Breakingthewall

When I was younger and let say, retarded, I used to buy 1gr of MDMA with a friend and go to dance techno, and always it got finished, then I use to buy a pill or two in the After hours, sometimes I started Friday night and Sunday night still on fire without rest or eat anything, and sometimes until Monday. Then next day a bit, just a bit of hangover, but nothing serious, even pleasant and relaxing mood. Going to the beach, playing sports, drink some beers, etc. Later I stopped to be so retarded and become let's say, more conscious. Then if I take 150 mg, next two days I'm in hell, I feel something extremely toxic in me. Same happen with alcohol, I can't even 1 beer, I hate. So I think that the hang over depends a lot of your mental state. Pd: wasn't just being retarded, I had the feeling that those sessions were necessary to open myself to others, because I was extremely closed and neurotic, then in some way was a therapy . I did a very intensive research about side effects, and later I used to consume less, buying only pills, no powder because with powder, and sharing, it's difficult to control . Nowadays only remembering the fake love that happens with MDMA is disgusting to me, but in that moment was necessary

One day bit high with MDMA walking in the city,. observing the people, interacting a bit, could be very useful to overcome some unconscious fear to the other people. The terrible hang over is true but I think it happens when you already used a lot, party every weekend, etc. Medium doses of 2cb for me have similar effect. Both are interesting for punctual use, I feel both as toxic, different than triptamine or LSD that I perceive as healthy

Consider this: experience is relative. Can't be experience without something outside of your experience. If experience were absolute, then everything were your experience, there won't be experience. Any movement is relative to another movement. The easy explanation is: you are god and are imagining your experience as a dream . But to assert this you have to put God outside of your experience. It's a fallacy, experience only can occur moving relatively to other movements that are out of your experience, and those movement necessarily would be infinite

The other option would be that the reality is limited to me writing in a phone now for ever and never was and never will be nothing different that this

I think that it's obvious that are infinite bubbles, because any concrete bubble is cyclical, then starts and end in the same point, then another cycle starts, but it's not after, because the time is relative, then it's totally inevitable that now there are infinite cyclical bubbles.

That's impossible in the openess that I mean, it's not well being, be happy, I mean breaking totally your limits and expand to infinity. In the very moment that you see, think, perceive something concrete, you are again in the form. In fact I think that if you are long time in that state could be unhealthy, carcinogenic, it is not something natural. It is peeking into the absolute for a moment, to the power of the existence, but you are now a relative movement. It doesn't seem like it, or it's a mistake, or you're dreaming about a video game because you're bored, no, you're human. Then it's something like breaking your structure. It's not like taking heroine or 5meo or oxitocin, it's being totality without form. You can't be in that state and preach as sadhguru does. .

You could be concious of your true nature 24/7, but what's impossible is being in a state of dissolution of the self 24/7,.you need the self to operate in this dimension . The point is get the dissolution more or less easily, but the big difference is have achieved that dissolution one time or no times, then when you have achieved many times you could more or less remember what's this but do it really is very difficult. I guess that some could do it in meditation at will, every day. The way to get this seems to be making lighter the structure of the ego. Another thing, thinking that there is more that that is a mistake, being absolute is being absolute, everything else is less. Knowing dimension, super powers, past lifes, everything is in the domain of the relative. The absolute is the absolute, and it's impossible to think or understand, though or understanding happens within the absolute.

It's not that it's scary, it's that is extremely difficult. How could you dissapear? If you are with yourself 24/7 since you ve memory. You can't make the you dissapear, it's something that have to happen. A lot of meditation, 5 meo is useful to make the shell softer but never happens with 5 meo, because 5 meo keeps a part of the you, always. 5meo is a tool to promote that happens. To me happened with long meditation, with 1 puff of weed, in the bed in the middle of the night, in some moments. It's the dissolution of the self , then the substance remains, it's still you, but formless, without limits, but you perceive exactly what you are

Love is a word to define the substance of that you are made, and you are the reality. It's like the infinite void, by the fact of being unlimited, has a spark, a power inside, and that power It is inexhaustible, it is the source that flows from the infinite. You are that and everything that exists is that. It's absolutely obvious. It is not taking 5meo and feeling love or perceiving it, in fact I have never had that experience with 5meo, it is disappearing and only the absolute emptiness remains, and in that emptiness there is something that opens, the one who opens is you, who is the emptiness, and what arises from you is all reality, absolute power, and that is what you are. You are not someone who perceives absolute power, you are absolute power without form, and that is love, because what we call love is the force of existence, then you have everything, there is nothing else to access, there is no 1 mm of doubt, that is enlightenment

I think he pretend be much more than he is, he do concrete assessment like there are 84 universes, that people who dies in accidents go to hellish dimension, that he saw yogis make bleed the trees, that people over 84 go to nirvana, that he knows many of his past lifes, and much more. I think he's inventing everything, he's just a normal person, a yoga teacher that pretend be a Messiah with super power to gain influence

That means that you have to abandon yourself. That's the most difficult point in enlightenment, because you can't do that at will because it's precisely you who have to dissapear . You should let yourself fall into the void and dissapear. Then a claim will arise: hallelujah. Not a trace of you could remains.

I'd say it's accurate . He's just a demon thirtsty of power , a castrator of minds and a liar.

That in an organization of thousands of people there are irregularities is inevitable. The problem with sadhguru is not that, it is that he lies on a spiritual level. Make up stories to attract followers. That doesn't seem honest to me, it seems like shit to me.

That's exactly the toxicity. These types of statements show that the spirit of the book is trapped in the loop of the relative. Any adjective, description, explanation of reality is within the relative. fucking scammers 😂 reality is infinite little liars, any adjective is a movement relative to another movement, it is something that from an absolute perspective means nothing. any definition castrates the mind, and ACIM is a course of mental castration All that histories about forgiveness, the manifestation, the father, the son, are absolutely bullshit

When I was 11 my father sometimes told me: let's take a shower together, and in the shower he told me: you have a small penis and a disgusting old man's belly. I have the body of a gentleman, you of a peasant. You have feet as big as boats, and toes as long and twisted as worms, while he made an expression of disgust. At 14 he convinced me to try to stop being a brilliant student and athlete and try with all my energy to be a compulsive smoking alcoholic. He had throat cancer at 39 but continued smoking 80 cigarettes every day plus a bottle of gin. He sent to the veterinary my cat to kill and made my dog dissapear. When I was 17 my mother was dying of cancer but I went to the hospital absolutely intimidated because at any moment a devastating, sarcastic and destructive verbal blow could fall on me,or to my mother. I desired that my mother died and prayed for it to her didn't realize my shame about myself. He told me that it was a lie that smoking was bad for your health, that doctors had invented it. My first act of rebellion in my life was to quit smoking. the second to go back to playing sports. I took care of him for a year while he died of cancer, receiving daily insults. At that moment I had already realized the game and did not allow it, but even so I fell into a mental state in which obsession, hatred, fear and total incomprehension of life were mixed (19 y.o) when he died i was looking into their eyes and I saw absolute terror, horror. Just afterward I saw him floating in the void making spasmodic movements, like a strange puppet, emitting a squawk. I started laughing. Suddenly an overflowing joy arose in me, a moment of pure glory. Now I think: fucking old drunk bastard lazy retarded liar coward....you were the best father in the fuckin universe! You taught me, you were exactly the gasoline I needed. Do you remember when I was 7 years old and you still hadn't gone completely crazy? I saw my light in you, and that's exactly what you were. high 5 little motherfucker, I love you

Btw, ACIM is a lie, it's just an invention. A kinda of bible adapted for mystics. It's a toxic text full of limitation

That's impossible, if you really would experienced enlightenment you will know that it's impossible communicate it and that has no meaning. What identity could you do if enlightenment is the absence of identity? The only thing that you could do is live

Except that paragraph, this is like not coherent with the others

Fuck! The humans are obsolete.

There is a realization that doesn't admit any doubt: the total breaking of limits. This implies absolute emptiness, since any form blurs until it disappears, and it also implies what could be called absolute love, which is that in the total formless void, only something remains immune to the absolute extension of infinity: your substance. your substance is not reduced by expansion but is expanded. then total, infinite reality is your substance. Your heart opens and what you are expands. This is not someone who can be alone, it is love, and that is what you are. It is not you, you are formless love that expands to infinity, and you cannot understand this with your mind, and you must disappear. you must die, and then, you live. you must abandon everything, and you will have everything. loneliness? Anyone who talks even the slightest about loneliness is not even remotely close to having opened up to the totality. Loneliness is just an idea caused by limitation.

There is not any illusion, the only illusion is that movement is real, it's just apparent, but apparently it's happening. There is not an observer, the observer is part of the movement, there is only the reality, in the reality an observer appears and an object that is observed, it's a whole, not a subject that is watching an object. God dreaming is a mistake, nobody is creating the reality, the reality is, and it's apparent movement is inevitable consequence of the absence of limits, but precisely due the absence of limits no movement is real, it's just real in relationship with another movement, to the infinity, but the whole, the total infinity, is absolutely immutable, and absolutely incomprehensible, understanding occurs within it. It is relative to the apparent movement and therefore not absolute. Opening yourself for a second to the absolute totality is enlightenment. anything else is a relative view

Look , I do not share your vision and that of others about spirituality as something sacred, that we must always demonstrate equanimity and love, for me there is only one condition: empty your mind. You know absolutely nothing, everything that is written has no meaning, all human wisdom from Buddha, Christ and whatever means absolutely nothing. There is only one vision, mine, only someone can understand what reality is: me. Nothing else exists for me, no text nor any teacher. I can't teach anyone anything either, no one can learn anything from anyone, what we do here is just a way to relieve pressure. I am a very serious in going deep, I have the absolutely clear perception that I am total reality, and I know that wanting to cling to some type of wisdom is stupid. Nobody ever said anything, the board is completely white. Then ,let's open the eyes and that's it. Anyway, I don't know why I'm getting triggered by your comments, but when you start with your biblical discourse I can't help but try to make you see your mistake. I'm bit stupid arrogant? No doubt , but I'm not alone in this

What a patience man Religion is absolutely false. They are just the reality like everything else That's just religion. Better empty your mind and see directly. You are full of truths that other people transmitted to you. Consider the possibility that absolutely everything is false

Btw sorry for being arrogant, I have very aggressive mood today because yesterday I saw some people from my family. In 1 day I will be better 😅

Anyway, why it's wrong to try to be free of slave work? Ok be passive aggressive if you like. Any day has its own mood. I lost a bit my patience listen those sermon of UCM. You could say that you want to win the discussion, but the fact is that would be nice that you, @gettoefl and @Someone here take a a real look to the abyss of existence for 1 second instead to talk about it Then don't say random things, what I'm saying have no discussion, there is nothing wrong in being in the material world, in fact it's inevitable . You can choose your way to be in it.