Breakingthewall

It's not a blissful feeling, it's the existence that opens. The thing was that my heart got open, and my heart was the heart of the infinity, and there was the pure light of love, and that was what reality is. Nothing more, that's everything. Now I'm again in the world, with all it shit, and it's wonder,. trying to make a beautiful life, projecting the best with my mind to make the beauty happens. And I don't understand absolutely nothing. I just know what the reality is under it's surface, then I want to bring that to the surface. It's impossible to understand anything 😅. We are walking on infinity. Sure understanding is so comforting, but it's impossible. Love is the only answer. Love is the substance of reality, even of the loneliness, the pain and the sickness. The thing is open our heart to the love that reality is, with all its shit. Nothing is wrong, everything is the sacred light of reality.

wasn't nothingness. I have had many times the experience of absolute loneliness and absolute emptiness, as @A Fellow Lighter mentioned . In fact, the first 10 or 12 breakthroughs with 5 meo were just that, something extremely hard. It is something that feels worse than death, it is the cosmic prison where existence is, without any meaning and without the possibility of escape, absolutely alone. not I, the human, but total existence. It is alone, and cannot not exist. It is a realization that produces vomiting and crying. It took me almost a year to get back in there with 5meo, and it was exactly the same, many times, until some openings happened. The other day it happened to me just with meditation and 1 puff of weed, the opening to the absolute emptiness of existence. Since this has happened to me countless times, I find it unpleasant but bearable, over all because I know that there is more. After 4 days , meditating with 1 puff of weed, as I sometimes do, it happened again. then, in the absolute void, existence, horrified as always by the prison that the fact of being means, opened itself. first a little, a faint flow of something. At the bottom of the unfathomable void, the void itself was, and it opened to be seen by itself. then the gap widened, and the void opened, and showed itself as the absolute light of existence. beyond any idea, desire, whatever. reality showed itself as total love (it's hard for me to say that cheesy candy word). absolute simplicity, absolute fullness, there is nothing more, there can't be nothing more. that's all. Hallelujah. the totality manifests itself in its absolute plenitude. I had already seen something like this with 5meo, but not like this, not totally, not that long. It's still here, underneath everything. The feeling is like I'm just a hole from the the things, all the colors, the person, the sensations, emerge, because they are all inside, but they flow, appearing, and what is inside is unfathomable. And I, the person, I'm modulating what appears, like a filter

“Whoever disobeys God and his messenger and violates his laws, God will put him in the fire forever” (4:14) I just say that I read. Maybe in another verses they say another thing. Notice that disobey God is impossible, because God is omnipotent.

In the Quran is said that if you do some things, In fact, many things, you will go to hell, where molten lead will be poured into your throat for eternity, your pain always being like the first moment, then, Allah, when he created you he already knew that you were going to be, for example, an apostate, he made a not so funny joke

That's quite horrible. This is the last door. You have to face it again and again. I cried of loneliness and terror after those openings many times. You have to go through it and open your heart, then the pure light of existence is showed to itself. Nothing that you could think.

As a point against Alla, he is omniscient, so when he created you he already knew that you were going to sin and go to eternal hell, which is extremely horrible, so Alla is a sadistic demon.

Yeah, if you are breaking the limits seems quite nonsense breaking all limits except one

What do you mean with the two legged show? All the human attachment?

I didn't forgot. This that I explained above is enlightenment. There is no more, that is everything. you have to purify your being enough for reality to open up. Any speculation, such as infinite, eternal, what others are, what suffering is, there is reincarnation, what death is, etc., is absolutely irrelevant. The only relevant thing is that what reality is, and it must reveal itself. It is a revelation that reality gives. It opens and shows itself in its full glory. There is nothing more to know, it is absolutely simple, absolutely total. Replace your psychological landscape with the pure light of reality.

Absolutely simple and obvious, but so easy to forget. I'm already forgetting right now, a while after.

Desire to open, to remove obstacles, fear, sadness, narcissism, all the chains. Desire to be free, all time. Then you do what is necessary. Time, let's see 2 years but depending of the person. At first it's shit, the mind is confusion, full of fear, identification, dense. A hell. Then you start with the hammer. Destruction, forge. The chains are unbearable, better be dead. 5meo, meditation many hours, stopping any entertainment, any toxic activities, cleaning, purifying. And the thing starts to move

One thing is being as open to the reality as you can in normal circumstances, and another If they lock you in a room full of hungry rats, for example. Then you are not enlightened or anything, you are just scaping from the rats.

The game of reality is a hard game. Reality opens its heart to itself, it keeps nothing, it saves nothing. It is absolutely generous in creation, in beauty, and in suffering. The heart of reality bleeds total generosity. It opens itself and says: give it all to me. and drains the full chalice of existence with infinite joy and courage. reality has infinite balls.

For your kids, for your body, for the families who were in autchwitz, for the old people alone sick in a city... imagine the volume of shit of humanity. It's a huge mountain of the worse shit ever. Seems a joke. It's better to laugh.

Life is war, We try to dance a beautiful dance, avoiding misery, loneliness, illness and death. We imagine a collective imaginary world in which the dark side of life does not exist, and we stay in it mentally, like children. War is out there, life is dancing a beautiful dance in the middle of war. Open your eyes and heart wide, love and look for open-hearted, generous people, and open your heart and soul to them, just because its beautiful, but over all open your heart to life, to the now, looking it directly, and lets see when the things become shit. When the sickness and the negativity appears in our life, we have to be open to it, and love it too. Not easy

When the things in life gets ugly, and things gets ugly almost sure, then it's the moment to say: I am here, do with me what you want. All of us are going to cry and beg for mercy, but life is merciless. The moment of the truth use to come, this is not a game. Let's see how I'm going to react, but as a preparation what I try is not liying myself

Exactly

Different goals. For me it is obvious that the levels of consciousness are a trap, since they never end, so there is no difference between a lot or a little. The difference is between limited and infinite. Infinity is total, there are no levels of infinity because it is not something, it is the absence of something: of limits

For me the difference in well-being and happiness after using 5 meo, let's say... I don't know how many times, hundreds ,is complete. My purpose with 5 meo was completely clear from the beginning: breaking all the walls. nothing more, that's all, anything else is a wall. Are you smart or maybe....are you not so smart? because it's obvious. What this game is about is expanding to infinity permanently, because obviously, you are infinite, so why do you perceive yourself as finite? there is an error in it and that error causes contraction, discomfort, unhappiness, distortion, pain, depression, rage, anger, hatred, young padawan, you are up to your eyeballs in self-hatred that stinks like shit and you must disintegrate those walls that contain it and that it diffuses into infinity, which is all the total glory, since wherever you look, it is infinite. then in your chest only one expression will resonate: hallelujah. even if your girlfriend leaves you and you are an old man alone in a stinking residence. Hallelujah, because reality is total glory without limit and you are the source and the flow.

I don't think so, you should use a lot for that

For me, other roa like snorted or plugged don't work even in very high doses, because my mind adapts at full speed to the gradual rise and never breaks down. What I'm looking for with 5meo is a total breakup. It has to be instantaneous, in 3 or 4 seconds the mind is an empty black space, and then it explodes. The insight or revelations that may take place are not relevant ( they are in low doses) the only thing sought is the rupture itself and the expansion to infinity. It is something physical, not mental, a radical change in frequency, the disappearance of the structures of the mind and the opening to total emptiness. As you have said, it is not so much a psychedelic as a meditative tool.

Interesting! I read about it. I prefer vape because it's violence. What I'm looking is a bomb. Anything smoother doesn't work for my objetive.

I'd say that Waterriver thinks that Leo is prisoner of the form, and he's dragging others to a wrong path, the he points again and again his mistake, like a mission . lets say that Waterriver thinks that enlightenment is something unthinkable, it is the opening of your being to your unlimited essence, and this by definition cannot be thought or said, it can be done. Therefore, indicating that awakening is something concrete can be very toxic for those who are on the path, and that is why they repeat it. maybe I'm wrong

That guy may be trained to endure pain and have the belief that if he does what he did he will have advantages in the future life, and that is all.

That's true. It seems like something designed exactly for that. how do you use it? vaped? what dose?