Breakingthewall

God by definition is everything, it is reality, therefore he is you, but you have many layers of identification in your psyche that veil the fact that you are absolute reality. This is so in any being, since if it were not so, it would disintegrate, it would not be "something", it would be the totality. We humans have the ability to dissolve these veils, one by one, and temporarily, to recognize ourselves as the timeless reality. This is very difficult, a lot of meditation, psychedelics, years, and many traps. The psyche is very cunning, and it deceives itself in a masterful way. Duality, narcissism, fear, searching, prevent us from looking deeply inside. Karma introduces its tentacles and does not release the prey easily, the path requires great intuition. the path to nowhere, obviously

Marerialism means that reality is made of matter. This is partly true, the question would be: what is matter made of? It is scientifically known that matter is energy. If you join a particle of matter with another equivalent of antimatter, they become energy. Therefore, a proton is a form, a very stable organization of energy. So the question would be: what is energy? How and why is it organized into stable patterns? You could say that the mind is energy, and therefore, in general, the fact that it can interact with matter to a certain extent does not mean anything. I suppose there will come a point where science reaches mysticism and it will be seen that science and mysticism are the same, only that each of them has an opposite point of origin. Science begins from the ultimate manifestations and goes into the origin, and mysticism begins at the origin to then go to the manifestation.

I seek total openness for the simple reason that I perceive the fog that distorts vision, and the structures of my psyche that block clean flow. my inevitable push is to break through. There is no objective, there is an inevitable, constant, quite slow but inexorable attitude. I think that any other attitude would be a mistake, and I have the intuition that what I achieve in this life cycle will have an impact on the next

We cannot communicate it because we have had experiences of opening, of the veils falling, brief and incomplete. If we had moments of enlightenment every two or 3 days, on a regular basis, with meditation, we could talk about it more clearly. After an opening moment, even 2 seconds, the expression is fluid. After a few days, it closes.

This video is a good description. Like the guy says, you can't sustain that intensity for long or you'll burn out. do you remember that , sellingwaterbytheriver? We had a conversation about this.

I would say that what is happening to you is simply a lack of emotional maturity, not being solid in yourself, regardless of the people around you. Achieving this is very difficult and takes years of work, but it is necessary. Let's say you have left the comfort of the herd and it is cold outside, but when you return to the herd, you cannot flow as a herd again and you are not safe as an individual either. I would forget spiritual content, it will only bring you spiritual ego, nothing real. ideas that will twist your mind. What I would do is a serious meditation practice, therapy if you can afford it, and channel your life in a way that promotes self-confidence.

I just had an epiphany on the subject of my karma. I still had the sticky tentacles of my family stuck in my being. a dissonant vibration that came and went, recurrently. something that tied me down. He's gone, my mind is flying right now. It is empty, clean. It is empty space of living vibration. clarity. Sons of bitches, they still had me. karma is persistent. How many around are free of their karma? But well, are karmas more or less comfortable I guess. There is no 5meo or anything that could free yourself, only your will of freedom will free you, but the substances are a very good tool.

5meo is legal in France I think. It has the advantage of short duration. I think it could be very useful for you. 5meo DMT and 5meo malt, both have different qualities.

The mind that knows what is it place I don't know what can work in your case, 5meo and meditation have worked for me. 5meo is very useful for breaking blockages. In the end what it comes down to is that your interior landscape is empty spaciousness by default. that's where the good life begins

In my humble opinion, you should reset your mind, forget absolutely everything. zero, clean, empty. whatever it is. karma?. heart? where? Who cares? Absolute zero. total void. nothing.

God is the reality that is divided into infinite holons and each one of them is God, and they combine infinitely, increasing their complexity until they reach the total infinite combination, then they disintegrate again infinitely, and each cycle is one of the infinite breaths of god, all of them different

Dissolving the form, or the mental structures, is not equivalent to having a mystical experience, but it promotes it. This is what is sought with meditation, and it is very difficult because there are structures under structures. Let's say that the structures make you, as consciousness, focus on the structures. You can only see the reflection of that, there is a block to your perception, you are inside a box. If the structures dissolve, which happens with a enough dose of 5meo because it stops the activity of the frontal lobe of the brain, where the ego is produced, you as consciousness perceive without limit, then you realize that it is the reality beyond this specific structure.

It's not like realizing that reality is a dream, or god or whatever, It is completely erasing your human identity for a while, turning off your mind. perceive yourself as existence more and more deeply, until what you are manifests. The typical thing about enlightenment that sounds very simple and everyone thinks they have it but they don't. I don't have it, just glimpses of a second. My mind is all the time polishing, penetrating, polishing more. I want to open it, constantly. I know that for this you have to stop and stop wishing. be comfortable in total silence, in emptiness. every day a little more comfortable, less rejection of emptiness. It is a very difficult and slow work, millimeter by millimeter.

because it is something very difficult to do for me and for most. I get it sometimes and only partly. The human mind has many layers, many veils. We are trying to open perception in a total way, enlightenment. mind without barriers, absolutely open. Do you think this is a fantasy, or an idea? It's not like that, it's real. This, now, is more than it seems, and less too. You have to open your mind and heart completely so that the absolute manifests itself clearly. I guarantee you it is extremely difficult.

just don't think about reality. Realize that absolutely nothing you think about reality makes any sense, since that thought is something that is happening within reality, then your mind empties and you open to reality. reality mixes with you and you are reality. you have to let go of the mind completely, as soon as you try to capture it with the mind, reality becomes opaque. You have to open yourself to the absolute freedom of being mindless. Everything, absolutely, is outside the mind, the mind is an illusion, an apparition, a software. Life is outside the mind, clarity, light. that is reality, and it is impossible to think

Why the word dream?

What difference does it make if reality is a dream or there is nowhere to go? Those are labels that you put on reality but they don't bring you closer to what reality is. The only way is to open yourself to what reality is, and as reality is you, open yourself, drop all the veils until the bottomless hole of reality smiles at you, look at it without looking away and open yourself to it, and during for a brief moment, be it. Then perceive the flow that emerges, and dissolve your identity in it. It's a matter about its/your quality not about what it is.

The others always want something, same than me.

Reality flows, emerges from itself and combines in a dance of limitless intelligence, its nature creates forms of unimaginable complexity. On a cosmic level, a schizophrenic fentanyl addict is a work of art of divine, unimaginable magnitude. each of his infernal thoughts arising from despair are a wave of heavenly perfection. Its substance is divine, infinite, clear and perfect.

Enlightenment is about being alone, not in group

Is it supposed to be useful for enlightenment to tell a group of strangers that you masturbate looking at pictures of sheep while you smell a jar full of your own excrements?

Trascending the mind and open the real thing. It's not so difficult when you realize that the mind is just something that appears in the reality, then it can't grasping the reality.

For me the objective is to break all the structures of the mind. Reality remains a formless field. At first this field is flat, an unlimited black screen, then it gains depth and its depth is bottomless, and there it happens for me that I realize what I am: bottomless depth, and freedom is absolute. It is a realization that has no interpretation nor can it be given form or sense. There no creation, no creator, only total depth, and that depth lives. Hallelujah. Thats all.

It is possible to refute that in a logical way. First, the fact that you are having an experience and perceiving things implies that you are perceiving part of reality, not all of reality, since if it were all, there would be no things or experience, because everything by definition implies all the potential possibilities, which are all. So you would perceive all possible potentiality simultaneously, which means that you would not perceive anything concrete, but you are perceiving something concrete, which implies that there are things that you are not perceiving, that are hidden to you. Second, If you are perceiving a concrete part of the possible potentiality, we could say that you are being constituted by that part of the flow of existence that you perceive. In fact you are your perception, if you wouldn't not perceive, you wouldn't be Third, all that missing part of possible potentiality that is being hidden from you, where is it? never existed or will exist? This is impossible since it potentially exists, this is equivalent to saying part of it, or all of it, existed at some point or will exist, and since you can see that this present moment that you are has no limits, simply opening your eyes, your mind and perceiving it, the conclusion is inevitable that right now there is part of the possible potentiality that is hidden from you but exists. therefore "another" is perceiving it, or rather the perception is creating another. Let's say that the now, this limitless moment has many layers of potential perception hidden from you, and each one is creating a perceiver by the fact that exist perception.

You can't know it because "know" is inside the truth. You can't know the truth, you can be the truth right now, or you can be veiled. For me It's important to realize that you can't know anything, then you stop trying and relax, and the mind gets empty, and you focus your energy in the dissolution of the barriers that veils you