The0Self

You're welcome. I really don't know. I've since stopped thinking of reality in terms of attention and awareness; background/foreground; etc. Not that they aren't useful constructs. I'd probably just do more noting in daily life, tbh. Leave the attention/awareness stuff to the walking and sitting meditation. IMO.

You can do it whenever. I was just describing the constructs that Culadasa uses. He would say that before one should even think of attempting awareness of awareness, one should have very stable attention and very powerful mindfulness so that when one does attempt awareness of awareness, attention can actually attend mindfully to everything in awareness without getting overwhelmed, so that the distinction between awareness and attention can collapse.

Peripheral awareness as a construct only makes sense as a counter to its distinction, attention. So no you can't really use only peripheral awareness, except in the case of the witness state, wherein attention is tightly bound into itself in a sense. See my edited first reply.

He explains it in a fairly comprehensive way, but in short: get into the witness by allowing your attention to find the still point such that attention is essentially focused tightly and only on itself (easier said than done...). You will be in a state of pure metacognitive awareness, but the seat of the still point bas become metacognitive attention. The focus of your attention will be: the subjective experience of looking at the mind and the material world from a totally detached perspective. Then, allow attention to come back out of its shell and consume every ounce of awareness, such that the distinction between attention and awareness has disappeared.

Notice there is no thing to observe. There's just what seems to be happening.

My favorite. I took the shut your eyes part out as it is not needed. Next favorites.

While I agree, I think you may be underestimating just how punishing the ego death / ego backlash cycle, piti / dark night, or whatever-you-wanna-call-it cycles can be. Mania so intense that you become industrious beyond comprehension and go 7+ days without sleep, in a state of euphoria, followed by periods of depression and hopelessness where you can't even get out of bed and they probably would kill themselves, if only they had the motivation to do it. That describes bipolar almost exactly. Not saying they're the same thing, but idk how you can be so sure they're not.

It the past few years I've seen the minds of very good people be utterly corrupted, and it all seems to relate back to Trump. The only conservatives this president hasn't corrupted were already so selfless that practically nothing could corrupt them.

Yeah. That's actually, for me, been a source of deeply disturbing realization that we really took an unfathomable step backwards. Basically as a species, and even as a planet. The only upside is that anything can happen, though one could also see that as a downside.

I have been diagnosed with narcolepsy, so I know a little bit about REM sleep. If it's REM, you will be paralyzed for the duration of the experience. It's called REM atonia -- it occurs so that you're able to have conscious control of your dream avatar without causing your sleeping body to move, waking you.

This.

Doesn't really feel like pickup, but I can see it that way. I'm really just radiating Metta/loving-kindness for the hell of it (pure habit) and women seem to get intrigued by whatever takes place since all my reactions are not really reactions but playful, kind responses. Almost robotic (or so much detachment that it's actually engagement) compared to what they usually experience, I imagine. I guess they like a shiny new experience of being with someone who simply doesn't judge. It's not even like I'm that "confident" with women in the way most people would probably imagine -- I get sometimes get red faced whenever they mention something super personal. Brutal vulnerability and honesty. And self-love above all else.

Try oleamide. Also try meditation a la Culadasa -- The Mind Illuminated.

It's possible that psychedelics and meditation are simply 2 different axes of development. 2. Yeah development is inherently dualistic so what did you expect?

Have literally not played a video game in almost a decade, myself. Probably would be nice. Unless it's social my intuition says don't touch it, but if you're in too deep, embrace it?

No

On the level that you're looking for: Everything that happens is dependent on conditions. Conditions beyond your control. Even if there is apparent control, that control is something that happens, right? And everything that happens is dependent upon conditions. Conditions beyond your control. This contemplation can stop judgement. The next step is to fall in love. Fall in love with yourself. Fall in love with what is. Complement yourself on how miraculous it is that what you're doing is exactly what you're doing -- what is.

Literally everything can be seen as silly, from a certain perspective, of which there are infinitely many.

STOP If it happens it happens. That's the truth. Read my responses on a recent thread called "Self Inquiry" if you actually have an uncompromising urge to awaken that can't be quelled and it's killing you and you just fucking GOTTA do something about it, though.

I distrust the vaccine as of right now, but I'm almost certain that will change. I just can't seem to shake the fact that Andy Cutler was a bit of an anti vaccer himself and I did his chelation protocol and it literally cured my narcolepsy -- which is so much more significant and outrageous when you see that the entire medical community runs counter to his chelation protocol and it's literally damn obvious (as a chemistry minor myself) why his protocol works better than the medical community's protocols/understanding. For clarification, I've taken quite a few classes dealing with immunity -- vaccinations are legit, it's the process behind their creation that I don't entirely trust.

@SS10 I've been listening to Sam on and off since like 2012. He's a pretty damn conscious person. He has flaws (don't we all). His biggest blunder was the whole Charles Murray thing, in my view. I forgive him though, even if he still (somehow) doesn't even know what he did wrong. ALL of us have blind spots. No exceptions. This solo podcast he just gave was par for the course for him. I'm grateful that we have him in this world -- even if he's completely misled in some ways. I have a huge soft spot for the fellow, I guess you could say . He's actually the person who got me into spirituality, and for that, absolutely nothing can water down the love I see in that man. In other words, I am very, very biased.

Complement yourself. Tell yourself "I love you." Or "you're doing a great job." "It's OK to feel this way." etc. For starters. The funny thing about the most important thing in the world (self love) is that it can actually be literal.

It's a man kissing his cat... If you're sick, you're looking too hard at it or something.

@arlin Just to clarify, NOT hundreds of women, lol. Hundreds of times. Relationships that sometimes get pretty serious. They're often divorced and quite a bit older than me.

Levels of consciousness that transcend the individual. Stage turquoise+ are themselves beyond even themselves in a sense, as spiral dynamics still deals with the individual, and these stages are characterized by awakenings and transpersonal consciousness. Not to mention transpersonal, global, intergalactic, and interdimensional consciousness and being. Transcendent, immanent, formless, and integrated layers of reality, etc. Just thinking out loud.