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The one who would accept, not accept, or understand, would just be 1 segmented off part of an infinite happening. No one would really be doing it. The people who understand, don't determine whether they understand or not. One of the main reasons for identities came to be was for functioning in life, including basic conversation. I am not determining reality here by the way I am composing my basic conversation here, just trying to communicate.

Free will, it should be obvious to anyone how this works, you would have to not want to see to not understand it. Imagine explaining to an uninterested friend how their sense of being an individual isn't founded on anything true. They would be angry, and resist it, even though understanding that would lead to a happier existence. This is the same type of thing when you're on the threshold of admitting to yourself free will isn't a thing. It's like you resist it, you don't want to, even though it would lead to such relief. The fact that they have to do tests to prove this to themselves, do people not trust their own understanding of existence.

Heres 1 thing to consider. At first you were just observing everything, but possibly later you started to observe them as something. Here's how it could have gone. 1.i'm awareness watching this stuff. 2.I'm something that is awareness/aware watching this stuff. This can sneak in, because you're aware, now it's like your claiming being aware and are now whatever you think you are being aware, so you are once again conflated with everything else. I think this might be whats happening.

underpants gnomes?

thanks drew

I have been working 3 days a week, midnight till 8 in the morning. During most of that time at work, I am either full on meditating or doing a walking meditation, or just being meditative while doing things, for the most part. When I am off work, I am spending about 50 percent of my time awake meditating. When i wake up at about 8 pm at night, I might start to do something but then immediately lost interest and start meditating in my chair, off and on, until it's time to go back to sleep around noon the next day. During my meditation. i sometimes fall asleep , maybe for up to a couple of hours. Its very hard to say exactly how much time at night is spent sleeping and how much is meditating, but it can't be too much sleep, because on the nights i work all night, I rarely get sleepy overnight. I don't really feel like sleeping ever now, I feel a bit bummed when its time to sleep, but I do it because I feel like im supposed to, although lately I have been laying in bed sort of meditating instead of sleeping, and then maybe ill fall asleep eventually for about 4 hours. Some nights/days I dont sleep at all, but i don't feel bad because of it or worn out. My job is very easy and i get very little physical activity besides doing alot of walking some days/nights. Some times I get a bit worried when it comes to sleep, then I wonder, if it wasn't for the worry, would anything really be wrong. Then I don't sleep and find out everything was fine and only the worry was the problem. Not sure if I'm becoming some sort of insomniac or if meditation is fullfilling my sleep needs. Need some good well informed advice here

To me it seems fine to do alone, just get yourself situated in a safe position and don't juggle knives or anything while you do it im not a medical expert though.

also be sure to observe your feelings as best as you can during this with equanimity. And afterwords take it easy and tender on yourself. Let yourself feel a bid melancholy, maybe just veg out for a bit while you experience whatever tenderness came up.

The best I've found for this is 30 minutes of holotropic breathing. Set an alarm for 30 minutes and do 30 minutes no matter what. If you feel like stopping, calmly tell yourself to finish. At some point you'll feel the stuck emotions work through. This is a really good way to override whatever in the psyche is holding back from processing the emotions and deciding to keep them stuck.

Sounds cool hypnofrik .

Also, this is both scary and risky, but would be really effective. Convince the hypnotee that it is about to die, guaranteed, no escape. Now guide it down into certain death, with a very obvious point where it dies. This would be the most effective but I don't think it works for every mind.

If hypnosis works to change patterns of the mind, I dont see any reason why hypnosis of the thinking mind couldn't be done to bring about new attitudes and habits conducive to enlightenment. Such as a hypnotic pattern designed to increase a persons desire for freedom, or one that breaks apart the sense of self. Theres really no reason why this couldn't work if done well. Because hypnosis can change a psyche really fast and powerfully, and because this is such a huge change for the mind, it could cause huge dramatic unpleasant experiences as the mind changes so fast, but even this can be worked with. Its just a new field that you'll have to refine as you go.

I love guardians of the galaxy 1 and 2.

I have recently gotten into a writing project I am excited about. I find I need to set some time aside to sit and imagine/daydream. I'm finding this a bit tricky, because when i sit there like that, out of habit I start meditating. I'm trying to figure out a good way to tell my mind this is now daydreaming time, and not meditating time. I don't want to 2 to get too mixed together, i want to keep both as separate practices, any tips would be appreciated.

David Goggins is the top discipline toughness guru I know about. Some of his methods for getting through tough times require an egoic paradigm, but I still feel there is a lot to be learned from this guy.

Yes knock, that is good advice, walks do help spark my creativity a lot. Just that I am also working on getting back to sitting daydreaming as well, so I can use both. The separate area is good advice to

Sports, and physical intelligence, here we go. I've been thinking about this lately and it seems to be very significant. At some point the belief formed that intelligence was in the brain and people began to view themselves from the neck up, and ironically in their viewing themselves as intellectuals, they became quite stupid. The intelligence coming from the body became something they couldn't believe in, so they were stuck. The body is huge in spiritual practice, and in certain types of sports the intelligence about reality the body can gain through movement, enhances ones wisdom. The best kinds are ones involving the entire body using subtle muscles not often used, where balance is important ,and the participant is fully immersed in the moment with no time to think of other things. There is a big difference between people I have known with physical intelligence, and those lacking it. This is also why people do yoga, dance, martial arts, etc. The intelligence of the disconnected mind is incomplete, and usually falsely confident in itself, because it is cut off from wisdom. Something about the integration with every detail of your nervous system, brings about a lot of wisdom.

@modmyth You will love it, has a lot of spiritual themes but mostly is just beautiful and brilliant.

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thats pretty cute

Thanks guys NoSelfSelf I honestly don't know, I think it was nde but could also have to do with my parents/grandparents. I do however want to point out, nde is not required, nobody has control over if that will happen, and you certainly don't want to invite it. And if you did it on purpose it wouldn't be the same, death contemplation is good enough.

Learning about spiral dynamics made sense of many things in my life, a great many things that would have been otherwise bewildering. I have been turquoise since childhood, I think from a nde around the time of my earliest memories. I also had a way of looking at people and life in my youth that was sort of like spiral dynamics. I remember finding it odd that people thought being nice was weak, when I felt someone really strong would be benevolent. I also grew up in the bible belt in an area where I didn't meet many people past orange, and many... many blues... exhaustingly so lol. For many of these reason I always considered people odd,(and they found me odd). Now I feel as though power, a thing that always had bad associations with me, through unchecked epistemological mistakes, is the most needed thing. because power is usually thought to be in relation to someone else, and usually involves some sort of control, it has always had a gross quality to it for me. The power I'm now interested in is power within myself, resting imminent invulnerable power that is purely benevolent and has the good of all at heart. Power with no desire to force or intrude on anything but rest in its purity, to be at peace and unharmable, to stand tranquil in the face of anything, any kind of threat. I had some sense that this was the next step, but had a full on epiphany when receiving advice from Matt on this forum. The ultimate power, however, I feel rests as pure strength in itself not in any way going out to intrude upon anything, but can stand up to anything. I'm excited for this next chapter in my journey. In the earlier stages of massive meditation, introspection, peace, love, etc, in a way you don't always have to employ bravery. Spirituality can be a way of escape, but then it comes back around and leads you down a road where you actually have to be much braver. I feel like this is the stage of bravery, strength, and power, to bring real potency to the softer lovier aspect that was developed in turquoise. Somewhat scary at times but also fun.

Being able to sustain exposure to any quality of energy and feeling without having to put up any sort of wall/block. Sensitive yet able to pass everything through without blocking it, still developing this. Any kind of situation is possible in life, being unafraid of physical harm from others for some reason causes others to never physically threaten you. However karmic/emotional ties/connections to other flawed beings still exists as some sort of subtle threat. Once again being truly unafraid of this seems to be a possible way to overcome this. On some subtle level almost everyone is being harrassed by countless tiny disturbances and being moved by them. Moving with them only strengthens them. There is some sort of powerful inner strength that needs to be developed to repel all of this chaotic movement. If you're "enlightened", or "awakened", you have to ask yourself, are you really unassailable, powerful, immune, free? If you search yourself and be honest have you really made it, are the understandings you have really enough to fully free you from human insanity. If a completely blind person can bring any kind of suffering into your life, something needs to change. If you are really of peace, love, freedom, kindness, empathy, the only reason not to bring all of that out in the face of fear is lack of bravery. If a fearful energy can penetrate you, if you can enter a room full of immense suffering, and not maintain your purely free energy, if it tightens up in any way, there is still work to be done. Cause how can you be free/immune and heal others if you are penetrated and brought down by this energy. This has been my main challenge, even as a kid. The change is the epiphany that love and peace can be very bold and strong, and horribly chaotic energy can be seen through and healed through intense, vigilante equanimous attention and fearlessness from not reacting and not running.

No, you don't exert it at all.