Breakingthewall

@Keryo Koffa The positive thing about your situation is that you approach it with sincerity and humility. That's a giant step. The negative is that you are trapped in yourself. But well, almost everyone is, only instead of facing it they use evasion techniques, like thinking about the future and starting a family. It is a human constant. Your path is to face your fear and open yourself to true life, so congratulations, all the shit you have swallowed in your life leads you to that. There is only one option, go to the end. Anything else would be unfeasible, the sting of suffering will prevent you from staying in no man's land. For me it is obvious, when shit hits my mind, it means that I have to move towards greater openness, less fear. When things are like this, in this life there is a mission: total openness. The reason is that it is inevitable, it is the marked destiny

You can go a certain time without suffering and you will not dissolve into infinity. 99% of human suffering is not intended to prevent you from dissolving into infinity. But yes, ultimately the reason for suffering is the survival of the individual and the species, especially the species. Evolution to optimize survival

What does he mean? That be an adult is to overcome the fear? He's right, so few could be called adults. Not easy task.

The context of god is god itself, because outside is inside. infinity seems to have that strange characteristic.

Suffering is the engine of change, and humanity's main characteristic is to change at an enormously accelerated speed. Nothing that we know has existed is so unstable, changing, in accelerated evolution. If life is a slow-cooked stew, humanity is microwaved, and its suffering is such that it exceeds joy. Being human is shit 😅. Being a bird or a fish is an existence that has much more beauty and joy than suffering, but being human in most cases has a very low and contaminated joy and a very deep sadness and pain. It is the change. The collective ego is instead unleashed, there is no stability, nothing firm to settle on. Human history is basically horrible, but its evolution is magnificent. the two things are related. We are soldiers, servants of a greater cause. We inherit shit in large quantities, and our suffering is greater than our joy, but perhaps things are changing, a plateau is approaching, the war is over and humans will be able to rest and be a little happier.

@Keryo Koffa fear, the big deal. It seems that human life, among other things, is a test in which fear must be overcome. Behind fear is the glory of existence, seems that being human is a larval, incomplete state, in which fear veils true life. The only way I see is forward, break, dissolve, open.

It seems that the design of the cosmos is that. what exists eats itself. The original particles join together and form simple atoms and these join together, destroying part of themselves, creating more complex matter and energy by eating themselves. Life also devours itself to create more complex forms. These forms are in permanent war for survival. Life is in permanent boiling, and the catalyst for its reactions is in part suffering and destruction, which is the seed of new creation.

I love your fighting spirit, always forward

Leo never gave him a warning. It may be rather that the manic state has overcome him and he is undergoing treatment. Razard is a guy full of pain. It's a shame that he is such a liar, maybe one day he can overcome his narcissism and really open up to the truth. Can you imagine razard being humble? Seems difficult. Pity he doesn't listen to anyone who tries to show him his mistake, but maybe the miracle happens and Razard become true. If one day he can talk to someone on the same level and laugh at himself, the miracle has happened.

How do you know that Leo banned him?

Yeah, great way to say .that's how it is. It cannot be anything other than perfect. In reality there is no room for imperfection, it is impossible. An ocean wave cannot be imperfect, or a CO2 molecule. Either it is perfect or it doesn't exist. From here an inevitable conclusion is derived: that your parents sell you to a circus to be tortured in public for the amusement of the audience, is perfect. If you can see this, it means that at this moment your ego is out of play. If you think it's not perfect that Vlad dracul impales you and your family, it's your ego speaking. That is what the ego is: what invents imperfection, and it does so for a cause: creation.

Btw, I see it differently. God is only for the glory of being. God does not create life, it is life. It's quite different. God is nothing without you just as you are nothing without God, because you are one. there is no separation, there is no creator, there is existence

He doesn't seem Razard, I don't detect narcissism or messianic delusion here, just a guy who shares his ideas, doesn't try to teach you to become a Razardist.

I am not loved, I do not need anyone to love me, I am the perfect glory of existence, there is no god who loves me, but I am. Within me is the totality, the infinite, the great abyss that lives and is. I don't need anyone because I am everything. I am not defined because I have no limit. I am joy, existence and power without limit. It seems a joke , but no....just the reality.

@Rafael Thundercat Yes, the sun wants to be the sun. reality is the total glory of existence. The rules of the universe are the full glory of existence alive, gravity is alive, and so are the inner forces of atoms. The stars and galaxies are God in all his power and glory, being. It is perfection made matter, it is the energy, intelligence and art that is within us, what we are.

because humans can establish cause-effect relationships, and for them it was evident that the cause of the reality alive had to be supernatural, something that is not perceived. Some realized that the gods were themselves, like the Native Americans, who thought that reality was a great spirit from which everything emanated and to which everything returned. Many also had true mystical experiences, more common if you are living in nature with small ego mind, surrounded life

Reality is a perfect design, and within its perfection is the fact that it seems imperfect to us. This is the ego, the vital evolutionary impulse, which makes reality take on increasingly complex and conscious patterns. Spirituality is getting out of the ego and seeing the big picture, which is incredibly harmonious and perfect.

you are floating in infinity, which is equivalent to saying, no idea. You cannot know anything, only know that existence exists and that is this. be it in all its depth, that is to know.

Nice video. I only manage to have realizations of an instant, a few seconds. After the mind starts trying to understand it, it is very difficult to educate the mind to stay out of it. but as the op says, reality is perfect, alive, strange, harmonious, wonderful. the work we do with meditation and psychedelics is the ever bigger openness

but what you say cannot be done at will, no one can stop thinking and open themselves to the abyss of the unfathomable reality that flows alive, since thoughts are that reality too. What we have to do is equalize the interior with the exterior to the millimeter, like a precision mechanism, and then the opening occurs.

Thats a very good description that shows that you are open to the abyss

If you have not reached a level of meditation where you can get out of the mind and do psychedelics, your realizations will be largely mental, there will always be mixed mind, and that is deception.

The same thing happens to me, if I meditate and the meditation is clean, I wake up at night and sleep little, but afterwards I don't have the feeling of having slept badly

Meditation is essential. You have to practice daily, for hours, to be stable in the mental void, then do psychedelics for greater openness.

You have made a very good and profound explanation of how the psyche hides these knots, and how it is impossible to find the root with the mind. What works best for me are mushroom trips. The thing is usually that in the middle of the trip, without any warning, a vision occurs. usually one per trip. This vision is very brief, it is an instant, but it is seeing something that has never been seen, something that was hidden, and is exposed. It is not something that I can define, something like: my father insulted me, etc., no, it is the knot of your psyche, you see it, it is exposed. then it is released. You have to be willing to feel anything, rejection, death, sadness, and look it in the face, and in a moment you are a little freer.