Tim R

Before you start listening to this, I need you to become a little bit... stupid Become once again like a baby. You don't know anything. You don't know what sound is, you don't know where it comes from, you don't know who is listening, you know absolutely nothing. And then listen. Listen closely, but don't try to listen closely, just let the sound come to you. Don't even do that, that's already too much. Nothing to do, nowhere to be. Just... Let the birds tell you the purpose of the Universe. They will explain it much better than anyone of us could ever tell you.

Yes, being is not only all that is left but also all that was ever there. So you're in the same place where you always were. What you call "emptiness of being" I think is your search for meaning. Because clearly you find it bleak and boring, aka meaningless. I'm pretty sure that this is an accurate diagnosis Your mind is fooling you.

One more step and you will have completed the circle. You're at 99% meaninglessness. You need that last 1% to see that life is 100% meaningless. Because when you realizes that EVERYTING is meaningless, you can apply it to "the problem" of meaninglessness itself. And the result of that is: It doesn't matter that nothing matters. And then it's like a game, where you know from the beginning that it doesn't matter a bit, but it is because of that, that you can get fully involved in the game with all your effort. What did you want anyway? Did you want it to matter? Did you want it to be serious in the end? You're not talking about transcending desire, you're really talking about meaningfulness and nihilism.

Maybe some of you know the famous Koan: "Does a dog have Buddha nature?" - "Mu!" This Koan is of course absurd and meaningless, because everything is Buddha-nature, so what the master wants to hear is not "mu" or "hai" ("yes"), he wants to hear the true self in the student, i.e. the Buddha say "mu". In other words, he wants to get the student to understand that everything is Buddha, including himself and him saying "mu". But so long as the student makes a difference between a "wrong" Mu and a "true" Mu, the master won't accept his answer, no matter what he says. And as soon as the student realizes that every Mu is the true Mu, he solved the Koan. I was just sitting at my desk and trying to do some Japanese Zen calligraphy - I wanted to do this for a long time, but didn't dare to draw an Ensō (the circle, the symbol for emptiness, Mu), because I thought that before I "am allowed" to draw a "real Ensō", I must realize what the Ensō stands for. Otherwise I would be drawing a "wrong" Ensō. I just realized the solution to the Koan above - all Ensō are true Ensō. There are no mistakes.

@Kalo What is "the brain"?

Ok now I'm intrigued. I wanna start experimenting with LSD microdosing this week, is it really that powerful for you? How much do you take and how frequently? Sounds like you're either taking rather high doses (by microdosing standards) or you're evolved enough that even small doses can trigger such experiences. But it sounds amazing❤ Love = non-duality/non-separation/surrendering/melting into one --> same as Death = collapsing of dualities/boundaries, surrendering distinctions, melting into everything else

Ok wow, the "as if" just turns that sentence into an absolute overdose of going meta?

Damn, the "why" is the same? haha great, not even a reason for there not being any brain lol

We do it all the time, on the forum and elsewhere. I'm becoming aware of it more and more, and the more time I spend on the forum, the more I see it in others and myself. This whole "who's got all the answers"-game. Maybe this is just a phase in my development rn, but I'll let you guys partake in it, so here's a share. I'm not even quite sure what to write without sounding as though I'm preaching to you, telling you to become aware of this game in yourself and others and helping to reduce it. Do it, don't do it, your choice. Maybe this post is just another form of one-upmanship, a kind of non-one-upmanship. I don't know. Does it feel good to play this game? Or does it feel more like having eaten too much chocolate?

@Siddhatehuti Bye then!

I haven't yet realized the facet of God/ the Godhead, and I don't know what even to look for. My question is this: What exactly do you realize, which in the moment of realization makes you say "holy sh*t this is God!"? Because in my experience, every facet is extremely characteristic, so when you realize Oneness or Love, you immediately and without any doubt recognize it as Oneness or Love. So what are the characteristics of the realization of the Godhead?

@Megan Alecia No? Why not?

Also his explanation of consciousness in the beginning is absolutely spot on

@Blackhawk How do you know?

@Nahm You mean that "what is realized" is not anything realized per se because essentially the Godhead has no...qualities, I guess? In the sense that "it" is no "something". Nothing to point towards, yes? honestly I don't even know why I'm still asking. Nobody can convey it. Who am I kidding.

this is it bois... 2020 was kindergarten, this year we gonna see them Aliens.

Thank you guys for your replies anyway. Whenever I ask these sorts of questions I later realize that I should've not even asked. No answer, though answers were given.

Sounds like something a catholic priest would tell me to do.

Okay, but only because you've started to use weed irresponsibly and became addicted to it doesn't make it dangerous per se. Weed is a great tool for contemplation (at least for me) because it can help with implicit thinking and pattern recognition. And if you can use it responsibly, why not. Hashish and weed are widely used in India for spiritual purposes. Weed is no more dangerous than any other substance, provided one is careful and mature in handling it.

Isn't that a bit too much??

@Swarnim Dude, how about you take it easy? Why this hurry?

https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/4whrnx/i_did_so_much_acid_i_almost_died/ This is one of the most interesting reddit posts I've ever read. It perfectly illustrates the game of the universe, the illusion, the pretense; our life. The Godhead, wanting and loving to get involved, lost and completely taken in by the illusion. Be careful what you wish for, you might get it.

Nice

@outlandish Did you give an answer?