Breakingthewall

@OBEler Congrats, you have a girlfriend with an unusual quality of courage and open-mindedness. Indeed, 5meo is magic for hidden trauma

I would say that you just have to let go of the mind, let the self fall, the door without a door. Once a moment occurs, you have changed your settings and can now go for longer moments. 5meo dmt was useful for me. When you achieve the openness to the unlimited, that is where the real business is and where real change begins. You move apart your psyche and its intricate paths from the equation and leave space to be filled by the real. This is power, life, beauty without stain

Yes of course , There is a level at which the mind can understand, and must do so in order to free itself, it is the level at which this bubble of existence operates, the level of the psyche, which can be quite deep, but there is a point from which the the mind stops being operational and becomes an obstacle, because what is beyond is at another frequency, or at least that's I saw for now

@Keryo Koffa I didn't tell you that to be arrogant but because I sincerely believe that nothing can be known for the mind. The one who thinks he knows is the structured mind, which after a psychedelic trip finds new structures, but I have seen that the structured mind is completely insufficient software to understand reality. It is as if the mind were in 4 dimensions and reality in 275. It is useless, the mind cannot, it must humble itself and move away. It is the heart that must understand and see. You must open yourself completely to the present moment, and by doing so you realize that reality is within, all of it. When you surrender and open yourself, it is an act of the mind and heart. The act of the mind is to move apart, that of the heart is to give itself. It's something like here you are, standing, with your mind and your heart, and right in front of you opens a monstrous hole that is death. You cannot understand this hole, so the mind turns away, and you look at it without mind. You cannot fear this hole because you cannot escape from it, so the heart surrenders and opens to it completely, whatever it is, without the slightest reservation. then you expand and you are the hole. That's it, ego death, without limit, the true reality, without filter, without mind, alive. How long can you stay like this? can you handle the depth? The deeper, the closer to the core, the more blinding, the more power. At any given moment, there is only energy, you are a flow of unlimited energy, and that energy is total Glory. but the moment you want to apply the 3D software and understand what all this is, you are out, it is not possible, it is incompatible. the flow is interrupted because the structure of the mind is a dam that compartmentalizes and encapsulates. If reality is encapsulated and parceled out, it is veiled. Encapsulating is useful for the physical, for technology, etc., but useless and limiting for the metaphysical. the mind must be completely free of structure. difficult? the same as leaving heroin for the drug addict, quite

The point is that there are no others in the sense that the self falls and what remains is the experience that occurs, the now that changes. There is only this, or rather, only this can be perceived. the self falls and dissolves into reality, and was the self who perceived others, so without self, others dissapear of the equation. but....there is an important detail here. This now, this living flow, remains limited. It is a bubble, and its walls are veiled. If the bubble becomes transparent, the life that is is glimpsed. Here the idea of others does not even exist, nor yours. It is the infinite that lives, monstrously infinite and monstrously alive. wild, unthinkable, absolutely humiliating for the mind, which is vaporized. Here is the real game. Is possible to understand this? Interesting question.

We all feel tied to the human hive, practically no one is a true loner. Being part of the hive and being tied to the mental matrix, like all humans, we see killing a human differently than killing a rat, we are aware of the implications that this will have on the matrix. That individual will leave a hole, perhaps there is something called grief, perhaps some children vibrate with something we call "sadness." If we catch a tuna in the sea we do not think about the hole it leaves, but on a cosmic level the reality is that both died when they had to die, within the perfect dance. Maybe one day a guy completely enlightened to an unimaginable level will find it wonderfully appropriate to unleash a nuclear holocaust. Do not confuse the gregarious feelings of the mammal with the will of the cosmos, it is implacable.

Exactly, zero is equal to infinity because in zero there are no limits, which is the inevitable cause of infinity, and infinity is indefinite so it is not something and makes anything zero in contrast to if. It also follows from here that infinity divided by infinity is infinity, or zero, since they are equivalent, or in simpler terms, everything is infinite.

Everything you say is a mental exercise that in my opinion is equivalent to a dog deducing how a particle accelerator works. Maybe the dog thinks he has it, but the reality is that he can sit looking at the accelerator for millions of years with his dog mind, and it will come to absolutely nothing except confusion. The empty mind is the only way, since what the mind says is not at the appropriate frequency, it is confusion by definition.

I would say that a total opening is impossible, it is death, but who knows. My experiences are first steps. In those first steps I have seen that reality is a supernova that will disintegrate you if you open yourself to it too much, a certain level of darkness is necessary. I would say that a continued excessive level of opening could be bad for physical health, there is an optimal level, and in some cases we can open the window more widely at certain times. How do you know that? Because Leo said?

You can be conscious of your true nature all time, but after that you could access to mystical states. The absolute is just absence of limits, absolute freedom that is. Let's say that this is the basis of existence, but from that absence of limits reality emerges, this reality is not imaginary nor a mischievous god who plays, it is the incommensurable. The living void that can be accessed is one thing, but the opening to the atomic reactor, the supernova, call it whatever, which is the essence of life, is another. This is not an illusion, it is real. Trees grow, your heart beats, galaxies emerge, and all that.

The only thing occult is the shit in our psyche.

I remember very good my state of being when I was 5 years old and i haven't beliefs , was very happy, but wasn't a real opening, it's different

Now it's what's left when you turn off your mind. Time is being created by the mind, the mind is all the time creating a timeline that goes from before to after. The act of weaving thoughts is something that happens sequentially and creates the sensation of time. you think one thing, then another, etc. Opening to the now is not stopping thinking, it is deactivating thoughts, then you stop following them and the timeline fades. There are levels of deactivation of thoughts, and what you want is to deactivate them completely for a while, for a moment at first, then for a longer time. How to do this is the question, since the self, which is made up of thoughts, is the one who wants to stop the thoughts. the door without a door, because whoever wants to go through the door is the door, a mess. For me at the beginning I had to use extreme violence: 5meo dmt. If not, impossible, because the line of thought goes deep and creates structures. It may seem silent but the structures continue if you believe in them. That's why even if you meditate and silence your mind, you are still limited. It is not a question of silence, but of deactivation. psychedelics help but do not guarantee it. It is something that I try every day, because it is a sensation of total liberation and life, it is the total end of the slightest shadow of dissatisfaction, it is complete plenitude, but achieving it is difficult and brief. 2 puffs of weed help a lot, more is a hindrance, and meditation in the sense of looking into the face of existence, making yourself totally aware of death, letting go of everything. Then the opening happens, and it's perfect. For now quite short, but yesterday for example I was alone in a park with my arms to the heaven and crying with all of my being absolute full, like I ve unlimited energy inside flowing through me, without a molecule of imperfection, perceiving the pure life. It's not a small achievement thinking that last year I was all time with shit in my mind. Not horrible shit, but always some. so I know that I'm in the good way , thats the real thing

love is always there, you just have to remove the barriers for it to flow

If you want to awaken, or dissolve into existence, or open yourself to reality or whatever that is called, it has to be exactly now. There is no other moment, only now exists, and right now you must open your being, then there is no time. Then you close your mind, and reality as a linear process that unfolds returns to the foreground.

It is a matter of mental frequency. There are very intelligent guys who have zero spiritual inclination, for them it is a dimension that does not exist, they are comfortable in the mind, it is their place. Are many people like that, their mind is sharp, analyzes everything, they succeeds in what they set out to do, they understands the essence of people quickly, but if you talk to them about these things, they look at you as if you were crazy and you were telling him that you pass the nights looking out the window to see if you see aliens. On the other hand, there are guys who are less smart and open to this vibration. It is a matter of heart, of hot vibration. It is something that normally opens up in a person if there has been suffering in their life, that suffering may simply be feeling disconnected, alone.

That's realizing something, but that means absolutely nothing. You realize that. And? The thing is open yourself to the real thing, look in the face to death, to the black hole the is in front of your face, and surrender to it, and then open your heart to what lives. Expand yourself and be the unlimited. That's not a realization, it's an action

It's easy if you realize that it's impossible. I think it's absolutely and totally impossible. You will never know why you exist, why you are this form, why the cycles of reality are the way they are, what your destiny is, what the purpose of things being the way they are is. You can open yourself to the infinite without limit, you can feel its power, you can understand its quality, its nature, which is yours, but nothing more. everything else is illusions

Humans are not individuals but part of a hive. Without the collective we are worth less than a worm. We are a material being and at the same time we are the mind, which takes its content from the collective ego, the matrix, and we lend our processing force to this entity. Morality is our commitment to give what we receive, to flow in the way necessary for the development of this matrix. Morality is variable and internal. At a given moment our inner voice may tell us that moral behavior is revolution and genocide. It depends on the circumstance and what the evolution of the matrix demands.

first step, completely empty mind. zero power of the concept, zero belief in the mental structure, absence of limits, free mind. second step: perception of your nature, of the quality of what you are. third step: revelation, vision, glimpse, intuition of what reality is. third step: realizing that your vision will never be complete, humility, abandoning the ambition to know, it is impossible. fifth step: abandon yourself, spill your self into the ocean of reality, give up control, be happy sixth step: seek openness to the immensity of reality just for pleasure

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I'm not saying it's wrong, but it is limited and it couldn't be otherwise , let's see, it says: going back to the source. and what is the source? That is the question. Everything that metaphor says is correct, but what it doesn't say is that once you are in a constant state of let's say unity, and you leave your future and your life in the hands of reality and you get stuck in the deep present, you have a feeling of constant connection, etc., yet you are in a limited state. Reality is much more, living infinity is not just that. The force that explodes infinite big bangs in infinite multiverses, that makes life grow and creates your bubble of perfect existence, is more than a state of unity. The state of oneness is the starting line to begin to see, but once you begin to open your being to what is, you are completely humbled. The first thing that burns is your logical mind, when you realize that it is the mind of an insect wanting to understand a quantum computer. trying is a joke. The second thing you see is that the power and magnitude of what is inside you needs to be veiled. It is beautiful and wonderful to open a crack, but you cannot open the entire window or you will be disintegrated. The time for that will come and it will be total glory, but for now it is enough to enjoy the beauty of this experience and as a hobby open the slit from time to time and fill your being with the sight of the enormity that lives

I'm not sure, we will see. I thought that there could be nothing but living emptiness without limit, since it is unlimited and alive, without stain of mind, purity. This is my true nature, enlightenment. But one day a door opened and what manifested was something unimaginable, the true power of existence. Better not to be too sure with what we know or about what reality is

Yes, that's true but the problem is that It's just that we don't know what's possible until we experience it, so you may see Maharshi's beatific expression meditating and feel that he is a guy who has achieved total openness, but maybe this is absolutely false and you don't even remotely know that it is a full opening. It's the problem with spirituality, that you can only judge backwards, not forwards, since you don't know what's there, not even remotely. So someone like Ralston is convinced that he is enlightened until one day maybe a real opening occurs and he says...wtf. like happened to Leo, for example, if im not wrong Another interpretation is that raslton is enlightened, but enlightenment is a limited state. Just remove all the falsehood of the mind and be empty, pure life without limit. Great, but there is more.

I don't know what enlightenment is and no one does, what there is is levels of transparency to what reality is. and a high level of transparency maintained over time will probably make you drool and shit yourself. I don't know since I have achieved openings of minutes, enough to see what there is. Living infinity is not a state of calm. A meditative state in which you expand your being in the void and perceive yourself as life without limit is one thing, it is very good and brings you great happiness, but a real openness is another thing. It's something like opening the blinds a little and behind it there is a supernova. you can intuit it, but not look at it completely. It is beyond your configuration as a human, or at least I think so, but I will continue to delve deeper until my bubble of existence disappears, so let's see. Nothing else could be remotely compared