Breakingthewall

For me, the release of stagnant energy is essential. I would say that one of the benefit of 5meo dmt is that. The human experience is energetic patterns on top of other patterns, forming an intricate pattern of existence that throughout experience, and probably from birth, has blockages, dead-end paths where energy does not flow and stagnates, thousands of control points. , Fear. The release of all energy channels that allow energy to flow freely is essential to awakening. Without doing this, the awakening will be twisted, incomplete, deceptive.

If you want me to tell you the truth, you seem quite unbalanced with a great need to be "awake", which makes you see yourself as very special and great, very inconsistent in your speech, self-deceived into thinking that you have directly realized truths. that you have heard from Leo, with some sparks of true wisdom and rivers of narcissistic need of self-approval and standing out

but a clarification. It is becoming easier for me to open myself to infinity, to the total now, without psychedelics. This opening is fragile, like a transparent pond that becomes cloudy at the slightest movement. I sense the possibility of understanding what this experience is. In those moments it appears as a mirage superimposed on the limitless totality, and that totality is what I am. If I could be in that opening for hours, or days, it would become deeper and there would be understanding, or so I think, so we should be careful about dismissing that possibility.

I have done breakthrough doses 12/15 days in a row, until the breakthrough feels like something normal, and what I have realized is that even with a maximum dose, vaping 20 mg twice in a row, mixing malt snorted and DMT vaped, awaking at 4 in the morning and do to be more mindless, etc, it is very difficult to let go. the self, the mental interpretation. reality becomes limitless, but the self is still there. You have to make a conscious effort, meditate 40 minutes beforehand, and even then it is difficult, I think it is because the substance is so powerful that the self reacts. What works for me is to make a constant sound, get up, make movements, then everything lets go, total energy discharge. You are empty, you are reality dancing. All your energy channels open, it is the most wonderful thing possible, and it is mindless. The mind prevents this. I get the same thing with 40 ug of LSD and two or three puffs of weed and meditating for two hours, even purer since it is more gradual, less violent. There comes a time when the separate self merges with reality. There is no one interpreting, there is reality flowing. Understanding is total but it is empty, there is nothing that can be remembered, it is reality, total awakening. It is useless to try to remember it because what you remember is not

How can it be true at the same time that others do not have direct experience and others do have direct experience? One of those perspectives is limited

awakening is realizing that reality, that is, you, is infinite. not realize it through logic, but here and now see that infinity is. For that you must break the finite appearance, and the finite appearance is the self. Within the infinite you can be aware of many things or few, it is indifferent since it is infinite. the crucial thing is to realize one: infinity. Not you realizing that the reality is infinite, it's the first step. The real awakening is to become infinite, without limits. It's a total change of frequency.

The ego is the feeling that there is a center and that you are that center. In infinity there is no center, it is impossible. That is why it is impersonal, and the ego is personal. the ego death is the rupture of the center, and the expansion of the being without limit. It is a change in frequency, which requires identifying what creates the appearance of a center and releasing it. It is very counterintuitive because you, from the center, are trying to break the center. It is an act of generosity, of giving of yourself

Alien from another planet? If you think you understand the infinite with your finite mind in a linear way, I would say you are wrong. It is not something linear, inside and outside overlap. Within your direct experience is the infinite, here and now it is, but you do not perceive it. and you are within each of the infinite experiences that exist, in infinite dimensions contained in each now. It is the problem of infinity, that its physics is not understandable...for now. Anyway, everything that appears in your experience, a fly, a piece of shit, is infinite, and inside it is the entire reality. A part of the infinity is the total infinity. You are sorrounded by the infinity, everything is the infinity total alive. that is awakening, and not the narrow and sick perspective of: only I exist and I am imagining reality. You do not exist, the infinite is, and it is unfathomable, it is not a you, it is the glory of total existence, in which you pour yourself out and mix when you let the self fall. Unless you prefer to be a miser who keeps it, and thinks everything is his territory

Conceptualizations are a way of introducing direct realizations that you have had into other minds. It can be said that they are all false in the sense that they are conceptualizations, not direct experience. but it can also be said that some are wrong and others are right. Leo Gura is not a narcissistic monster, or anything of the kind that he is accused of, what I believe is that he is wrong in a nuance and his conceptualizations are a reflection of his error. For me it is clear, his mistake comes from not having been able to disintegrate the self, ever. I know from my own experience that you can take very high doses of psychedelics, 5meo, even salvia, and have the self still there. the self is the center. If you have a forced mystical experience with psychedelics in which the self continues to be perceived as the center, there will be confusion, and you will say: I am God imagining reality. mistake. It is necessary to dissolve the self and realize that reality is God, and there is no center or subject that imagines

I didn't mean the solipsism that you explained, I meant the solipsism explained by Leo in the video, lf you have seen it, you will have realized that it repeats the idea that the people you meet in your experience do not have their own experience, they are empty images. This is what has caused imbalance in the people who have seen it. The idea that consciousness is one but has many points of view has been said for thousands of years, it is nothing new.

Yes but solipsism doesn't mean that, means that only you have experience and the people that you see around haven't, are just images. You can see the video .

Why should there be ground? There is what there is, reality. The way I see is that god doesn't play because God is not something, is the infinite reality that happens in infinite cycles. It is a fundamental difference, there is not a entity out there who plays and has fun and gets bored, there is the total reality that given its infinity happens in its total perfection. It's incredible, but it's

I smoked salvia and what happened is the reality in a different frequency. What I call a dream is if me now imagine a situation that is just in my mind, sex with my neighbor for example. It's in another level of reality, just a mind construction vs a real construction that is to go to visit my neighbor and have real sex

Ok, but dream implies a dreamer and something that it's not a dream. Everytime that I read that of dream or that reality in imaginary, the mind create duality dreamer/dream

everybody says that, and it's incomprehensible. a dream of whom? and who dreams is not a dream? Dream implies something that is not a dream, so what is this?

Not weakened in the sense of a vulnerable ego, but lightened in the sense of an ego without fear, that understands itself thoroughly, and that understands its place and can depart at will. An ego that does not understand what it is will never be able to let go of the mental grips, it has a horror of emptiness, it needs content, constant mental flow or it panics.

the ego can become lighter and lighter. up to what point? I don't know, but pretty transparent. the ego moves away and in its place remains a window to infinity. As the op has said, the dissolution of the ego is not total, since it exists and you are still a human, but it can be dissolved by, say, 95%, to say a cypher. The work is to identify what prevents this transparency and address the obstacle, how to understand it, face it. Honesty and be insightful is needed, I'd say that @r0ckyreed has both conditions

The ego is the survival mechanism of the hive entity that is humanity. Just as animals have genetic programming that makes them survive, humans create a conceptual network that is transmitted between individuals and that is very flexible and changing, which allows the species to adapt, survive and dominate the environment seemingly without limit. . Its bases are life and death, words and thoughts kill and give life, its power is enormous. Acceptance or rejection are life or death. you, as an individual, are a slave to the hive. all your motivation is evolutionary programming.

Yes, It is very difficult to understand how the self creates the distortion, there are layers of deception that must be deciphered. It's like a natural process, once the chain reaction starts, it continues to slowly disintegrate layers. I will check, i have never done a systematic practice but who knows

The ego is also something else, it is a slave of the collective mind. The collective mind is an evolving entity that is made up of all the minds that contact each other through words. The collective mind can absorb the energy of 40 types of a Paleolithic clan, or billions interconnected by means that the same mind invents to evolve, which is its purpose, like that of everything that lives.

There is obvious proof. In the eternity of existence, only I exist, breakingthewall, and there will never be another shape? That is impossible, there will be infinite shapes in infinity. So, there are others, that's it. You can say: no, there is only me, and the others are in the past or in the future, but the dimension of time is a creation in the infinite, really everything is now, so the infinite others are now

Life is an evolutionary path where each obstacle is in the exact place. There is no guarantee that the obstacles will be overcome and if they are not, there is stagnation, and stagnation increases the pressure, mental suffering, as a mechanism that urges us to get out of it. If you are humble and forget your delusions of grandeur, the path is clear and you can follow it. You have to have enough faith to give up control without stopping doing everything necessary at all times. As you say in the thread, where will this take us? higher, more diaphanous, purer, more beautiful. courage must be total, dedication total, and humility total. anything else is a mistake, and mistakes are paid for

I did 5meo and immediately the limits disappeared. this is infinity. An endless abyss opened before me. I automatically realized that in the face of infinity, I was nothing, my entire experience was nothing, anything blurred until it became zero. nothing. The terror that invaded me was total. reality was infinite death with no possibility of escape. It's all an illusion, it's really nothing. I couldn't conceive of anything more horrible, worse than torture. After a while I did it again, and again, lot of times, until I got used to that emptiness. The problem was simply my attachment to the limits of the mind, my vertigo to infinity. Like everything that causes terror, the solution is exposure and getting used to it. to the point of not distinguishing the opening to infinity while sober or doing high doses of 5meo

The problem for me is not saying that reality is God. Reality exists, there is no doubt, right? and it is infinite, therefore it is everything, we can call it god, existence, etc. The problem is saying: I am God and I am imagining reality. here the alarms ring. there is a misunderstanding. First, I am God. It should be: what I really am is not me, it is God. subtle but essential difference. Second, I am imagining reality. Here the self becomes the cause, the center and, furthermore, separated from reality. It can't be, reality is God, not God/I imagining reality. there is no actor/action/result

The truth is that for me personally the reading of these people or other spirituality is of absolutely no use to me, I have never found a useful spiritual reading, on the contrary, they all settle the self, they make it heavier. That doesn't mean that I don't consider his openness legitimate, the same as that of Leo, whom I don't really understand, but I don't underestimate him either.