The0Self

Animals never had self-consciousness. They are pre-enlightened. The loss of self-consciousness is re-enlightenment -- "human" enlightenment; enlightened of the unnatural state, back to the natural state, which animals share.

Level and frequency of gratitude. Level and frequency of freedom from suffering. Level and frequency of responding rather than reacting. Degree to which sensations are just sensations. Degree to which it's recognized that you're never responsible for what appears, but always responsible for how you respond to what appears. Degree to which it's recognized that you have absolute authority over (your) reality as it is.

The most powerful psychedelic experiences I've had were from ketamine + LSD combo. NMDA dissociative + 5ht2a psychedelic. I think iboga has both of those qualities... AND + deliriant -- the 3rd type of hallucinogen; anticholinergic. So it might actually be the single most intense compound. Not sure about most powerful in terms of insight though. "The most powerful psychedelic" is already a problematic mindset in a way, since there are so many other factors, such as dose, insight, skill, open-mindedness and open-heartedness, finesse and fitness, etc. After a few seriously complete God realizations on large doses, or combos, it can be done just as effectively with conservative doses of classic psychedelics -- my sweet spot is 110ug LSD-25 -- 6 years ago that would just be a cool trip; now it basically creates the entire universe, time completely falls away, etc.

Nothing that’s real is a brain state.

It usually looks like the top for me. But I usually don’t get freebase. The bottom looks like my n,n.

Ha...

Yet but as you’ll know it’s not that someone goes “yes that was surely enlightenment, I have thus attained it.” In any way that isn’t silly, anyway.

Lol anyone who likes DPH is alien to me. It was one of the most physically unpleasant experiences. Not nearly as bad as a psychotic break but it nearly resembles psychosis and even in psychosis the body actually still can feel “well” — on DPH (or any deliriant, I’d imagine) you just feel like absolute death.

Directly transcending the experience of solipsism. All apparently separate happenings, consciousnesses, and isnesses, are connected... by (and as) absolutely nothing. There’s no separation — nor enough for there to be real connection. I mean literally the perception that there are other people separate from you is an utter illusion, but that doesn’t mean there aren’t apparent other-selves.

Obviously. It is a hallucinogenic drug though. Just like datura / atropine. It’s a deliriant.

Over a decade ago I took a fairly high dose of diphenhydramine, which seems to be very similar to datura in effects. Hearing voices. Talking to people that weren’t there. Body felt so heavy it was almost impossible to move. Literally like my body weighed 1000 pounds. Unbelievably intense dysphoria. Mouth completely and painfully dry, yet sensation of drinking water was even more unpleasant... Visual field looked like waves. That was back before psychedelics really had any spiritual impetus with me.

2 step inquiry: 1. Am I (negative state)? Be brutally honest. The answer may be yes or no. Go with what feels right. 2. Am I really (same negative state)? The answer is always no. If the answer to the first is actually yes but you pretend it to be no (if you think that’s the answer since it’s the real final answer), then the real final answer won’t be revealed. So be brutally honest. The first answer, while unreal, is as absolute as the real one.

Haven’t followed Loch Kelly much but I have some experience with mahamudra. Though I wasn’t really calling it mahamudra at the time, it was almost certainly what the word refers to. Essentially, dissolving the separation between inside/outside and foreground/background.

It’s not like that. The truth is very simple: There’s just no separation of any kind at all. It’s the answer but it’s impenetrable by any individual knowing agent, since that agent itself is not someone separate, since as previously stated, there is no separation. Every single quality or dimension you could think of, including time and space and awareness, can be best conceived of as processes that the absolute appears as. It’s not merely that everything already happened or that everything is happening now in time. Yes there is nothing other than now, but when one says “everything is happening now,” they are very likely misperceiving the truth of that statement because it’s likely that they experience themselves as moving through time — if that’s the case then any understanding of the statement will be relative and not absolute.

Imagine an exchange between 2. A giving of love or some object or some support. That love is first given and then received/taken by the other. However, those 2 actions overlap. The giving by the first and the taking (accepting) of the second are literally not two different things. They are one union of the absolute. And this happens at every single level imaginable. Mother births child who births the mother’s identity as the mother of a/the child. Did the mother birth the child or did the child birth the mother? Without the child there would be no mother by definition. Ultimately it’s the absolute-unknowable that keeps on giving because that’s the only thing it can do, but visualize what it’s like to both give and receive simultaneously (which is of course all that could happen since there is no giving without receiving)... It can’t be experienced/known, can it? Not so fast... It can’t be known as something other than this. It can be intuitively recognized, especially in non-dual states.

And it’s not even something that happens that brings something new. There never were actual stakes.

Yes. But there is also no one playing the game — Except, incomprehensibly, that’s not even a meaningful statement. Saying there never was someone having a life is as insubstantial as every single other thing. There is honestly nothing happening.

This is a difficult one to talk about because it reveals the false non-absolute nature of words. Whenever we speak of a self separate from this, we aren’t actually talking about anything. ? ❤️

I’d keep it open. But anyway, ? Just remember the phrase: Even still, this is it. Don’t actually remember that as a belief. Not that there would actually be somebody believing something. Yeah words fail. Completely.

I feel you. Who is being played by their own mind, exactly? Who feels they need to accept? Isn’t everything already accepted? Otherwise why would it be this? That might be too far away, but it doesn’t have to be. Nothing has to be.

Lol. Wasn’t implying that at all. I’m surprised you’d recognize it as such, which means you almost certainly missed the point.

You apparently dissolve the ego only to find there was actually nothing happening. Isn’t that the most insane possibility? Or maybe... Might that be the case? Btw, this is directly from the absolute. But even “directly from the absolute” is a position... to you. There’s literally no way out because there’s no one imprisoned as an ego. And... this is apparently coming from the absolute tied to a particular body. Nothing makes sense. But the simplicities are just as absolute as anything. So create your own reality, it’s beyond possible. You’re doing it now.

I’m tempted to call this mind games but it could not be resisted by me either, but alas... Here’s the truth as brightly as it can shine in words it seems: #1. there is literally nothing missing, and #2. that #1 implies nothing at all. There is only absolute, and absolutely nothing matters. Nothing. This means nothing, and especially does not mean there’s nothing for you to do. Or not do.

So-called? Leo didn’t invent the states he’s accessed (relatively). Other beings have accessed it. Including this one; mine. The really funny thing: ever accessed the absolute? When you came out of it you actually literally never left it. And I mean literally.

You act like you don't know me When you see me on the street Making like I turn you off When I know you think I'm sweet It don't have to be like that I guess you're insecure If you say what's on your mind I'm an in for sure So I walk a little slower And I try to catch your eye Sometimes it's so hard to see The good things passing by There may never be a sign No flashing neon lights Telling you to make your move Or when the time is right So, Why not (why not) Take a crazy chance Why not (why not) Do a crazy dance If you lose the moment You might lose a lot So, Why not, why not Why not take a crazy chance? Why not take a crazy chance? You always dress in yellow When you want to dress in gold Instead of listening to your heart You do just what you're told You keep waiting where you are But what ya never know Let's just get into your car And go baby go So, Why not (why not) Take a crazy chance Why not (why not) Do a crazy dance If you lose the moment You might lose a lot So, Why not, why not Oh, I could be the one for you Oh ya, Maybe yes, maybe no Oh, It could be the thing to do What I'm saying is you gotta let me know, Oh You'll never get to heaven Or even to L.A. If you don't believe there's a way Why not (why not) Take a star from the sky Why not (why not) Spread your wings and fly It might take a little And it might take a lot But, Why not Why not Why not (take a crazy chance) Take a crazy chance Why not (do a crazy dance) Do a crazy dance If you lose the moment You might lose a lot So, Why not, why not Let's go back, back to the beginning Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned 'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect Trying to fit a square into a circle was no life I defy Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams Let it wash away my sanity 'Cause I wanna feel the thunder, I wanna scream Let the rain fall down I'm coming clean I'm coming clean I'm shedding, shedding every color Trying to find a pigment of truth beneath my skin 'Cause different doesn't feel so different And going out is better than always staying in Feel the wind Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams Let it wash away my sanity 'Cause I wanna feel the thunder, I wanna scream Let the rain fall down I'm coming clean I'm coming clean I'm coming clean Let the rain fall, let the rain fall I'm coming Let the rain fall down and wake my dreams Let it wash away my sanity 'Cause I wanna feel the thunder, I wanna scream Let the rain fall down I'm coming clean I'm coming clean I'm coming clean Let the rain fall, let the rain fall, let the rain fall I'm coming clean Let's go back, back to the beginning I can almost see it That dream I'm dreaming But, there's a voice inside my head saying You'll never reach it Every step I'm taking Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking But I, I gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb The struggles I'm facing The chances I'm taking Sometimes might knock me down, but No, I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments, that I'm gonna remember most, yeah Just gotta keep going And I, I gotta be strong Just keep pushing on, 'cause There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb Yeah There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an uphill battle Sometimes you're gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb Yeah, yeah Keep on moving, keep climbing Keep the faith, baby It's all about, it's all about the climb Keep your faith, keep your faith Whoa