Breakingthewall

For me having a guy in front of me who wants to do me the most damage possible, and me studying his movements and planning the situation to maximize the defense and find the gaps in which to hit to damage him, has a fascinating flavor, but not spiritual. increases the density of my ego. Then I think it's better to avoid combats if you are interested in spirituality , over all because the energy of your opponent almost always is very egoic. If you find an opponent that fights without ego, then it's really beautiful , but 99,9% of fighters are very low conciousness , and in other hand, it's not healthy getting hits in your head. Anyway, there is a time for that if you need to do it

I have not said that reality is not divine, I have said that there is no creator

Sure, until someone scares you, then you wish for their death, aka you hate them. It's the nature of life

When I have had mystical experiences in which all identification disappears, reality manifests itself as an abyss of existence, and the word to define it would be total. I am the absolute totality without limit. but there is no creative will, there is inevitability. The absence of limits makes movement, flow, inevitable, and the intelligence that organizes this flow is inevitably infinite, it cannot not be, it cannot not create itself in infinite cycles in movement. What god is a slave to its own nature?

God is a bad word because it implies a subject who performs an action with a result, and this is duality, anthropomorphism and egoic projection The way cycles are organized into more complex cycles, the unlimited intelligence of reality, doesn't work like that. There isn't a guy behind the scenes who is very smart and does very smart things. the bottomless well of reality flows, and this flow is the perceived reality. I wouldn't call this God, just the reality. God is too personal

Enlightenment is perceiving yourself and flowing without barriers, without false identifications. peeling the onion until the infinite abyss of existence remains. That is not something banal or boring, it is total existence, the source from which the infinite cosmos flows, an impossible beauty, total glory. It is not something like: I have realized that only I exist, this is conceptual. It is realizing what you are, your true nature. Imagine the structure of an insect, from the subatomic particles to the cells in perfect synchrony to create a dimension of reality. multiply that reality by infinity. it's unimaginable.

Well said, Im still struggling with some hate, and realizing more and more that any hate is self-hatred, barriers and fragmentation. There are more subtle forms of hate, such as shame and narcissism, that have that same quality, the same fragmenting vibration, less intense, more background than direct hatred towards someone specific, but the same fragmenting effect. If we want to open ourselves to the absolute, we must dissolve those barriers, it is necessary The thing is that you can't stop hating just by deciding to do so, you have to perceive others as part of yourself. Sometimes it is very difficult, since some have very false, evil, dark ways of being, it is a difficult challenge, but without being able to dissolve the hatred, I think that we are always trapped, we can never open ourself to absolute reality completely, since our hate fragments us inside

I think mathematics explains it well: any part of infinity is infinite, therefore, the part and the whole are the same. difficult, or rather impossible to understand by the structured mind

God by definition is everything, it is reality, therefore he is you, but you have many layers of identification in your psyche that veil the fact that you are absolute reality. This is so in any being, since if it were not so, it would disintegrate, it would not be "something", it would be the totality. We humans have the ability to dissolve these veils, one by one, and temporarily, to recognize ourselves as the timeless reality. This is very difficult, a lot of meditation, psychedelics, years, and many traps. The psyche is very cunning, and it deceives itself in a masterful way. Duality, narcissism, fear, searching, prevent us from looking deeply inside. Karma introduces its tentacles and does not release the prey easily, the path requires great intuition. the path to nowhere, obviously

Marerialism means that reality is made of matter. This is partly true, the question would be: what is matter made of? It is scientifically known that matter is energy. If you join a particle of matter with another equivalent of antimatter, they become energy. Therefore, a proton is a form, a very stable organization of energy. So the question would be: what is energy? How and why is it organized into stable patterns? You could say that the mind is energy, and therefore, in general, the fact that it can interact with matter to a certain extent does not mean anything. I suppose there will come a point where science reaches mysticism and it will be seen that science and mysticism are the same, only that each of them has an opposite point of origin. Science begins from the ultimate manifestations and goes into the origin, and mysticism begins at the origin to then go to the manifestation.

I seek total openness for the simple reason that I perceive the fog that distorts vision, and the structures of my psyche that block clean flow. my inevitable push is to break through. There is no objective, there is an inevitable, constant, quite slow but inexorable attitude. I think that any other attitude would be a mistake, and I have the intuition that what I achieve in this life cycle will have an impact on the next

We cannot communicate it because we have had experiences of opening, of the veils falling, brief and incomplete. If we had moments of enlightenment every two or 3 days, on a regular basis, with meditation, we could talk about it more clearly. After an opening moment, even 2 seconds, the expression is fluid. After a few days, it closes.

This video is a good description. Like the guy says, you can't sustain that intensity for long or you'll burn out. do you remember that , sellingwaterbytheriver? We had a conversation about this.

I would say that what is happening to you is simply a lack of emotional maturity, not being solid in yourself, regardless of the people around you. Achieving this is very difficult and takes years of work, but it is necessary. Let's say you have left the comfort of the herd and it is cold outside, but when you return to the herd, you cannot flow as a herd again and you are not safe as an individual either. I would forget spiritual content, it will only bring you spiritual ego, nothing real. ideas that will twist your mind. What I would do is a serious meditation practice, therapy if you can afford it, and channel your life in a way that promotes self-confidence.

I just had an epiphany on the subject of my karma. I still had the sticky tentacles of my family stuck in my being. a dissonant vibration that came and went, recurrently. something that tied me down. He's gone, my mind is flying right now. It is empty, clean. It is empty space of living vibration. clarity. Sons of bitches, they still had me. karma is persistent. How many around are free of their karma? But well, are karmas more or less comfortable I guess. There is no 5meo or anything that could free yourself, only your will of freedom will free you, but the substances are a very good tool.

5meo is legal in France I think. It has the advantage of short duration. I think it could be very useful for you. 5meo DMT and 5meo malt, both have different qualities.

The mind that knows what is it place I don't know what can work in your case, 5meo and meditation have worked for me. 5meo is very useful for breaking blockages. In the end what it comes down to is that your interior landscape is empty spaciousness by default. that's where the good life begins

In my humble opinion, you should reset your mind, forget absolutely everything. zero, clean, empty. whatever it is. karma?. heart? where? Who cares? Absolute zero. total void. nothing.

God is the reality that is divided into infinite holons and each one of them is God, and they combine infinitely, increasing their complexity until they reach the total infinite combination, then they disintegrate again infinitely, and each cycle is one of the infinite breaths of god, all of them different

Dissolving the form, or the mental structures, is not equivalent to having a mystical experience, but it promotes it. This is what is sought with meditation, and it is very difficult because there are structures under structures. Let's say that the structures make you, as consciousness, focus on the structures. You can only see the reflection of that, there is a block to your perception, you are inside a box. If the structures dissolve, which happens with a enough dose of 5meo because it stops the activity of the frontal lobe of the brain, where the ego is produced, you as consciousness perceive without limit, then you realize that it is the reality beyond this specific structure.

It's not like realizing that reality is a dream, or god or whatever, It is completely erasing your human identity for a while, turning off your mind. perceive yourself as existence more and more deeply, until what you are manifests. The typical thing about enlightenment that sounds very simple and everyone thinks they have it but they don't. I don't have it, just glimpses of a second. My mind is all the time polishing, penetrating, polishing more. I want to open it, constantly. I know that for this you have to stop and stop wishing. be comfortable in total silence, in emptiness. every day a little more comfortable, less rejection of emptiness. It is a very difficult and slow work, millimeter by millimeter.

because it is something very difficult to do for me and for most. I get it sometimes and only partly. The human mind has many layers, many veils. We are trying to open perception in a total way, enlightenment. mind without barriers, absolutely open. Do you think this is a fantasy, or an idea? It's not like that, it's real. This, now, is more than it seems, and less too. You have to open your mind and heart completely so that the absolute manifests itself clearly. I guarantee you it is extremely difficult.

just don't think about reality. Realize that absolutely nothing you think about reality makes any sense, since that thought is something that is happening within reality, then your mind empties and you open to reality. reality mixes with you and you are reality. you have to let go of the mind completely, as soon as you try to capture it with the mind, reality becomes opaque. You have to open yourself to the absolute freedom of being mindless. Everything, absolutely, is outside the mind, the mind is an illusion, an apparition, a software. Life is outside the mind, clarity, light. that is reality, and it is impossible to think

Why the word dream?

What difference does it make if reality is a dream or there is nowhere to go? Those are labels that you put on reality but they don't bring you closer to what reality is. The only way is to open yourself to what reality is, and as reality is you, open yourself, drop all the veils until the bottomless hole of reality smiles at you, look at it without looking away and open yourself to it, and during for a brief moment, be it. Then perceive the flow that emerges, and dissolve your identity in it. It's a matter about its/your quality not about what it is.