Breakingthewall

@thedoorsareopen the only way is removing totally all the identifications of you until absolutely nothing remains. I thought that was impossible, the environment in my family was twisted and rotten in a level very difficult to understand. You have to do a real change, as Leo said, you have to change your genes with your will. In short, the only way for you is the real liberation. Imagine that your energetic structure is a knot of energetic beams tangled over each other. They must be liberated, open to the limitless. This is not a simple work, but from what appears from your text, you are qualified for it.

You could tell Ralston: show me your martial arts. But if you say to sadhguru: show me your occult powers. He will smile condescending and so superior, move his 7 kg of clothes and say anything profound without any meaning. Then , to the hospital with an stroke, like my neighbor. He was exploring the universe 63, but he forgot explore his skull. It's a classic in India, like yogananda, who died of a heart attac in a dinner in the embassy of india in l.a. and they said that he did mashamadi. They are scammers, that can't move even an atom, and can't see more than you. Just seducers. Engañabobos as it's said.

You said that just to make me shut up 😂 I'm annoying, I know, I'm working in it .

I agree that there could be occult stuff, but I think that sadhguru invent everything. I really liked that anyone could see occult stuff and communicate to us, but I can't avoid to perceive that he is a liar, like almost anyone who talk about occult

The point is perceive what you are, not name what you are. Don't you think that this of : I don't exist. Is just a definition? In the land of the logical mind. Out of the logical mind means nothing. The direct perception of yourself is the only thing that exists, and the layer of the meaning is very thin, it's like the surface of ice of a lake, must be broken to see deeper, where there are no names

Exactly, and I gain more insight about the others treating them in deep, looking them in their soul as deep as I can , and connecting with them as deep as I can than thinking about if they are a bubble or an image The question would be: where is the difference between the others exist or the other don't exist? Only in my mind. It's just an idea

One day I did mushrooms and I thought: that's the way, then I tried salvia, then I started reading and found the other psychedelics. When I got 5meo I did and I couldn't do a breakthrough, it was like it were a wall in front of me, then I discovered this forum and I did the nickname breakingthewall because I wanted to break the wall of 5 meo, then I did but I realized that there were many other walls, and until now

The point is realizing that there is not you perceiving that the car is vanished, but "you" are the whole thing, the realization that your car is vanished. For that you have to be able to totally remove the meaning to this moment for a while. The meaning build the self. I use often this like a mantra when Im walking in the street: nothing means nothing. Nothing means nothing. Until the only thought that appears in your reality is this, and this dissolve any other though, because it's difficult to make your mind still, if it has to move, it can do just this movement: nothing means nothing. Then, trough this thought the reality without any meaning manifest itself. There is no self, no perceptor. Just the reality, and the real substance of this is perceived by itself, because it's usually veiled by the meaning Without meaning, only a thing remains: you. And you are the existence, the heart that opens in the limitless now and flow like a dance. That's the only thing that you could know, anything else are just illusions, ideas.

Some people day that it's very useful to take some MDMA before a high dose LSD trip, because remove the fear and it's less possible to enter in bad loops

https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/02698811231225609

@Schizophonia btw, did you do any research about microdosing of LSD and cardiac fibrosis? Seems that you know a lot, I'm interested in that

Interesting, but the fact is that next two days feels depressive. Why could be the cause? Another side effect is about valves in heart, but I guess that a lot of use is needed

mdma drains your brain of serotonin. The next two or 3 days your system has less serotonin, and that translates into depression. If your normal state is neurotic, as was my case, depression can be pleasant in comparison. If your state is balanced, the lack of serotonin feels like every minute of the day is shit.

I used 5meo before knowing Leo, but without Leo I think I never would dare to do 5meo with that intensity. I used to think: if he is still sane (more or less) then I could do , because really something inside me was telling me to do it

When I was younger and let say, retarded, I used to buy 1gr of MDMA with a friend and go to dance techno, and always it got finished, then I use to buy a pill or two in the After hours, sometimes I started Friday night and Sunday night still on fire without rest or eat anything, and sometimes until Monday. Then next day a bit, just a bit of hangover, but nothing serious, even pleasant and relaxing mood. Going to the beach, playing sports, drink some beers, etc. Later I stopped to be so retarded and become let's say, more conscious. Then if I take 150 mg, next two days I'm in hell, I feel something extremely toxic in me. Same happen with alcohol, I can't even 1 beer, I hate. So I think that the hang over depends a lot of your mental state. Pd: wasn't just being retarded, I had the feeling that those sessions were necessary to open myself to others, because I was extremely closed and neurotic, then in some way was a therapy . I did a very intensive research about side effects, and later I used to consume less, buying only pills, no powder because with powder, and sharing, it's difficult to control . Nowadays only remembering the fake love that happens with MDMA is disgusting to me, but in that moment was necessary

One day bit high with MDMA walking in the city,. observing the people, interacting a bit, could be very useful to overcome some unconscious fear to the other people. The terrible hang over is true but I think it happens when you already used a lot, party every weekend, etc. Medium doses of 2cb for me have similar effect. Both are interesting for punctual use, I feel both as toxic, different than triptamine or LSD that I perceive as healthy

Consider this: experience is relative. Can't be experience without something outside of your experience. If experience were absolute, then everything were your experience, there won't be experience. Any movement is relative to another movement. The easy explanation is: you are god and are imagining your experience as a dream . But to assert this you have to put God outside of your experience. It's a fallacy, experience only can occur moving relatively to other movements that are out of your experience, and those movement necessarily would be infinite

The other option would be that the reality is limited to me writing in a phone now for ever and never was and never will be nothing different that this

I think that it's obvious that are infinite bubbles, because any concrete bubble is cyclical, then starts and end in the same point, then another cycle starts, but it's not after, because the time is relative, then it's totally inevitable that now there are infinite cyclical bubbles.

That's impossible in the openess that I mean, it's not well being, be happy, I mean breaking totally your limits and expand to infinity. In the very moment that you see, think, perceive something concrete, you are again in the form. In fact I think that if you are long time in that state could be unhealthy, carcinogenic, it is not something natural. It is peeking into the absolute for a moment, to the power of the existence, but you are now a relative movement. It doesn't seem like it, or it's a mistake, or you're dreaming about a video game because you're bored, no, you're human. Then it's something like breaking your structure. It's not like taking heroine or 5meo or oxitocin, it's being totality without form. You can't be in that state and preach as sadhguru does. .

You could be concious of your true nature 24/7, but what's impossible is being in a state of dissolution of the self 24/7,.you need the self to operate in this dimension . The point is get the dissolution more or less easily, but the big difference is have achieved that dissolution one time or no times, then when you have achieved many times you could more or less remember what's this but do it really is very difficult. I guess that some could do it in meditation at will, every day. The way to get this seems to be making lighter the structure of the ego. Another thing, thinking that there is more that that is a mistake, being absolute is being absolute, everything else is less. Knowing dimension, super powers, past lifes, everything is in the domain of the relative. The absolute is the absolute, and it's impossible to think or understand, though or understanding happens within the absolute.

It's not that it's scary, it's that is extremely difficult. How could you dissapear? If you are with yourself 24/7 since you ve memory. You can't make the you dissapear, it's something that have to happen. A lot of meditation, 5 meo is useful to make the shell softer but never happens with 5 meo, because 5 meo keeps a part of the you, always. 5meo is a tool to promote that happens. To me happened with long meditation, with 1 puff of weed, in the bed in the middle of the night, in some moments. It's the dissolution of the self , then the substance remains, it's still you, but formless, without limits, but you perceive exactly what you are

Love is a word to define the substance of that you are made, and you are the reality. It's like the infinite void, by the fact of being unlimited, has a spark, a power inside, and that power It is inexhaustible, it is the source that flows from the infinite. You are that and everything that exists is that. It's absolutely obvious. It is not taking 5meo and feeling love or perceiving it, in fact I have never had that experience with 5meo, it is disappearing and only the absolute emptiness remains, and in that emptiness there is something that opens, the one who opens is you, who is the emptiness, and what arises from you is all reality, absolute power, and that is what you are. You are not someone who perceives absolute power, you are absolute power without form, and that is love, because what we call love is the force of existence, then you have everything, there is nothing else to access, there is no 1 mm of doubt, that is enlightenment

I think he pretend be much more than he is, he do concrete assessment like there are 84 universes, that people who dies in accidents go to hellish dimension, that he saw yogis make bleed the trees, that people over 84 go to nirvana, that he knows many of his past lifes, and much more. I think he's inventing everything, he's just a normal person, a yoga teacher that pretend be a Messiah with super power to gain influence

That means that you have to abandon yourself. That's the most difficult point in enlightenment, because you can't do that at will because it's precisely you who have to dissapear . You should let yourself fall into the void and dissapear. Then a claim will arise: hallelujah. Not a trace of you could remains.