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@Bulgarianspirit hahaha true story!!? so insane

" WHAT? Im GOD?? Its all imagination?? OMFG?? HOW?? WHY?? " ??

Materialism is the ultimate trick that GOD plays on himself to get him to think that the objective world is true and that matter is the most important to somehow keep you invested in this world, cause when GOD realize it self it knows that the whole life and world process is totally a hallucination.

Have had 2 two "awakenings" into what reality really is, in the moment is so obvious and I became conscious of how the ego constructed this reality back and was scared shitless, but deep down I know that what i saw was the Truth.

Yeah i can get behind your experience! It was so insane, i got the insight that all my life was just an imagination, everybody in my life was but a thought, a mere fantasy, even life and death and spirituality and all that this world/universe include in it self is just pure fantasy, the true self can't die because it is already nothing, nothing is behind conciousness, just YOU dreaming up duality and otherness.. forever

Hey guys! So i did 200 mcg LSD this weekend and it was the most profound/insane/beautiful experience ive ever had in my entire life, i saw how all of my life is something I as God imagined, my dad my mom my girlfriend was just my imagination and my ego freaked out totally! And I almost got sucked into a black hole but i resisted, and the freaky thing was when i was hugging my girlfriend i was hugging myself, i felt my self touching my self and when i looked at her she was me, totally mindfuck. But here's the thing now, my ego said never again to tripping and so forth, but now im just wanting to get back to the GOD- head and explore more of it. But my ego is doubting the experience now, like it was just a fantasy, i guess just to survive. It is to fantastical to be true but nevertheless it is Absolute Truth, GOD exists and God is YOU. I feel like that iam in a sort of limbo, my life is so weird right now and im not happy or anything right now, just want to sleep and not be around people. Anyone who have any experience of this after an awakening?

@Moksha that i can agree with! Alot of personal work is needed, especially when doing psychedelics, but it was my second serious trip and I got the insight that iam GOD , but i was not ready for it so the ego freaked out and was scared of infinity, imagine how it would feel like when you know that your whole family is something you imagined because you didn't want to be alone, or that life and death and people and a world is also imaginary and you see it so clearly and the thing that you are , is nothing and can't be pointed to, its such a mindfuck that your life falls apart and you wake up , but you can only share it with yourself cause no one else is there. Lol

@Moksha im doing it in a traditional way as well, yoga , meditation, what is desirable is to explore conciousness and GOD atleast for me, but in my experience is that psychedelics is way better for getting a breakthroughs into reality.

I will keep going! Felt like i was going to die if i went into the black hole , like all of reality was going to disappear and all my memories of this life were being erased. My next trip will full blown ego death and I won't resist it.

And one more freaky thing was that when i realized i was GOD, questions like why do i exist and how do i exist came up? And it was obvious that life,spirituality, people is something i was imagining, even Leo and this forum was something i was imagining so at the time it felt like there was no point in asking why i exist cause i would just be asking my self and even GOD don't know why it exists, it was pure nothing but it was conciousness and imagination. Really twisted but really cool aswell, i understod that this reality is to experience being "alive" but death and life and all other things is totally imaginary. I could find out about things and a knowing took place on why this universe is " existing " but GOD can't answer why it exists cause it is existence itself, total mindfuck.

@Member yeah i had a breakthrough and became concious of GOD and that i was IT, infinite possibilites, but don't know how to develop these powers to transcend but i know that it is possible somehow cause reality is boundless

@Member do you have any idea how we can develop these abilities? Trying atm with lucid dreaming and so forth

Yeah i like him to?

@electroBeam alright gonna check into that, but i srsly doubt that it can produce the same state at psychedelics, tho im not saying that meditation does not produce a different state of conciousness, but in my experience psychedelics beats meditation for producing GOD conciousness, the absolute source of existence. Im combining them both and I do enjoy meditation everyday and am serious about it, psychedelics tho is a destroyer of ur life when you really see the true self..

You will never reach that kind of experience without psychedelics it is fucking insane

@Member sort of how it felt yesterday, i had the option to leave all of this behind and become 100% GOD but it was to scary ?

@seeking_brilliance thank you! Will start practicing this on a daily basis and see how the results get ? how is ur progress?

@seeking_brilliance Sometimes iam seeing pictures but not always tho, sometimes the images are really vivid. But can probably develop more skills on it

@Bulgarianspirit haha i have read that trip report and let me tell you that was almost identical to my trip, same feeling same message and so forth

@Bulgarianspirit haha yeah im gonna get immersed in this world and get back to sleep again somehow atleast until i am ready to face the godhead again?

@seeking_brilliance yeah on some level but not much at all but im def interested in this now after my awakening, do you have any advice on how to begin?

Then what should i do Leo? Keep tripping and exploring consciousness? Yeah ego was terrified.. i sensed that i can create everything that i want but it felt like i broke the game when i understod that its all me

@Bulgarianspirit it is so utterly absurd that this is actually true i can't fucking believe it! It is so weird but at the same time creation is really beautiful and we will always keep on creating and getting lost into it forever cause time and all stuff do not exist. Thanks for your sharing on everything. It is absurd. Cant even begin to understand it

@Bulgarianspirit thanks brother. Well at the absolute level there is only me but somehow i create conciousness in others as well but if i get conscious enough all will dissapear, mahasamadhi was so close yesterday that i almost got sucked into a black hole and then i would have peeled off every memory and all of this world would dissapear but i got my self to cool down and im still here and im going to enjoy this life as much as i can, it is an endless loop wich will go on forever but after a while you forget that u are GOD. Btw all humans the universe and soliditity is utterly and completely imaginary ? i dont fucking understand how this is even possible.

Existential terror, did a 200 mcg LSD trip yesterday, and I was so close to losing this whole reality , i came to realized that my whole life had been something ive been imagining, even the most important people in my life is completely imaginary and my creation. Im all alone for infinity. Got no reason at all to exist but somehow it still does. Imagine you had a girlfriend for 12 months now who lives with you, who is Kinda interested in spitituality. But when you started tripping she is GOD awaiting for you to wake up, it was like a switch went off, and she told me it always been like this forever and this is creation, Leo and all of you and this forum is something i created to distract me from my true nature, and after a while i realized that she was my imagination aswell...