The0Self

Beautiful! ?

Exactly! ? Without awareness, nothing happens. And this is what nothing looks like when it appears to happen. That’s all there is.

That’s just what’s appearing to happen there. This is not coming from a position or knowledge. No mental conclusion was reached, and there is no fixedness for circumstances to actually play out in. It’s infinitely deep — It’s infinitely empty — It is the infinite itself = As it has no other, so it has no self. Its actually very simple. Overthinking seemingly hides the reality that no one is thinking. This is already fulfillment. This is already absolutely free and wild, and unconditionally exactly what is longed for. There is absolutely no causality in actuality — only the infinite, which is not big or small, it’s no-space... and the eternal, which is not long or short, it’s no-time. How can one get to what already is? No possibility. There is no one separate and aware of this from a separate standpoint. It’s a dream that isn’t really happening. Everything else is just what it is. Infinity is so limitless it can appear limited, and it’s what is longed for and it’s inescapable — if it were designed some might call it the ultimate ingenuity, but it’s actually so devoid of need, it doesn’t even need to have been designed, nor have had a history, intention, or goal. There’s no separation, only unimaginable freedom, longing for, by being, exactly what appears to be happening. Without breaking a sweat. And it’s over as it begins.

Well there’s certainly no one here who doesn’t take responsibility for their actions. That would be a denial of what is. There’s simply what appears to be. That includes preferences, compassion, care, etc. It simply has no solidity. It’s the same there, there might just be an apparent solidity in that non-solid-appearance, as if it were something actually happening, and therefore also happening to me.

It can be, in the dream. Awareness is intimately tied to the feeling that this appearance has something to do with me, thus being the sense of ownership of what appears to be. It’s the sense that if I weren’t here, nothing would happen — the I already isn’t there.

There’s is no one else either. That’s all just a story; trying to make sense of the ungraspable. There’s simply what appears to be happening, without meaning or purpose, and without an observer or doer. Bodily actions can appear but it’s simply no-thing apparently happening. Total equilibrium. Pure happening. Exactly what’s longed for; everything, which is paradoxically not an object, and is not viewed by a separate subject. There is just the view.

Insights/awakenings having to do with the perfection of the appearance can go on and on forever. There can be the revelation that there is only infinite perfection, which also happens to be absolute equilibrium. There’s no one who suffers in oneness, and no one who is fulfilled. There is just fulfillment.

The body still seems to function as it always did. There’s just seeing; typing; sitting; etc. It’s the same there, it’s just that there might be the claim that it’s happening to me and I know seeing; typing; sitting, which surprisingly is itself completely unknowable. There’s just what appears, and there is no solidity to any connection or context because there’s nothing separate to be connected.

Awareness is the imaginary whom. It doesn’t appear to someone, it just appears — of course that’s not logical when seen from the perspective of being aware, so don’t think you’re going to understand it — it’s not graspable, because awareness itself is not separate from grasping, and there is only the appearance of grasping anyway; it appears but has no solidity or reality to it. It might seem complicated but it really is very simple and ordinary. Amazingly so.

The appearance of awareness is the dream of connecting what already isn’t separate. It’s not the absolute, but like everything it is the absolute — awareness (or knowing, consciousness, or even God) just has no higher claim than anything else.

How does one get to what already is? How could you get to what already is? How did you get to what already is? How could you have gotten to what already is? How could what already is, be otherwise? How could what already is, be put into a context without that itself simply being what already is?

That's fine. It's a paradox so of course it makes no sense. We're talking on two different levels, but you were talking about quantum physics, which precisely doesn't need to follow causality. Scientists are running into what's being pointed to, but are unwilling to go beyond the story, as they can't do so. You can't make sense of infinity -- only apparently so. There is no knowing though, in the sense that it's only an appearance.

I never tried LM, but I too found L-theanine to be quite effective -- prominent simultaneous relaxation and alertness. Pregnenolone was very helpful as well for some HPPD a while back. L-histidine was pretty good too. I tried like a hundred things lol and those 3 stuck out -- and chelation, but that's a lot of commitment. Also to some degree so did aspirin and zinc, for some reason. Maybe some others but can't remember. Magnesium didn't hurt either. D,L-phenylalanine hurt more than it helped. Taurine was relaxing too, but basically every single time I took it, it made me break out in a blemish the next day -- after it happened like 20 times I just never took it again lol; to my knowledge that's not even a reported effect, so I assumed it wasn't the taurine... until it was rather undeniable.

Lack of need can help with attraction, but not as much as purpose.

Oh wait... btw you know it was only 5 hours right? The 16 number was including daily life.

Not really, on both counts. Certain states reminiscent of god realization still can appear, but they have no more significance than anything else. I'd be very, very skeptical about the possibility or ever ramping up again, since the special/not-special duality seems to have lost solidity, and there's no seeking, nor was there ever really seeking, actually. This is already what's looked for, so the seeking energy starved to death, you could say.

Profoundly so. Lots of bliss. Lots of insights. Lots of detachment from normal life as well, but overall I guess I had a nice time seeking. But I was quite diligent. It might seem like all that led to a happy state experienced by someone, but it didn't. The seeker was the someone, and it apparently faded out, along with the solidity of what appears. It was a story; just what appeared to happen.

They aren't really, though... It's just what seems to appear. In the story you could maybe say the human brain is complex enough for self awareness to manifest, which comes with a sense of ownership, and that has tremendous benefit in the story of natural selection. Perhaps. It's like, all there is, going on a journey to find all there is, via the complexity of a human brain -- without that there could be no search. Of course that's a story, as it's all just no-thing appearing to be, even if it appears as separate from the whole. There is only and was only the whole appearing as that. Ungraspable peace, appearing as graspable circumstance, in apparent real-time-space.

Awesome!

27. I no longer do that though. It was a force that just wouldn't quit, and even with school and work it seemed to take place. It was priority number 1. Though yes, I'm relatively privileged, but not super rich or anything.

Ego in that sense does not immediately die as the I apparently drops when recognized as never being there. It keeps on talking, but to nothing, and therefore with no reinforcement/feedback, and so it eventually fades out quite a bit, but not really entirely. Although, through the art as you mentioned, it could have been apparently weakened beforehand (alongside various awakenings), and so not much is left to fade out, in that case.

The illusion is simply that it's your body; their body. Everything else is just as it is.

Irrelevant. Regardless, yes enlightenment in that sense is all or nothing. But there can be apparent degrees of awakening; samadhi; detachment; peace; insight. When enlightenment apparently happens it is absolutely obvious that there is no fixed reality for the truth of insights to apply to -- so it's very much an on/off switch. It's a revelation -- it levels absolutely everything and nothing, and it's all there is already.

About 2 years old. There was the realization that I had to get a painful vaccination/shot soon, and there was nothing I could do about it. I looked at my hands and said "it's just me." That was my very first memory in the story of my life.

Yeah I was kind of wondering what the hell he meant by that, lol!