like being surrounded by enemies sons of bitches who need to be deceived to get what we want. everyone, and we too, are contaminated by lies, and love is buried deep enough

death can come at any moment, it is absolutely certain, so we have to be fully prepared for it. If cancer comes, or a guy with a gun, and suddenly you realize you're going to die, you have to think, yes! this is the moment. Let's go there. it comes exactly when it has to come, knowing this, being terribly afraid is stupid, we have to be prepared. Although you never know what you're really made of, let's see.

@Benton thanks for the tips. I have used a flask, which is similar. I will try to aspire it 3 times, let's see. I just want to test how is a dmt breakthrough, I don't think I'll do it much. I'll try the imao thing. orally, what dose?

5 meo takes a lot of trying, you have to open up to the substance, allow it all to happen without resistance. at first it is very difficult. It is a very instructive process because you identify your resistances

For you suffering is evil just because you don't like. suffering is existence, the same as pleasure. Whether you like it or not doesn't make it good or bad. It is like saying that cold is good and heat is bad, or binary solar systems are bad and simple ones are good. reality is reality, what exists, is. if you stay in the superficiality of preference, you divide everything between good or bad. At an absolute level, it is not better to be rich and have the girlfriend of your dreams than to be a schizophrenic chained in a baroque-era madhouse. what is, is, and its depth is unfathomable. Due to the fact of being, it is infinite love, and its external manifestation is indifferent, since everything is, nothing can not be, be excluded, since reality is infinite and nothing is left out, it's impossible. If it were possible, reality would be finite, and it can't be.

The ego is a configuration of consciousness in which there is a clear division between me and what is not me. reality is configured for to develop an ego. If I hit you, it hurts. If I hit the wall, it doesn't hurt. it is impossible to escape this. Since we are human and depend on other humans to survive, and we use language to create links with others, the entity called ego is created, a set of energy patterns surrounded by words. the word has enormous power. some words are life, and others death. how to transcend this? obviously it is not easy nor can it be done at will. there is only one way: you have to realize that life and death are the same. as long as they are different, there will be ego, but there are degrees. the total materialist has an ego that is a wall of steel. who is not a materialist and really understands that existence is infinite, has a more flexible ego. and so on until you have a totally transparent ego

there is no evil, there is suffering and it is the engine of evolution. you do not like? normal, its function is that you do not like it, so that you avoid it and pursue what you like. It is like that from a protozoan to a human. the design of life is that. It is not good or bad, it is efficient

@Kuba Powiertowski I was reading that long article thinking that you had written it. I was quite impressed?. very accurate btw, a penetrating guy

The technique has always been used for this. meditation once your mind has a minimum of cleaning is wonderful. the states you speak of are a big step. I've used a lot of psychedelics basically because my meditation was shit, dissonance. now it begins to be open, fluid.

Yes, maybe more people on this forum could join us to help him to get that achievement of consciousness

Yes, It seems so. the core of who we are is happiness, love and freedom. if you think about it, it doesn't seem like it, since life is not a smooth place, and in many cases it gets really ugly. with the logical mind, the conclusions are negative, very depressing. the mind has to do an exercise in self-deception in order not to see how horrible life is from the angle of logic

you could get in a boxing ring with a guy and practice concious suffering together

you understand infinity from infinity, with total clarity, and then you forget it, and the logical mind cannot stop trying to understand it. Its understanding is limited, but it can try to expand and get closer to some understanding

It's poorly formulated. There is only one being, one existence, and it is you. Only you exist. You won't abandon your now, your direct experience, never, so it's absolute. then solipsism is true. but you are infinite. infinite means that you are infinite forms raised to the infinite power infinite times. it is not thinkable. but now you only perceive one, right? where are the others? you are blind to them. your current experience is a limiter, something like a tube that only allows you to look through it. If you remove the limiter, you would be infinite, you really are, and you would have no form, you really are formless, form are just appearance. How is it possible that you only perceive one form? because the one is in infinite lines of existence, which are ultimately the same, like a loop interacting with itself. everything you see is infinite, even an image that you think is infinite. but in the end, it's always you, just you alone existing.

Awakening is something real, It is the breaking of the limits, becoming infinite. the finite is an illusion, reality is infinite. It is not anything you can imagine or think about, it must happen, it is an opening that has to happen. It is something more real than anything else. It's like saying: have you ever had an orgasm? Well, I don't know, once someone touched my dick a bit and I would say yes... no. if it happens, it happens. but that doesn't mean anything, then it closes, you forget it, and you're still in the same shit. but you have taken a step! You know what the direction is, where to orient yourself. After you get more open day by day, if that is your real will.

you have to transcend the relative and really open yourself to existence. in a real way, go further. If not, you're in hell. human life is crazy, everyone is locked in their capsule using thousands of avoidance micro-tactics to function day by day, living in complete stupidity, waiting for old age and death. If they did not use avoidance, the vital depression would be complete. what we have to do is truly open ourselves to the now, to reality, to what we are. this is real. right now you are, and what you are is pure existence. trying to mentally grasp this doesn't work, you have to open up. In my case, what has worked (to the extent that it has worked, I'm still working on it) is, first of all, complete will to do it, without reservations. I want to open myself totally, give myself totally. and then, the means you use: deconstruction of mental patterns, meditating for hours every day, even if it's dirty meditation, it's getting better, and psychedelics, a lot, especially 5 meo, and also mushrooms and thc. it is a blind path. nothing Leo sad, or I read, or any guru is nothing, no one has ever awakened as far as I am concerned, I am alone in this, there is nothing and no one to lean on. it is total openness, total surrender. you dare? you better, because there is no other way

Yes, it does not make any sense. If you look at reality you will see that it has a tendency. it evolves into more complexity, more consciousness, more complex designs that require complex evolution, a work of engineering and art that has a quality of intrinsic beauty and harmony. there are hard tests but they are brief and in the end there is always a liberation. what awaits you is not a dystopia, it is sublime art. a cosmic dance of unimaginable beauty

I did salvia twice, the first one left me very impressed. I was afraid to do it again, and that's why I did it. Within a second of doing it, I remembered: This is why I never wanted to do this. the sensation, the texture of reality. I immediately lost track of everything and reality broke down into crumbling cubes. the very essence of reality was crumbling. it is uncontrollable. there's nothing remotely human in a salvia trip. there's nothing left of you. Maybe I should do it again, it's tempting. and truly intimidating.

Everything exist. Think about one thing: reality is limitless, it is infinite. do you understand the scope of this? infinite. implies that everything is infinite. a piece of shit on the ground is total infinity. and within it there are infinite infinities, abysses of infinity, infinite universes within each subatomic particle, and within them, infinite shits on the ground within which there are infinite multiverses. and all those infinities are one: you. the magnitude of what you are is aberrantly infinite. but, in the other hand, your pov is absolute. there is nothing outside of it. Outside don't exist. It's infinite. it's reality. you will never leave your pov because that is what you are, and you will always exist. paradoxical? not really. the mechanics of infinity is governed by laws that are not attached to the dimensions that we know. In short, the people you meet on the street are imagined by you, and at the same time real with their pov, that is your pov, in the same place, in the same moment, now. But you are blind to it, you only can see what you can see, for now.

Great quote. Not agree. if the opening to the unthinkable happens, it happens. the how is irrelevant. the glass is filled, the prodigal son, after years of wandering, has returned. psychedelics do not guarantee that this will happen, but they do increase the chances. the psychedelic path is a path of surrender and humility. but as you have said very well above, all those who follow this path fall into an mistake, which is conceptualization. the psychedelic should be used as a tool that promotes openness, and not as something to obtain information that is later added to the mental structure. this is hardening the barrier instead of softening it, and is very common.

To truly living the moment you have to remove the barrier that isolates you, the mental flow capsule that makes that in the current experience there is a you and what is not you. to dissolve that bubble you have to go beyond fear, open yourself completely to now, accept what is, eliminate falsehood, be completely integral. It is not about good wines, the air is better than any wine, the important thing is openness

Infinity is reality. this is incontestable, since the finite is not possible. where would it end? the absence of limits is existence. Several things follow from this. The first, and most obvious, is that you are infinite. You, this existence that is being now, has no limits. You will always exist, you will always be. you have no origin or end, you are now, and your depth is unfathomable. You are absolutely alone, you will never leave your now, but you are absolutely accompanied, you are infinitely surrounded by yourself. Since from the fact of infinity a second consequence follows: I too am infinite. I and infinite nows, inside them others infinite now are, infinitely. infinite versions of the unfathomable depth, of the eternal now. How is this possible? infinite. they are all the same, they are all you, that is, when your now ends in the total void without form that's everything, and my now does the same, they will be the same now. your experience will always be, and my experience will always be, and they will merge and we will see that we were always the same, one, existence. reality, almost sure, follows a cycle of existence. You started as a very simple energy structure and you have been changing to the current form, growing in complexity, and you will continue changing to more and more complex forms in a cosmic cycle that ends in the formless totality. infinite structures follow this cycle and all of them are you. this cycle will repeat itself infinitely, existence existing, in a dance of inconceivable proportions. never repeated, always new, alive, perfect. So look at the now, look at what is, go into it. It is eternal, if has no limits, you will always be here. Relax, don't want to keep anything. you have everything. Just open yourself to the now, and continue to exist, since you cannot stop doing it. The adventures that await us, the beauty that we will be, the love that we will embody, is far beyond our little human imagination. We will never get tired of this cycle, for one reason: infinite. it is complete freedom. Open your heart to the now, being human is not an easy game, although it can be extremely beautiful.