Breakingthewall

Yes, more or less it's what I'm doing. Well, I'm not using the psychedelic to have an insight and understand, since i already know what I'm going to find: infinity. What i do is use it to soften the barrier of the ego again and again, It is an invaluable help since the barrier is erected again and again and only with meditation I do not reach more than a point. that there is a real surrender of the ego is very difficult. It's not just practice, it's above all being willing to do it and understand and obey the signals that occur every moment. the ego is extremely tenacious and will return

I have done little lsd. I meditate daily and try to make my daily reality meditative, and I have done quite a lot of 5 meo. maybe every week. I am not so interested in punctual realizations as in getting to flow in the most perfect way possible. I use the psychedelic as a tool, not as an end, although I consider that having had complete realizations of infinity is essential, I do not think it is necessary to go deeper, although it can be beautiful. what I seek is death of the ego, surrender to what is so that I can truly love existence. I resonate with your post about the death of the ego

What do you mean with "awakening"?

@ardacigin the difficult thing up to art level is to balance survival with surrender. I am in a really challenging business, in which the natural tendency would be technical obsessiveness, and the challenge is to carry it out in a completely detached but effective way. My first goal is surrender, ego death, my other goal is success. Both must be simultaneous .

the purpose of this dream is to tune a sophisticated instrument to perfect harmony. it is not god-realization. realizing god is a means, not an end. taking realizing god as an end is pride and ego, and we'll see where it leads. the goal is to forge a perfect instrument that plays perfect music. the instrument must know its place and fold, humble itself

nothing. the rat should just surrender completely. then she will see that there was no labyrinth. the labyrinth was her

@ardacigin i remembered you when reading the op's experience. When you say that you have reached a baseline of no ego, that is what you mean, right? that's the goal for me. It is not something simple because the ego has many faces. meditation is a practice that helps, but there has to be a real surrender to life. you have to stop resisting completely. hard! how to balance non-resistance with survival? It happens that the less you resist, the more you are guided. we'll see where it leads

I would say that human existence is a kind of laboratory, a labyrinth of rats. they put the rat in a difficult situation with hundreds of possibilities to be wrong, and the rat must find a way out. the way out is to reach total openness, total love, total transcendece. The chances of ending up in a dead end are enormous, but when the rat reaches the end of the maze, it is seen that there was no other option than this

if you break a tooth and it shows, you put a false one, right? Well, you can do the hair implants if you want and have the necessary money. but I would not wear a wig, it has a more fake connotation, like it would be extremely embarrassing if a wind carried it away

@at_anchor What happens if you collect all the money you can, go to a city that is attractive to you, look for a cheap room and try to make a living for a few months? you will see in a week or two your mind begins to be cleaner

The problem is that the software that analyzes, interprets, etc., is our survival system. It is genetic and also feeds from birth. something tells us that without it we are dead, the tribe can expel us from the cave and outside we will not survive a day. so we have a need to constantly overlay that layer of zeros and ones on everything. everything is past that leads to a future in which the optimal options are calculated. this makes us last generation survival machines, but it locks us in the mind. The truth is in the silence, but the survival machine is the opposite of silence , hates the silence. The art that we must achieve is to connect and disconnect the software at will

Really? Who did? Could you explain the circumstances? You seem someone with quite common sense so i believe those stories. I suppose that the more openness things stop being so rigid and that kind of thing is possible

I'd say that's a while without ego. what we meditate try to make happen more or less permanently. that is to say, you have stopped interpreting reality for a while, the energy that analyzes, evaluates, classifies, compares, has been silent for a few fucking minutes and it seemed to you that you were floating in the abyss since there was no handhold to hold on to, only reality.

Could you elaborate? It's an interesting topic . Intuitively i think it's possible

There are no sizes , infinity have no dimension. infinity, by the fact of being infinite, contains everything. therefore, another infinity is the same infinity. and therefore, only infinity exists. the infinite, by its infinity, dissolves all that is finite and turns it into nothing. anything contrasted with infinity is zero, therefore in the end infinity is nothing. there is only one, and it is you. infinity is, and only it exists

there is something instead of nothing for a very simple reason: because there is always you. If you were not there, there would be nothing, no existence. but non-existence does not exist, it is obvious, since you exist. your existence is not the opposite of non-existence, it is something absolute, without an opposite. your existence has no beginning or end, since these limits would be non-existence, which does not exist. then, you can be absolutely empty of content, but you are aware of your emptiness. you exist as emptiness. and you, in the void, realize that you are all possible content. you are absolutely free to be everything. and since you can be, you are. so the answer is: because you can

a question for Leo. let's see, sometimes members, like amanem for example, publish a trip report where they have gone as deep as possible, etc, and you say: good! you got to the bottom! that is awakening. etc. and then in the forum you repeat: nobody here is awake, only me. Let's see, what is this? a joke? trolling? because those of us who are in the spirituality forum are serious, we don't play. We take your integrity for granted and we try to be the best of integrity.

@at_anchor being suicidal is a good start. As long as you don't kill yourself, of course. it means that you have hit rock bottom, you know that nothing in this world is going to satisfy you, you have realized the trap with no way out that is the ego. a real scam. now you must go through a process of mental openness, of deconstruction of each one of your ideas that form the wall that isolates you, that creates the duality between you and what is not you. In this forum you will find the way. if you apply yourself seriously, in one or two years you will be another being. you will be free. determination, courage and vision.

No one is really applying red irons to you while you're hanging by your thumbs, but if it seems like it's happening, it's probably no comfort to you. I mean...what, according to you, is the difference between something appearing to be happening, or actually happening? if you are being tortured, your self will be strengthened. because the self is the energy that wants, and at that moment you will very much want to stop being tortured. then, that energy is unreal? why? there really is an energy that wants. that energy is what forms the self in all its nuances, the one that makes you think about everything you think. what you think is unreal, but the energy is very real.

he is a guy 100% dedicated to spirituality, he knows what is 5 meo, but he has never tried it nor does he want to try it. why? I suppose for some reason he prefers the path to the goal. but his posts are very interesting, elaborate and of high quality. spirituality is not only to realize god. It's also a way of being integral, embodying integrity, and the guy seems to be into that. And why do you know he's not awaken? He's in some way. And for you no one is awake, so?

one infinity is the same as another infinity. it is an appearance of multiplicity. infinity divided by a thousand trillion = a thousand trillion infinities, but they are really the same infinity appearing to be a thousand trillion. infinity has no limit, so there can be no other. any piece of infinity is the entire infinity. the mechanics of infinity is not the same as the mechanics of the finite, we cannot understand it with our finite mind, we can only guess. infinity is incomprehensible and unthinkable because the act of thinking is finite. Infinity=zero because there can't be nothing concrete into the infinity, same than into the zero. Because anything concrete into the infinity became zero in comparison with the infinity. The zero is limitless, as the infinity, so they are synonyms. There cannot be two things without limits, only one.

Completely wrong. Most of people here are very conservative about psychedelic (with some exceptions, including those of the beloved leader). Few people want real transcendence. most prefer to focus on material success and that is normal and how it has to be

suffering is the alarm system that serves to prevent you from going where you don't have to go. if you are an animal it is quite simple. if you are a human it is hugely complicated and nuanced. you basically have to be a genius to avoid it

Yeah, a journey twisted from the beginning, full of confusion, where nothing is as it should be, with a innate seed of madness and horror, a rat race of enormous difficulty, where the only solution to the maze with millions of false exits is transcendence, almost impossible given the strength of the attachments and desires. i think god realized that he had gotten a little over the top and that the rats were going to be walking around wallowing in suffering for eternity, and he brought psychedelics into the equation

High quality. @PeaceOut96 could you explain more or less your process?