Breakingthewall

Because circumstances of my life I always got attracted by the challenge. Then something like this was impossible to ignore, became an obsession

I don't compare myself with the people, I just try to have the best time possible and really I need the people, I can't live alone, without women, friends, it's sad. Also I like the money . Then, let's dance as good as it's possible. It's not easy, of course

Good report! We have to achieve that in a sober way and it's very possible. what we are behind the appearance is the total brilliance of existence. total unlimited freedom. By the way, for that guy it was easy to do 5meo dmt, for me it was horrible. The firsts lot of times I did it was more horrible each time, until I got used to how horrible it was. horrible like being trapped motionless in eternity in a prison of absolute horror, a cosmic gong that resonates like a definitive sentence of eternal horror. It was something so horrible that it seemed like a joke. But same time the attraction was irresistible, it became an obsession. I managed to do up to 4 full doses in one day, in the end I managed to open the reality, it was her or me 😅

Well, you could try to give your best and that includes being grateful for the human effort that keeps you alive. Human world may be selfish, mean, dirty or whatever, but it keeps you alive, it is true that you have not chosen to belong to this mud called humanity, but here you are. Anyway, I say that but really I think that human society in unbearable 🤣. Who cares about being alive? Better be free short time than prisoner 90 years

The choice you have is basically zero, which is why you could say that you really are unreal as a self. Everything is interconnected, it is impossible not to be like this, and "everything" is infinite, therefore, each atom that moves generates infinite butterfly effects that affect all of infinity. Relatively you are infinitely limited, your will points in one direction, but "your will" is simply another relative manifestation of reality, like breathing or whatever. It occurs coordinated with the infinite, it is not yours, the sensation that it is yours is another emergence of infinite reality. you as a self really are an illusion and you have no free will. Still, you have to keep pushing, you can't avoid, even it's not you who pushes

Reading this it came to mind because in India there is a real spiritual tradition and in Europe there is not. If in India 2000, or 1000, or 100 years ago you made the decision to go to the forest and live with nothing, people would leave you alone or help you, respecting you like a mystic In Europe they would look at you like a crazy person, the children of the nearest town would go throw stones at you, you would run the risk of being enslaved and if there was an epidemic or a problem they would say it was your fault and they would torture you or burn you alive. Europe is a land of spiritual repression, largely thanks to Jesus, the messenger of love 😅😅 And this is because in the message of Jesus, evil is hidden. The worst evil is surrounded of truth. Hes message implies: if you are not "good" you will go to hell. Demon son of a bitch servant of the darkness 🤣

I don't know a lot neither, I just read many times that Buddha used to say that the goal is the end of dukka or suffering, and the end of the whell of reincarnations, because relative existence is dukka, a shit.

Yes, human suffering is intimidating, and it is normal to try to escape from it, but I believe that doing so is a negative approach that leads nowhere. It seems like Buddhism is like that right? seek the end of suffering, stop reincarnations. It's an escape, it can't work. The approach that works is the positive one, opening to what you are, whatever that is and whether it entails suffering or not. open to reality, without fear or expectations, just for the fact that it is reality

🤣 Maybe was the spirit of waterclosetheriver, he's zen and also German, I'm sure he walks around with a stick Anyway glad to know

Yes but there is also the limited state, that's human life. You can deny it and become a monk or you can be involved in the human thing. For me becoming a monk has a component of deep hypocrisy, because they live of the human suffering isolated in a bubble. For their monastery to exist, generations of humans have fought and suffered, worked hard, raised children, created technologies, fought in wars, so that they can sit comfortably meditating saying that human life is despicable, eating free food and sleeping in free beds and being protected from the savagery of life in a free way.

Yeah, It sounds like the typical spirituality of: I'm afraid of life so I isolate myself in my spiritual bubble and castrate myself.

Absolute reality is not an experience, is the substance of which experiences are made. you cannot have an experience without perception because experience is perception. Absolute reality is being, the total potential that exists given the absence of limits, it cannot be nothing because it would be limited to nothing, it is everything, which is absolute. It is total potential, that is why it unfolds in infinite facets. Then perception appears, if perception couldn't appear reality would be limited, but as you see perception is, then perception is always the case, like everything else. If something appears once means that appears always, and everything appears because there are not limits. You could say that no perception has to be too, but no perception is excluded by perception, same than non existence is excluded by existence, that's why they are absolute, because it's opposite don't exist

You don't need to do psychedelic, everything that exists is perfect because reality is infinite, then anything that exists is coordinated to infinity. A depressive though is infinite perfection, like anything else. It doesn't mean that I like it, but that I don't like is a mental structure that is infinite perfection.

It's not that the self is not real, is that it isn't what you ultimately are. It's like saying that being a worker isn't real because you are a human. It's real, but it's just an aspect of what an human can be. But realizing existence is not so easy because it's absolute, then it can't be contrasted with anything else. To realize it you have to remove all the identifications, and for me the the way is in two senses, emotional, that means open yourself, overcome the fear totally, and mental, understanding what infinity means, how in absence of limits anything can't have any meaning. God is impossible, because it's a limit, it's the big boss who decide what's happening. It's just an identification, the ego can't live with them

More than fall away gets like transparent, then the sense of self gets weaker and you realize that what you really are is the substance of the reality. It's not a "you" because is nothing definite, but it's what you are.

Impossible for existence ceasing to exist, but existence is not an experience, experiences happen in existence. Any experience is relative, needs two things, time, perception. We as a self are an experience that is happening, a reflection of existence. The material of what experience is made is existence, and that's what we are , the material, not the experience, then you and another are the same, because the substance is the same. You are the substance, not the conciousness or perception. Perception is something that is happening, is relative to another thing. Perception or conciousness is made of existence, like everything else. You said that you don't exist. That's the same that you are not real right?

The self exist as a relative appearance, it's the same than saying that pain doesn't exist. It exists relatively. Saying that one thing is real and another false is not a good pointer, it's much closer saying that one thing is absolute and another relative. What is absolute can't dissapear, what is relative yes.

It's impossible. What is possible is that your concrete structure dissapear, the memory and the perception as a human. There are infinite structures and all of them are a reflection of the absolute. The thing is that the absolute is not an experience, the experience happens in the absolute. It's a very difficult to realize because the self is created by the experience and is the self who wants to realize.

It's only one reality, the now, and in the now many appearances arise. If there is no appearance, like if you take propofol, or you die, existence still exist, just your brain stop, not mine. It's very difficult to see beyond the self

Obvious, from an absolute perspective it's exactly the same, there is nothing special being sad or happy. The difference is relative, it's like saying that it's better to be rich than poor. It's better relatively. Maybe sadhguru thinks that rich people go to heaven and poor people to hell 😅

Eternal means that it never began and it never ends. This means that it is not extensive, large, enormous, but rather it has no duration. It lacks dimension. dimension is an appearance that occurs in eternity. Infinity is dimensionless, it is simply now. Everything that appears appears is the eternal now, and the eternal now is what we are, what everything is. Infinity doesn't mean incommensurate because it's enormous extension, means that has not extension. Extension is an appearance, duration the same. Time and space are appearances that happens, same than experience, perception, or self. If you remove all only the eternity remains, and you are that. It's nothing, but it's everything.

🤣I'm not a teacher, just someone who uses others as support to clear his mind. I'm using all you to help me to understand, then i say what i understand and i see the mistakes, the little nuances. I guess all of us do that, then in some sense all of us are teaching the others and learning from the others

Sounds perfect. That's the way

For me there are two faces, the relative and the absolute. I don't live in the absolute face, I can open myself to the absolute in some moments and the absolute if manifested in some extent all time, but I live in the relative , i get worried if money doesnt flow, i dont like excessive loneliness , future projects are important, health too, etc. the relative is very beautiful too, everything is coordinated, perfect. You just have to look the good things, what is more real, open, and enjoy life the most possible

Without true friendship you are alone, and being alone means that if you broke your two legs you are fucked. Humans are social beings, don't construct solid relationship is a mistake imo. Imo It's important to have relationship where you know that you are going to be selfless in case of trouble and the others too. For me it's simply do things that I like, I can't do things that I don't like. I don't care about standards, but I care a lot about wasting my time is something that motivates me