Breakingthewall

I suppose you can see it all as part of your trip, but having serious health problems must be a big deal, very difficult, and practically all of us will go through it in our long lives as Westerners. lucky Vikings, who died with the sword in their hands, and not with the tubes in their mouths

I know, But the difference is enormous, many people are trapped in miserable conditions with no way out. Of course it's not my fault, that's life, but if I were living in a shack on the outskirts of some city in Mauritania and a millionaire guy (for my standards) came to see me rotting there, I would probably have the desire to kill him.

Yes of course, but I mean the feeling, it's like unrespect the people who is in very different situation than you . But maybe it's a nonsense, id like to travel to Uganda one day

There is something I don't like at all about going to countries where there is poverty. I have been to Africa and South America, South America is not truly poor at least not everywhere but sub-Saharan Africa is, and what I don't like is that everyone sees you from afar as a guy privileged by birth, who can do things that they can't, like travel or have medical care. I have the feeling of being in a zoo watching people who lose their dignity for being watched by me. I once went to Senegal alone on a old motorbike from Spain, in this case it seemed better, given the hardness of the trip, since I went with very little money and slept the entire trip in a bag in the field and when I got there I made friends with a guy who invited me to his house for a few weeks, and in exange I invited him to party some nights, but then I took another trip to Africa with my girlfriend and it was very different, I felt privileged and deserved a beating for being there.

For me, the release of stagnant energy is essential. I would say that one of the benefit of 5meo dmt is that. The human experience is energetic patterns on top of other patterns, forming an intricate pattern of existence that throughout experience, and probably from birth, has blockages, dead-end paths where energy does not flow and stagnates, thousands of control points. , Fear. The release of all energy channels that allow energy to flow freely is essential to awakening. Without doing this, the awakening will be twisted, incomplete, deceptive.

If you want me to tell you the truth, you seem quite unbalanced with a great need to be "awake", which makes you see yourself as very special and great, very inconsistent in your speech, self-deceived into thinking that you have directly realized truths. that you have heard from Leo, with some sparks of true wisdom and rivers of narcissistic need of self-approval and standing out

but a clarification. It is becoming easier for me to open myself to infinity, to the total now, without psychedelics. This opening is fragile, like a transparent pond that becomes cloudy at the slightest movement. I sense the possibility of understanding what this experience is. In those moments it appears as a mirage superimposed on the limitless totality, and that totality is what I am. If I could be in that opening for hours, or days, it would become deeper and there would be understanding, or so I think, so we should be careful about dismissing that possibility.

I have done breakthrough doses 12/15 days in a row, until the breakthrough feels like something normal, and what I have realized is that even with a maximum dose, vaping 20 mg twice in a row, mixing malt snorted and DMT vaped, awaking at 4 in the morning and do to be more mindless, etc, it is very difficult to let go. the self, the mental interpretation. reality becomes limitless, but the self is still there. You have to make a conscious effort, meditate 40 minutes beforehand, and even then it is difficult, I think it is because the substance is so powerful that the self reacts. What works for me is to make a constant sound, get up, make movements, then everything lets go, total energy discharge. You are empty, you are reality dancing. All your energy channels open, it is the most wonderful thing possible, and it is mindless. The mind prevents this. I get the same thing with 40 ug of LSD and two or three puffs of weed and meditating for two hours, even purer since it is more gradual, less violent. There comes a time when the separate self merges with reality. There is no one interpreting, there is reality flowing. Understanding is total but it is empty, there is nothing that can be remembered, it is reality, total awakening. It is useless to try to remember it because what you remember is not

How can it be true at the same time that others do not have direct experience and others do have direct experience? One of those perspectives is limited

awakening is realizing that reality, that is, you, is infinite. not realize it through logic, but here and now see that infinity is. For that you must break the finite appearance, and the finite appearance is the self. Within the infinite you can be aware of many things or few, it is indifferent since it is infinite. the crucial thing is to realize one: infinity. Not you realizing that the reality is infinite, it's the first step. The real awakening is to become infinite, without limits. It's a total change of frequency.

The ego is the feeling that there is a center and that you are that center. In infinity there is no center, it is impossible. That is why it is impersonal, and the ego is personal. the ego death is the rupture of the center, and the expansion of the being without limit. It is a change in frequency, which requires identifying what creates the appearance of a center and releasing it. It is very counterintuitive because you, from the center, are trying to break the center. It is an act of generosity, of giving of yourself

Alien from another planet? If you think you understand the infinite with your finite mind in a linear way, I would say you are wrong. It is not something linear, inside and outside overlap. Within your direct experience is the infinite, here and now it is, but you do not perceive it. and you are within each of the infinite experiences that exist, in infinite dimensions contained in each now. It is the problem of infinity, that its physics is not understandable...for now. Anyway, everything that appears in your experience, a fly, a piece of shit, is infinite, and inside it is the entire reality. A part of the infinity is the total infinity. You are sorrounded by the infinity, everything is the infinity total alive. that is awakening, and not the narrow and sick perspective of: only I exist and I am imagining reality. You do not exist, the infinite is, and it is unfathomable, it is not a you, it is the glory of total existence, in which you pour yourself out and mix when you let the self fall. Unless you prefer to be a miser who keeps it, and thinks everything is his territory

Conceptualizations are a way of introducing direct realizations that you have had into other minds. It can be said that they are all false in the sense that they are conceptualizations, not direct experience. but it can also be said that some are wrong and others are right. Leo Gura is not a narcissistic monster, or anything of the kind that he is accused of, what I believe is that he is wrong in a nuance and his conceptualizations are a reflection of his error. For me it is clear, his mistake comes from not having been able to disintegrate the self, ever. I know from my own experience that you can take very high doses of psychedelics, 5meo, even salvia, and have the self still there. the self is the center. If you have a forced mystical experience with psychedelics in which the self continues to be perceived as the center, there will be confusion, and you will say: I am God imagining reality. mistake. It is necessary to dissolve the self and realize that reality is God, and there is no center or subject that imagines

I didn't mean the solipsism that you explained, I meant the solipsism explained by Leo in the video, lf you have seen it, you will have realized that it repeats the idea that the people you meet in your experience do not have their own experience, they are empty images. This is what has caused imbalance in the people who have seen it. The idea that consciousness is one but has many points of view has been said for thousands of years, it is nothing new.

Yes but solipsism doesn't mean that, means that only you have experience and the people that you see around haven't, are just images. You can see the video .

Why should there be ground? There is what there is, reality. The way I see is that god doesn't play because God is not something, is the infinite reality that happens in infinite cycles. It is a fundamental difference, there is not a entity out there who plays and has fun and gets bored, there is the total reality that given its infinity happens in its total perfection. It's incredible, but it's

I smoked salvia and what happened is the reality in a different frequency. What I call a dream is if me now imagine a situation that is just in my mind, sex with my neighbor for example. It's in another level of reality, just a mind construction vs a real construction that is to go to visit my neighbor and have real sex

Ok, but dream implies a dreamer and something that it's not a dream. Everytime that I read that of dream or that reality in imaginary, the mind create duality dreamer/dream

everybody says that, and it's incomprehensible. a dream of whom? and who dreams is not a dream? Dream implies something that is not a dream, so what is this?

Not weakened in the sense of a vulnerable ego, but lightened in the sense of an ego without fear, that understands itself thoroughly, and that understands its place and can depart at will. An ego that does not understand what it is will never be able to let go of the mental grips, it has a horror of emptiness, it needs content, constant mental flow or it panics.

the ego can become lighter and lighter. up to what point? I don't know, but pretty transparent. the ego moves away and in its place remains a window to infinity. As the op has said, the dissolution of the ego is not total, since it exists and you are still a human, but it can be dissolved by, say, 95%, to say a cypher. The work is to identify what prevents this transparency and address the obstacle, how to understand it, face it. Honesty and be insightful is needed, I'd say that @r0ckyreed has both conditions

The ego is the survival mechanism of the hive entity that is humanity. Just as animals have genetic programming that makes them survive, humans create a conceptual network that is transmitted between individuals and that is very flexible and changing, which allows the species to adapt, survive and dominate the environment seemingly without limit. . Its bases are life and death, words and thoughts kill and give life, its power is enormous. Acceptance or rejection are life or death. you, as an individual, are a slave to the hive. all your motivation is evolutionary programming.

Yes, It is very difficult to understand how the self creates the distortion, there are layers of deception that must be deciphered. It's like a natural process, once the chain reaction starts, it continues to slowly disintegrate layers. I will check, i have never done a systematic practice but who knows

The ego is also something else, it is a slave of the collective mind. The collective mind is an evolving entity that is made up of all the minds that contact each other through words. The collective mind can absorb the energy of 40 types of a Paleolithic clan, or billions interconnected by means that the same mind invents to evolve, which is its purpose, like that of everything that lives.

There is obvious proof. In the eternity of existence, only I exist, breakingthewall, and there will never be another shape? That is impossible, there will be infinite shapes in infinity. So, there are others, that's it. You can say: no, there is only me, and the others are in the past or in the future, but the dimension of time is a creation in the infinite, really everything is now, so the infinite others are now